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It's been a almost a month.

A very long, hard, and unbelievable month.

Talon barely leaves his room. We can barely get him to eat. He's spiraling down a long dark hole and I don't know what tho do to save him.

I needed a break from the turmoil. From the sad desperate look in his eyes. That's why I'm here at the rivers edge. It's peaceful with the water gently flowing, birds are chirping, and the wind is blowing a sweet melody. It's my escape.

We've both been through so much tragedy though mine isn't as traumatic as his. Only because my memories of that horrendous day has been blocked from my mind. I can only thank the stars for that. But Talon has to live with assault every second of the day. I just don't know how to help him. How to reach him.

I know it will it take time. Time I can give him. Seeing him this way day in and out, it's breaking my very soul. I just want to take it all away.

"You should come back in, looks like it could rain." Glancing back I see Trigon, he's been by Talons side the most. Guess it's the twin bond thing. Talon refuses to talk about his assault even to him. If only I could reach him. If only anyone could. Trigon steps beside me, placing his hand on my back. I didn't even notice the sky darkening. I was so lost in my thoughts.

"He asked for you." My surprised eyes darts to him. He grants me with a rare smile. There's been to few many of them lately. A flicker of happiness seeps inside me, at Talons request. Maybe, just maybe, he will open up this time. One can only hope.

Hugging Trigon before I walk off. He gifts me with a chuckle. My excitement is bubbling through me. I take off in a run.

Entering Talons room, I see him on his bed. He looks so much thinner, curled up on his side. The room is dark the only light comes from bathroom seeping in through the cracks. Walking to his side he doesn't even acknowledge my presence. My heart breaks for him.

"You wanted to see me?" His sorrowful eyes scan me, damn he looks so broken. I sit beside him on his bed, my hand braced by his side.

"Talk to me Talon, I can't help you if you don't," he rolls on to his back, staring at the ceiling "I miss you." I try to reach for him but stop myself before I make contact. Every-time someone tries touch him. He rears back or flinches. I don't want to upset him.

Inhale.

Exhale.

Is the only answer I receive.

"It's ok, when you're ready to talk, I'm here." Turning my back toward him, I suddenly feel his touch on my hand. Gasping I glance down at my hand. His hand lies upon mine, it's light to the touch. It's the first sign of communication we have seen in almost a month. Darting my eyes to him, he looks at me with such longing. I could actually faint from happiness.

"Stay." The one word, melts my heart. How could I deny such a request. Sliding up to him I wrap him in arms across his chest. His head lies on the crook of my shoulder, I start rocking him back and forth. Like a baby cradled in my arms, he begins to cry.

Heart wrenching sobs pour out of him, it's pure devastation. My tears start coming along with his. Joined pain in misery.

Rousing from sleep, I look around, Talons head is on my lap, we both must have fallen into a crying slumber. They're are tear stains on his face, making me ache for him. Talon begins to whimper in his sleep, his eyes roaming behind his eyelids.
I softly start humming to him while rubbing my hand along his head.

Leaning my head back on the headboard, still humming, I close my eyes. This nightmare will never be over, for him or for any of us. There's movement on my leg, I glance down to see Talon staring at me. I stop humming when I see the questions in his eyes.

"Tell me what happened...after." A bit surprised my his request, I sigh then tilt my head.

"Where do you want to start?" Knowing he needs this, I can not deny him. Sweeping aside my anxiety, I resolve myself to help him as much as I can.

"When I was lifted off the cell floor, start from there." The determination in his voice, scares me somewhat. Should I tell him everything? There's some parts I really don't want reveal.

"Baron picked you up off the floor." Deciding to take it slow, I'll answer what he ask of me. This was his nightmare, he has a right to know.

"How did you get in the cell?" I half smile at this question. When the pain hit me in my chest, the pain was so surreal, I nearly fainted. But for some reason I held on, I knew Talon was in danger. Yelling for my mates we all took off in a run. Entering the dungeon the scene we came upon was terrifying and beyond heartbreaking. Talon lying on the floor, crying completely naked. Marcus was in the corner off the cell, holding up hands and smirking. We couldn't get the cell door open. The anger in me ignited. I blew the door off it's hinges with a ball of fire.

"I blew it open." The astonishing look on his face actually makes me smile. I didn't know I had in me either.

"Wow, okay, who covered me?" Shrugging my shoulder, I didn't actually get to see it. But later all my mates told me their side of the stories.

"Brack." Talon nods his head, accepting my explanation.

