It was final in my mind. My decision was for the best and for my future. I was going to accept Oxford's letter and go back home to study what I truly wanted to do.

I would be leaving in a couple of days to start a programme on the campus to test my skills for the major I would be studying in--it ran through May to next September.

What I wasn't looking forward to was telling Gavin. I knew he would refuse, to try and find a way to keep me rooted here in Austin, but I had to go. I've been dreaming of going to college and even though I'm 23, it's never too late to start. Burnie reassured me that my spot at Roosterteeth will always be there and my character for RWBY will be held onto until they find a way for me to voice act.

"I'm gonna have to deny that flat I signed for." I sighed, running a hand through my hair.

"I'll do it for you. You should call your dad and let him know the good news." Burnie smiled, patting my shoulder and I nodded, getting up and pulling my mobile out of my pocket.

I tapped my thumb on my dad's number, putting it to my ear to wait for his voice. I knew he would be excited for me. I knew he was disappointed when every other college denied my application, so this will certainly put him in a good mood. Finally after a few seconds of the phone ringing, he picked up.

"Hello, darling. How are you? I'm just over at the art studio." He chuckled and I could hear the distant voices of people in the background.

"I'm fine, dad. I have some interesting news, though. Remember Oxford?" I walked to my room and closed the door, biting my lip.

"Yes. Why?"

"Well, I received a letter, here at Burnie's and it was from the college," my dad's silence made me press on. "It was an acceptance letter." I grinned as I heard his excited laugh. He was such a big kid when he was excited and when it involved me doing something important or big, he always let out that same loud howl.

"You got in? A year later and you got it?" My dad asked, laughing every few seconds.

"Yeah." I knew he could tell my discomfort, so he quieted down and became serious.

"Aren't you going? Jane, this is such a big opportunity." He said.

"I am going, i-it's just that," I sighed. "I don't want to leave everyone behind." It was just a heartbreaking thing to say and I could feel the tears starting to build up.

"You don't want to leave your boyfriend." His voice was matter-of-fact.

"Daddy...I love him," I sat on the edge of my bed, my fingers touching the faded fabric of my ripped shorts. "I don't want to leave him or any of the people I met here."

"I understand, love. Just think about it, though. You go to Oxford, get your degrees, and you can go back to be with them. I know it's hard, Jane, but I want you to take the chance that's been thrown at you. You've been dying to go to this school ever since I gave you that Oxford jumper when you were 9-years-old. I'm sure Gavin will understand and realise that you have to take this." My dads voice was sincere, comforting to make the tears in my eyes dry away to be non-existent.

"I-I hope you're right." I said.

"Always am." He chuckled, making me follow him and I felt a smile grow on my face.

"So, do you still have my room? You didn't turn it into an art gallery of sorts right?" I giggled.

"It's still here and ready for you. I'll just have to clean the sheets and dust a bit. When are you coming?" He talked to someone from the art studio before returning his attention back to me.

"First week of May. I'll let you know which day when I find out. I can't believe I'm coming back home to go to Oxford. Is this really happening?" I started feel more giddy with excitement as realisation dawned on me. I was actually going to my dream college, the one I've been dying to attend. It was such an unexpected surprise, but it made me smile with the thought. Hopefully, my dad was right and Gavin would understand the circumstances. I knew Bree would and she would most definitely support my decision.

"Alright, baby girl. I can't wait to see you again. I'm proud of you." I smiled at his words.

"Thanks, dad. Love you."

"Love you too." With that we hung up and my mood upgraded from Depressed Little Girl to Happy Excited Adult. I was going to break the news to Gavin tomorrow. Maybe we could go on a date and spend some time together before I told him. I just hoped he would understand...

* * *

The next day at the office seemed different to me. Probably because I knew I would only be here for a couple more days before I flew to London. It was strange keeping this a secret, but I told Burnie that Gavin had to be the next one to know. He had to be.

As I sat at my desk, twirling in the computer chair, I grew nervous as I began to pluck the courage from the back of my mind. I was going to ask Gavin if he wanted to go out tonight for a picnic of sorts--somewhere secluded where no lights could cast a dark shadow over the starlit sky. Somewhere romantic and I did know of a meadow close to Geoff's place that was perfect.

"You okay, Jay?" Michael asked me from his desk. I snapped out of my thoughts to stare into his brown eyes and I smiled, nodding.

"Yeah, just thinking." I nodded.

"Don't hurt yourself," He grinned as I narrowed my eyes at him. "Okay, I guess what I should have said is 'What about?'" Michael leaned back in his seat. We were the only ones in the office--Geoff still out of town, Ray at home sick with Bree taking care of him, Jack and Gavin at a Patch Podcast.

