Jared's POV

I was at home thinking about the day's happenings.

The diary was in my hands. I flipped to the end of the diary where my name was scribbled with hers.

I felt a pang of guilt in opening that diary but then I also felt that she was mine and only mine.

The first page of the diary had the words written on it:

"Dear Diary - You Have All My Sorrows "

This girl is strange.

I flipped through the pages, randomly reading her experiences. That's when I found my Mother's name on a particular page. I found it interesting. How could my mother be in her diary, a diary with only her sad memories?

Filled with anxiety, I read the diary entry for -22/02 / 2005

Dear diary,

Today I went to meet Aunt Anne. She was extremely cute and polite. Although for her son, I am an out of sight out of mind case, for her I was still that little girl. I was surprised when she gave me my favourite cookies. She made the best hand made cookies. But it was quite a shock for me because she still remembers my taste.

But Aunt Anne, unknowingly you have hurt me deeply, you have aroused the darkness within me, the thoughts of my worst nightmares. You called me Barbie Doll.

That was a childhood nickname. But hell it brought the worst memories out. The thoughts were concealed in the depths of my heart. I was quite reminded of all the men who had called me by this name.

The first was my Dad, he was my superhero. The man with all the goodness and might. The best man I had ever seen. But it was the night of my eleventh birthday when the news of his infidelity struck me like an arrow. How could he leave his barbie doll? Didn't even come to tell us about his decision in life. He had only left a message after weeks of disappearance.

My mom was heartbroken.

After years when I was fifteen, Uncle Adam came to our rescue. Uncle was too kind and chivalrous to be a colleague of mom's and he soon married my mom. I never held a grudge towards her. What could she do? He comforted me with all the love and care of a father. Soon things fell in the right place and I found a father figure in Adam and a brother in his son John. They both called me a Barbie doll. John was more than a brother for me.

It was only on Christmas Eve I found my brother John and Uncle Adam talking about their trade and Business. I was planning to surprise John with a cake, I had baked with lots of pains. But I heard them speak. They were talking about imports of "Items " from Thailand and Malaysia.
Little did I know that the items mentioned referred to young girls .
So my step dad and step brother were filthy sex racket leaders.
I had lost my mind but I put my hands around my mouth and ran off into the washroom. And cried for hours.
It was hours later I got the courage to dry my eyes and get out of the washroom. The moment I got out, my mom was back home. She hugged me . The father and son were also there.
They were in their usaual high spirits, behaving normal -professional actors.They thanked me for the cake. That was bullshit. Never in my darkest dreams had I seen the devil within them.

I never told mom about this because she was leading a pleasant life. I didn't want to ruin her life. She didn't know anything or maybe she knew everything but was masking it just like me.
I waited for a year . When I got the perfect excuse, I came to Forks.
But only to find my long lost childhood crush - Jared.
Hell! It was. I was just an out of sight out of mind case. He had me completely erased from his memory.
The embarresement evolved in his hit on my nose is unforgettable.
But I can't make someone notice or love me. No I won't force the feeling into someone.
I am afraid to approach any man in my life. For men, women are nothing less than a doll , a sweet barbie doll.

I put the dairy on the table.
I cried for a long time.
Men should not cry but I had nothing else to do. How could something so strange happen to her?How was she surviving with such loads of sorrow in her head? How could she live with her heart full of pain ?

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THIS CHAPTER IS DEPRESSING AND HINTS THE OBJECTIFICATION OF WOMEN.
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