Cape Town, Mid April 2014
3:12 am

Jamie's POV

This is the first time I'm calling Maca today but I don't know why I have the feeling that she might answer this time, I know it's early in the evening in Chicago, it's three in the morning in Cape Town, I couldn't sleep, I miss her too much. It's the forth ring and it will go to voicemail after the next one, even if she doesn't answer I will leave a message this time telling how much I miss her. As I'm getting ready to speak to the answering machine, I hear her sweet voice.

"He-hello?"

I can't speak. My heart is racing, I think it might explode in my chest.

"Jamie? Are you there?"

I have to talk to her. Say something Dornan!

"Hi"

She gasped and stayed quiet. Now it was my turn to ask if she was there.

"Maqui?"

"I'm here"

Her answer was short and cold. She allows only a few people to call her that, and right now I guess I'm not on her good list.

"How are you?"

"I'm fine, it's been a while. How are you?"

Her coldness brakes my heart but I have to take this chance she's giving me.

"It's a cold night"

What the fuck? I haven't spoken with my girl in months and all I can talk about it's the weather???

"Hum.... What time is it?"

Her voice is not that cold this time, I would say she sounds confused, like why would I call her to talk about the weather in South Africa???

"A little after three, what time is it there?

"A little after seven......pm"

"I'm eight hours into the future"

She giggles, I can't believe it!!! I managed to make her smile!! What a lovely sound! This only shows me how much I've missed her.

"I miss you"

She stays quiet for a second I thought she has hung up.

"Jamie... I.....I just....."

I can't let her hang up on me.

"Do you know that Dulcie and Millie are living in Australia with Santi?"

She paused once again, I know she's pondering if she should hang up or not.

"Yeah, I know.... I was just on Skype with Santi"

I smile, of course she knows, Santi and Maca share a special bond, they are very close.

"And Dulcie"

She filled in since I became quiet.

"How is my baby girl? I'm supposed to call her early in the morning"

"She's precious Jamie! She's just perfect"

"Yes, she is....... How are things on set? Do you like Chicago?"

"Yes! I love it! Actually, I am thinking of buying an apartment here. It's a beautiful city.... You would like it!"

These last four words brought hope to my soul, she wants me there.

"I'm sure I would. Maybe you can give me a city tour one of these days"

Silence.....

"Hum... How is South Africa?"

Horrible without you.

"It's beautiful, you would love the beaches, did you know you can find one of the best beaches in the world to surf?"

"Yeah! Wayo used to go there when I was a teenager and I'd dream that one day I would be surfing that beautiful ocean"

Her excitement left me with lack of words, an awkward silence invade our conversation and before she hang up on me I said what I wanted to say since she left London.

"I am so sorry, Maca! I was a complete idiot, there are no words to express how sorry I am....."

"Jamie, don't!"

"No, please. Let me talk. I didn't handle the entire Vancouver situation with a right mind, I should have stayed and waited for you. I understand now. I understand that you did what you had to do, for your career, then you went and met Dulcie and that was fine. I was a complete asshole for not waiting for you and then for getting that drunk and kissing that girl. I'm sorry baby, she meant nothing, no woman in this world would be able to replace what I have with you"

I stopped to catch my breath and heard her soft cries.

"Baby, don't cry! Not when I'm miles away and can't hold you"

"It's just... You hurt me so much! I can't... I just can't do this"

No she was sobbing and I got desperate, there was nothing I could do to make it better.

"Maqui, my love, you are the one. You've always been. It doesn't matter if it takes me a lifetime, I will redeem myself. I love you and I always will, so please just give me a chance to show you how much You are loved by this bloody stupid and hardheaded Irish man"

She giggled a little. Hope...

"Time.... I need time, Jamie"

Fair enough.

"I will wait for as long as you need. Just don't give up on me. Don't give up on us. Do you still have your engagement ring?"

"Yes, I just can't wear it, it hurts when I see it"

"I'm sorry my love. I'm deeply sorry. I love you"

More silence, but this time it isn't awkward, I can feel her trying to find the right words.

"I.... Jamie, I.......love you too. But right now it's really hard not to be mad at you, I went to London to mend things up but you had other plans. I need time. That's all I ask"

I could fight back and defend myself saying that I just kissed that girl once, that I was hurt too. But Macarena doesn't deserve that.

"Ok, love. I will give you all the time you need as long as you promise me at least one phone call or message a day to tell me about your day"

More silence. This quiet Macarena is killing me.

"That's too much, it won't give me time to think. At least once a week"

"Twice"

She giggled. Dornan, you are a man of luck!

"Ok. Twice. Now go to sleep. I'm sure you have to film tomorrow"

She still cares about me.

"I do. Have sweet dreams, my love"

"Sleep well, Jamie"

And she hung up. With no ceremony. No warning. I'm left with hope and a promise. I take a picture of myself in bed and send it to her with the caption "Dream of me" she visualized the message but never replied and I fell into a blissful sleep filled with hope of getting my girl back.

Chicago, Mid April 2014
7:12 pm

Macarena's  POV

As soon as I close the door of my bedroom I slide the phone to answer it before it goes to voicemail.

"He-hello?"

Silence... Did he hang up?

"Jamie? Are you there?"

Maybe he did hang up, I'm about to do that myself when I hear his voice.

"Hi"

His accent very present, his voice thick. I gasped because I just realized how much I miss his voice. His accent. My heart starts pounding in my chest.

"Maqui?"

