warning: this chapter is rated 16+

【playing..】

LEE HI (이하이), B.I (of iKON) - 24°C
누구 없소 (NO ONE)

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Jeongguk walked up the staircase, Taehyung following him closely, dragging up both their suitcases, offering to carry Gguk's as well which again was unexpectedly nice for the older one.

The whole walk here was made up of silence, Gguk's thoughts filled with why he even agreed to have Taehyung over and if his apartment was even clean enough to have a guest over no matter who is was.

When they reached his floor, he grabbed the keys to his apartment out of his back pocket, unlocking the door swiftly before signalling that Taehyung could go in ahead of him.

"Isn't it ladies first?" Taehyung chuckled teasingly, not moving from his spot, Gguk rolling his eyes letting out a huff.

"Shut up and go in." He signalled with his hand again, questioning what he's done to deserve this.

"Feisty i see." He heard the older one scoff as he shoved his way past him, stepping into his apartment, Gguk ready to throw another comment at him but convincing himself that he was the bigger person of the two.

He followed the older one in, immediately the comforting scent of the vanilla candles he lights every evening swirling in his nose as he closed the door behind him.

"You can put the suitcases in my room, it's over there. I'll quickly go to the bathroom." He pointed at his slightly ajar bed room door before turning around already taking a step in the other direction before hearing the older one speak again.

"Where's the please?" Jeongguk turned his head back seeing Taehyung smirking, still frozen at his spot not making any effort to move towards his bed room.

Turning his body back fully before crossing his arms over his chest, he scoffed.

He would have added a please if it was just fifteen minutes ago where he felt like the older was actually being nice to him for once but with how quickly he flipped to his usual self again, hell no he wasn't going to say please.

"Up your ass, that's where it is. You aren't gonna hear it from me." And with that Gguk turned around again, heading to the bathroom, a bit of pride washing over him at the comment but getting yet again interrupted by the deep voice behind him.

"We both know with us it's up yours, Jeon. And yesterday you were so obedient and quick to say please, guess things can change quickly." He heard the older chuckling quietly, Jeongguk's face heating up intensely and eyes going wide at the bold comment but when he turned around Taehyung was already in the door frame of his bed room, stepping in.

Gguk rushed to the bathroom, locking the door behind him and stepping over to the sink, hands gripping onto it and leaning forward, looking in the mirror above it.

He noticed his cheeks were heated and flushed a peachy color, hands going to cup each of them as a big huff escaped.

He tried to act as calm as he could this whole time but inside -- he was freaking out and that comment from the older one didn't make it better.

Just the thought of Taehyung spending the night has made him iffy, thoughts wandering in all sorts of directions, completely tossed around.

He didn't even know how to feel anymore, what was right, what was wrong.
He was pretty sure at this point he shouldn't feel like he wanted something more with Taehyung -- it would just hurt him in the end, he knows it would.

He stopped himself before spiralling into his almost usual toxic thoughts that were scattered with the past, contecting it to the present.

"It's just Taehyung. Nothing's going to happen. Be strong. Don't be weak." Taking one last deep breath, he unlocked the door, making his way out, through the living room and to his room, opening the still slightly ajar door, just a bit more to peak inside.

He saw Taehyung, sitting on his bed, Coconut in his lap.

Jeongguk caught himself watching the older one with heart eyes as he was petting his little princess with so much care, his heart swelling as he heard her purr comfortably.

Coconut actually disliked strangers a lot, only being comfortable with Gguk himself, Nayoo and his next door neighbour. It was surpirsing that she was accepting the older one right away, not even with Jeongguk in his presence.

He shook his head, trying to knock off any butterflies that might infect his heart and mind while watching the scene infront of him, opening the door more seeing Taehyung look up right away.

"Her name is Coconut." Gguk walked closer to the two, Coconut jumping off Taehyung's lap right away upon noticing him and roaming around his legs wanting attention from her owner.

"Coconut? That's kinda cute, Jeon." He heard the older one laugh, a complete contrast from what just happened a few minutes ago as he picked up his little princess in his arms, letting her comfortably snuggle into them.

"She is." Jeongguk cooed, petting her snow white fur as he adjusted her periwinkle colored collar with a tiny bell attached to it before setting her down again, a meow escaping her which he knew translated to 'i'm hungry'. "I'll give her food really quickly."

"You also got something for me?" Taehyung stood up from his bed, voice deepened significantly, walking in his direction, somehow making Gguk's stomach turn as the tone was more suggestive than anything.

"u-uhm." Jeongguk swallowed heavily as Taehyung kept coming closer, almost closing the distance between them, one of his hands placing themselves at the dip of his waist. "I'm sure i have something like cup noodles." He made sure not to look Taehyung in the eyes, sight focusing on the hard wood floor below him.

