(A/N: not that anyone cares but today is my birthday :) so I thought I'd write a lot more for you guys and publish more for today )

Chapter 18

I haven't mentioned Lilia yet. She's in jail long story short. Good for me because I never want to see her again. I was stronger now because of therapy and she could no longer control me. I was no longer afraid of her but just the things she was capable of doing.

Wyatt was found innocent because he did have a mental issue going on so he did the help he needed as well as me.

Jaeden was always a mystery and maybe that's why I haven't stopped having that connection in my heart.

Today was December 10th, meaning that in about 12 days it would be my birthday and Finn's. We were best friends born on the same day and we never knew until now. We decided to go back to Chicago later and visit our old safe havens.

      "I'm so killing you." Finn told me as we got into Matt's Tesla.

     "You love me." I teased.

        "Oh but I do," Finn winked and I laughed. We always loved to play as a relationship at times because it was fun to mess with people's minds.

     We made it to Wendy's and ordered at the drive through, then Matt drove us to this nice park that had a really weird playground set.

     "If I could have fries for the rest of my life, I would." I admired the fry I held in my hand.

     "Forgot to say, Millie, Noah and Gaten are coming over to the house at 7." Finn said.

     "Sadie? Sophia? Loren? Zach? Ariel? Wyatt? Ja-" I stopped myself from completing the last name. How dare I almost expose myself accidently!

     "What was that?" Matt smirked at me.

      "What was what?" I say completely clueless with an innocent look.

     "I'll invite them," Finn took out his phone.

     Our house was HUGE! Not to brag..

     It had about 10 bedrooms and a huge movie theater. The stairs were big enough to slide down with a mattress. A good slumber party.

We head back to the house and by then it was 5:25pm. 

I rushed to my room an shut the door with lock as Finn chased me. 

     "Open up the door!" Finn shouted, banging on the door.

        "Promise you'll not attack me!" I shout back with fear. I didn't want to be tackled onto the ground by Finn, he would never stop tickling me and he knows that's my weakness. 

         "Alright Wolfhard, leave the girl alone." I heard Matt grunt as the footsteps grew less noisy, meaning he was dragging Finn away.

I sat on my bed with a sigh, I scrolled through my phone and looked at my unreleased songs. 

Wildest Dreams.

Someone like you.

3am. 

And I'm also working on another song with Finn actually, it's funny writing the lyrics but right now we have this..

Let's talk about all the things that we shouldn't talk about
Those kind of words that will change all the things we talk about
Tell me do you ever think of us?
Should I ask for more or should I stop?

What if our tomorrow means that we are here together?
What if we are taking chances just to lose it all?
Am I really crazy thinking 'bout this all together?
What if I've been missing,
The writing on the wall?

         That's Finns part, my part will come in later but after that line we thought it would be best to place the pre-chorus right after those 9 lines. We are working on it though which has been going GREAT. Totally not because Im making a bomb song with my best friend, pff.

     Listen, I feel nothing towards Finn! Trust me, that would completely ruin our friendship as it is. We love each other in a brother and sister way, we don't support incest duh. All of our fans shipped us from the start after Jaeden and I had our break up... I value our friendship even if some part of us catches feelings which I am 90% sure will NEVER happen.

Suddenly my phone rang, which I picked up on.

     "Nessa, is your song almost done?" My manager and director, Andy asked.

      "I need more time..?" I questioned with a hint of fear, I didn't want to get in trouble. We've had 2 months to finish it and we still couldn't get to the chorus.

     I hear Andy sigh, "Nes-"

     "I know, I know! I just can't really get a chorus with Finn." I explained quickly.

       "You guys play around a lot, it's time to get into business again! Stop acting like a child." Andy exclaimed in a reasonable manner.

       "Yeah... I just, I want to forget about everything." I explained with a voice crack. "It's been three years."

     "I know, you have a chance to get your life back.." I heard him say softly. "But that's your choice, either to fight or be stuck in the past forever."

     "I'll call you up later, the song will be done for sure tonight." I advised, positively.

     "Sure," Andy replied with sarcasm, ending the call.

     I signed louder and get off my bed, searching for an outfit to wear to see all of my friends and Cameron.

After I put on my oufit, it was 5:54pm.

     I left my room and saw Matt and Finn setting up the food for all of our friends, I missed them so much.

     I wouldn't be saying Jaeden but it was okay, I needed to start living in the present and not the past.

     "Finn, we need to finish the song tonight." I tell Finn while I set up the Netflix.

     "Alright, want to work now after I get the plates ready?" He nodded.

         "Yeah, try not to play around a lot... Our deadline was a long time ago." I said.

     "Got it," He hugged me. "Can't wait."

     I smiled at him and finished setting up the Netflix, I walked into our studio which was two rooms away from me.

I sat down on the computer chair and adjusted the microphone and waited.