Chapter Sixteen

~Xavier~

I can’t believe Ryder had another boyfriend. A cute one at that! I can’t imagine how he feels right now. I feel the same way. I told Jace that I would be ok and to go home. I just wanted to be by myself tonight. He understood completely. Which was the best thing. I sat at the window seat of my bedroom and watched the moon. I remember when Ryder was staring at me the first time down on the street. His car was parked and he was stalking me. I smiled and began to cry again. I thought back from tonight when he was in my arms. He told me that he would always love me. I cried harder. I heard my door open and Logan walked in. He shut the door behind him and walked over sitting down next to me. He stared the opposite direction, not even looking at me. I leaned over and cried into his arms. He hugged me tightly and let me cry into his arms. I love my best friend. He glided his fingers through my hair so I could stop crying. But I cried harder because Ryder used to do that to me. I just kept crying and crying for hours.

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I finally stopped crying and leaned back into the pillows. Logan turned to me. “He is in a better place now X. He loved you so much. And you loved him.” Logan explains. “He is gone Lo!” I cried out. He grabbed my arms and pulled me closer to him. “X, he is never gone. He is in here and he will always be in there.” He pointed at my heart. I nodded and he wiped my tears from my eyes. “Now quit crying. You are an ugly crier.” Logan pointed out. I started laughing and do did Logan. He always knew how to make me laugh. That is why he is my best friend. He is always there when I need him the most. Shay wanted to come over and stay but I told her that it would be best if she stayed with Jeremy, too talk things out with him. I laid my head down on Logan lap. He glided his fingers through my hair again. I smiled and tried to go to sleep. I needed sleep. I just needed to forget about all of this. About everything. If I could turn of my emotions right now, I would totally would. Because I can’t do this without Ryder. He was the love of my life. If he never cheated we would still be together today. But bad things happen for good things to happen. It’s a possibility that Ryder cheated so I could see how I felt about Jace? I mean it is possible. I closed my eyes, holding back the tears. I will see you again Ryder. I will always love you more.