I'm falling. If I were to open my eyes, I'd be falling. My head spins and my breath isn't stable. I feel as if when I hit the ground, I will die. I feel like I'm slowly dying, even without the collision. I feel like my sanity is slipping out of my hands. I open my eyes slowly to see that I'm sitting. I still feel unsteady and I can't breathe. I try to focus on my surroundings, but all I see is blur. My head still spinning, I try not to shake, I try to hide the fact that I feel this way.
I look around and try to keep the dizziness from getting worse. I try to find colors, but they're all gone. Just black. And white. And black. And white. No more red, no more green. No more blue or purple or even pink. I try to focus on what the person in the front of the room is saying, but I can't hear a single damn thing. All I hear is the voices in my head.
I try to calm down, trying to stop from exploding in front of all these individuals. I try to steady my breathing. I try sitting on my hands. I try to think happy thoughts, but nothing works anymore. I'm too far gone. All I can do is wait for the dark abyss to swallow me whole and kill me. To take what's left of my mind and rip it to shreds.I don't want people to notice, I want to hide it for as long as I can until I'm alone, only then I can let it free.
Then, it hits me. My brain shuts down and so do the voices in my head. Everything feels like it's in slow motion. It feels like everything is still in time. I feel it strike. Soon I can't breathe at all and my hands are shaking uncontrollably. I feel everything shutting down and giving up. I feel my mind shut down completely and lock it's doors. I feel like I'm finally reaching my death, but really, it's even worse than that. I wish it was that easy, but honestly, it's never that easy. I feel like everyone is staring, that everyone is watching me and laughing. I feel like no one understands. Maybe they think I just want attention, when really I want to hide.
I hear only little words 'breathe' 'it'll be okay' 'relax' 'calm down'. Nothing helps. People think that those words help immensely, but all they do is sit there. It's as if it's there first day on the job and they have no clue what to do.I feel numb. I feel the black fading in, and I feel like the end may be near. I close my eyes and lower my head. I accept the inevitable and take one deep breath in, thinking maybe it was that easy.
Then it all just stops. It just stops. I raise my head and open my eyes. I'm breathing. I can hear, I can see. No colors, but it's clear. My mind comes back to life as I take in what's going on around me. I'm okay? If okay's a word to describe it all. I can feel, I don't feel as numb anymore. I look around at everyone looking as if it's normal.
I look down at my hands, they're as still as rocks. There is no more shaking, there is no more hurt, no more pain, nothing. I pray and hope that it was final, that it won't come back to haunt me. I ask myself, what happened?

Anxiety happened, and it's not fun, it's a serious matter, it's a mental thing that rips at your sanity and happiness.
It takes away everything you loved, everything you enjoyed. It rips at your heart and soul and after awhile, you feel no emotions, and then you have panic attacks, you feel worry. You feel like you're dying. It's not something to take as a joke or something to use to get attention. It's something to take as a serious matter and take anxiety attacks seriously. Telling someone to breathe isn't going to help, because we can't breathe and when we try to breathe it hurts and it's painful. Telling us to calm down makes things worse for us because we can't do these things, and do to them is painful and hard for us to do. Telling us it'll be okay makes us feel like things aren't going to be okay.
If you know someone with anxiety, let them know that you're there for them. Let them take their time. If they have an escape, it's usually good to know that in case the have an anxiety attack. They can use an escape like hugs from someone, music, writing, or simply just being told nice and positive things.
Please help people with Anxiety as it's a mental thing that's not something that people want to deal with. It's good for people to help because people suffer from Anxiety everyday. It's a terrible thing to go through, and I personally know.