"Nothing really important. Just, maybe, taking Gavin for a picnic tonight. You know? A date." I shrugged. I knew I could reveal my plan to Michael, but like I said, Gavin has to know first.

"Sounds nice. I haven't done anything romantic with Lindsay since I proposed. I'm such an unhopeless romantic." We both chuckled. "But she hasn't said anything, so I guess she doesn't mind."

"That's not true! I'm pretty sure she's just waiting for you to just finally come to your senses and add a little romance. She's being patient. Are you just waiting for your honeymoon?" I asked, eyebrows raised.

"Well, the wedding is not that far away, so I guess so." He shrugged. Ugh, men. Seriously, couldn't they realise that women need to be in romantic scenarios and be cuddle or kissed or feel loved in someone's arms. I feel like Gavin had that decency at least.

"Take her out to a restaurant and give her tons of roses and send adorable texts or tweets. I'm sure she'll like that."

"I already do the tweets! The flowers, though...I guess I could do that." He grinned and immediately hopped out of his seat, grabbing his car keys and kissing the top of my head before jetting out.

Feeling my arse become numb from my seat, I sat up and smoothed down my dark red dress, touching the braided, leather belt that cinched at my waist. As I made my way to the Patch set, I passed by Matt's office and as soon as I did, his voice called to me.

"Yeah?" I asked, entering the small space.

"How are you?" He asked, his reading glasses perched on his nose. I narrowed my eyes, wondering why he would ask this.

"Fine...you?" I stood awkwardly in the door frame, legs twitching at times.

"Good. Listen, Burnie--"

"He did not." I was boiling when I cut him off. I told Burnie to keep his damn mouth shut! For a man that had a sandwich stuffed in his mouth all the time, he for sure got around to blabbing out my secrets.

"He told me about your acceptance letter and how terrified you're feeling, but it'll be fine." He smiled and I sighed, really easing the stress that clenched at my bones.

"I hope so. I'm actually going to spill it to Gav." I nodded and he gave me a small smile.

"I'm guessing that's more terrifying than leaving?" He asked.

"Actually, it's a tie between the two." I nodded, biting my lip.

"Well, I'm sure everything will work out just fine, Jane. Just remember that Burnie, Geoff, Gus, Joel, and I are here for you--your other fathers." I laughed at him.

"Thanks...dad." He waved me off and I was finally able to make my way to where the Patch set was.

Inside the small space, Burnie, Jack, and Gavin were around the high, circular table, talking about the Xbox One and it's upgrades. Gavin turned and smiled as I walked in, giving me a tiny wave. I did one back before he turned around to reply to Burnie's argument.

I twiddled my thumbs as I stood next to Brandon and Chris as they did the cameras and lights. I've only done one Patch before and it was highly different from the comfortable set of the Podcast. Here, you mainly talked about games and new releases or consoles and gaming companies--pretty much, gaming news. I liked the Podcast better for we could go on and on about different subjects instead of just one.

"And done." Brandon said, the red light dimming off, signaling the end of the video.

"Thank God. I need to use the fucking restroom." Burnie said, hurrying out to the loo. Jack laughed before leaving as well, having me alone with Gavin.

"Hey, love," He came over, beer in hand and kissed me on the forehead. "What are you doing here? Missed me?" I giggled, but it was more quiet and distant.

"I do, I really do." I muttered.

"What?"

"Nothing, um, I was wondering if maybe we could do something later besides sit around at your place, in your room. Maybe a picnic? At the field near the complex?" I shrugged, still rolling my thumbs around.

"A picnic, huh?" He bit his lip and I already knew what he had in mind, but I wanted to do this right. "Yeah, sure. Sounds good to me, beautiful." I knew my cheeks were ablaze with the blush that crept to my face and he chuckled, lowering his lips down to touch mine. I kissed him back, standing on my tip toes since he was a few inches taller than me. I loved this feeling--being with him and having his soft lips pressed against mine--so, this was going to make tonight so much harder.

"I'll come around your place at 7. I'll just have to get ready. Don't forget to pack some food for us, mister." I giggled as he rolled his green eyes at me. He grasped my hand as we made our way back to the Achievement Hunter office.

Jack was already busy at creating Fails of the Weak vids and Michael was still missing, on a mission to retrieve flowers for his fiancé. Gavin's never gotten me flowers, but, in truth, he didn't have to. Being awoken by his soft breathing against my neck in the morning, his light, feathery kisses and whispers of 'I love you' during our nights together was more special than pretty petals on green stems.

I was going to miss that when I was gone...

The day continued with me editing a few Let's Plays and doing a Podcast with Burnie, Gus, Gavin, and Miles. I felt sad as I listened to Miles talk about a funny story about how him and Rebel, the office dog, were playing a silly game earlier this week. I wouldn't see them for a while, only occasionally popping up during holidays and conventions.

