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Olivia's Diary Entry: Eight
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September 1, 2016

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"Her fears stemmed from truths untold,
And malicious lies"

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I couldn't breathe,
Could not see,
Or hear,
Or scream.

Instead I felt.

Feeling the agony welling up inside,
I could feel the fear,
And dread,
Churning until it had manifested itself,
Into anger,
Boiling hot.

And then sadness,
As that lonely feeling took hold of my heart.

And then I saw,
Saw her face standing by the door,
As I ran past into the night.
Running away from her,
From them.

I finally heard,
Heard the sobs that wrecked my body,
I heard her voce so quiet and scared,
As She repeated 'no'
Like a mantra as if she said it enough times,
It would all just disappear.

I screamed.
The turn of a car,
The screech of tires against tar,
Before my cries were drowned by the sound of our desperate pleas.

Yet I still did not breath,
My heart pounding in my chest,
My lungs begging for air,
I did not breath.

And then...
I was awake,
In my room,
My tears streaming down my face,
And I still took no oxygen into my lungs,
And I realized,
This was one of my many panic attacks.

I struggled,
Struggled with the memory of what to do,
A multitude of techniques,
And yet none came to mind.

I was alone,
And I could not breath.

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Hey,

I'm not sure if it's a bit confusing it not but I think it adds to the panic Olivia would have felt writing this, having just had a panic attack.

What did you guys think?