I sighed for the umpteenth time as i checked my phone again for any message.It's been four hours yet no sign of Sadiq anywhere close to our estate.

He told me to get ready that he was going to take me out on a date but the only thing I'm taking out is this four inch stilettos heels Deejah said I should wear.

Damn! It's so fvcking tight and uncomfortable.

You're wondering if I called him right? Well his phone is switched off and I called Azeezah too but the only answer I got was
"I'm sorry" and it sounded like in a pitiful voice Azeezah use when she's sorry for a person and when Azeezah is sorry for a person that means that person is like in deep sh*t.

Okay now I'm worried.

I tried calling his other sister Ya zubaida but i decided against it because she's married she may not necessarily know what happened.
I tried calling him again but that stupid annoying voice of a woman keeps telling me his phone was switched off.

Calling Azeezah and Ya Zubaida was useless cause they have no information even if they had from the looks of it they don't want to tell me.

Did I tell you his mom hates me?

The feeling is mutual actually, I don’t despise her but I hate being in the same room with her.
I know you guys have heard this before but if looks could kill Iwould be long gone.

When she looks at me you can see the hatred running through that brown orbs of hers.

Yeah it is that intense.

Well his Step mum actually, His mum died through food poisoning and Azeezah told me that his step mum then his father's Girl friend killed her.

Aunty hajarah, Minal and Amal's mom and also Sadiq’s step-mother is a selfish, greedy, wicked, jealous soul. She’s very cunning if I may add.

I've never met someone like her in my entire 21 years of life. Other than that Aunty hajarah is actually a very beautiful woman,one could get easily attracted to her. I cleared my thoughts and went back inside to Deejah’s room.

Momma went out with baba and Khalil was driving them so It's only me and Deejah in the house.She was still on the bed.

"Hey what's up? I thought you were going out with Sadiq"

"Yeah....." I slumped lazily on her bed"I thought so too”

"Are you okay,you look pale" This time she readjusted her position." What happened"she said annoyingly after I wasted like ten minutes of silence

I sighed then I explained everything to her.

"Maybe he went to his other Girlfriend’s house" she said jokingly while hitting my shoulder to make the atmosphere at least less awkward.

I ignored her and turned to the other side of the bed, Atleast sleep will cut my woes away For a little while.

*********
Frustrated.
Angry.
Dissapointment.
Deceived, Was all he felt right now.

For the first time after four years, Sadiq felt like he was going to have a breakdown . How do you feel when you feel like killing yourself over a little issue.

When your mother blackmails you into something you will regret later in the future?

When you're forced to marry some one you don't like while your true lover awaits for you?

When you don't even know what to do so you prefer dying?
Sadiq’s POV

I felt my duvet being peeled off by someone.Ummah was by the edge of the bed hands in akimbo waiting for me to stand up.

She looks angry,I greeted her then her face broke into a smile.

"Mi hijo , how are you."

"Ummah I’m fine,any problem?"

"Nothing my son. Go and pray subh and come back. I'll be waiting for you here."

"Okay,hope there's nothing wrong?"

"And your father is waiting for you so you can go to the masjid together" she added ignoring my question.

Is it me or today feels like there's a storm coming! I met Abba in the parlour and greeted him then we went to one of the mosques nearby. We prayed raqa'atainul fajr(voluntary prayer) before the imam will come in to lead the prayer and  prayed then  went back to the house.

Abba is unusually quiet. Why is everybody acting weird?!

Abba left for his chambers while I went to my room to check if Ummah was still there. She was facing the door sitted on the L-shaped couch. I sat on the floor but She reprimanded me to sit on the couch close to her.

I didn't want to argue so I did as she said.she started stroking my hair after 2 minute of silence.

"Mi amor,Promise me you'll accept my offer."

"Ummah..."I trailed off

"No my son, Promise me. I'm your mother and you know I wouldn't wish any harm for you right?"

"Yes Ummah but how can I say yes to what I don't know "

"I knew you don't see me as a mother in your eyes!"she started sobbing

The tears!!

"What have I done to deserve this from you that you don't want to agree with me. Do you think I wish you harm? You don't trust me do you? You still think I killed her, don't you!” she ranted while sobbing.

I tried calming her down but this time she held both my shoulders. "You don't take me as mother”

"Ummah it's not like that."

"It's not like what? Huh ,it's not like what! "she continued

I sighed "Ummah "  I feel like I am going to regret my answer later. I felt my phone vibrate from my breast pocket. I already knew it was Maryam because I was suppose to call her after I prayed so I guess she's calling because I didn't call.

I will explain to her when I take her out for lunch today in Shaa Allah "I accept your offer now can you tell me what it is"

"Yes Yes !Why not." Her smile was so deep that you could actually see a dimple forcefully popping out. She hugged me then the next thing she said shattered my heart into pieces.

"Thank you for accepting the marriage proposal of your cousin, Fareeha"

******
I heard the clicked sound of my door which means someon just came in.

"Yo man!"khlaifa, My best man said.

Ugghhh! He has come to disturb me

Ever since the incident that happened in the morning Ummah pecked my cheek and said something I didn't even hear because at that moment all i could think off was I'm not getting married to Maryam?

I have been on the same position since then, trying so hard to stop the tears from coming out. The last time I cried like this was four years ago,when my Ammi died.

"Hey" I murmured

"How are you feeling Bro, Azeezah told me to come here as soon as I can, Something about marriage proposal yeah?"

"Yeah,Ummah is getting me married to Fareeha and it seems like Abba is mute today."

"Have you told Maryam yet?weren't you suppose to take her out today?"

"No,my phone has been switched off since."

"You have to tell her man!"

"Yeah I will text her later"

He eyed me " Poor girl,she's been waiting for you. Where's your phone?”

"There", I pointed it resting on the other side of the bed.

Everybody knows my password is maryam so he easily unlocked it then I saw him typing something.

"What are you typing?” I tried reaching to him but he was too far and I couldn't stand up.

"Guy abeg" He ignored me! I really don't have his time right now.

"A...n...d send!!"

"To who?"

"Maryam"

"What did you send to her" He showed me then I gave him a blank stare.

"Thanks man"

"Welcome to the world bro" He tried to make me at least smile.I gave him a pleased look reassuring him everything was okay.