It has been a month since that incident with Hitsuya and we do not have time to talk anymore because of my pack shedule. November is just around the corner and that only means one thing.

It is time to decide which high school I am applying already.

I need to hand off the form this week and it has becoming more stressful as my mind is still nowhere on deciding this. My heart is not playing its role nicely too.

I sigh in frustration without realizing that it can be heard by everyone in the library. I realised it too late because all eyes are on me now, glaring. I just grin sheepishly in response. 

Ayumu lets out a light cough to attract my attention, "Hey Reina, Sayaka and I have making some decisions lately and we thought we should let you know about it. "

With that, I snap back to reality and face them with a serious face. This sounds serious.

"And what is it about? "

"Sayaka and I have decided that us also will take the exam for Shinzo Elite High School. "

My eyes widen at that fact.

"That's great! We're going to be in a same school again!  Oh my, I'm so excited!  Now, I can't wait for the entrance exam," without trying to hide my thrilled feelings, I jump and hug the both of them in a big group hug.

"If we pass the exam of course, " what Ayumu says ruin my mood. Now all the flower petals around me wilt and turn to ashes. Why she have to say that though. Talking about ruining the moment.

"Of course we can. It's us we're talking about," I said without thinking twice, confidently or about someone's feeling around me. Being the normal ignorant me, I fail to notice Sakura's distant stare. 

"Reina, let's go! What are you waiting for? "

My eyes snap from the textbook in front of me, "Huh? Let's go where? "

With both hands on her hips, Sayaka the diva made her appearance. "What do you mean with huh?  We've agreed to go to the new cafe, don't we?  Don't you dare tell me that you forget."

Unconsciously, I scratch my cheek, a habit that I had accustomed to, "Did I? "

"Reina! We discussed about it yesterday. You nod in agreement, we saw it," Ayumu stated in a matter of fact tone. Deep inside I know they're saying the truth but my mind seemed to forget about our promise totally. Insted of wasting time to deny, I just let out a sheepish laugh, enough to prove my lack of memory.

They both glare at me. "Seriously, Reina? You had your face stuck to books the entire time. Nowadays, it feels like they are your best friends and not us. "

What Sayaka said hit me hard. "Come on you guys. It's only a small deal, " I try to ease the conversation but it becomes the opposite.

"Small deal you said? Reina, this is the first time we're about to hang out in the three months without you having books under your nose and you forget about it."

Their words sink down and the guilt slowly breaking me from inside but still, I has to get my priorities right. Slowly I manage to mutter, " Sorry-"

"So, you'll join us, right? Let's go! What are we waiting for?"

Despite being quite the whole time, Sakura is the first to grab my arm and shove me to the door. Ayumu and Sayaka follow behind us closely with satisfied expressions on their faces.

"-but I can't. Sorry. "

All of them stopp and I almost face-planted myself on the door because of the inersia.

One, two, three.

"WHAT? "

That's it, I'm done for good.

"I'm busy. There's still plenty of exercises to be done. I'm far behind from my shedule. Gotta catch up," looking at their faces, I know they won't let me go.

Just  Ayumu and Sayaka are about to drag me to the cafe and I am about to raise my white flag under their venomous glare, Sakura said the last thing I expected from her.

"It's okay, we understand. Come on Ayumu and Sayaka. We shouldn't bother Reina-chan. "

Sayaka and Ayumu are about to protest before Sakura pushes them out of the class, clearing my eyesight.

"Sakura, I-"

"Reina-chan, good luck with your study! "

With that, she left me on my spot, dumbfounded at what just occurred. Sakura still has that cheery smile on her round face but something is off with her smile and another thought bothers me.

Since when she calls me Reina-chan?

~ Don't surrender to what was, put your faith in what will be - Let It Go, Maher Zain (not Demi )

One of my favourite lyrics. We have no control over the future and worrying, over thinking will not bring anything except misery and stress . What I can say is do your extra best and live your life to the fullest in the present and then leave the rest to Him.
He knows the best, have faith and you'll have no regrets. Just trust him.

Enough with the wisdom side of me, here is part 5. After I take this story back , I accidentally wrote the rest in past tense lol, so you know what I mean *wink wink*. Either way, my grammar is still a mess. Sorry not sorry that I'm born without English as my mother language.

Anyway, enjoy and thank you!

xoxo