Jasper POV

"You really loved your father, I'm sorry you had to say goodbye to him that way." I say just to feel her pain, it was so strong I had to place my hand over the place my heart once was. My attention staying on her as I listen to her closely.

"I will never see him again Jasper, he won't walk me down the isle, he won't be in my graduation, he won't come to my room after a long day at work just to say he loves me and ask me how my day went no matter how exhausted he was, he won't kiss my forehead, he won't hug me, he won't tell me to be careful and take care every morning when I went to school, he's not here right now telling me that everything will be ok. I will never see him again all because someone decided they couldn't call someone to pick them up because they were so drunk they could barely walk and still decided to get into a car and drive themselves back home. I lost my father over night because someone decided that driving while drunk was ok.. I didn't even get the chance to say goodbye. The last words I said to him were 'I love you too dad.' I just want to go back in time and hug him tightly, I want to tell him not to go to work and to stay with me but I can't." She whispers with tears pouring out of her eyes and her hands around herself. She was in so much pain I forgot, I forgot how I was suppose to stay away, I forgot that I could hurt her if I got to close, I forgot about my hunger, that was how intense her pain was and I couldn't help it.

"It's ok.. you at least told him you love him, you didn't lose him while the two of you were arguing, you didn't say things you didn't mean before he was gone. You just need time, you'll be ok." I whisper to her ear hugging her just tight enough not to hurt her and her head was in my chest as she gripped my shirt sobbing softly to it. I could sense she was holding back, she was hurting so much and for so much time she was bottling it all in. 

"Let it out Eliana." I whisper to her caressing her back and her hair feeling how pain coursed through her body as I do and she pulls me closer sobbing so hard she could barely breath. It's so amazing and confusing how she can go from lustful to crying so hard to my chest that makes me almost smile, I love how random she is, I like how I'm the one here, the only one getting to see her this vulnerable, a sense of pride and excitement to be shifting from the strange 'normal' and 'safe' in my life. Getting away from the known and constant of my life just because she's in it.

"It's ok, cry all you need to. It's ok." I keep saying still hugging her close to me. Her warm body a perfect contrast to my cold one and I felt warmth when she hugged me tightly after some time. We stayed there until I noticed she had fallen asleep in my arms, that's when I realized I could never walk away, not completely, because she was giving me a sense of purpose, she was making me want to keep living no matter what just to protect her.

I kiss her head laying back for her to be more comfortable and watch her sleep. She was absolutely beautiful, her cheeks were red along with her nose, and her cheeks were full of tears which I caressed away softly as she took deep breaths. I sighed softly before slowly placing her on her bed and when I was about to pull away her grip on me tighten which made me look at her as her eyes opened a little.

"Please don't leave me." She says and I could feel her fear as she did, I bend down kissing her head and she hummed.

"I won't leave you." I say getting back in bed with her and she placed her head on the side of my neck and chest and her hands one under my neck and her head resting in my hair as the other rested on my stomach and my hands rested one hugging her from underneath and the other had her hand intertwining our fingers and one of her legs in between mine. She was basically on top of me moving her fingers through my hair until she fell asleep.

My mind wondered back to her words from before, she had a boyfriend. I couldn't help but wonder who he was and if they actually broke up because of how she acted after her father died. I couldn't help the envy all around me knowing that he was with her before I even met her, envy that he probably got to meet her father, envy that he could kiss her lips whenever he wanted without worrying about getting too carried away. I can't help how possessive I feel of her, I can't help the want, the craving, I have for her to be mine and mine alone.

"Jasper.." I hear her mumble causing me to look at her, she's asleep but I know she's scared so I let the hand on her back move into her shirt making her shiver as I let my finger caress her soft skin.

"I'm right here darling." I whisper to her ear feeling how she gets closer to me making me feel her breathing against my neck as I hold myself back from inhaling her intoxicating scent. I feel her emotions calm again and happiness filled her making me smile moving my hand to caress her hair. I know this is real, I know the dangers of me being with her, I know both of our lives may be put in danger, I know that someday maybe I will have to make her like me, and even if that scares me I can't let her go.. not now, not ever.