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GOT U (Produce X 101) - 31 Boys, 5 Concepts
U GOT IT

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Jeongguk sat on the cold tiles of his bathroom, a dark towel wrapped around his shoulders and back, a black plastic bowl with red colored dye inside of it resting beside him.

He felt soft strokes of a hair brush gliding through his freshly bleached locks, combing them down and seperating them down the middle of his skull.

Bleaching hair has actually been a lot different from what Gguk imagined it to be as it has taken much less time than he expected to lift out his original hair color to a light enough blonde where you could easily color the cherry red he picked out the day prior over it.

"Are you ready for the color?" He heard his boyfriend's deep voice echo behind him and felt the brush detach from his scalp, seeing the older's glove covered hands reach forward to put it down and reach for the plastic bowl.

"Yes." Voice coming out laced with confidence, hearding the sound of the brush hitting the sides of the bowl as Taehyung was giving the color a quick stir.

The idea of coloring his hair had come up pretty much a couple days after they were suppose to have their double date, a nice dinner with Yoongi and -- Namjoon.

Gguk doesn't remember a lot of that evening a few days ago, only from what Taehyung managed to tell him really.
His memory pretty much only restarting at waking up the day after, cuddled in a big fluffy blanket, Taehyung hugging him by his middrift and Coconut snoring soundly right beside him.

He only remembers the sharp pain radiating through his head, tears blocking his vision, cursing out his ex and the strong urge to deliver a harsh slap to his stupid face, remembering the faint touch of soft hands lifting him up from the floor and pretty much being swallowed by a black thundery cloud afterwards.

Taehyung told him he had lifted and carried him to a more quieter area of the restaurant being the bathroom, waiters coming in to offer their help as well, bringing water and even wanting to call the ambulance but Gguk apparently repeatedly whispering not to call them.

He told him further that when Jeongguk seemed to be back to his normal consciousness again, being able to walk and also having calmed down greatly, they were escorted out the back entrance, brought to a waiting taxi by an employee and driven to Gguk's apartment.

As far as for Yoongi's part; he was told that the older pretty much instantly dumped Namjoon infront of the audience of restaurant guests that had gathered around, partly blaming himself for what happened, continuously texting Taehyung for updates the next day, worried sick.

Jeongguk wasn't quiet ready to normally face Yoongi again but knowing it wasn't his fault in any way. All he wanted was some time to himself with his boyfriend, that he actually managed to call him as im the past days, proud feeling spread throughout him for such big step in the right direction.

But the incident made him realize that he wanted a change, something that would symbolize as such and also would set him apart from the old Jeongguk, the Jeongguk that got scared, that was discriminated, beaten down, that was dumped and left alone and weak.

Somehow the idea of hair coloring coming up in coversation with Taehyung, making him desire such change on his own scalp.

It would not only give him a great boost of confidence but also make him feel like having a true cut between the past and the now.

He felt like, just like it does for Taehyung, as he told him, that something as simple as dyeing his hair a different color symbolizes a certain change, wanting to close a chapter of his dark abuse laced past and flip through new better more loving pages with Taehyung.

"Alright here we go." The older's voice slightly echoed through the small cramped bathroom, immediately feeling the cold gel get brushed on his scalp first as Taehyung started to paint in the dye, working it in section by section, slowly but surely making the younger turn from a brunette to a blonde right to a cherry red head.

Jeongguk could feel Taehyung attentively massage the dye into his strands, really noticing that he had done this on this own millions of times if he had to estimate.

He started at the roots, gradually cascading the color to his ends, making sure to not miss a single strand of it.

Gguk closed his eyes in the process, the whole thing almost seeming like a massage to him, relaxing and soothing, letting out an occasional hum, almost feeling like he was going to fall asleep.

But sensation soon disappearing as every strand of his hair was now tinted in that cherry tone, Taehyung standing up from sitting on the edge of the bathtub. "We are done, baby. You can stand up and look."

He looked up to see the older one looking back down at him with his usual beautiful chocolate brown glittery eyes, stretching out his hand towards him, intertwining them.

Gguk felt the pull on his hand lifting him up from the ground much easier, other hand gripping onto the dye dotted towel not wanting it to fall off.

Once standing he felt Taehyung's hand not bulging to release staying connected instead and going to sling around his waist as Jeongguk gave his freshly painted hair a good look in the round bathroom mirror.