Burnie stole a glance my direction as I knew he saw my hurt look in my eyes. He gave me a smile before retuning to Miles, not wanting to make my sadness obvious. Gavin's hand rested upon my thigh, rubbing his thumb against my bare flesh. I don't think Burnie minded as much, but still I could see the small glint of disapproval in his blue eyes towards our relationship.

As we finished up, I gave a quick kiss to Gavin.

"Can't wait for tonight." He whispered into my ear and I wanted to break down and cry in that moment. He didn't know what he was in for and I seriously hoped Burnie, my dad, and Matt were right: everything will be fine.

* * *

I dressed in my only lacy dress, it's dark blue ruffles made my skin seem paler, almost porcelain like. I brushed my hair up into an attractive pink ponytail, the ends curling into bouncing springs. Of course, I added my own tomboy flare and wore my ripped, torn sneakers that faded from its normal red colour to a light pink.

"How do I look?" I asked Ashley as she stirred a pot of chili in the kitchen. She grinned, her blue eyes sparkling.

"Absolutely stunning. Gavin's going to love it." She didn't even know yet and a pain ached in my heart, realising I would be leaving her too.

"Thanks. Did you call the cab for me?"

"Yeah, it's on its way," She clacked the ladle against the side of the pot, chili chunks flying back into the pot. "Should I add anything to this?"

"I don't know. I've never cooked chili before. Maybe cheese?" I shrugged and she gasped, bonking her head with her hand.

"Duh, of course! Silly me." She giggled. That giggle was making me miss this place already.

Burnie came out of the bathroom, rubbing his shirt against his glass' lense. When he placed them back on his face, he looked me over and smiled.

"You look amazing, Jane." He gave me a side hug.

"Thanks. It's just a little something I found underneath my band tshirts." I shrugged, touching the bottom of the dress with nervous fingers. He rubbed my arm.

"You'll be fine," He whispered to me. "Just stay calm and make sure he understands." I nodded.

The honk of the cab outside made me jump and Ashley laughed. "Go on!" She nearly pushed me out the door, chili covered ladle in hand. I laughed as I made my way to the yellow cab that awaited me.

I was so nervous, I couldn't think straight. Gavin has always been supportive of me and my desires, so hopefully he wouldn't argue with me on this. I knew I had to do this, for myself and for my future. I loved my Gavy, so much it hurt my heart. He was such a blessing in my life and I was glad I gave him a chance instead of judging him by the videos he did. He was such a huge difference from Will, I almost felt sure I could be part of a stable relationship.

As the complex where he lived pulled up, I took a deep breath, paid the cabbie, and stepped out, smoothing my dress. I climbed up the steep steps to where the front door awaited me and I sighed out before knocking on it. Gavin immediately opened it, his grin big and happy.

"Hey." He brought me close and kissed my mouth, hands on my waist. "You look gorgeous." He said as he pulled back.

"Thanks," I smiled. He was in a regular black shirt and a pair of his tight trousers. "Did you get everything together?" I asked and he held up a finger before running to the kitchen. I giggled as I watched him emerge, blanket thrown over his shoulder and a woven, wicker basket on his arm. I took the basket from him which was heavy with food, making me use my hands instead of wrist.

He slung his arm over my shoulders as we walked to our destination and I leaned against him, head resting against his shoulder as we walked.

"Sun's going down." I said, watching the sun start to dip down amongst the trees.

"I brought some candles Griffon had stored away." Gavin said and I nodded.

The meadow was large, not like the one from the Twilight movie, but greener and had small, red flowers growing amongst the grass. We went to the middle of the field and Gavin set down the dark blue blanket. He took the basket from me so I could sit and as I did he began placing the food and utensils down. He had many candles like he said and two sandwiches, beers, a bag of grapes, and two small cake slices that were so dainty looking.

"I'm impressed." I grinned. Gavin chuckled and lit a few candles with a lighter he brought.

"Got to make it perfect for my little Piglet." He said, earning a groan from me. It only made him laugh.

"You did not."

"Oh, yes I did." He sat beside me, pulling me against him so my head would lay against his chest. I smiled as he gave me my sandwich. He uncapped the dark bottle of beer for me and himself. The dancing flames of the candles casted tiny shadows against our blanket and the blinking lights from the stars above made the mood seem comforting and romantic by the moment.

"What made you want to do this?" Gavin asked, taking a bite from his sandwich. I broke off a piece of bread from mine and stuck it in my mouth.

"I just wanted to be somewhere private and different. Somewhere special." Somewhere before the news came out of my mouth.

"It is relaxing out here. I've only been out here once, but that was during the 4th of July Geoff, Griffon, and Millie made me watch the fireworks. We came out here and looked up as different colours blasted up into the sky. It was quite awesome." I knew what the 4th of July was, but never had I experienced one.

