her

two months was
too soon for me to
utter those words,i think

i
   try
not
     to
 t h i n k
about
      him,

but my
heart is sadly
permanently
aching in my chest,
and i want it to shut up

because of its whining,
i can't
s l e e p

-

him

i stare at her window,
waiting for the lights to come on
but they never do

i want to apologize,
but why would i

if i don't know
whether i l o v e
her or not, will she?

but all i know,
is that i heard her
sobbing in the middle of
the night yesterday

and i realized,
i'd rather be
d e a f
than hear her
heart-wrenching sobs
through the n i g h t