It's been a month since the warehouse exploded. A month since NCT last saw Yuna. A month of grief for them except Doyoung. He was possibly the only one that knew she was still alive. Well, that was what Yuna last said.

Ten was always locking himself inside his room, upset at himself for letting this happen to Yuna. Everyday, Johnny struggled to pull the boy out of his misery. It was true when people said that losing a good friend was harder than losing yourself.

The younger members were no longer the active and high spirited kids they were. It was always quiet whenever they ate, occasionally glancing at Yuna's empty spot. Every mission they went on, they don't even consider their safety. They became more brutal on missions.

Doyoung was staring out of his open window when Taeil suddenly entered, shutting the door behind him before sitting on his bed. To the members, it was strange how Doyoung seemed fine at Yuna's disappearance. Taeil took a deep breath, Doyoung readying himself.

"You know, you can tell me if your upset with her gone. No one here is gonna judge for it. Don't keep your emotions to yourself, Doyoung. It's not good"

Doyoung turned to Taeil, shaking his head at the older before heaving a sigh. "I know she isn't dead, hyung"

Taeil was quiet, not expecting Doyoung to not accept her death. Truth be told, Doyoung just wasn't ready to tell the members about Yuna's words, not wanting to give them any fake hope.

"She's gone, Doyoung"
"No, she's not, hyung. I just know it"
"She's not gonna be at peace if you continue being like this"
"What did she last say to you at that warehouse?"

Taeil shut his lips, remembering her words exactly. "To keep the high spirits of the team. Exactly what I'm doing now. I'm gonna go now. Try letting out your emotions, Doyoung"

Taeil got up, leaving the room. Doyoung suddenly thought of something, getting up from the seat by his window. He walked to Taeyong's office, not bothering to knock before entering, shocking Taeyong who was reading a book Yuna once suggested to him.

He shut the book, shoving it into his drawer, focusing on Doyoung who just entered. "What's wrong? Did something happen?"

"No, just..what did Yuna tell you that day? Her last words for you"
Taeyong looked at Doyoung, confused. He thought it would be hard for Doyoung if anything ever happens to Yuna.

"Well, she just said that..NCT must go on"
"You must've told her before that you wanted to disband the gang, didn't you? Her last words changed your decision"
"Doyoung, I don't know what's happening to you but please, she's gone. She's been gone for a month"

Doyoung sighed, knowing his members were starting to think he went crazy. He just shook his head before heading to the 00 liners room, finding them arguing more than usual over a game.

"You cheated!"
"No, I didn't, Renjeon"
"Oh yeah, you freaking did, Full Shit"
"Oh it's fucking on, XXS shorty"
"Oh shut up you two losers!"

Doyoung saw as Renjun launched himself onto Haechan, his hand smacking Jeno's face on accident. Already annoyed, Jeno pulled the two in a head lock. Jaemin was trying to stop the three from killing each other as Yangyang's attention shifted to Doyoung.

"What's up?"
"Aren't you going to stop them?"
"It would be much easier if one of them accidentally faint. This has been going on for a long time. What are you doing here?"
"What did Yuna last say to you guys?"

At the mention of her name, the four stopped their actions, looking to Doyoung. Yangyang looked towards the four who were already quiet, sighing.

"She told us to stop making things harder for the members"
"And yet you guys are arguing and fighting with each other, your own members"

Haechan looked down, tears welling up. Yuna was like a real sister to him. They had their mini arguments but he never liked it when she was truly annoyed and mad at him. Renjun and Yangyang  shared a lot of interests with her, now feeling a lot less interested in them. Jeno and Jaemin always clung to her, training and playing with her on a daily basis, learning a lot from her.

"I'm sorry"
Haechan's apology made all eyes land on him, watching as the boy wiped his tears. "She's probably mad at me for treating you guys like this"

Yangyang got off the bed, encasing Haechan in a hug. Renjun who he was previously fighting with him also joined the hug. Jaemin decided to be dramatic to lighten the mood, hugging Jeno while fake sobbing out loud.

Seeing them starting to laugh and slowly get along, Doyoung exited the room quietly. He turned to Jisung and Chenle's room, turning the door open, finding Jisung playing with his phone as Chenle was on his PC.

"You two okay?"
Doyoung asked, getting their attention. Chenle just nodded, while Jisung ignored him. Doyoung found their reactions strange.

