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WhatsApp Group Chat 'The Golden Girls' with Brie, Ems and Jen

Naomi
girls
i have something to tell you and it's kind of been eating away at me this past week

Brie
what's going on? is everything okay?

Ems
what's wrong, nay?

Naomi
the other day when chris and i were on set, we sort of nearly kissed.

Jen
WAIT WHAT

Brie
WOAH
WHEN
HOW
WHERE

Ems
NAOMI
OMG YES
!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Naomi
girls

Jen
fuck we need to celebrate
oh man nay's finally got herself a good man
and it's christopher evans
i'm telling you
even my mother will approve when she finds out about this

Brie
wait hang on
she said they nearly kissed
they haven't kissed yet

Jen
oh
well
this still calls for a celebration coz these two cuties are finally gonna admit that they're smitten with one another

Ems
omg this is the best piece of news ever holy shit

Naomi
yeah, we nearly kissed and this was like a week after ben's departure to the uk.

Brie
oh...

Jen
okay, cancel the celebration
shit this is serious

Ems
shhh let nay type out her message

Naomi
i don't know. i just feel like i can't even get a hold of what i'm truly feeling. it's like i can't really describe just what i'm feeling. i like chris, i really do but at the same time, i still feel bad about what's happened between me and ben.
sure, we didn't have a falling out or anything but it still feels like one because we haven't been in contact since he sent me those messages. and god, i just feel like i'm messing things up with chris as well and i don't want that.

Jen
nay, take a deep breath. please.

Ems
you're not messing anything up. you're just a bit confused at the moment and that's understandable.

Brie
we're all here for you, nay. just take your time and tell us what you're really feeling.

Naomi
i like chris, more than i'd ever admit but i sort of feel guilty towards ben, and i just don't know why. . .
he's been there for me for these past five years and i've only known chris for four months but he's always the one i want to run to whenever i've got good news. we always stay up till late at night, just talking about anything really. he'll tell me all about boston and i'll always tell him about gothenburg but i haven't really told him anything about my family.

Ems
oh, nay. . .

Brie
you don't have to force yourself to tell chris about your family. it's fine if you don't.

Naomi
but he's told me loads about his and i've met them already, remember? the black-tie event back in massachusetts?

Jen
nay, you're not obligated to tell chris or anybody anything if you don't want to. chris doesn't look like an irrational and inconsiderate guy, and i'm sure you know that.

Ems
jen's right, nay. if you feel like telling him about your family, then go ahead but don't do it because you feel like you have to tell him since he's already told you about his family.

Naomi
that's the thing. . .
i want to tell him but i just, i don't know how. i don't know how to tell him that this thing with my family is what's keeping me from letting myself fall for him.
i'm literally spending almost every minute of the day with him now. and he's so great with mckenna grace, who plays mary. he's so great with octavia; she practically loves the man to death. he's so nice to literally everyone but is always so hard on himself.
and lately, we've just gotten to know each other even better and he trusts me so much with his past and his secrets.
i just want him to know that i trust him, too, more than he knows but something's holding me back because i'm not allowing myself to fall for him. and he doesn't deserve that. he simply doesn't deserve this from me and certainly not from anyone. he deserves someone who will love him through and through, someone who will love him fiercely with zero fears.
and i want to be that person but i can't.
i don't deserve him at all but i want to deserve him.

Ems
don't say that, naomi. please. you didn't choose to have this fear. you never did. so, please don't say that you don't deserve chris because you do. you deserve him as much as he deserves you. and i'm sure if you tell chris about what's actually holding you back, he'll understand and he'll still love you for it.

Brie
ems is right, nay. i know that fear is stopping you now from letting yourself fall for chris but if you continue to let it consume you, it's not going to do you any good. you're only gonna hurt yourself more, and chris is also gonna end up being hurt.
and i know that that's the last thing you want right now. i know you want to love chris with every fiber in your being and i know you don't want to hurt him. please, tell him about it.

Jen
they're right, nay. talk to him. find a right time to talk to him about this. talk it out with him and see what he says. if he turns out to be a douchebag, then we'll know that at least your fears stopped you... sort of. but knowing chris, he'll definitely understand where you're coming from. he's not like xavier. and he's not an inconsiderate person. in fact, i think he's the most considerate person there is. and he will love you no matter what but you have to allow him to do that. you have to let him in.
you said it yourself, you trust him more than he'll ever know.

Naomi
i know he's nothing like xavier. heck, he's far from him but nobody likes something that's broken. nobody. and even if they do, it's not their job to fix it.
it's not chris' job to fix me. it's my job to fix me.

Ems
but what if chris is willing to fix you and piece that golden heart of yours back together?

Brie
^

Naomi
he shouldn't. he shouldn't want to fix me.
he shouldn't fix me. it's not his job and i can't do that to him.

Jen
give him a chance, nay. i know it hurts and i know you're always reminded of it but if you're going to let your fears hold you back, it's not going to do you any good.

Brie
remember when you cancelled all your plans just so you could be there for him after that thing with mackenzie blew out of proportion? you did that for him.
let him do the same for you. let him be there for you this time.

Ems
don't push him away, nay. we've never seen you go on and on about a guy like this before. and we've certainly never seen you this happy before.
i think it's also pretty clear that he really really likes you. like a lot.

Jen
^

Brie
talk to him, nay. please.
be honest with him.

Ems
don't hold back. tell him how you really feel about it and him.

Jen
we love you so much, nay.
we really want to see you happy.
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a/n; man, i really want them together 💔