"Do you like it?" He felt the grip around his waist tighten, Taehyung squeezing their still intertwined hands, eyes staring back at him through the mirrored glas, Gguk's eyes pretty much glued to the vibrant color coating his hair.

It was actually much brighter than he thought, a much more pink toned red than the original color described on the packaging, resulting in a more magenta shade, really complementing his golden-ish coated skin and making his eyes seem darker than before.

But Jeongguk wasn't going to complain, it was actually a much welcomed unexpected little surprise, color resembling a sweet cotton candy that he would imagine to taste like strawberry and sugar with a hint of bubblegum and smell even more sickenly sweet than that combination sounds.

He already felt a slight rush of confidence pulse throughout him, eventhough they weren't even done yet.
Just seeing the dye laced around his locks made him feel like a different person, made him feel fierce and powerful -- a complete, much welcomed turn from the Jeongguk that got beated down, hurt badly from people in the past.

"I do." He placed both of his hands on top of Tae's that stayed put on his stomach, turning his head carefully, anxious about somehow getting the dye on really anything.

"It probably will be a little different once it's washed out." Voice soft yet deep, eyes meeting yet again. "You wanna play with Coconut until we gotta wash it out?"

And that's how, after quickly tidying up the mess they had left behind, they spend an hour sitting on the wooden floor of Gguk's living room, dragging an old, well-used shoelace infront of Coconut's paws until she caught it, lifting it to her mouth to chew on it, only to take it back out and repeating the process.

The hour passing quicker than they had thought, Jeongguk ended up rushing to the bathroom to rinse the dye out as they had already left it to settle into his locks for fifteen minutes too long, letting the door fall shut behind him and locking it not wanting Taehyung to peak, wanting the finished result to be a surprise for his boyfriend who so sweetly helped him to get this far in the first place.

Gguk reached over his bathtub, taking the shower head into his hand, turning on the water, hand reaching under it to check the temperature.

He watched as the streams of water hit the palm of his hand and pooled in the middle, slowly but surely warming up to a comfortable temperature.

Starting by leaning over the edge of the tub, the towel around his shoulders slipping down slightly, knowing it would get soaked either way, not bothering to fix it as he lifted the shower head over his head, beginning to rinse the dye out.

He felt the warm water drizzle over his scalp, dripping down to his forehead seeing the red colored liquid run down into the tub, feeling his soft hair glide through his fingers.

He began manuvering the water towards his scalp, immediately feeling droplets of water gliding down towards his shoulders, his white shirt probably ending up with two or three pinkish stains striping their rivers on it's back.

He continued massaging the dye out of his hair just until he couldn't feel anymore stuck throughout it, hair feeling pretty much back to it's usual soaked state, hoping and praying he had rinsed it thoroughly.

Hands blindly reaching to turn off the water, putting the shower head back into it's original spot before leaning back up again, using the towel around his shoulders to wrap up his hair since it was already streaked with patches of the same red-ish color anyways.

He quickly tried to rub it a little drier from it's completely soaked state, crouching down to the cabinet under the sink, opening it and taking the hair dryer, plugging it into the outlet right beside it.

Straightening out his body again, he put the towel right back onto his shoulder, cold sensation on his back making him shiver, immediately turning on the hair dryer resting in his right hand, searching for a soothing warmth.

He felt the comfortably warm air hit his face, feeling his hair being blown back, eyes lifting up to look into the mirror, seeing the somewhat finished coloration of his hair for the first time, really noticing how the intensity deflated just the smallest bit as Taehyung described.

He flipped his head down occasionally to get it to his favorite style, slightly sticking up in the air, styled back a bit and parted on the side.

Finishing to blow dry his hair in a couple of minutes, turning off the dryer and resting it on the side of the sink, color nice and bright even in it's dry state, really making it the magenta instead of the cherrish red he had orginally planned -- but liking this particular shade even better.

He looked in the mirror again, same confidence he felt rush through him before now amplified, almost making him see himself glow in a different light -- and he wanted Taehyung to see him in a whole nother light as well, almost like wanting to give his boyfriend a little something back.

The older had been very soft and protective with him overall the last few days eversince Gguk broke down on him the first time, sweetness only increasing with the absolute worst panic attack he's ever had just two days after when meeting his ex again.

