"I miss my mom, you know Mani? I really am alone, like alone alone. " I cry and she wipes away my tears after breaking the hug.

It's been an hour since Madison has left the resort, Mani and I are both sitting on the bed. I rest my head on her lap and she runs her finger through my hair.

"Who's Harry?" She asks all of a sudden and I look at her nervously.

I sit up on the bed crossing my legs and look down, confused of pulling the next words out of my lips.

"Snow, look at me." She tells and I look at her. "You're still young and to say the truth, a girl feels the necessity of help from the same gender at this age. Some share it with best friends and some share it with their mother or anyone who would listen to them without judging. You can trust me, I can keep a secret." She squeezes my hand lightly and I blink away my tears looking at her.

"I trust you Mani." I tell gazing into her eyes and she smiles. "Well, Harry, I really don't know how to describe him. I was so scared when I found myself in the car of that boy with long curls and tattoos. He was making fun of me, my decision. So I forced myself to get apart from him. Little did I know he's going to the savior of my life again and again." I stop and half smile.

"I've spent only two days with him. But you know Mani, that was the best two days of my life till now because I've learned many new things from him, I felt alive just like you said earlier." A smile tugs in my lips remembering the memories with Harry.

My smile enlarges when Harry's dimples flashes in front of me. The way he grins stupidly, the way he..........

I hope it doesn't take you much time to forget everything I've done with you. Even the things I've done to pleasure you the way I pleasure other girls.

I stop and my smile fades when I remember his last words to me. Whatever he has done for me, I can't deny that he has played with my feelings and that single pain is harder than those many pleasures I've gotten from him.

"Okay Snow. We can talk about this later huh? Now have a sound sleep, we'll go home tomorrow." She smiles.

"I don't even know where to stay, I don't have any place." My voice cracks.

"Who said you don't have any place to stay? Maybe I'll never be equal to your mother but I can at least try to. Wish I knew about the girl, Rebecca." She sighs.

"Regina" I correct her. "You didn't know?"

"I wouldn't let this day come true only if I knew a little." She smiles tiredly.

After advising me something about life and consoling me in the best way possible, I finally agree to stay in Mani's house until I find a way to recover myself.

"What if Madison doesn't want me to stay....."

"He still lives in my house and I have full power on who can live here and who can't! I should've ground him underground for this."

"I'm sorry for all this. I don't want to see his face again." I look down.

"Don't be, try to get some sleep love, you need one, so bad." She walks away kissing my forehead and I stare at the cloudy sky, struggling to sleep.

After a lot of struggle, I finally sit up on my bed and wipe my sweaty face with a wet tissue. I look at my mobile and see it's already 4 am. I walk to the washroom and pour some cold water against my face before looking at my own reflection on the mirror. How miserable I look!

Frowning looking at my reflection, I walk out of the room and walk towards the beach. I keep my flippers on a side and start to walk on the beach barefoot, letting the dry sand tickle my cold feet. I sit on the sand taking my knees close to my chest and look at the dark blue sea.

"I miss you mum." I whisper looking at the sky.

The sky is darker tonight and the glowing stars have ornamented it so gorgeously. When I was a toddler, Michael used to tell me that the brightest star is my mum. I close my eyes and the memories from those days start to appear in front of me.

"Can mum see us Mike?" I ask looking at the shiniest star on the sky, laying down on the grass beside Michael.

"Yes, she can always see us." Michael replies caressing my hand.

"Michael? When I'll grow up my hands will get bigger right? Then I will be able to reach my hand to mum right, right Michael?" I look at Michael with bright eyes and he laughs.

"What if we take a rocket from dad and fly to mum? Because dad has a bucket full of money! Bigger than my bunny bucket! That'd be the best idea, right Mike?" I sit up beside him in excitement and he sits up too.

"Little Snow!" He pinches my nose softly, "You talk too much do you know that?" He pulls me to him and makes me sit on his lap.

"You don't need anything to reach mum Snow. Whenever you want to meet her, just close your eyes and she'll appear in front of you." He tells and I close my eyes resting my head on his chest.

"Mum is not coming Mike! Is she angry with me because I am sleeping late today?" I ask looking at Michael nervously.

