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Finding yourself is harder and the best way to do is through your past. It's you whether yesterday or today continues to grow on .
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Grammar
Imouto-chan : Little sister
Anii-san : Elder brother
Itadakimasu: prayer before breakfast
Oba-san : grandmother
Musume : daughter

Character
Azi : imouto-chan - A young lady who is Japanese but was in Thailand for a few years
Aki : Anii-san- Elder brother waiting for Azi to return.

I am on my plane to Japan maybe for others it is vacation especially when it is Hanami . But for me it is not the case. I have left Japan for seven years, I am just processing on query whether to gain Thai citizenship or not, but before I take the step. I feel I should visit my homeland one more time. Yeah you may think that I am going to live and rewind good memories but in my case that's the opposite it's my bidding to my past and it's memories. A final bidding. But obviously as you know it is easy to live for something rather than letting it go if that was really your everything and to be precise it is hardest decision.

As all the plan for future suffocates me I am gazing at darkness that is radiant with moonlight and best when having windows seat. It's just 5 more hours to Japan. I thought I would watch movies or drama but nothing could help the voidness in me well in every ways I would confront what I have to even if I don't want then let it be my step.

I took a nap and still the time is not moving. I took my phone and went through all pictures. I wished to see glimpses of the past but who am I kidding I bought this phone two years ago and mailed my other phone to my house probably on drawer of my night shelf. Well who is it on ? Me obviously I just won't use that phone unless I had to. Well I regret it . I tried to remember how Japan used to be. But nothing came but just a few picture were on my mind which filled my void heart with anticipation and nervousness.

I thought and thought until I heard the announcement to fasten the seat belts up and that was it.

I am in Japan. I AM HOME the sudden utter of this word from my mouth let my tears drop as I felt uneasy and chest tightened up with fuming cold anxiousness seeping through every part. Home? Is it?

I saw Aki standing far with a sign
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✧✧ アジがお帰り 会いたかった✧✧

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I felt my eyes well up as I stride towards my brother I saw his eyes were also welled up. I stride slowly and as distance came short my velocity increased I ran to the warm embrace. My Akichan .

"Ani I missed you so much ."
" Imoutochan you are back I am so happy. Come let's home home and get fresh. We can go to our favourite place after that. I mean let's go to special place. "

We rode to home and Akichan was so happy and talked loads to me and I absolutely loved every single thing he told and hearing native language again made me happy. But as the streets became familiar his voice faded away and  all I feel was cold and silence whilst my mind wandering through how it used to be?

I saw home after so long. We were entering our house. I thought it would be all dusty but it's the opposite the house is lively and the floors and furniture daud it was never in darkness I looked at Ani and he seemed proud of the way the house was. I took my suitcase and walked to my room. The scent hits me ,the familiarity caress me . I touch the wall and stood closely acquiring the coldness from the wall. An unexplainable urge filled to find to know, to be back. It made me feel like I was being compressed.

But before it goes out Nii-san asked if I was alright . The mirror infront of me answers my unquestioned query my hair looks like it was pulled,tears glittering on my redenned face. I told Ani that it's okay, It is just I was overexcited Chan hugged me tightly and I reciprocated he relieved the hug and caress my hand and said taking the phone out of my hand
" Azi , Imouto- chan ,take it easy don't be hard on yourself. Your leave is for three weeks then it has alot of time to take it. " That is when I knew that I had phone in my hands and probably it was rooting about through the phone. I gave another look before going to get freshed.

I come out to a room echoing sound of Ani to come and eat . Then found the table filled with dishes that I .. I like? Arigato Itadakimasu! We said as we dig in ,the familiar taste that I missed in Thailand. I felt bawling but I could bother less when I got my food infront of me. I ate in heart consent. The best I had and Sakura Mochi tasted delicious as I missed it all my years . Gochisosama!

Almost a decade passed the thought of returning back literally choked me.

Three days passed like a snap.
Ani-san always there for me. Ha takes me to see Hanami every night. Tomorrow he has a business trip and I have visited all the relatives. Next two weeks could be the last time I will be here.

I lie down planning to wake up at 3 to help Ani-san to get ready for the trip. If he left then I am going to be alone and every ounce of life here calls me in.

I woke up early, go over through his things, extras and a tiffin of Mocha and Sushi and he is all set to go.

As he stepped out I went to see him off. Till the moment I bid him it was all happy then when I tried to walk back I was confused of which way to go and as I walked a little I knew it's the wrong way so turned opposite and walked. My mind was filled with phone, memory, photo,calls

All I wanted was to run but I hid it till house was a stone fall far I sprint in and closed the door. As I twisted the knob the familiarity twisted my chest. I stood there and went for morning nap like hello buddy it's not even four why should I be awake.

As I tried to sleep bright sunrays seeped through and itched my eyes to open itself. I opened my eyes and prayed starting my day with morning song morning Bible, Bible writing but the brightness that lit the curtains made my heart filled with bitterness. I prepared breakfast and cleaned the house up. I went to bath and when I stepped out 2 hours has passed by and I thought it was just a 15 minutes.

My breakfast is infront of me but I have not taken a single bite not because it is a mess but simply I could not. But when I realised that what I was doing was wrong I asked for forgiveness.

Mumbling ,Itadakimasu , I started to eat in slowly but evenly savouring the taste I yearned.

I realised that staying home was not my cup of tea as all I did was wake up, pray , bath,breakfast , infront of TV, lunch and dinner. No this was not what I wanted so I learned from the first week that sitting in home is waste of time and I have bearly a few days remaining.

