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*** Hello there! So this chapter is entirely Jamie's POV. Enjoy!!! ***

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!

It's all I could think of! Damn it! I left her crying! I hate when she cries, she should never cry. But I couldn't help myself, I needed to leave, I'm too mad, if I stayed I might have said  things that would  hurt her even more.

I need a drink.
Should I call Santiago?
Naaah he would talk to me into going back home, I need to think and if I see her, I'll just let this anger go and I need to work this out, I need to understand why am I so angry?

I hailed a taxi and asked the driver to take me to the closest Irish pub, he said that he'd take me to his friend's Patt's pub. It sounds good to me.

When we arrived I handed him a hundred dollar bill and he was beaming with enthusiasm so he told me once I was ready to leave to ask Patt to call him, his name was Taylor. Ironic, isn't it?

Patt was a tall, big, red haired man in his late fifties who had a sweet smile and asked me what I needed.

"A double whiskey and a Guiness"

"Coming right up"

My phone rang and when I was about to turn it off thinking it was Maca, I saw Eddie's name on the screen.

"Redmayne! It's been a while"

Patt served me the whiskey and I downed it.

"Hey Dornan! Why are you drinking and sounding pissed?"

How the hell does he know???

"How the hell do you know I'm drinking??"

"You've just made this funny sound you make when drinking whiskey. And you sound pissed as fuck, so I guessed"

"I'm pissed indeed!"

"What happened? Look, I'm in L.A, if you want me there it'll take me three hours"

"Nah, I'm good. I'm just pissed at Macarena, it'll get better after the fourth shot"

I signaled Patt for another dose of whiskey.

"Wanna talk about it??"

"There's no much to talk about"

"Why are you so mad?"

"Well, we were shooting this scene for Fifty and it was a sex scene, we had just had sex but during the scene she was very close to having another orgasm in front of Sam and the crew"

"Ok........ So just for me to understand, you got mad because she almost came during a scene?"

"Yes!!"

"Humm...."

And there was this annoying sound he usually makes when trying to think of a better way to let me know that I'm wrong. And I am NOT wrong!!!

"Look Eddie, I know what you're trying to do and it's not going to work. I am very angry at Macarena because she doesn't control herself when acting. She needs to make a difference when it's real and when it's pretend, how do I know she won't be having orgasms when acting with other men?"

"Ah Ha! So that's what you're so angry about!!! You're jealous of something that hasn't happened yet! Dornan you're loosing it!"

"No I'm not! I googled the guy she'll be acting with, Taylor Kinney, he's good looking, what if she falls for him?"

"You mean Lady Gaga's boyfriend???"

And he started laughing!!! How dare him!!

"This isn't funny Redmayne!!!"

I signaled Patt for another shot.

"Well mate it is kind of funny! You're jealous of this guy who is dating Lady Gaga????"

"You don't know Macarena"

Now his laughing stopped.

"No mate! Apparently YOU don't! That girl loves you and she would never do that to you, that Kinney man is no competition to you. What's going on mate? Why are you doubting yourself or your girl?"

"How do you know him?"

"Friends in common. Don't try to distract me, I know what you're doing. You haven't answered me because you don't even have an answer. You are not jealous of this dude, there's something else going on and when you're ready to tell me, I'll be here to listen. Now stop drinking your sorry ass and go home"

I was on my fourth shot, and I wasn't feeling a bit better. I hung up the phone and asked Patt for another round.

"Love troubles?"

He asked, by his accent I could tell he was from Dublin.

"Is there a better reason for a lad to drink his pain away?"

"Probably not, but my question is why would a lad like you be having lassie troubles?"

"She's a special one"

I pressed the unlock button on my phone so I could show him my screen protector which is a picture of Maca and I smiling in Holywood, she has her hair loose and she's radiant, I remember my dad took that picture and afterwards he said that she was a keeper and for me not to screw it up.

"She looks like a keeper"

"She is"

"Then why are you here talking to an old man like me and you are not home making sweet love to her?"

My cock twitched at this comment, I guess my buddy down there misses her too.

"I'm upset because in a few weeks we'll be apart for two months and I don't know if she will wait for me. She's very beautiful and I know men will be throwing themselves at her feet and I'll be too far away to prevent her from falling for another lad"

"Hummmm"

There's another hummmm sound, these people are annoying!!!

"I don't know your lassie but by the picture I can tell that she loves you, I doubt she'll be falling for another lad in such short period of time"

"She fell for me in less than a month"

"Well boy, if you have so many insecurities is because you don't feel she loves you that much"

"No, that I have no doubt. I know she loves me. I don't know why though."

I downed my fifth whiskey and tapped the glass to indicate I wanted another one. Patt indulged me but he looked as if trying to say something.

"Ye know, love is a funny thing, the only thing we want is to find that someone to love us endlessly, but when we find it, we doubt it because it might be too good to be true. And you my mate are having doubts because this beautiful girl fell in love with you in a short period of time and she might do it with another lad. I think you're not only underestimating her but mostly yourself, you should have a better opinion of yourself, if she loves you for real, and if it's meant to be, there's no distance, time or lad that can take her away from you, and in the meantime, you concentrate in making her happy"

"You're right! I should be with her enjoying our last weeks together and not here drinking my sorry ass. Would you call Taylor? I'm ready to leave"

"He's been here since you got off the phone"

"Thank you mate! I'll come back with her so you'll meet her"

"You do that young lad"

I paid my bill and ran outside where Taylor was patiently waiting for me. I gave him the address and off we went to find my love. It was very late, I knew she was sleeping by now but still I wanted to hold her while she sleeps.