"What about the guard?" The deceiver in other words.

"Lucias killed him, we found out he was actually Marcus's cousin." I was proud of Lucias for doing it. The bastard had it coming.

I know what the next question is going to be, it's actually one I've been dreading. I'm scared Talon will hate the person responsible for killing Marcus. He did once love him. I'm terrified he will hold a grudge.

"Who killed him?" Anxiety creeps inside of me. I start to fidget on the bed. "Marcus? Who killed him?"sighing I just blurt it out.

"Me." My eyes lock onto his, neither of us moving. The only sound I can hear is our mixed breathing.

Inhale.

Exhale.

He never moves nor does he speak. He just stares directly at me, his eyes piercing mine. Knowing he's going to despise me. I slide to the edge of the bed. My feet dangle off the side, my hands are starting to shake. I feel dread deep inside me.

Inhale.

Exhale.

I stand from his bed, I don't dare to turn in his direction. I'm frightened of the judgement I might see so I turn to make my exit. Knowing he doesn't want to be around me. Hell, I can't really blame him. If someone killed the man I loved I would hate them just as much, if not more.

"Stay." He reaches his hand out to me, grasping it gently. I still can't look him in his eyes. I'm ashamed of what I've done.

"I'm sorry." My voice breaks along with my heart, I know I don't deserve his forgiveness.

"Thank you." Snapping my head to him, his thanks nearly floors me.

"Why? I killed him Talon! For what he did to you. To us! Why would you thank me?" Recalling how I sat the bastard Marcus on fire, sends a chill throughout my body. I took a man's life so easily. I'm nothing but a monster. Can't he not see that?

"Don't thank me Talon, I'm a monster. I took his life without a care. What kind of person does that? I was so filled with rage! I don't deserve your gratitude, I deserve to be in a cell!" I didn't realize I was crying till I felt a tear fall from my face. I feel disgraceful and disgusting. "Or dead myself!"

"He wasn't a good man, Miracle! Look at all he's done! You're not a damn monster, you saved me!" Unbearably dissatisfied with his explanation. I shake my head vigorously.

"I didn't save you! I didn't get there in time! I killed him for hurting you Talon! I killed him out of anger. That makes me a monster, I killed without hesitation." Talon gets off the bed, he embraces me tightly. Laying his head on top of mine, he whispers lowly to me.

"I don't think you're a monster, Miracle. I killed Farrow for hurting you. Do you think Im a monster?" Fuck! He damn well knows that I don't. Shaking my head on his chest I whimper out a no.

"Never!" He pulls back from the embrace placing his hands on my face. His touch makes me tingle.

"Then why would you think that you are one when you did the exact same thing that I did?" Searching his eyes I see that he truly means what he's saying. Maybe there's hope for us both. Deep down I want to believe it.

"What happened to Draco?" He ask taking me by surprise.

"Brack is taking care of him." Talon looks shocked at this, he scrunches his eyebrows in confusion.

"I thought the counsel wanted him?" Understanding now I explain to him.

"After what Marcus...did. They thought it best that we handle this. They simply want no part of it." Which is a big understatement. They actually fought with the Kings, wanting Draco for themselves. But Baron wouldn't have it, claiming they had no say in what happens in his kingdom. They argued for a couple of weeks but eventually bowed downed and surrendered. Thankfully Brack is handling Draco as we speak.

"I hope he kills him!" Dropping his hands away from my face, he climbs back in his bed.

"He watched the entire thing and even laughed!" What the hell!? What kind of evil is this man?

"You want to kill him for yourself?" I definitely do! Talon just shakes his head, his solemn look says it all.

"Let Brack do it. I'm done with all this hate and vengeance. It only caused us more pain in the long run." Sitting beside him, I reach out for his hand. But draw it back yet again, to afraid to touch him. He sees this and glances at me and then he actually smiles! My heart peeked up in an instant. I've been longing to see this for awhile. He reaches out for my hand and intertwines his fingers in mine. Joy leaps inside me. I truly can't believe it! Just the simple action, sends sparks all through me.

My eyes lock on his, barely able to contain myself from what I see. There's longing in his eyes, he's finally reaching out to me. I honestly can't help but smile at him. Tears are falling heavy now down my face, maybe he can forgive me? Or at least it's the first step to help him heal. Help us both heal. Either way I'm more than ecstatic. Hope indeed rekindles. My hands start to shake, I'm so overjoyed, I can hardly breath.

Inhale.

Exhale.

This our road to recovery!

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