ALISHA'S P.O.V.

"You know I'm not gonna be able to go if you keep staring into space like that." Jayden said, snapping me out of my haze. But really can you blame me?

How would you feel if the love of your life was leaving for a year in just a few hours? I knew it was going to happen doesn't mean I want it to happen.

This would be good for him. That's the only reason I haven't handcuffed him to the bed I'm currently sitting on with him. Since our agreement, I had spent the week in Jayden's house. Waking up with him, sleeping with him. Okay, that sounded wrong. I assure you, we really did sleep.

Just being by his side and this had been one of the best weeks of my life. Until not. It's midnight and by 7PM today, Jayden will leave.

Obviously I can't be selfish and tell him hit to go. There are so many things that could happen- change within a year.

He could come back a totally different person and not love me anymore. Or have found someone better. I'm in doubt but can you blame me?

I swear when people see us together , they give me the 'why is he with her' stare. Lemme elaborate. When people see Jayden, it's cue the panty dropping but when they look to his side and see his fingers intertwined with mine, it goes like, you have got to be kidding me. Like that.

I hadn't realized I had zoned out till Jayden poked me.

"What are you thinking about this time?" he sighed.

"Nothing." He sighed and raised my hand to his lips and placed a soft kiss on them before interviewing out fingers.

"You remember when you first came over and I asked if you were hungry and you said no?" I nodded, wondering where this was going.

"And what did I tell you?"

"That I'm a terrible liar." I smiled a bit at the memory.

"And you still are. So tell me what's wrong. Please?" He reasoned.

"You're leaving today. How am I supposed to feel? You're going to meet new people. Probably fall for some teen supermodel and forge-" I didn't finish my statement because he cut me off by wrapping his arms around me in a tight hug, pressing me against him till there was no space between us. I gladly welcomed the hug and inhaled his cool scent.

"You think this is easy for me? Well, it's not, okay? I don't want to be away from you. But this is something I have to do. For both of us. " he whispered.

"As for the teen supermodels, just answer these questions, okay?"

"Okay."

"Who is in my arms right now?"

"Me." I smiled.

"Whose finger did I put a ring on?"

"Mine."

"What is the name of the girl I told 'I love you' in the garden of her house on the 22nd of June at exactly 11:38PM?"

"Alisha." I smiled and squeezed him a bit tighter. He remembered the exact time, day and place he first said those words.

"What's your name?"

"Alisha." I laughed and pulled out of his embrace to look into his electric blue eyes. Those eyes that had caught my heart since the first day. Filled with so much love for me.

I'm beginning to consider myself stupid to doubt his love for me when it's so clear to see.

"I love one girl. Only one girl. And that girl is you. I love you." He whispered gently against the skin of my neck and sent shivers down my spine.

"I love you, too." I managed to get out before he attacked my lips, claiming them as his. Gently biting, sucking.

His tongue race across the seams of my bottom lip, seeking entrance and I gladly opened up for him to explore all the recesses of my mouth. When he bit my lip, I couldn't help but moan.

Then, his pace slowed and his hands went down to my waist, staying there. Rubbing small circles on my skin. This action alone sent tingles throughout my body and goosebumps to rise on my skin.

My fingers went up his shirt, feeling the sort yet had skin, muscles contracting under my touch as I felt every ripple, every muscle. Everything, earning a groan from him that sent vibrations throughout my body as he moved down to attack my neck, leaving a burning trail of kisses in its wake.

His lips came back up to mine again, claiming them once more.

Then, I came to the decision. It was time. I trust him more than myself. I trust him with my life.

"Jayden, I'm ready." I gasped as his hands cupped my tits, under my shirt, or rather his shirt.

He stopped and something shone in his eyes, that's something followed by uncertainty and concern.

"Are you sure? I'm not complaining though but I can still wait." he said carefully, weighing my expression.

I didn't say anything. Just kissed him sweetly, hoping he'd take that as my 'yes'.