I got home stumbling a little and was surprised to find Maca sitting on a stool by the kitchen counter with a glass of wine in her hand, she looked sad, I hated myself for putting that sad look in her face.
She looked up and I smiled at her. My voice came up in a whisper.

"Hi"

"Hi"

She smiled but it didn't reach her beautiful blue eyes.

"Can we talk?"

I walked carefully towards her.

"Sure, I'll make us some coffee"

She threw the rest of her wine down the drain and busied herself with her Brazilian coffee 'machine' and I went to grab the teapot to boil the water. She gave me a glance and I winked at her.

"Just trying to make myself useful"

She smiled again but this time the smile did reach her eyes.

"Look baby, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have made you cry"

"Why were you so mad at me?"

Tears flooded her eyes and I couldn't help it but to reach for her and embraced her in my arms.

"I am an asshole, I am an idiot, I have no excuses for tonight's behavior, I am deeply sorry, you don't deserve to be treated like that, I am just getting anxious for leaving you alone for such a long time"

"At first I felt that way but now I understand that our love is strong enough to survive two months apart, besides, I'm planning to visit you in Cape Town and I hope you will go see me in Chicago"

"Of course I will, love"

I kissed her tenderly, she brings the best of me. She sighed in relief.

"I'm truly sorry baby. I was stupid and jealous"

"Jealous? Of what?"

"Of anything that might come your way in the next two months"

Now I was rewarded with that giggle of hers that I love so much.

"Are you kidding me? Were you seriously jealous?? I thought I did something wrong and you were just jealous?? Of whom??"

I looked down because now that I admit it to myself I feel embarrassed by my actions.

"Nobody specifically, I just don't want you having an orgasm with somebody else while filming"

Now the smile on her face faded. She got pissed.

"You're kidding,right? You can't seriously be saying that! You don't trust me? You don't trust my love for you??"

She pulled away from my arms and continued her task, as in cue the teapot went off.

"I do trust you, I just don't trust others"

She slammed the teapot against the kitchen counter. Now she was mad. Her blue eyes were a stormy shade.

"Well, then you think very little of me if you think that I'll be falling for other guy or even having an orgasm with some random John. Do you think I'm that slutty???"

I tried to reach for her but she stepped away. Now I was in trouble.

"Of course not baby! I just..... I ... I don't know what I thought, I was stupid, I am truly sorry"

I looked down again, I am an asshole!

The silence between us was killing me but I didn't dare to look up nor did I dare to speak, I could feel her pacing around, she was thinking.

"I was close to coming because it was YOU pushing the right buttons, not any other man. I love YOU! And nothing nor anybody in this world will change that. I took the part in Chicago because YOU wanted me to, I wanted to wait because I wanted to go to Cape Town with you and then you'd come to Chicago or any other city with me, you know, like alternate roles, when you're filming I'd be with you and vice versa"

That hadn't occurred to me and it was a fantastic idea.

"That's a great idea love"

"Yeah it was, but I think it's too late now. Look, I'm tired, I just want to go to bed and be done with this day, we'll be filming the red room scenes tomorrow, it's going to be a long day. Here!"

She handed me the coffee and I sipped it while watching her drink hers, she looked so beautiful in her long black nightgown that was open in the back, she looked very edible to me and my cock reacted to the view of her.

I took the mug from her hands and placed it along with mine on the sink. I reached for her hand.

"Come here Maca, let me explain one last thing"

I grabbed her waist and sat her on the kitchen counter.

"You know, I've just discovered that I am a jealous man, indeed. Blame it on the green-eyed moster! I'm jealous of anyone getting this close to you"

I opened her legs and placed myself in between her, reaching for her ankles and massaging them while snaking my hands upward rubbing her thighs.

"I want to be the only one to caress you like this"

She let out a gasp when I pressed her thighs. Then I lifted her long dress and reached for her center.

"I want to be the only one to pinch you like this"

And I pinched her clit making her moan loudly. I grabbed her panties and started to pull them down when she lifted her hips to help me. She wanted me.

"I want to be the only one to eat you like this"

With that I attacked her lower lips making her moan in pleasure while lifting her hips to meet my mouth so I could take her deeper. She tasted heavenly, I started a rhythm I knew was going to make her come, and some minutes later I could feel her walls clenching.

"I want to be the only one to finger you like this"

And I thrust two fingers in her soaked sex pushing the right spot while giving sloppy kisses to her clit and that was her final touch, she came loudly pulling  my hair, it hurts a little when she does that but I must say it arouses me the most.

"I want to be the only one to make you come like this"

I kissed her so she could taste herself, she was panting, couldn't speak so I took advantage of her silence to make my love declaration.

"Maca, baby, I'm a man of simple words, I wished I was eloquent enough to give you the love declaration you deserve but tonight I'm making you a promise, soon I'll make you forever mine, soon I'll be placing a ring in this finger for everyone to see that you are mine, you're my soulmate, my better half. I love you"

I kissed her ring finger and wiped the tears that were escaping her beautiful eyes, she brought my face towards hers and I kissed her passionately, I took advantage of her open legs so I undid my pants with one hand and thrust her, she gasped but smiled in pleasure and I took her right there in the middle of our kitchen after opening my heart to her and after letting her know that very soon I'll be proposing. She hasn't objected so I know her answer will be yes. I better find her a ring.

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Once again, an extra super special thanks to AthenaShakespeare  for helping me editing this chapter and her fantastic suggestion! Gracias Amiga!!