I barely make it to the guest room. As soon as i close the door behind me and lock it, i sink against the door, hugging my knees and burying my head in between them..

I breath in deeply, making sure I don't let the tears threatening to leave my eyes fall.

"You're so dumb Taemin." i say to myself chuckling bitterly.

What did i think would happen even if me and Minho even got anywhere? That we would be happily together, and that he wouldn't learn i was married?

Knock. Knock.

I sigh and wipe away the tears that had stained my cheeks.

"What?" i ask not caring who it was.

"I-It's me Taemin...Mom is asking for you..." Mikase's voice comes softly making me feel a little guilty.

"Okay, I'll be there." i sigh.

I stay for a while. Trying to control my emotions.

I can do this.

I head downstairs and find my mom taking out things out of plastic bags.

"You needed me?" i try to smile.

"Yes, oh baby. Your friend came. Minho? He brought this," she looks through a bag and taking out some cans. "he just left saying he hopes i liked it? Handsome fella" she chuckles.

"Oh?" i nod looking at the bags and seeing some cans of healthy soups.

"Mhm. He left suddenly. Did you even get to see him?" she asks seeming worried.

"No, I'll just see him at school tomorrow."

"Ahh, good you're going back." i nod and smile. She smiles, seeming sad and ruffles my hair.

"Okay, now go wash up we'll try the soups he brought, you look like a zombie."

"Okay."

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We eat listening to my mother going on and on about everything related to the baby. What we should name the baby, which clothes and where we should buy, which room we could give the baby...Basically everything i didn't want to hear but have been hearing for the past two weeks.

"I'm going to go sleep early tonight..I'm going back to school tomorrow so.."

My mother nods, and smiles. I smile softly and go to kiss her cheek then Makise's.

"Goodnight guys." I smile and make my way to the guest room.

I fall on the bed head first.

Next thing i know the pillow beneath me feels wet. I sob softly and turn my head to breath a little. I get my phone out my phone and go to my contacts looking for his name. I found it and pressed the call button before putting the phone to my ear. The phone rings and rings and rings till i am lead to voicemail. I sigh and hang up. I go into the text messages.

>Minho, i'm sorry.

> I swear i didn't want to hurt you or anyone else but..

>I'm sorry.

I sent the text messages and put my phone to the side. He was probably never going to answer. This was over and done with. I'll just have to deal with it.

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"Well look who is finally back." Jonghyun chants grinning.

I smile softly and walk towards my two best friends, nostalgia overwhelming me.

"I missed you my baby." Key smiles and hugs me. Though i had seen him during my leave, I still missed him too.

"I missed you guys too." I smile.

"Ready to go to class?"

"Yeah." I lie, i wasn't ready for anything.

Japanese class came and God it took everything in me to enter that class without fainting in front of the door. I walked in taking a deep breath, i took awhile before lifting my eyes from the ground. And instead of seeing the person i've missed but feared seeing all this time, the nerdy guy was sitting there. And next to him not Minho but some guy with small eyes and a bald head. I frown and feel a little panic. I start walking while looking around the classroom semi-full of students.

"Ah, Mr.LeeTaemin is back. Glad to have you back." My Japanese teacher's voice comes out high pitched scaring me a little.

"Ah yes, Mrs.Ueta." i bow slightly.

"Mr.Kim Kibum told me your mother was sick, is she feeling better?"

"Ye-"

I freeze feeling someone brush past me. His smell overwhelms me instantly, making my head snap towards him. He just kept walking into the classroom and found a seat on the right side of the classroom, totally opposite from what use to be our seats. Minho didn't even spare me a glance, he took out his things and stared straight ahead till some girl sits next to him and starts a conversation with him.

"Mr.Lee"

"Huh? Oh, yes. Sorry Mrs.Ueta she is fine, thank you."

"Alright then, i'm glad to hear. You may go take a sit." she smiles and goes to her desk after patting my shoulder.

I nod and walk head down to one of the furthest seats in the back. I plomp down on my chair and start getting my things out of my bag. Once i take the things i needed out my eyes trail back to Minho. Whatever the girl was saying was making him smile, and that was enough to tear my heart in pieces.

At the end of the period, after an hour of staring at Minho writing down notes, I gather up my things and decide that i needed to talk to him. The thought made me nervous enough to puke but i just couldn't do this. The girl and Minho walk out of the classroom together, i bite my lip and catch up to them outside of the classroom.

"M-Minho." i mumble, apparently loud enough for him to hear since he turns around.

He doesn't say anything but looks at me with a mixed expression i couldn't even read. The girl, who was annoyingly pretty, looks at me and then at him.

"Um.."

"Minho, can we talk?"

"I can't i have class next." He answers blandly.

"Minho, please. I'll be quick." my voice shakes a little as I grab his arm softly. He looks down at my hand and sighs.

"Krystal, you can start heading there, i'll catch up to you." he smiles at her softly.

"Okay." the girl smiles , and gives me a glance before walking away. I stare at her a little till Minho calls me, making my heart leap.

"So, what do you need Taemin?"

"I-Is that your girlfriend?" i question looking at him.

"She's...Is this what you wanted to talk to me about?" he frowns.

"No, no...I..Minh-"

"I read your texts."

"So?"

"Look Taemin, there's really nothing to talk about, I don't even...I have to go right now, just...I don't know if I can talk to you right now without hurting both you and me. I'm..I gotta go.." he sighs and backs away before turning around and jogging away catching up to the girl who seemed to be named Krystal. Meanwhile i stood there. The bottom of my lip was shaking, i felt like everything was ready to fall.

I guess this was how it was going to be....

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Minho P.O.V:

"You know our math class was canceled today right?" Krystal questions looking up at me.

"I know.."

"Mmm..So why did you lie to him about having class next?"

"Just..because Krystal."

"Honestly, you are so obvious Mr.Choi Minho."

"What?"

She sighs and stops, looking at me arms crossed on her chest.

"I don't exactly know what happened but i use to see you guys all cuddled up in Japanese class. Even caught one of your makeout sessions at the back of the library once."

I blush as she shakes her head.

"I.."

"Honestly i'm not saying you should completely forgive him for whatever he did but..He looks really heartbroken Minho, and so do you."

Did he? Do I?

"You know Krystal, you talk a lot about relationships for a single girl."

"I'm single because i want to be okay? Have you seen the people running after me?" she sasses.

"Yeah, saving yourself for my llama amber?"

"N-No such thing." she studders. "I rather a rich young man with prospective." she grins.

"Like me?"

"Ew, no. I like the ripe man. Like Kimbum."

"Tch, of course. Though i've seen you drool over Amber in dance class. You should really try talking to her, hey, she might like you."

"H-Hey, don't try to switch the subject up on me okay? All i know is that i know you need to focus on being true to yourself because you have been looking terrible lately."

"Thanks Krystal."

"Minho I'm serious."

"I know Krystal..."

"No b- Oh..okay. Well, good to know you know."

Krystal clears her throat and starts walking again. I chuckle and catch up to her as we walk towards the university's main park. I think about everything. I think of ways we could fix this somehow, but everything just didn't seem to work out.

It seemed a little...

Hopeless.

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Author Note: So like...Krystal kinda popped out of no-where but she's been in that class for a while just isn't close to them all like that lol

Minho: You are trying really hard author-nim

Taemin: Honestly

Author: I'm sorry.