And Jeongguk can't even put into proper words how grateful he is to have such person right by his side, not leaving him by himself in such a rough patch like other's did before.

However the new hair color really seemed to be doing something to him as if it was seeping into his veins, coursing throughout him in a dangerous cocktail of cockiness and self confidence.

He could finally look in the mirror for the first time since he can remember and admit that he looked hot right now, clothes eventhough comfortable but radiating a certain charm, white t-shirt seethough on some areas around his shoulders, collarbone peaking through nicely and lastly -- new head of hair decorating his head.

Running his hand through his freshly styled locks, his hands wandered to pull up his joggers a bit higher to sinch his waist more, tugging his shirt in the front nicely accentuating his flat trained stomach.

Taking a final look in the mirror, eyes trailing down his body one more time but somehow always getting caught by the radiant color of his hair, tongue swiped across his lips to make them glisten slightly before walking over to the door and unlocking it, opening and stepping out.

He made sure his stride was as confident as he felt with this hair, hands going to bury themselves into his pockets, entering the living room where a waiting Taehyung still played with tiny Coconut, still letting her run after that almost greyish shoelace, only the older's broad shoulders covered in a black fabric and black fluffy hair hanging down visible to Jeongguk.

"Done." Voice coming out deeper than he intended as he watched Taehyung turn his head and lift his eyes, immediately glued to just above his own, obviously stuck at his hair. "Do you like it? hyung?"

Gguk's voice a mix of innocence and the complete opposite at the same time, purposely adding Taehyung s absolute favorite nickname, a dangerous paradox that would sure get him what is on his mind right now.

He could see the older swallow heavily, adam's apple bouncing up and down as his eyes stared down his body. "Shit, Jeongguk-" He took a pause eyes resting on his small waist for a second too long but eventually making their way up to meet eachothers eyes. "you look-"

"I look what, hyung?" A smirk plastered across his lips as he interrupted the other who was getting up from the ground on his feet, facing him.

"Hot, you look fucking hot, baby." He felt arms sneakily entraping his waist, pausing to give his sides a squeeze before lacing them together behind his back, pulling him close.

Eyes locked instantly as Jeongguk was already losing himself in the deep color of Taehyung's eyes, convaying more emotions that could ever be put into words.

Hia lips parted, answer ready to roll of his tongue but getting cut off as Taehyung pressed his own onto his in a heated fashion, sending butterflies flying through his gut.

Taste sugary as the flavor of Taehyung's lip balm coated his tongue, sickeningly sweet aroma almost making him nauseous to his stomach but in a good way, best way actually tickeling his gut.

He felt hands sneaking their way south from his waist grabbing at each of his buttocks, giving each a soft squeeze, Gguk's lips parting in a moan getting swallowed right up by Taehyung's throat.

Lips starting to crash together in a more hasty manner, teeth clashing and tongues roaming eachother's caverns as Tae's hands continued to play with the flesh of the other's butt, the younger feeling arousal course through his veins.

He felt Taehyung bite his lower lip, pulling on it just a bit to suck on it sweetly only leaving Jeongguk to whimper at the sensation combined with the hands working at his butt, a heavenly combination that got his cheeks to feel hot and his gut to flip turn upside down.

"Up." Taehyung's ocean deep voice almost growled in a quick moment of lips being detached, feeling the hand on his right butt cheek disappear before coming to clash with it again in a mild slap, another moan escaping and being caught by the other's lips.

Jeongguk didn't hesitate a second exactly knowing what Taehyung meant, jumping up, legs wrapping around the other's hip, feeling his big hands move upwards to claw themselves into his thighs.

He felt the air get incredibly hot, face getting blushy from the steaming atmosphere, something hard starting to press a little bit below his crotch.

Hips ushering to rut against Taehyung's hard on, trying to move his own hips up and down to gain friction, to get some sort of relief from the fiery pit burning up his stomach.

"Mhm-" A choked up hum escaped Tae's throat as his muscles helped Gguk move against him, detaching his lips from younger one's but instantaneously placing themselves right at his collarbone, Jeongguk rolling his head back, eyes closing and spit slick lips parting.

Without a further second Jeongguk felt Taehyung's feet moving beneath him, turning around, heading straight towards Gguk's bedroom, continuing to suck a purple stain at the dip of his neck and helping his boyfriend roll his hips against him.

