November 2019

Seonghwa made sure to look extra cute today wearing a light pink sweater, white leggings, and a pink and white rose flower crown. He even went as far as putting some light makeup on especially light pink eyeshadow and some pink gloss.

His mom was doing well this morning, the new nurse had fed her and gave her morning medication. She even went as far as telling Seonghwa she loved him and she hoped he had a good day at school. He really hopes so too, today he wanted to see Mingi and to maybe ask him over for dinner or to go out for dinner one day with him. He happily drove to school, his music playing a little bit of soft pop to brighten his mood more.

When he parks his car and gets out, he sees Wooyoung and San parked near one another, they were leaning against Wooyoung's car. Seonghwa smiles softly when he sees them looking at each other with so much infatuation, the sight made him happy for his friend. San pressed a gentle kiss to Wooyoung's temple as Seonghwa walked over to them.

"Hey Hwa!" Wooyoung smiles, his face absolutely glowing as San wraps his tattooed arms around his waist protectively and pulled the younger closer.

"Hi Youngie," Seonghwa beams, and Wooyoung smiles back.

"Well what's got you in a good mood hyung?" Wooyoung asks, San couldn't help but smile a dimply smile down at Wooyoung.

"It's just a good day today," Seonghwa smiles, "I need to get to biology, I'll see you guys later!"

"Bye hyung!" Wooyoung waves to him as he walks quickly to Biology.

He grabs his books, readying them to set on his desk as soon as he goes in so he can say hi to Mingi. But as soon as he walks in, he sees Mingi sitting across the room, opposite of his original seat.

Talking to a cheerleader.

Seonghwa felt his heart shatter as he looks at them, until he suddenly catches the disgusted eye of the cheerleader and he looks away. He swallows the lump in his throat as he sits down, peeking at the corner of his eye back at Mingi and seeing the other looking at him. But his face remained unbothered.

Seonghwa grabs his notebook and for the first time in forever, he tunes out he professor and doodles and writes in his notebook.

{}{}{}{}******{}{}{}{}

Mingi felt sick to his stomach not paying any attention to Seonghwa and distancing himself, but he is doing it for Seonghwa's safety. The blonde looked really hurt when he seen Mingi wasn't sitting in his usual spot, and it took everything in Mingi not to go back over there and sit and chat with him.

But no, he focused on the cheerleader as she pushed her breasts out of her shirt to try and attract Mingi. But really, she was turning him off. It killed him to pretend to flirt with her.

All through biology Mingi had to keep his gaze away from Seonghwa, and even Jongho who was left alone with a creepy girl who sat at the back of the class and obsessed over the weirdest and darkest shit. He really tried to avoid the glares and pained looks. But once the class was over and he was out the door, Jongho grabs him and pins him to the wall, "Thanks for leaving me alone fucker."

"You weren't alone-"

"With Gwen yes I was!" Jongho hisses, looking around to see the strange girl waving to him, her heavily lined lids and black tutu skirt flutter away as she heads to her next class.

Mingi rolls his eyes, "Sorry, you're going to have to deal with it."

"Deal with it? Why!?" Jongho hisses, "Why are you moving away from your seat?"

Mingi catches a flash of pink and locks eyes with it, seeing Seonghwa walk past them quickly with his head down and his face showing nothing but hurt. Mingi flinches, looking away quickly before it becomes noticed. But Jongho already caught it.

"What happened with him?" Jongho asks, his voice quiet and stern. Mingi knew there was no getting around it.

"I don't want him getting hurt..." Mingi admitted, looking down at the ground and worrying his lip ring with his teeth.

"What's this-" Jongho's realization hits him and he sighs, "Really Mingi. You're worried about your dad finding out?"

"I don't want my dad to hurt him-"

"Maybe get away from your dad and you won't have to worry about him hurting you or anyone else you're getting in a relationship with," Jongho snaps, running his hands through his black hair, "For fuck sakes kid, why do you put up with that shit!? It's what's making you miserable!"

"I'm trying to leave, believe me," Mingi mumbles, "I just don't have anywhere to go."

"You've got me and San. If you live with either of us you won't have to worry about Seonghwa getting hurt. All you're doing now for him is hurting him by avoiding him like a fucking baby." Mingi winces at his comment, keeping his eyes on the ground and Jongho rolls his eyes as he backs away, "Whatever man, do what you want. Just don't come bitching to me when you are literally stuck and don't know what to do. You're a real fucking coward for hiding from Seonghwa because you think you're protecting him. You're not. Man up."

He turns and leaves, making Mingi slide to the ground and out his head in between his knees and sigh. He knew he was doing this for Seonghwa's own good. But his heart is still telling him to say fuck it and go with his feelings.

What should I do?...

{}{}{}{}******{}{}{}{}

Here's a short short update for you all since it's been a while since I've updated!! If you haven't seen it yet, I have two new books out called Rekindled From the Ashes and Inhuman. Check those out when you can ❤️