WhatsApp Group Chat 'The Golden Girls' with Ems, Brie and Jen

Naomi
girls, i think i've messed everything up. . .

Jen
woah okay, nay
it's alright
just take your time and tell us what happened

Ems
we're here for you, babe
take it slow and tell us what's wrong

Brie
just breathe and tell us what happened
we're not leaving you

Naomi
i got drunk two nights ago and when chris texted me, i drunkenly replied him, saying that he should stop texting me before i fall for him and that he makes it so hard for me to not like him.
and then the bartender grabbed my phone and texted him the place i was at after i refused to pick up his calls. chris came and drove me home but my keys were in my pocket and he didn't want to reach for them because he thought it would be inappropriate so he drove us back to his. he said i passed out in his car and he let me sleep in his room while he slept outside. then the next thing i knew i was sitting upright in his bed, completely drenched in cold sweat with tears in my eyes because i dreamt about her.

Ems
your mother?

Naomi
yeah, and it wasn't a dream. it was a memory. i relived that memory, the day she left me and my dad, when she didn't look back or spare me a glance before she took off.
it woke chris up and he was by my side in no time but then, right in that very moment, i told him that he can't love me.

Jen
oh god, nay...

Brie
oh god why did you say that, babe?

Naomi
because he can't, brie. he can't love me.
he can't love something that's broken.

Ems
naomi jane lindberg, you listen to me, please. you are NOT broken. you are far from broken.

Jen
nay, please don't say things like this.
you are NOT broken. you are not damaged.
stop saying you don't deserve him.

Naomi
i am.
i am and you know it.
and who the hell would want someone with a shitload of problems with their family?

Brie
stop it, nay. please. stop saying all this.

Naomi
i hurt him. i know i did. i felt him cave when i told him that he can't love me. and it's true.
as much as it pains me to say this, he truly does deserve better. i can't be selfish. . . not with him.
i can't be selfish and expect him to love a broken thing, and why would he even want to love me after seeing me in such a state?

Jen
because chris is the kind of man that accepts the good with the bad. you were never meant to be perfect, naomi. none of us were. none of us ever are. and if you could accept the good with the bad when it came to chris then why can't he?

Naomi
because this is different. i'm protecting him.

Ems
how are you protecting him? and what are you even protecting him from?

Naomi
i'm protecting him from myself! he shouldn't have to deal with my nightmares, my demons, my everything. he doesn't deserve all this. he deserves much better.

Brie
well what if chris wants to deal with those nightmares and fight your battles with you?

Naomi
he can't.

Jen
you're being unreasonable, naomi.

Naomi
i'm not.
it's for the best because when i said i messed things up, i meant that i hurt him.

Jen
yes, you are. you're being completely unreasonable and you know it!
you're not protecting him by doing this, you're only hurting him more.

Brie
yes you are, by not allowing chris to love you!
it's not fair to him and it's not fair to you either.

Jen
you need to stop thinking that you're protecting him or something when you're not. you're hurting him and you're hurting yourself and this needs to stop, nay.

Ems
okay, girls
let's just take this easy. . .

Naomi
you don't get it. i can't be selfish with chris and drag him into my mess of a life.
i was wrong to allow myself to fall for him in the first place.

Brie
you're not dragging him into it.
he wants to be a part of it in spite of of all the bad things.
and that's the kind of man you deserve, nay. please.
and you can't stop yourself from falling for someone.
it just happens on its own. there's no stopping it.

Jen
nay, please. i beg you.
don't do this.
don't do this to yourself.
don't do this to him.
don't do this to your relationship with him.

Brie
don't destroy your happiness all because of this fear that you have. it's not worth it.

Naomi
did you honestly think i wanted this fear?
i never wanted this.

Ems
we know you didn't. heck, no one would ever want this kind of fear but our fears are only fears because we created them. i know your mother played a part in shaping that fear but you need to be the one to let go of that fear. you're the only one who can stop the pain.

Jen
and right now, you're hurting him by not letting him love you when he wants to.

Naomi
i hurt him by giving him hope about a possibility in the blossoming of our relationship. i thought i could handle it. i thought i could quell my own demons if they ever chose to strike me again. and when they did, i froze and i broke and i went out and got myself drunk. if i can't even handle myself, how am i supposed to handle a relationship?
i can't do that to him. i can't do that to someone i love.
it'll end up being destructive and i don't want him to be left all alone to pick up the pieces in the end. that's not me. i can't start something, knowing that halfway i might break it off.
and it's not that easy. it's not that easy to get over something like this. it's not easy to get over my mother walking out on us all because she wanted the "freedom she deserves".

Ems
i know it's not easy. and it's never going to be easy. ever.
but chris is willing to share this with you.
please let him. we've never seen you so happy with a guy, not even xavier. there was always this glint of sadness in your eyes when you were with him. . . but right now, with chris, it's different.
you should really see the way your face lights up whenever you talk about him.

Jen
give the man a chance, nay. he deserves that, at least.
you already love him and i'm sure he loves you more than you know.
you can't stop someone from loving you.
and you can't stop yourself from loving someone either.

Brie
at least let him have a say in this, nay. he deserves that.
you said so yourself that you can't be selfish with him.
not letting him have a say in this would be a selfish thing to do because it would mean that his thoughts on this doesn't matter.

Ems
nay, like we said before
you should really sit down and talk to chris about this
you can't decide on everything on your own. you shouldn't because it takes two hands to clap. it takes two people to make a relationship work. a relationship isn't a one-way traffic, nay.

Jen
just because you couldn't subdue your demons, that doesn't mean you're not worthy of being in a relationship with chris. and that certainly doesn't mean that you're not worthy of being loved in return. these are two different things, nay. you can't use this as a reason.
we're telling you this because we love you. we want to see you happy.

Naomi
i'm not using this as a reason. i'm doing this because i love him.
i don't want him to get hurt because of me. i don't want him to get hurt because i'll choose to shut him out whenever my demons come knocking on my front door. i don't want to hurt him whenever i start to feel like i'm not good enough.

Ems
then maybe you could try letting him in to fight alongside you when your demons come knocking. . .
change is scary, yes. i agree. but sometimes a little change in something can bring about a much better outcome to the situation.

Brie
he's a good man, nay. you know it deep down in your heart that he's not like anyone else you've met. he's not like the idiots you went on a blind date with. he's not going to leave you, nay.
don't let your demons get in the way of something that could turn out to be more beautiful than you know. you are good enough and i'm damn sure chris can see that and feel it in his heart.

Jen
it'll be a selfish thing to not let chris have a say in this because a relationship doesn't just involve one person. like ems said, it takes two hands to clap, nay. we know you love him.
we just want to see you happy. we're your friends and that's all we'll ever want for you.

Ems
we know he makes you happy. we know you make him happy as well.
and we know that he brings out the best in you.
please, don't shut him out because of this one incident.

Brie
and we're sure that he'll embrace both the good and bad because he's that kind of guy.

Ems
he's not going to run for the hills just because he saw you at your worst, nay.

Brie
please. talk to him.

Jen
do it for yourself and do it for him.
and think about it this way; all this has to mean something because till today, ben doesn't even know about the thing with your mother. he's never seen it with his own eyes and you've known him for five years. you've known chris for four months and this happened while he was around. it could be a sign, nay. trust your gut.
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a/n; "it could be a sign" hmm 👀 hope you're all liking this so far 'cause there's still a lot more chapters to go!