Chapter 4

"What the hell happened?" Jaeden groaned, walking downstairs.

I smiled joyfully and rolled my way to the end of the stairs.

"Vanessa?" Jaeden looked at me with wide eyes, he had this sparkle in his eyes.

"I caught you before you could hit the ground." I chuckled.

"Oh god, your leg. How did you manage?" Jaeden stampered.

"You gave me the strength, I guess." I whispered.

"You wanna talk upstairs?" He asked.

"Sure." I say.

He lifted me up and held me bridal style as I gasped.

"You're..." I trailed off.

"Strong." He shivered nervously.

"Yeah," I chuckled.

We were now in his room.

"Spit it." I say.

"I wanted to protect you, back in tour when you preformed the song with me. I was surprised but scared, I wanted to keep you safe. I thought that if I was away from you, you'd be safe. So I made an excuse to see Sophia after the show." He confessed. "She didn't want me. And I didn't want her but I made myself believe I did. Right before you had your... Accident.. I saw you and Wyatt kissing, I felt so betrayed. I thought you loved me so I went with Sophia and kissed her."

I saw tears running down his face.

"I didn't want to. But I thought maybe, just maybe, it'll make me think of something else but you." He said.

I held his face, we were sitting on his bed.

"And then I stopped talking to you." I say. "You hurt me, you didn't even have the courage to check up on me in the hospital. I could have died!"

"I was scared, terrified. My mom didn't let me out of the house because I became sick. Very sick." Jaeden's voice cracked.

"Jaeden you dont-"

"No I do. You deserve an explanation for why I quit everything." He stopped me. "After you, I was destroyed. My heart was in pain because I knew I could never find someone like you. You're so beautiful and amazing, nice and sweet. You're different in your own way."

I hugged him tightly .

"I started to hear voices, scary voices. They told me I was trash and I didn't deserve you." He said. "I tried to hurt myself. Because I couldn't live with you, breathing hurt so much. Even waking up drained me so fucking much."

"Jaeden." I started. "Dreams they come, plans they change. Yeah we're gonna break, yeah we're gonna break."

I held his head to face me.

"Baby you're a star, shining in the dark." I sang softly. "Let's go back to the summer the summer when we, dreamed and loved. Let's go back again."

I placed his head on my lap.

"I'm holding a picture, from 7 years back. I smile at the memory, you smiling right back at me." I smiled.
"And I see, brown hair with bright eyes. Such a beautiful blue, a heart full of laughter with nothing to lose. Thats how I remember you."

I climb onto his comouter chair and rolled to his laptop.

I pressed his music app and played the drums.

"You were young, you were free and you dared to believe you could be the boy who can change the world." I changed up my lyrics of my song I written a long time ago.

It was when I was going to give up on music, but then I found my voice.
And now im here. I'm alive.

"I'm still in love with you, Nessa. I know I was wrong when I left you in that wheelchair, but I was scared that if I fell for you...Something  would happen to you." Jaeden cried.

"If something happened to me, just know I'll die loving you." I said as tears created in my eyes.

"I will stay with you no matter what. This time, I promise. You need me more than ever and I need you more than ever." He said.

"Then I'll stay." I said. "Come to Chicago."

"Okay." He said.

"Really?" I said totally shocked.

"Yeah, if being with you means that I have to fly a lot of miles, I want it." He said.

"I love you." I reminded him and hugged him.

"I love you too." He replied.

It felt good when he said that.

The universe tested us, tested our love and strength for each other. Sure, there was downs and ups but think about it. Life has its ups and downs, if it doesn't... You're dead.

The relationships that go through hard shit together are the ones who intended for each other.

And now I know, that I want to be with Jaeden and if I want to be happy again then I have to do what my heart wants.

"Help me up now." I said.

"Yeah," He wiped his eyes and carried me downstairs.

"So, have you guys smashed yet?" Matthew cleared his throat.

"Say that again and I will be the one smashing your throat." I threatened as Jaeden placed me on the couch.

I hear a door click and see Jaeden's mom, Angela.

She looks up as she's holding groceries.

"Its you!" She exclaimed angrily.

"What? Who?" I questioned.

She ripped me and Jaeden apart and pushed Jaeden behind her.

"Leave my son alone! All of you! I thought only Finn was goimg to hang with him, how dare you trick me like that!" She yelled.

"With all due respect ma'am, Jaeden wouldn't even have the strength to make it downstairs if it werent for Nessa." Matthew said.

"You're the whole reason why he even has depression!" She exclaimed.

She pushed me off the couch.

"If we didn't come in time he would be dead!" I snapped back.

"I hate you! Leave him alone, get out of my house!" She screamed.

"Fine, but not without him." I say trying to get up.

I could barely feel my feet still.

"Never! This is my house and of you guys don't get out right now, I swear I will call the police!" She yelled pointing towards the door.

Finn helped me up on the wheelchair, I look at Jaeden who gives Finn a death stare.

I rolled my eyes and finally managed to get in my chair.

"You know where to meet me." I say softly to Jaeden.

He nods slightly as his mom comtinues go argue with Matt.

We go outside his house and get into the car again.

I wonder what's going to happen next.