"Sounds fun. I've only seen fireworks once in my life." I take a full bite of my sandwich this time. I didn't know when I would break the conversation and tell him. There wasn't a good place to stop him.

"Once? Jesus. I'm going to have to change that someday." He brought his beer up to his lips.

"I was 5 the first time and it was New Years, but I barely remember it."

"Maybe this year we could have a BBQ at the office and set off tons of fireworks. I could ask Geoff." Oh god, I was going to let the tears flow. "We always get the biggest fireworks to blare off on that day. Of course, we always let Millie choose, so we don't have a choice." He chuckled and I did the same.

Once we finished the food he packed, we laid down against the soft, velvet blanket. I rested my head against his chest with his arm wrapped around me and his hand playing with my curls. I had no idea when to tell him. It was getting harder and harder to come out with news.

"I love you." He said, kissing my forehead and I closed my eyes, letting a tear slip down my cheek. I let out a shaky breath, my lips trembling from the want to cry and let out all of my feelings.

"I love you too." I mumbled, burying my face into the crook of his neck.

"So very much." He continued and I had to stop myself from completely sobbing. He was making my choice so much harder.

"Gavin..." I lifted my head to stare at him. He had his hand in his pocket, fingers twitching lightly inside. "I-I have to say something." He looked to me, sitting up as I moved back to fully look at him. His eyes went nervous and he bit his lip.

"What's wrong? You alright?" He asked.

"Yes, everything's fine. It's just..." I sighed out and pulled out the slip of parchment from the slip pocket my dress had. He glanced at the paper I held and gave me a confused glance.

"What's that?" He asked.

"This...this, um, was on Burnie's doorstep yesterday. It was something I never thought I would receive." I unfolded the paper from its square shape and looked at the acceptance letter from Oxford. He waited for me to continue. "Remember when I told you about all of the colleges that refused me?" When he nodded I continued. "Well, apparently, there was one that finally came upon my application and they sent me this." I handed the paper to him and I watched as he read it over.

His eyes grew a little wide when he read and he ruffled his hair. "Oxford, huh? You got in?" He looked up.

"Yeah. It's the school I was mostly interested in." I took back the paper when he handed it to me, folding it back into my pocket. Gavin's hand still played in his pocket as his other rubbed his chin.

"A-Are you going?" He asked. I could tell he was nervous, more than ever at the moment. He seemed more nervous than me and that made me scared.

"I don't want to leave you behind or everyone at the office. I love it here so much and I'm so happy I came," He smiled a little and I didn't want to see that falter at all. "But yes. I'm going. I'll be leaving sometime during the first week of May. There's a programme they want me to take before I start my course. It said so on the letter, so I have to leave next month."

"Next month..." He sighed out and I couldn't help but want to hold him and kiss him. "How long until you come back?" Now, here was where things became worse.

"Well, for my course, it's the appropriate amount...4 years." That made his eyes widen even more and he turned away, his hand leaving his pocket and running it through hair.

"4 bloody years!" He shook his head.

"I'll still come out during holidays and I'll be able to see you next month when you come to England for the convention. Also, whenever you do your Slow Mo Guys, I will come visit as well. We'll still be able to see each other."

"Barely." He chuckled bitterly.

"What about summers? Then I can come too." I leaned forward.

"Yeah, sure. But I'd have to count down the days to when you leave again." This was going downhill so fast. I couldn't allow that--I didn't want it to. Gavin was the one I've been waiting for, the one I fell in love with.

"If you love me, then please support my decision. I want to do this. Leaving you is going to be the hardest thing I will have to face. This is my only opportunity to going to this school and I have to take it. We can still Skype and call each other." I grabbed his hand. At least he didn't pull away. He gripped my hand right, rubbing his thumb along the back.

"Maybe you can take online courses like Bree is doing. Did you think of that?" He asked. I did, but what Burnie said still swam in my mind.

"I-I did but I want to experience something. Going to the college and seeing everything will do that. I love you and I want you to understand why I'm doing this." I could see tears in his eyes from where I sat and I wanted to brush them away, hug him tight, and stay like that forever.

"I understand, Jane. I support your decision and I love you for doing this. You're so strong where as if I was in your place I wouldn't be able to go through with it," He sighed. "Even though it will be hard, I'll just have to wait for you to come back." He pulled my hand so I came closer and he placed a sweet kiss upon my lips, making me emotional and letting the tears spill from my eyes.

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A/N: (typed on mobile) Oh dear, the Javin feels are large!!! I hope I didn't make you seethe with anger towards me or drench yourselves in tears. Please know, I don't do this out of pure enjoyment, I do it to make my story have drama and sentimental touches.

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