YOUR P.O.V.!!! I REPEAT: YOUR P.O.V.!

While Matthias is comforting Jack, F/n vanishes into your arms. She cries, a lot. You hug her tight, as you understand you have to be there for here more than ever. She needs you, she has gone through hell before, and she can't do it again without someone to find her whenever she gets lost.

As the torturing noise of your dying friend stops, you feel how your breath leaves your lungs. You hope so dearly that Roane was able to save your little Markimoo. On the moment the doctor's step away from Mark, you notice one person still making sure that this patient isn't going to die today.

As the ginger checks Marks blood, his breathing, his heart and everything else personally, he stares at you for a second. His hands aren't shaking; his skin hasn't changed to white. He looks just the same as earlier. He has witnessed people die in front of him, and found a way to deal with the lost. Something you envy, because you know you will always feel guilty for the days to come.

Mark continues breathing, like nothing happened. And as his chest moves up and down as it should, you feel relieved. You take the hand of your best friend, telling her without any words that it is going to be fine. That Mark will get better, and that nothing will change once he does.

The devil behind you keeps a list of all your lies, as he writes another one down, he decides to not see it as a lie as even he has hope for the YouTuber to get better and even he doesn't want another human to die. Maybe because he actually cares, or maybe just to please God and save another angle of his. However, you are grateful that he feels this generous today.

Your friend just got saved, he got brought back from the death, and all because of Roane (and of course other doctors). You see how Jack stares at his pale friend, than towards another one of his paper white palls. He is clinging Felix, as he in this way remains standing. His injuries are worse than they seem, but without being healed they could get pretty bad.

Your little lassie tries to draw this shield that will make him seem so strong. What he does not know is that his vulnerability is what makes him special and that the fact he is scared of little things makes him less frightened for the nightmares. He has not even a single clue about how beautiful he is.

You try to walk up to him, but his dull blue eyes ask you to stop. This must be really hard for him, seeing his friend in the hospital, again. Felix stares at you, and you step away as you have been told by your boyfriends own bodyguard. For some reason, Felix seems sober now. As if his dying friend made the alcohol disappear.

As his crystal eyes stare at you, you notice how Jack cringes softly, his side drowning in red. As his leg continues to bleed, he remains silent, thinking it is best that nobody knows that he is hurt. The only person he is trusting right now is Felix, which you find a surprising choice to make.

Your Jack closes his eyes for a second, opening them soon after. Your worried heart takes over and you step towards Jack, hugging him softly. Your boyfriend responds with a limp hand on your back, trying to make clear that he loves you.

You kiss him on his forehead, which is cold and yet sweaty at the same time. His eyes look whiter than normal, but he swallows the pain down as he is set on it to draw no attention to himself.

He looks up at you, giving you an opportunity to stare into his once so lovely eyes. He leans his head towards his love, a movement that takes up all of his energy. He practically falls on you, but you catch him. You will always catch him.

'I love you,' the Irishman says as he has troubles with standing on his own. You hold him tightly against your body, as you hold him up as best as you can. You try to say it back, actually meaning what you say, but Jack seems to lay his whole weight on you, leaving you unable to speak.

You force the words over your lips; you have to say this, more than ever. And as you slowly whisper the truth, he brightens up just a small bit. 'I love you too Sean,' you say. Jack chuckles softly as he wraps his arms around you. He thinks about standing by himself again, but you advise him not to try this. You don't want your Green Tea to get hurt.

'Sorry for my outburst,' you say towards Jack and F/N. You shouldn't have reacted the way you did. You should have just told what you thought instead of yelling it through the room. And you know that it was something stupid to do. Therefore you apologize, hoping they will forgive you.

'No problem, stupid,' F/N smiles as she wipes away her tears. She sniffles shortly as Matthias has her back. It seems that throughout the days, you have become one big group of friends. Even though F/N was away most of the time, it seems she has already befriended Matthias.

'I'm sorry for shouting too,' Jack says and you hug him even tighter. You don't mind him yelling, you are used to your ADD YouTuber that yells all the time, and for that reason you don't even realise when he yells. It has become normal for him to scream, or increase the volume of his voice, even so normal that you can't live without.

You hear the doors of the hospital being pushed open, revealing the beautiful girlfriend of Felix, who freezes on his place. As he stares at his love, which is almost running towards him, he seems searches for a place to take cover, knowing that Marzia could explode any minute.

Instead Marzia hugs him tight as she has finally reached the blond. Her eyes are puffy and red before they vanish against the shoulder of Felix, who softly hugs her back. Her long hair is falling over her back, and she is looking absolutely stunning as always.

'I'm so glad you're okay!' she cries as she hugs her Swede even tighter. Felix lays his head against her shoulder and closes his eyes in this hug. You uncomfortably stare at the two, as you hug your own boyfriend. Once the couple is done hugging, Marzia approaches Jack.

You let go of your lassie, and Marzia takes your place. She hugs the pall green haired YouTuber softly, afraid she will hurt him. She says the same thing to him as he did to Felix. You make your way to F/N, trying to take her hand. You notice her hand already been taken, as she caresses the hand of the man she loves most in this entire world.

Roane wants to walk away as you hug him quickly, not wanting to upset Jack. He cuddles you tight, and you remember how good he is at giving hugs. You stare into his green eyes, which are just as bright as the moment you walked in. His red hair is a bit messy, but you don't care.

'Thank you, for everything,' you say and Roane seems to be startled by your thanks. It seems that not much people say how happy they are with him, or he has way to less friends telling him that. You know he has Rori, and you have already figured out that she finds her brother more important than anyone. Yet is there someone else to tell Roane how special he is?

Me, you think as the surgeon continues staring at you. Once he awakens from his trance, he seems to be in a much happier mood. He thinks about talking to you once he realises how long he has already been here. He quickly runs off as he calls out one last time: 'Drunk drivers, kind of my thing you know?'

He reminds you of his history, and of course his died parents. He never really talks about the past, only if you ask him. You understand why, talking about your dead parents isn't something fun to talk about. As Roane even makes you smile in these dark times, you wave him goodbye.

You turn around, everyone is done hugging. Marzia holds Felix's hand; you didn't expect her to be this calm. Yet on the other hand, she is thankful for the fact that her boyfriend isn't hurt or dying. Though you surely can predict she is going to flip out against Felix sooner or later.

The hopeful friends from everywhere around the world stare at you, hoping you have some kind of Churchill speech in your pocket. You hate trying to give people hope, although you know it is the most important thing in the world. You just always thought you were bad at it, and that thought never changed.

They all want you to give them that flame to keep them warm in the winter nights; they all ask you to make them happy when they should cry. And what you ask of them is to be positive when nobody seems to think this torture is going to end. Yet you are going to teach them to think positive, because it is the only thing left.

'I know this is a hard time for everyone. But we can't fight this alone, for that we're too weak and too much hoping for a miracle. Together, we are able to make a difference. Even if every day seems the same, or everything changes -because it WILL change- we can do this, together. We have to stay strong and keep fighting, because right now that is all we have left.' You say, noticing your friends stare at you, surprised. You have no idea if you did a good job, but you don't care. You said what you wanted to say.

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Long chapter, hope you enjoyed! Your P.O.V. again, because I felt like it! I wish you a beautiful day and Stay BOSS!!! ooh and I love you;)