sometimes i get

so sad i just

stare blankly at the wall

and completely shut down

but when i'm with jean

it seems quite impossible

to be numb

to the pain i am feeling

it seems

like all my emotions

turn on again

as soon as i'm near him

and i don't know

weather that's a good

or a bad thing.

"you looked sad

today." he told me.

"i could say the same for you."

i said. he turned so

his body was

facing mine but

i still stared ahead.

his gaze burned holes in the side

of my face but somehow

i didn't feel uncomfortable.

"somehow

you seem to be the only one

to see that i feel." he said

i just shrugged saying

"i have impressive powers

of observation."

and then he mumbled

"you don't see things

that are right in front of your nose

but you see into my soul."

i didn't reply to that.