So I did something I never did. I went joined yoga class,karate class, I booked amusement park,I successfully scheduled my whole day and I would not miss it by any chance because it's my hard earned money not something that was dropped from sky.

First day was exhausting early morning yoga and Karate class then foundation course of story writing till 3 . From 3 watching Hanami copying Nature to notepad. Journal. I was enjoying it to bits. I really loved it . It's coming to end of second week. My Karate , yoga class and foundation course three more days. I was excited slowly as day passed by my heart was eased up and my life seemed to glitter and it was best I had in years.

All of sudden today is the last day I would be joining  Karate and Yoga sessions. I had a exam of foundation course and a little gathering as the foundation ends today. We all received certificate and corrected pappers with Mark ,remark , advice and review of development. I literally cried seeing my marks , remarks, advice and development was far more better than I was expecting. I placed it in my file. I went to lakeside and rested under cherry tree and infront of me the sky became darker.

I heard a music played by flute and as the music dissolves into air and I felt my chest tightened up as if it recognised the rhythm. Slowly the faded music started to oscillate through my ears as drops fall on me. Drop by drop but I stayed by the side taking tree as shelter but as I was getting drenched I opted to walk . I opened my umbrella and started to walk, the usual path was now a stream I tried to avoid the waves and crossed the busy side.

I wished to record myself as the music was ringing in my mind vibrating and it got more and more fast and heavy. Slowly I regretted my decision. The music now felt like mourning song, the water that gushed at me make me feel like I was in sea. I felt that I could not get to my house as every single step felt like nothing I felt I was on gym walking on treadmill

I tried to find shelter in building but it made me more wet so I walked and through the walk I felt I would collapse and the grip around my umbrella loosened up as I saw my home just a little far. My power was all gone I tried to walk but I got stopped seeing a car trying to reverse I waited for it until my eyes grew tired and realised that it was never going to reverse as it was never started to do so. My legs cramed ,as the sun dried up my skin get itchy. I couldn't do more , I gave up

I opened my eyes to familiar room. My wrist was plugged with cannula. My heart hurted but  I tried to supress. But my eyes got shut.

"Azichan, slow down, Azi ! "
" Hehe I won't". 
"You are getting naughtier Azi."

I saw myself playing in that beautiful day.

" it's time for you to remember it's okay it will be hard but you got this dear" . You got this a familiar sound told me.

I opened my eyes to a worried Ani-san. Before consoling him I ask him to help me to remember my past I tried to complete my word but   my eyes got heavier and closed. I saw it faintly how he nodded his head he was a crying mess but now I hope he can be strong for both of us.

I was in hospital and later in home and Ani-san tried to talk but I could not , he fed me as I refused to eat anything at all. The next day a bright sunny day that no more have the power to affect me , he took me to a lakeside with cherry tree. We saw Hanami together in the morning. We had sweet , Sakura Mochi , while enjoying Sakura blossom.

We put a camp there. There I had peaceful sleep next morning I had a message on side with breakfast. I ate and opened the message.

"Imoutochan , stay there and sleep on Sakura's lap and you will see your past."

I waited to the sun go to his place where the heat is lowered. I lie on Sakura's lap . I felt Sakura leaf on my hand. There stood a lady and the small me . I neared to them .

"Obaasan , Obaaasan, Obaasan"

"Yes, Musume, Azichan"

"Obaasan, will you always be by my side."

" Musume ,when you get older I won't be there physically but when sakurachan gives you Sakura she is giving me to you so I would be there for you . Your Ani-san will help you "

Yes Aki-chan is best Ani-san in the world. I saw how they were happy and excited about everything. He was really close to my parents and it was passed down to me m

"I love you Obaasan. I love you so so much."

I saw how Obaasan looked at me full of love , I saw her grow up. To the day familiar to last day.

The me from years ago sitting hearing flute and running to home to take Obaasan. When I entered house it was no more lively Akichan was crying  and Obaasan was still. My heart broke. I saw how I screamed hugged and cried and did all things , I could see how much I was in denial. I saw her funeral procession and I could not bear it anymore. I walked like lifeless no eating no drinking nothing. Waking up getting outside just gazing . One day I went to the same place and cried to
Sakura- chan

A Sakura was given but I could not catch and the same flute played , I saw her  once more but it was  suddenly stormy .

She walked through the stroam wishing to forget everything and next she knew was that she doesn't know anyone barely know to address herself and Akichan by her side and introduced as her Ani-san . She was in denial and all she knew about herself is through ani-san , how he described about their life  and recognised others as relatives only for Akichan.

Second Sakura landed on my handed and I opened my eyes. I cried through the evening and in break Ani-san came and consoled me. I finally found my past . My Obaasan.

Aki was happy to see his Imoutochan back. He tried his best and now he got his Azichan back . He cried in secret but today it was happy tears. He finally found his Azichan.

It was last day Akichan and Azichan with Sakura in their hand had their Hanami together. It was bittersweet but nonetheless there was sadness as well as happiness and it is what makes life "life". Oh my Imoutochan can be a philosopher.

Akichan I am going to be a writer by profession and I am coming back from Thailand after two years.
Then let's eat Sakura Mochi again .
あなたの人生に幸あれ！
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Arigato ,for reading Finding you!!

私は試した このストーリーを書くのに最善を尽くしたのですが、実際にはこのストーリーに興奮していましたが、プロンプトを選択できませんでした。これを書くことで、文化的慣習を害していないことを願っています

I tried my best to write this story, I was actually excited about this story, but I couldn't choose the prompts. I hope that by writing this I am not offending any cultural conventions

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