"Hm, i have something better in sight right now, Jeon." And with that he felt Taehyung pull him in for a sudden kiss, Gguk's blush not calming down any time soon, hands placing themselves at Taehyung's chest, first in an effort to push him off but somehow landing at the collar of his T-shirt pulling him in closer.

Stumbling over to the bed behind them, Taehyung falling to sit on it first, Gguk placing himself on his lap, his mind clouded and intoxicated, forgetting his own promises and goals.

He immediately felt Taehyung's big hands wandering to his butt, making him move against him, lips almost parting in a moan.

He felt the older one's tongue glide against his lips, asking for entrance, Jeongguk granting it without much of a fight, too entranced into the older one to realize he was being weak for him -- exactly what he told himself not be.

He continued rutting against his crotch, feeling the Taehyung's hard on right under him as their lips kept crashing onto eachother.

Jeongguk felt heat rush to his stomach, like a burning desire to do more, head in a completely different mindspace.

Their lips detached and like clockwork Taehyung's lips wandered right to Gguk's jaw, his mouth hanging agape as he felt tiny pecks being placed to his neck area.

Jeongguk continued moving his ass over Taehyung's hard on, throwing his head back as the older one was now sucking on his neck, hands squeezing his cheeks deliciously from time to time.

"Ah-" A loud whimper escaped his mouth, hand sliding up to his waist, Taehyung still busy sucking on his neck.

Gguk felt like he was in a trance, the toxic sensation of the friction between them and the continuous kisses placed at his neck making him dizzy in the best way possible.

His stomach kept up the flames, as he felt Taehyung's hands tug as his shirt ready to strip it off as he detached his lips from the spot he was sucking and licking at, already picking another one further down.

Jeongguk's thoughts slowly started to creep through his foggy mind, eyes shooting open realizing what he was actually allowing to happen.

Thats when the bubble surrounding them from reality popped, Gguk realizing what is actually happening, first instinct to immediately shove Taehyung back, sensation of his lips dissapearing. "Taehyung- stop-" He watched the aqua haired pull away, lust drowning his eyes. "what are you trying?"

"What do you mean?" the older one looked up at him hands around Gguk's waist and butt loosening, bottom lip caught between his teeth, smirk painting his lips.

"Don't look at me like that, i'm serious." He climbed off Taehyung's lap, sitting down beside him, hands fiddling with the hem of his own shirt.

"You okay, Jeon? What the fuck is wrong?" Taehyung huffed in frustration, hands crossing over his chest. "It was getting good."

"What's wrong? Your behaviour. For months you are a fucking asshole to me and then suddenly--" Jeongguk gulped, words stuck in his throat like a clump and his mind a mess. "suddenly you flip? You suddenly flirt with me, use every chance to make out and -- more. And then you also tell me you aren't gay? And you dare to ask me what the fuck is wro-"

"I just want you, you know." He was interruped by Taehyung's deep voice, the words keep on ringing through his head like a broken record.

"What's that suppose to mean?" Gguk whispered almost to himself confused, stomach coiling in nervousness as he didn't know what to expect but also the words themselves having him at an edge he didn't know of.

"I guess i developed a soft spot for you, i want you Jeon. You are pretty cute." He lifted his head up looking right back into Taehyung's sparkly eyes who seemed to hold more than want but maybe it was just wish thinking -- maybe Gguk really felt like his heart was pulling it's strings, making him see things that weren't there.

"I'm not some toy you can just want, Taehyung." The younger one said sternly, trying to ignore the tears that were building in his eyes not knowing why he was getting so emotional all of the sudden -- he shouldn't.

Taehyung remained silent, huffing out a deep breath, awkward silence falling over them.

"I- just-"  i don't know. Please just, give me space right now. You can sleep on the sofa. I'll bring you a blanket in a second." Jeongguk dropped his head back down, eyes focusing on his hands, trying his best not to let tears jerk out of his eyes that very second.

He felt the dip of the bed beside him dissapear, footsteps breaking through the paining silence and eventually getting quieter and bedroom door falling close, leaving Jeongguk by himself.

And with the isolation came the tears, falling down his cheeks uncontrollably, back of his hands trying to dry them without a purpose, body falling back onto his bed.

He tried his best to sob quietly not wanting to appear like he cared, like he was weak even though he knew he was.

Somehow it all backfired for him -- he wanted to make the older one fall for him but somehow he trapped himself into a trap he set up.

I want you, I want you, I want you.

The words just keep replaying in his mind and somewhere deep down it was like a stab to his feelings everytime because he knew they meant only one thing -- lust and nothing more.

He unknowingly let Taehyung into his heart not the other way around, just now realizing how the older one finessed his way into his feelings without even trying.

How could he be so stupid? How could he let all this just happen again and again? First Namjoon, then some random one night stands, now Taehyung.

He was really just someone to toy with and nothing more -- he should have known, right?

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