Pov : Harry

As I opened my eyes, all the memories of yesterday came flooding back. I took a deep breath and began to pack my clothes, there were barely any. I hung the bag over the shoulder and opened the door. He was on the floor, puffy, baggy eyes and slumped shoulders, he looked like he had a fever. I placed my hand on his forehead, I was right, he did have a fever. I took a tablet from the cabinet, filled a glass of water and wrote him a note. I felt bad for leaving him in this state but I knew I couldn't stay.

" You have a fever, please take these medicines and take care. I just need to think for a bit. Don't worry about me.

love you,

harry "

By the time I reached Mum's, last night had replayed itself more than 50 times and it hurt as much every time. I was tired, I was exhausted, It didn't feel like all this was enough. I wanted to give up, save both of us from the pain.

Mum opened the door and pulled me into a hug, I sent her a text earlier letting her know I'm visiting. When she pulled apart she looked at me and ran her finger over my cheek. " I've got some tea on the stove " she states and I nod, " Please ". I leave my bag in my room, wash my face and head downstairs.

She has already placed the tea and biscuits on the coffee table. Why is it even called a coffee table, bold of the creator to assume everyone just drinks coffee, huh.

" I thought everything was going well " She started, handing me my cup of tea.

" So did I " I said, chucking drying and she frowned.

" I caught lou with eleanor yesterday night " I stated, emotionless and her eyes widened.

" well he didn't mean to, I don't think " I said again, giving context.

" what do you mean, he didn't mean to " She asks and I give her a detailed explanation of the whole night.

By the time I'm done, both of our glasses of tea are over. She walks over to my side of the sofa and hugs me and that breaks me. I go from being emotionless to sobbing into her shoulder. " I'm sorry this is happening to you baby " she whispers. " it's not your fault " I murmur and she nods. " You both don't deserve this and I know lou, he would never do this to you " she said and I let out another sob.

Why us. Why me and why him, why do we need to go through so much.

" What are you going to do " She asks,

" I don't know Mum " I say, still crying.

" It's going to be okay baby, don't worry " She soothes , rubbing my back.

" Why Mum, I just don't get it, why does it have to be so hard "

" It's always hard love, the most beautiful things are always the most difficult to get. All you need to decide is if it's worth it. Is it worth it? Is he worth it? Is love worth all this pain ? " She asks, seriously.

" Love is always worth it " I say, without even a thought.

" Not always darling, I know how much this hurts you and I know your heart can't take this any longer. I hate seeing you like this, so unless you're absolutely sure, you can't wear your heart on your sleeve anymore "

I know she's right. I know I can't take this much longer, but I can't take anything without him either.

" But I love him, Mum " I whisper.

" Love is not always enough, sometimes you need so much more than that, you need trust, you need faith and you need luck. " She said and she was right, I knew she was right.

But it's not that easy is it? I can't let go now, not after I lost him once already.

" You need some time and you're going to stay here, okay? We're gonna have some fun and forget about all this drama and later you can make a decision after your head is clear " She said and I nodded.

" That sounds good " I said and she pushed me off the couch.

" Chop chop, go get dressed we're going for a swim "

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okay so well, I have decided not to abandon this story well because I was reading something and the author left the story on a cliffhanger in 2015 :D and I genuinely screamed :)

I'm bored of this story, mainly because I'm rewriting but I just need to get this over with, So I'll be finishing this up in the following week. There won't be more than 10 more chapters to the ending, but don't worry it won't be rushed.

Hope you're liking it so far <3 Thank you for still staying

All the love,

p.j