pov:Hazza

I shower, get some lunch and get ready for the show. I'm feeling upbeat and like myself. I feel happy almost. I go backstage and get my hair and make up done. I step on stage. 

🛁🛁🛁

I get out of the bath and I hear my phone ringing. I quickly put on a robe and step out. 

* Lima beans is calling *

" Hey " I hear on the other end of the line. 

" Hi Liam " I respond. 

" Ayyy what's up " He asks.

" touring and stuff...pretty busy " I reply.

" how are you though "

" I'm alright " I say and hear a long sigh.

" you have to do something. this killing you " he says, in a low tone. 

" too bad I can't do anything about it " 

" The contract ends in December Harry, that's only like 2-3 weeks " 

" yeah but the contract isn't the problem. It's him. He doesn't want me. He doesn't want us "

" Are you kidding me right now? God. Have you even heard his songs " Liam says laughing. 

" No I haven't, I haven't been able to bring myself to listen to it " I say, honestly.

" then you should. Soon " he says. 

" It doesn't matter " I say, tired of speaking of the same thing again and again. 

" It does, he's miserable " liam says. 

" what about me then? He was the one who cut it off okay? He was the one who decided he doesn't want me anymore ? and now he's miserable - " I say with anger, but I'm interrupted.

"Hw and niall were over yesterday and " he says fast, then stops.

" and what? " I spit.

" He self harms " he says slowly. 

what the fuck. 

" ARE YOU JOKING? THIS ISN'T FUNNY LIAM " I shout. 

" WHY WOULD I JOKE HARRY? I SAW IT WITH  MY EYES " he shouts back. 

My mind which was twisting with anger now aches with hurt. 

you did this to him

" HARRY? Are you okay? " He asks concerned. 

" no " I choke out. 

" calm down. " he says, calmly. 

" I WILL NOT FUCKING CALM DOWN LIAM, HE'S TRYING TO FUCKING KILL HIMSELF AND YOU'RE TELLING ME TO CALM DOWN? " I shout at him.. 

" He said he's better. He hasn't in a while. He's better. I'm talking to him " Liam repeats and I don't know if he's trying to convince me, or himself.

" It's okay. He's okay. He needs you. Harry he needs you " He repeats again and I just take a deep breathe. 

" Listen to Too Young. That's all I want you to do. Listen to it harry. Please " He pleads. 

" I'll listen to it " I say and he lets out a breathe.

" okay okay " 

" take care of him " 

" I will, but he needs you " He says.

He didn't want me.

" bye liam " 

" bye harry take care " and with that I end the call and play Too Young. 

Too young, I wish I could've seen it all along

I'm sorry that I hurt you, darling, no, oh

Sorry? You're sorry now?

It's hard to think you could ever hate me

But everything's feeling different now

I don't hate you louis. I don't hate you. I hate that even after all this I love you. I hate that I love you.  I hate that even though you don't want me I'm in love with you. 

When they said a love like this would never last

So I cut you off 'cause I didn't know no better

Now I realize, yeah, I realize

I swallow.