･ ｡ﾟ☽･

I m a g i n e :  Having trouble sleeping because of your anxiety, & Harry comforting you & helping you go to sleep..

REQUESTED BY :
@sweet-creature94

a/n : i hope this helps you at least a little, so just relax & enjoy reading <3

[  mentions of severe anxiety ]

Word Count : 1323

' don't worry about it..everything's gonna be fine.'

︾

like most nights, you had trouble sleeping. it was always difficult to find a steady peace of mind to finally lull yourself to sleep.

but your anxiety always troubled you. it was always the culprit of most of your difficulties.

lately, your anxiety had been very overwhelming with your boyfriend harry away on tour, but now that he's returned it's definitely helped treat your anxiety, but you couldn't find it in yourself to tell him how bad it's gotten while it was away.

so you laid in silence, your back up against the headboard as you sat in the dark of your bedroom you shared with harry-his bare back facing you as he snored soundly laying on his side—your eyes scanning his tattoos as a way to try to distract yourself.

your thoughts prevented you from going to sleep, your anxiety just eating away at you as you began to shiver while your breath began to shorten. you felt waves of nausea before you body suddenly felt racked with heat flashes.

not another one.. you winced.

you were having another panic attack, but you didn't want to wake your slumbering boyfriend. he's been so tired lately, catching up on lost sleep from his previous tour.
  but as much as you wanted to leave the room to prevent waking him up, you were frozen in place.

you hugged your knees to your chest, trying to calm yourself down. your shivers got worse as your hands shook on their own no matter how hard you willed them not to.

your eyes watered in fear as you began to tremble, strands your ginger hair falling over your eyes as you buried your face in your knees to muffle your whimpers.

to your dismay, your whimpers grew louder no matter how quiet you tried to conceal them and your violent shivers gently made the bed shutter a bit.
it was enough to make your boyfriend groan as he felt himself drift in and out of his sleep.

you saw this, and despite willing yourself not to, your tears fell down your face anyways, and your whimpers of fear grew louder as your head felt hot.

harry groaned as he shifted in bed under the covers, his arm landing on the space next to him, expecting to feel your body but his hand instead landed on your feet as your legs were hugged to your chest.

harry's eyes opened at your absence, searching your side of the bed before his eyes looked up to meet your watery ones in the dark, squinting as he tried to read your expression in the dark.

"serai?" his voice husky as he rubbed his eyes, not quite understanding your position yet. "what are you doing up, love?"

you opened your mouth to try and respond, only for your words to be replaced by breathy hiccups of tears.

harry's eyes widened, looking up at you with concern before he scrambled to sit up to get closer to you.

"baby, baby, what's wrong?" he asked in a worried whisper, his hand reaching up to brush strands of your fiery ginger hair to tuck behind your ear so he could see you better.

you just shook your head, trying to communicate that you were having an attack.

and harry being the longterm boyfriend that he was, he understood. his eyes widened with realization, nodding.
"are you having an attack?" he asked softly, his hand placed on your back as he traced circles through your tank top.

you nodded nervously, your tears and trembles beginning to start up again.

harry nodded understandingly with soft emerald eyes.

"it's okay, love. serai just look at me, baby." he whispered with his accent peeking through, leaning forward to try to look into your hazel eyes he loved so much.

your eyes looked up to meet his emerald ones, and you instantly felt yourself melt.

"it's okay, i'm here." he smiled softly, scooping you up in his strong tattooed arms.

your violent hiccups and tears continued their strain, making you shutter achingly in his arms.
you whimpered, your tears skipping down your face to land on harry's bare chest. 

it broke his heart to see you like this, and he was going to do everything in his power to help you.

"everything is okay, love. shhh..." he whispered soothingly, rocking you in his arms as he ran his fingers through your hair. "you're okay, i'm okay, everything is okay."

you felt your tears slow, your hiccups starting to slow down as well.

"you hear my heartbeat? just focus on that." harry whispered, stroking your hair as you listened to his heartbeat as you were pressed against his bare chest.

the rhythm of your harry's heartbeat was the most calming thing you've ever heard. you certainly missed it while he was away.

without even realizing it, you had stopped shaking, and your heat flashes stopped as well.

"i got you.." he pressed his lips against your hair, "it's gonna be okay, you're going to be okay.."

your breathing steadied, your hiccups had stopped as you found yourself just sinking further into your boyfriend's warm embrace.

you then found in yourself to speak.
"harry.." you breathed in relief, feeling harry's hand rubbing along your arms as he held you.

"i'm here, serai."

you exhaled, finally relieved that your panic attack was over.

"oh harry.. that was a bad one." you whispered haltingly, your hand reaching up to press itself against harry's bare chest.

"i know, love. but you pushed through it." he commented, pressing a kiss to your head. "i'm proud of you."

you smile softly as you look up at harry, his eyes meeting yours as you both scooted down the bed to cuddle together under the covers.

"do you want to talk about it?" he asked, referring to why you had your attack.

you shrugged, not really knowing why you had it in the first place. "i've just really missed you, harry. so much."

you pressed a kiss to his chest, before leaning your head against it while you traced his bird tattoos.

"i've missed you more than anything."

you felt harry's finger reach to tilt your chin to look up at him, seeing him smile down at you with loving eyes.

"you're everything to me, serai." he breathed, pressing a kiss to your nose. "i love you so damn much, you know that, right?"

you smiled at harry's sweetness. "i love you too, harry.." you whispered, "so damn mu'ch"
you mocked his british accent in the last part, making him chuckle deeply at your wit.

he leaned down to press a sweet kiss to your lips, his own danced with yours as it seemed to communicate the love you had for each other.

it was blissful as you smiled against his teeth, his arms snaking around your waist to pull you closer to him.
he loved having you close while you two slept, so you both snuggled up together with your head laid against his bare chest, and his arm wrapped around you.

he loved you more than you could ever know because you're everything to him, and he would always be there for you.
and you knew that with harry in your life, you could get through anything.

.

»»————-　　————-««

BABYYY..

this request was so lovely to write, & i hope that this helps you serai, as well as anyone else who may suffer from anxiety.

i'm honored to have written for you, & sincerely wish you the best <3 you're the sweetest! i hope this helps you, love!

let me know your thoughts on this one!!

<33

there is much more to come, so please feel free to send in requests !

thank you so much for reading!
stay tuned!

.

WORD COUNT
1325

PUBLISHED
August 1, 2020
at 10:15 PM