"When Yuna told you to stop being so loud, she didn't mean for you to stop talking. She always made you honey tea because she saw worried about your voice. She loves talking to you but you always lose your voice because you keep on screaming"

Chenle looked away from his monitor to Doyoung. "I know but I don't wanna talk to anyone now"

Doyoung sighed, turning to Jisung. "And you, is this really your choice right now? She didn't want you to choose to go ignore everything and everyone. You know how she hates it when you ignore her"

"She's not here for me to ignore anyway"
"So if she comes back, you'd stop"
"Impossible but okay"

Doyoung left the moody teen, walking to the tech room, finding Winwin and Jaehyun.

"How's it going?"
"Bad"
"You guys should go out?"
"What?"
"Yeah, go out. Enjoy yourselves"
"Are you even hearing whag you're saying right now?"

Winwin snapped, Jaehyun too lazy to mind the two. Doyoung shook his head, sitting down beside Winwin who was originally focused on his game. Doyoung glanced at his screen.

"Did Yuna enjoy playing this?"
"You know she was bad at these games"
"Well, what did she enjoy?"
"Going out"

Winwin was caught in his own words, glancing at Jaehyun for help only realize he had also stopped playing. He looked at Doyoung before meeting eyes with Jaehyun.

"Did you delete her pictures?"
"The ones she didn't like..yeah"
"What were the ones she liked?"
"The ones we took when we were out"

Jaehyun answered quietly, opening up his gallery and looking at Yuna's photos. Doyoung watched as Winwin sighed, standing up and getting his jacket on the couch before grabbing Jaehyun's arm, pulling him up.

"Let's go. See you later, hyung"
Winwin said, exiting the room as Jaehyun helplessly tried reaching for his coat. "I need to go to bathroom first, Winwin!"

Doyoung shook his head, getting up and going to the kitchen for a cup of water. He found Jungwoo staring into a void of nothingness. Snapping his fingers in front of him, Jungwoo jolted in his seat, turning his head to Doyoung.

"Oh, it's you"
Jungwoo said, his tone slightly hinting disappointment. Doyoung made a face, trying to brighten the boy.

"Do you play any mobile games?"
"Yeah but usually with Xiaojun, Hendery and well, Yuna noona. I'm sorry, I'm being insensitive to you. You're probably still upset about her death. No, wait, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have mentioned that. I'm so stupid"
"Jungwoo, calm down. You aren't stupid, you just have a fear of offending people. I'm not offended or hurt in any way, Jungwoo"

Doyoung noticed Jungwoo kept avoiding his gaze. He got up and got two glasses of water. Purposely slowing himself, Doyoung returned. He handed a cup to Jungwoo.

"I dissolved a calming pill in there. Drink up"
Jungwoo looked at the drink before looking back at Doyoung. He took the cup, sniffed it before taking a sip. "Tastes like plain water?"

"I'm pretty sure it dissolved. Just drink up"
Jungwoo finished the whole cup, Jaehyun and Winwin suddenly entering the kitchen. "Oh hey guys. Can Jungwoo come with you two?"

"What are you doing?"
Jungwoo tugged on Doyoung's arm, shaking his head. Doyoung took Jungwoo's hand, patting it assuringly. "Yuna wanted you to talk to everyone more. This is your chance to do it"

Jaehyun and Winwin were waiting for Jungwoo's decision, watching the boy hesitate before Jaehyun walked over, slinging his arm over Jungwoo's shoulder. "Let's go have fun"

Doyoung sighed to himself, feeling a little tired. Kun had entered the kitchen, finding Doyoung with his head on the table.

"Doyoung"
Doyoung whipped his head up, his neck hurting from the sudden movement. He groaned slightly, massaging his neck. Kun walked over, piching some areas around his neck to help him.

"Thankd Kun"
"What's the matter with you?"
"A lil tired. Where did you come from?"
"Med room. Johnny injured himself when he was training with Yuta. Speak of the devil, there he is"

Doyoung looked to the doorway, finding Yuta helping Johnny sit down. He gave a judging look to which Johnny noticed.

"Shut up, I didn't expect a chest kick then a lower kick at once"
"I didn't say a thing"
"Your eyes show me, Doyoung. You doing alright?"
"I'm really just fine. I actually feel kinda drowsy right now so I'll just go take a quick nap"

The three nodded as Doyoug got up, leaving the kitchen. He passed the living room, finding 99 liners fighting over who's turn it was to pay for their food. Doyoung laughed at the scene, continuing his way up to his room.

He entered, shutting the door behind him before noticing Ten tapping his foot anxiously on the bed side, looking at him. Doyoung walked over, sitting beside him. Doyoung was about to ask him a question when Ten stopped him.

"We can find, Yuna"

Edited on : 24/12/2020