Steps carrying them to the soft mattress, Taehyung making sure to kick the door close behind them but never stopping with the soft bites and kisses along his neck.

He felt the older one bent forward, being placed on the soft pillowy surface, close proximity of their hips suddenly disappearing, making the fire in his gut even hotter than before.

Also feeling the hot sensation of the other's lips disappear from his neck, lifting his head up, eyes immediately connecting with the younger's own, Jeongguk whined, body wanting -- no, needing all the attention possible.

"Needy, beautiful?" Taehyung stuck out his tongue, wetting his lips at the sight infront of him; Jeongguk's eyes closed halfway, magenta hair fluffed out around him, cheeks blushy from the steamy air and mouth parted, heavy breaths escaping.

"Hyung-" He bit his lip, swallowing the spit stuck in his throat, legs that still wrapped around the older's hip pulling him in by the crotch, trying to gain the much necessary friction again. "Please, please-"

Trying to make the other's hips move against his own, Jeongguk looked into his eyes, significantly darker in shade, pupils dilated, hair sticking to his forehead.

"What, baby?" Voice teasing in a dark tone, chuckle ringing through his ears and shiver racing down his spine, whine escaping as Taehyung placed his hands back at his waist, starting to grind back into Jeongguk's crotch.

Just the little amount of friction making Gguk roll his head back, pressing into the matress, words stuck in his throat. Confidence to talk big words clouded with absolute distraction, not able to utter what he wanted.

"Not even doing much and baby can't talk. Cute, aren't you?" He felt Taehyung's one hand detach from his waist to glide his fingers across his stomach.

Cheeks heating more as he continued to move his hips against the older's, confidence from the change of hair color crumbling with Taehyung's every word, knowing the older had complete control over him with everything involving the bed room.

The other's dark shadow loomed over him in a dominant manner as both hands now wandered to pull at the waistband of Jeongguk's sweatpants pulling them off, underwear going down with them, cold air suddenly swirling around his crotch.

Mind short circuiting as his fuzzy self couldn't process the sheer multitude of Tae's fast actions, suddenly seeing him disappear, sitting on his knees, obviously facing the younger's now exposed entrance.

And before he could even usher a proper sentence he felt the hot blows of air against him, hands not knowing where to grab first but somehow landing at the pillows beside him, nails digging into them.

Jeongguk threw his head back feeling the other's tongue circle his entrance, almost choking on his own saliva, feeling a bead of pink-ish colored sweat from his freshly dyed hair drip down his forehead.

"Yes, yes, ye- " he mumbled mindlessly but getting cut off by his own moan as he felt the muscle go past the rim, starting to eat him out deliciously, sensation never failing to make him feel like he was on top of the world.

But as soon as he started Taehyung pulled away wordlessly, making Jeongguk whine is despair, legs still spread out wide as his boyfriend was pulling off his pants, quickly stepping out of them and almost ripping off his sweat patched t-shirt.

Jeongguk swallowed heavily at the view, body sculpted by angels in eyes. No one could ever compare to the older one, could get him this riled up, needy like he was right now, could make him feel more intense butterflies dancing in his stomach, could make him feel -- loved.

He was pulled out of the trance of adoration and love bubbling around him as he saw Taehyung bend over him again, proximity extremely close and intimate as he closed the space between them with a sweet peck followed by moving his lips to his ear.

Hot breath fanning at the area as Taehyung placed a little lick at the shell of it. "Sit on my face, hm?" The request making a shiver run down Jeongguk's spine, repressing a moan that was threatening to part his lips, watching the older go back to connecting their eyes, nodding automatically without further question.

And before he knew it he found himself hovering above Taehyung's face, the older one laying comfortablely underneath him and his hands attached to his thighs, starting to pull him down in a soft motion.

A chocked up moan escaped Jeongguk's throat, hand slapping over his mouth as he felt his entrance come in contact with Taehyung's lips, not wasting any time and dipping in, blush still staining his face.

He felt a pinch being placed at said thigh, urging him to move and so he did, slowly moving up and down on Taehyung's face, head throwing back and a delicious sigh of pleasure escaping.

It didn't take him long to find a comfortable pace, legs spread out more than before, same pinkish sweat running down from his nape to his back, head hanging low now and hands gripping at Taehyung's black locks.