With a huge grin on his face, he kissed me again. Slowly, sweetly as if he was savouring me like he was drowning and in need of air and I was his air and he couldn't get enough. He breathed me in for as long as he could and I loved it. I loved him.

He proceeded to take off his t shirt that I was wearing, putting my tits on full display for him. His eyes darkened as he looked at me and a smile tugged at his lips when I tugged his shirt off as he disposed of my boxers.

"Are you sure?" He asked while kissing up my neck, and I nod because I couldn't form a sentence even of I tried. My mind was hazed by what he was doing to me.

He trailed down my jaw to my neck to the valley between my breasts, leaving butterfly kisses as he went.

He spread my legs, rubbing small circles as he went even lower.

When he reached my cūnt, he inhaled and I shot up. His head came up and he gave me a reassuring smile.

"Relax."

So, that's what I did. I could feel moisture pooling down there, all the result of what he was doing to me.

I all but screamed as his tongue darted out to lick my folds, placing a kiss to my inner thigh.

"So damn wet." He chuckled and the vibrations resonated through my body making me let out a small moan. Bit down on my sensitive bundle of nerves, a wave of intense pleasure washing over me. He then placed a kiss on it.

His tongue penetrated my already wet folds and curled inside. My whole body shook as I felt the pressure build in my abdomen.
Jayden tugged my clįt between his teeth and that was all it took to send me over the edge.

My eyes fluttered closed, a burst of white light exploded, my body spasming as I came undone, screaming his name. My body went limp. My mind was in a haze as I tried to figure out what just happened to me.

Jayden's head came up and I saw my juices on his face, him wiping it all with his tongue, a dirty smirk on his face. I was still marvelled at how hot the sight was.

Jayden placed a soft kiss to my temple as he laid beside me and I opened my eyes a bit to see a smile on his face which I weakly returned.

"Sure you wanna do this?" he whispered showering my face with kisses.

I was sure.

"I'm sure. I love you." I whispered to him and placed a kiss on his chest.

"And I love you too." He rasped, taking my hand in his, bringing it to his lips in a kiss.

He kissed down my arms, arms roaming up and down my waist. He kissed down my neck and whispered "So damn beautiful, baby." It was as if he was taking me in for the first time ever. Revelling in the sight. He treated me with so much love. He took his time. It was like with every kiss, he was telling me "I'm taking my time with you." True to his unspoken promise, he didn't go anywhere till he went everywhere, loving me. Loving my soul, my mind, my body all at once.

He pulled back for a minute to dispose of his jeans and boxers, positioning himself at my entrance, reaching up to smooth a strand of wet hair from my face and placing a kiss to my forehead.

"If at any point you want me to stop, just say it. I won't feel bad-" He was saying before I kissed him.

"I'm not going back. Do it before I change my mind." I threatened, a hint of a smile in my voice as I looked up at him. A sight to behold.

He smiled, a full blown smile and placed a kiss to my lips as he penetrated me with just his tip and I cried out at the pain of the sudden intrusion. He didn't need a condom. I was on birth control. He knew that.

He looked panicked to say the least. I gave him a smile to say I was fine. This would just take some time to get used to. I really tugged at my heart strings that he was worried about me even in our current state.

The pain numbed a bit and I felt double the amount of pleasure as he moved in an inch deeper, looking at me to check if I was okay. The intensity in his eyes as he pushed into me was enough to send me over the edge.

"So fucking tight." He growled, gritting his teeth as he plunged deeper stretching me beyond my imagination and he wasn't even fully in yet. I knew he was holding back. He didn't want to hurt me.

When he was fully in, he gave me time to adjust to his huge size before moving out till it was just the tip and thrusting in again, hitting a spot that made my toes curl and my vision, blurry.

I moaned at the feeling of him inside me as he picked up the pace, going deeper each time and I didn't even think that was possible.

At this point, the pain was non existent and all that remained was pleasure. The pleasure Jayden was giving me, the feeling of his cock thrusting into me, the erotic sound of skin against skin as he drawled out a few choice curses.

