This isn't an announcement.

Or a prank.

Or some hyperactive ramble about some anime or other.

This is me being fucking truthful for once. This is me crying while i type because everythings just too fucking much for me to take at the moment. This is me breaking down because im just a human being.

(My fingers are trembling and i cant see much through my tears so sorry for the typos)

How much does it hurt when you realize youre worthless?

How much does it hurt when you listen to your mothers ramvlings about your inadequacy, and you cant answer her back becausw you know its pointless to argue and youve heard the same motherfucking speech several fucking times?

Hownmuxh does it hurt when you see that even your brother doesnr give a shit?

How muxh does it fucking hurt whrn your mother insults your only way to escaoe reality??

Im tired. So fucking tired of this shit.

I know im not the only one suffering. I know that i shouldnt be dumping my problems onto someine else

Im just so fucking tired of allbthis

Im tired of pretending im okay. Im tired of typing a happy emoticon. Im tired of beinf the upbeat friend whos always there

Im so tired of this. Im tired of trying to achieve their ecpectations, tired of putting my feelings out there for my real life friends to notice but they dont realize.

Im tired of trying to escape reality, if only for a short while.

Im tired of wiping away my tears so no one can see.

Im tired of giving out happy endings to my ocs.

Im tired of trying so fucking hard for my efforts to be appreciated by my parents

Im tired. Of being me.