"Mum will never be angry with you. Because you're our pretty little angel." Michael kisses my cheek and I giggle.

I wrinkle my closed eyes when I realize the sun is going to rise now. I sit up and look at the rising sun. It takes time for the beautiful sun to get raised but when it rises, it enlightens the whole world without wasting a single second. Time, that's what everyone needs to be shone again.

"I will try my best to keep myself strong mum. Because I'm your pretty little angel." I say to myself looking at the constant star at the sky.

I walk towards the resort and enter into the room. I take a long shower to regain my lost stamina after not sleeping the whole night.

I laugh looking at my dresses when I'm reminded about Madison's narrow minded comments about my dress. I take out a blue off shoulder crop top and my new white ripped jeans. I blow dry my hair and curl it up a little.

"Come in." I tell hearing the knock on the door while sliding in my white toms.

"Morning pretty." Mani tells coming near me and I smile looking at her.

"I love your hat." I chuckle looking at her brown hat and she blushes.

"Let's go to the street market today before we leave." Mani tells wearing her sunglasses.

"Not a bad idea, I haven't been in a street market before. I heard it's quite popular here." I line up my eyes with blue eyeliner. One way or another, I have to move on in life, for myself.

Erm....Mani....Is erm...has Madison returned......."

"No, He hasn't but don't worry about him. You don't even know how ill-mannered he has become nowadays. I don't like the company he keeps with." Mani sighs.

"Let's go, I'm ready." I smile looking at Mani and we both walk out of the room together.

We walk towards the seaside restaurants and grab our chairs in one. As it's our last day here, we decide to take some sea food for the last time. We order fish tacos, tuna in tomato sauce and fresh mixed fruit juice.

"Weirdest breakfast menu I've ever ordered." I laugh after the waitress walks away taking our orders.

"I agree, too fancy." Mani joins me.

"Where does he live? I mean the boy, Harry?" Mani asks after our breakfast is served.

"I don't know, every time I asked him about himself or any details about his family, he would just skip the questions."

"Mysterious." Mani wiggles her eyebrows. "Any clue about his whereabouts?" mani asks finishing taking the last bite of her tuna.

"Not a single one." I sadly smile.

"You like him right?" Mani asks and I look at her with popped up eyes.

"No!" I laugh away her question. "He's....he's just a page of the story of my life."

"But you will not hesitate to read the page again I bet." She smirks and I look down.

"No, neither of us would never like to turn that page on. Nothing matches between us; we're like the two poles of a magnet. We could never start a conversation normally and not end it up without quarrelling." I stop as I realize I'm getting emotional while talking about him.

"You've met him when you're blinded by Madison's love. Maybe that's why he never tried to show his feelings towards you or you didn't try to pull your thoughts out for him. Because he knew you're not going to response or he thought it'd be cruel to do anything to a girl who's already in a relationship." She tells crossing her arms down her chest, relaxing on the chair.

"No Mani. He's just a playboy and he'll never have such intentions." I laugh sarcastically looking at Mani.

"Snow," She whispers. "Ask yourself when your mind is not polluted with anything, got it?" She tells before standing up and walking towards the cash counter.

Really? Do I like him?

Yes.

No!

Neither can't I be liked by him, nor do I like him.

"Whenever I look at your green eyes, I can't imagine you as a merciless boy whose body is full of tattoos. Why you can't hold a good boy's look?"

"And whenever my starving green eyes meet your blue eyes, they want to feed themselves by doing so many things with you, for you."

No, Mani is wrong, he doesn't like me and he can't like me. I was just a time passing toy to him that night. Our conversation from that night starts to argue inside my head.

How many girls have heard this from your plump lips?"

"None, I just do it, I don't had to or wanted to ask anyone beforehand."

I was the only one who was treated differently by him, why?

Grabbing my purse from the table, I walk towards Mani, frowning to myself.

Mani was right. I should think about these things when my mind is not polluted.

A/N: I died, laughed, cried, screamed, smiled and in a nutshell, I lost myself after watching the just hold on video, specially the marriage part just touched my cells and veins.
What's your favourite part of just hold on music video?

Sorry for such a boring filler part but it was needed.
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