My hand steadied themselves on his shoulder, bring into his skin as he wrapped my legs around his waist going even deeper than before.

My inner muscles clenched around him and he growled.

"Fuck. Do that again. Clench around me like that. " he groaned so I did. I clenched my inner muscles.

I clenched around him again and he swore out loud, hitting a spot that made me see black spots.

His mouth latched on my husky nipple, tugging and biting down on it gently and then licking away the pain.

While the other hand travelled down t0aking mine along and and placing it at the junction where our bodies met.

The feeling of him moving inside me,skin on skin, stretching me, each time hitting my cervix was enough to make me go over the edge.

"Feel it. Feel how we're connected." he whispered against her chest as he moved to the other nipple, giving it the same amount of attention in his hot mouth. My hand still feeling our connection as my breathing quickened, my body began shaking and the pressure began building.

"Jayden, I'm gonna-" I didn't finish my sentence as I came hard on his cock. He wasn't done with me yet. He thrust in deeper and harder filling me even more, triggering another ōrgasm. The third of the morning.

He continued plunging deeper and harder making me moan out his name repeatedly.

I felt another orgasm building as he played with my bundle of nerves. He leaned in and placed a kiss on my lips, biting down harshly on my lower lip as I felt him jerk inside me, a sure sign that he was close.

"I. Love. You." With three final thrusts after every word, his body stiffened as he erupted inside me and filled me with his ropey substance. This was enough to bring me over the edge for the fourth time as we came together, riding the waves of our post-coital bliss. I took the time to look at him as he came even though I could barely keep my own eyes open. His eyes closed and his lips curled back as he released his load into me. In those few moments, he forgot.

I felt so full and sated as he rested his forehead on mine and placed a kiss on my nose, his eyes beaming at me.

"I love you." He placed a kiss to my chin as he pulled out, leaving me feeling empty and I whimpered at the loss.

He got up and stalked to the bathroom, coming back with a towel in hand. Cleaning me up slowly, lovingly.

"That was the best going away present I've ever gotten." he smiled and placed a lingering kiss on my lips as he hoisted me up in his arms and carried me to the bathroom.

He cleaned me up as well. I was spent. Completely and utterly spent and I was very sure I would be sporting an excellent limp later that day. We showered together and we eventually he dressed me and placed me on the bed, laying beside me and wrapping his hands around me, drawing me closer to him.

JAYDEN'S P.O.V.

I am a stalker.

Scratch that, I'm an obsessed stalker. Alisha was sleeping peacefully in my arms. This would always be the most memorable night of my life.

It wasn't the fact that we made love- that's what I call it because it wasn't just sex. It was my way of showing her just how much I loved her- it was the fact that she trusted me enough to let me be her first. To love her and take care of her. Her trust is very important to me and I don't want to break it. Ever.

"Goodnight, Alisha."
I really would miss her when I leave but this is for us.

I've made mistakes but I want to make up for them with her. I want to be better for her. I want to be worthy of her.

I want to support her. Be there for her. Make her smile. In the future, when we get married, I want to be a good husband and I don't want to be a shitty father. I want us to be happy.

I meant what I said to her. I'll always come back to her because she's my home. Always.

ALISHA'S P.O.V.

I woke up later that morning and reached over to see if Jayden was there like he usually is.

Getting up from the bed, I almost fell back into it at the pain that shot me. I limped all the way to the kitchen to find the most heart warming sight.

Jayden was cooking breakfast. He was in nothing but slacks. The muscles on his back moved every time he moved his arms and I was shamelessly enjoying the heart warming view.

"When you're done eye fucking me, can you come and kiss me good morning?" He sighed.

I limped over to him and placed a kiss on his back.

"How did you sleep?" he asked, turning around and putting a hand over me.

I knew he was really asking if I was okay and it made my stomach flip.

I tiptoed and placed a kiss on his jaw that was dusted with just faintest hint of stubble.

