I've learned a lot in the past couple of months.

How close you can get to people in a month
How close you can get to breaking in three words
How easily I can break in two words.
How easily I could do what I needed to.
How easily it is loose people.
How easily it is to jump away
To hang down
To stay under
To go away and stay gone...

I know  for a fact you've crossed the line. Because you've crossed the line, I can't be happy.
You took what was left of me from what I've dealt with and crushed it..and I remember your face. You enjoyed crushing it...you loved crushing me. Your face was happy and joyful. It was like you wanted to hurt me on purpose. It was like it was your soul set mission.

You knew how easily I could break...so what did you do? You stabbed me in the back...literally. You went behind my back and stabbed me. Multiple times. And you do it everyday you can.

What you don't know is how much it hurts, your words, how much pain it inflicts. How much I suffer mentally.
I cry frequently and I have panic attacks. I have anxiety which causes all these things easily...and you knew that. You knew what was wrong with me and you used that against me and stabbed me in that spot...multiple times.

You used me. You used to be my best friend, and now...I don't know who you are anymore.

But I learned one last thing in the last couple of months...

I understand why everyone hates me...

Because I hate me too....