"Ah yes-" He whimpered out in a loud fashion, not being able to cover it up as he felt his tongue press against that special spot that made his head circle with stars. "Ye- yes hyung-"

He felt a slight push at his thighs, pushing him off carefully to sit at Tae's stomach, whining yet again at the sudden disappearance of pleasure.

"You sure are whiny, bun." Gguk feeling his hands sliding to his butt, nickname not failing to make his heart flutter even in such moment. "Turn over, on hands and knees." Voice raspy and hands squeezing at his butt yet again.

He licked his lips at the thought of being taken from behind, licking his gut deliciously, obeying almost instantly, flipping himself and propping his body up with his hands and knees, gluping at what was to come, hearing the other move behind him.

Suddenly a surprised squeal escaped as hands slapped themselves to his behind, ultimately moving up to his hip again, blush streaking his cheeks even more intensely from slight embarrassment, relieved that his face was out of the other's sight right now.

"Ready, baby?" He felt his length circle at his entrance, head suddenly hanging low seeing his red stands come into his vision, grinding his hips back, trying to get the tip to enter.

But suddenly he felt Taehyung's hands grip him with more strength, holding him into place, whining desperately again as his head dangled from his shoulders.

"Words, Jeon." Tone seductive and dominant, old name sending him to the near past, making arousal dance through his stomach even more wildly than before.

"Yes, yes- please, hyung- pl- ah-" Jeongguk blabbered but quickly interrupted by a moan as he felt the tip of Taehyung's length pass the rim of his entrance, entering him in one swift motion and starting to move in and out almost instantly, hands groping the sheets underneath them.

The slow drag of Taehyung's member against his walls made him dizzy, needing more as he clenched around him, starting to move back his hips by himself as well making him feel the other much deeper than before, continuous whimpers escaping with each thrust.

And almost as if he knew what the younger desired, Taehyung snapped his hips faster, pounding into the younger at a mouthwatering pace, Gguk's once fluffed up hair now sticky with sweat, dye dripping down from it onto the white sheets.

But right now he couldn't care less as all his mind was screaming was his boyfriend's name, mind begging him to go even faster to hit his sweet spot as all that escaped his mouth were chocked up moans and needy whimpers.

The thrusts continued to jolt him forward, muscles in his arms slowly beginning to give out, eventually clasping together with a particular trust hitting the previous mentioned sweet spot, face hitting the soft surface underneath him, hands not having enough strength to hold on anymore, releasing their tight grip.

He felt one of Taehyung's hands grasping his hip release and move upwards to his head lacing themselves into his hair, pulling on it just enough to make another loud moan escape.

"Your hair suits you so fucking well, baby." He heard the other growl as he felt his upper body bend over and rest on his back, hand still gripping in his soaked magenta locks.

The sentence alone shooting him closer to his high and making his confidence shoot to a high as well, tears gathering in his eyes at the overwhelming sensation of his hair being pulled ever so gently and the heavy, fast snaps of Taehyung's hips.

"Com-" Was all he managed to choke out before spilling his high right onto the sheet covered mattress, soaking it right away, legs giving out, completely collapsing to the soft surface under him.

Clenching around the older one's length, Taehyung caught his lip between his teeth, hips slowing gradually before hitting one particular thrust, pulling out before coming on his boyfriend's back, collapsing right onto him.

Heavy sounds of breathing echoing through the room, Gguk almost immediately feeling his eyes fall close, completely and utterly exhausted.

"I love you." Was all that could leave his lips in a breathy tone before he felt himself drift into dreamland, hearing a faint calling of the same words pressing against his eardrums.

Heart fluttering as the comfortable darkness surrounded him, feeling like he had arrived in his new self, determined to leave the past behind and giving the future a chance -- with Taehyung by his side.

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ainkillers part 1 is published too <3 please give it a read!!

Hello :) thoughts? wishes? concerns?

i'm sorry that i had to postpone this update but as i mentioned on my message board i had an awful night from friday to saturday as i retched for about 2 hours without anything coming out until about 2am when my body finally managed to get what was bothering my stomach out of me

Again, i'm sorry but i just had to take a day to myself and i didnt wanna just half ass a chapter being on 2 hours of mediocre sleep.

I also wanna apologise for lacking in answering comments lately; i wont go back to answering everything but from today i will pick up again :) <3

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