"I'm perfectly fine, Jayden."

"Are you sure? I didn't hurt you, did I? You're okay?" He ranted and I smiled, walking to the island and hoisting myself up on it.

"I'm fine."

"You can go relax. I'll finish this and come back." he smiled, flipping an omelette.

I continued my limp out the living room when he called me back.

"Oh and Alisha? That's one golden limp you're sporting there." he laughed. I just shook my head at him.

*****

Have you ever felt like your heart is breaking?

'Cause that's exactly how I'm feeling now. Jade, my mom, Alessia, Anne, Zarha, Nick, Kevin and I. We all came to the airport to bid farewell to Jayden.

As much as I'm convincing myself that I'll live without him, I just can't bring myself to do it. His flight is in ten minutes and he'll be gone for a year.

He hugged each of them before reaching me. As he did, he quickly pulled me out him and held me tight as if not wanting it let me go.

He pulled back a bit and claimed my lips in a passionate, longing kiss and placed a lingering one in my forehead before pulling me into him again and letting go.

"So I guess this is it. See you next year, Jayden. " I smiled when all I really just wanted to do was to drag him home and handcuff him to the bed so that wouldn't be able to go anywhere.

"I'm going to miss you so much, Alisha." he said squeezing my hands.

"I love you."

"I love you too." he said and placed a kiss to my forehead and pulled me in one last hug.

"Be safe, baby." Jade said, tears in her eyes.

"Of cause, mom." his voice broke.

He hugged Alessia one last time along with Zarha and Anne. Then my mom. He and Nick shared some manly version of a hug before he turned back to me.

He pulled me into him again and sighed.

"Bye."

"Bye guys." with that, we watched him walk through those automated doors, only to be back next year.

Zarha held me close as I watched him disappear further into the crowd.

JAYDEN'S P.O.V.

It's been six months since I left. I've missed Alisha every single day. Even though we talked everyday, it still want the same as when I could hold her and kiss her and take her out.

I would have loved it do that especially on a day like this.

"Happy Anniversary, Baby." I yelled as soon as her face appeared on my laptop screen.

She looked like she just woke up which was expected since it was Saturday. She had already started college and according to what she told me, she loved it.

She even introduced me to her roommate. A guy named Jude.

I know what you're thinking and yes, I flipped out when I found out her roommate was a guy but turns out he's gay so I don't gave a problem with it.

"Happy Anniversary." she muttered her voice still heavy and laced with sleep.

"Why are you up so early?" I laughed at that. In Canada, I was up early. I was basing in London for the week and had a tonne of meetings before I had to fly over to Dubai for a few others.

Time zone difference was five hours. It was 8AM in London but 3AM in Canada.

"It's morning over here and I have a lot of meetings lined up for today. It's a special day so I thought I'd call you first."

"Thank you." She smiled feeling a little bit more awake now.

"I promise. When I get back, we'll do something." That was a given.

"Okay. So how are you?"

"I'm good. Just a little stress here and there." I know she trusts me enough to tell her if anything was wrong. Like when I first got here and I got introduced to the staff.

There was this lady that was supposed to be my personal assistant but she acted like a blood sucking leech.

Truth be told, she was hot but I wasn't interested. It has been established that I have eyes for only one girl.

So I told her about it and she just laughed it off.

"I'll talk to you later. I gave to go right now." I said as the planner on my phone went off.

"Bye, baby." she bid and fell back to the bed.

On to the meeting...

The meeting went by and we secured the deal.

There were many others but I had time to check my schedule and there was a free two weeks in the next month. I could go visit Alisha.

The good thing about having a private jet is, I don't have to wait for tickets and other things like that.

With a mental shrug, I took a bite of my Chicken Alfredo.

This is gonna be a long six months....

A/N:

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This is my first attempt at ever writing full blown smut. I was contemplating whether to do it or not but with some support from khloezee, I said, what the heck? I can give it a shot how. So please give me your honest opinions on it.

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