The sound of my nickname in his mouth it's like daggers to my heart. He's not allowed to call me that.

"I'm here"

"How are you?"

The concern in his voice makes me lower my defenses, just a tiny bit.

"I'm fine, it's been a while. How are you?"

"It's a cold night"

Huh? Weather? Seriously? After all this time he's going to talk about the weather? Maybe he's as nervous as I am. I have to help him.

"Hum.... What time is it?"

"A little after three, what time is it there?

His answer came back fast. I guess our conversation will be about weather and time. So I answered.

"A little after seven......pm"

"I'm eight hours into the future"

This made me giggle. I remember the times we used to watch 'Back to the Future' when we were in Vancouver. Our happy days.

"I miss you"

I keep quiet for me not to cry, I miss him too. So much that it hurts.

"Jamie... I.....I just....."

I'm about to hang up because I can't break down in front of him.

"Do you know that Dulcie and Millie are living in Australia with Santi?"

Should I hang up? I guess not, now the conversation is taking another turn.

"Yeah, I know.... I was just on Skype with Santi"

Should I tell him that I was with Dulcie too? I guess so.... He was so awfully quiet.

"And Dulcie"

"How is my baby girl? I'm supposed to call her early in the morning"

It's amazing how his voice changes every time he talks about her. I'm happy he is that close to Dulcie. He will be great father, he already is.

"She's precious Jamie! She's just perfect"

"Yes, she is....... How are things on set? Do you like Chicago?"

I hate it....without you.

"Yes! I love it! Actually, I am thinking of buying an apartment here. It's a beautiful city.... You would like it!"

What??? You are an idiot Macarena! You're inviting him over??? What if he's moved on?

"I'm sure I would. Maybe you can give me a city tour one of these days"

I'm sure he's just being polite.

"Hum... How is South Africa?"

Silence.... We are full of them.

"It's beautiful, you would love the beaches, did you know you can find one of the best beaches in the world to surf?"

That's one of the reasons I wanted to go with you!

"Yeah! Wayo used to go there when I was a teenager and I'd dream that one day I would be surfing that beautiful ocean"

But it didn't happen, this is hard. I tried to sound excited but deep inside I'm hurting, I need to hang up so I can crawl in bed and cry myself to sleep.

"I am so sorry, Maca! I was a complete idiot, there are no words to express how sorry I am....."

I have to stop him. I can't do this now.

"Jamie, don't!"

"No, please. Let me talk. I didn't handle the entire Vancouver situation with a right mind, I should have stayed and waited for you. I understand now. I understand that you did what you had to do, for your career, then you went and met Dulcie and that was fine. I was a complete asshole for not waiting for you and then for getting that drunk and kissing that girl. I'm sorry baby, she meant nothing, no woman in this world would be able to replace what I have with you"

I couldn't help it, tears were running down my cheeks and I couldn't stop them.

"Baby, don't cry! Not when I'm miles away and can't hold you"

Now I was sobbing! I wanted him so much! I wanted to be in his arms and never let go.

"It's just... You hurt me so much! I can't... I just can't do this"

"Maqui, my love, you are the one. You've always been. It doesn't matter if it takes me a lifetime, I will redeem myself. I love you and I always will, so please just give me a chance to show you how much You are loved by this bloody stupid and hardheaded Irish man"

A giggle scape my lips, please stress the hardheaded part! But I can't mend my heart this fast.. I need time.

"Time.... I need time, Jamie"

He sighed.

"I will wait for you as long as you need. Just don't give up on me. Don't give up on us. Do you still have your engagement ring?"

Of course I do. I had to take it off for filming and I put it in my chain that holds the Virgin Mary my mom gave me when I left Peru to pursue my model career.

"Yes, I just can't wear it, it hurts when I see it"

"I'm sorry my love. I'm deeply sorry. I love you"

I'm trying to find the right words, it's hard.....

"I.... Jamie, I.......love you too. But right now it's really hard not to be mad at you, I went to London to mend things up but you had other plans. I need time. That's all I ask"

He was quiet. I thought he was going to fight me on this and say that he was innocent, but he didn't and I respect him for that.

"Ok, love. I will give you all the time you need as long as you promise me at least one phone call or message a day to tell me about your day"

A day???? How am I supposed to think with a clear head if I will be talking to him everyday??

"That's too much, it won't give me time to think. At least once a week"

"Twice"

I giggled. I can't fight him. He's a stubborn man.

"Ok. Twice. Now go to sleep. I'm sure you have to film tomorrow"

I still care about him. I don't want him dragging himself around set tomorrow morning.

"I do. Have sweet dreams, my love"

"Sleep well, Jamie"

I hang up before my heart explodes. I would give anything to have him right here in my bed singing me a sweet song to sleep. I miss Jamie more than I thought I did. And it hurts not to be close to him. Not to be able to hold him. I laid on my bed with my phone still close to my heart when I received a message. When I opened it I couldn't stop the tears from falling it was a picture of him, he's grown a mustache, I'm sure it's for the role but he looks so handsome, I've been trying to avoid seeing his pictures because of exactly this, I can't handle seeing his handsome face, the one I fell in love with all these months ago. "Dream of me" said the caption... I will do just that after I cry myself to sleep.

*** Emotional. I know, but how would this conversation go? It was either this or a bad fight which would break them even more apart and I don't think that's what you want ;) Thank you guys for your support!!! I can't tell you how happy I am every time I see a comment or a vote from you!!! You guys rock!!! Xoxo-Z***