"Anger is a completely normal, usually healthy human emotion. But when it gets out of control it turns destructive, it can lead to problems..... problems at work, in your personal relationships, and in the overall quality of your life." Naveen explained to Rajveer while strolling in ground.

He sighed "I know sir, but iska solution kya hai... mein khud apne apko badalna chahta hu magar... Kuch samjh nahi ata".

"Rajveer...I know about your past but still am asking, What triggers you the most, aisa kya hai jo tum apne aap par kabu kho baithte ho..." Naveen asks him.

"Apni maa ke ansu aur unke saath huye anyaye ke bare me jab bhi sochta hu, tera mera dimag kharab ho jata hai... Jab bhi koi mujhse mere apne ko cheen ne ki koshish karta hai use nuksan pahunchane ke bare me sochta hai... Mein apna control kho baithta hu" Naveen calmly looks at his clenched fist, his tightened jaw as he was trying to control his fury.

There is a long way to go, Naveen concluded "in short, Abhimanyu aur uski Maa... Right?" Rajveer nodded.

"Kabhi tumne iss sab ke bare mein...I mean about your past.. kisi se baat karne ki koshish ki.. apna haal kisi se bayan kiya, about how you feel, what you went through..?"

"Naina is the first and last person... Jisko meine apne past ke bare me bataya, aur uske baad kabhi iss bare mein zikra nahi kiya, kyunki wo yaadein mujhe sirf takleef ke siwa aur kuch nahi deti". He averts his eyes painfully.

Naveen remains silent for a while then sits on the bench and asks him to sit beside him also. "Tumhare bachpan ki sabse khubsurat yaad kaunsi hai...?".
Rajveer looks at Naveen in out of blue  "arey jawab do.. ghooro mat".

Rajveer composes himself "jab bhi... Baba holidays mein ghar aya karte the.. wo moment mere liye sabse special hua karta tha..... Kyunki tab, meri family complete ho jati thi... Maa khush hoti thi, mein khush hota tha, baba khush the.. sab acha tha. Hum picnic par jaya karte the, sath gardening karte the... Baba maa ko pyaar se chidhya karte the"

Naveen noticed a small but pleasant smile on his lips "fir mujhe apne sath park le jaya karte the aur wapas ghar ate waqt maa ke liye gajra late the aur unke balo me lagaya karte the.. ye unka tareeka tha maa ko manane ka, or maa bhi baba ki choti choti chize se man jaya karti thi.. bahot pyaar karte the wo ek dusre se" he chuckled, while his eyes glinted.

"Jab bhi baba ki posting ati, maa aur mein udas ho jaya karte. Magar baba har roz ek khubsurat sa phoolon ka guldasta order karwaya karte the taki hume unki kami na mehsus ho aur sath me ek chota sa note.. maa ke liye. Perfect family we were" he went nostalgic.

"Fir.." Naveen asks observing his expressions.

Suddenly he becomes serious and emotionless "fir ek din wo sach samne agaya jo baba ne apne andar saalo se dafan karke rakha tha.... Wo dusri aurat." His demeanor went cold "sab kuch tabah kar diya usne.. hamari hasti khelti perfect family.... Ek jhatke me sab kuch bikher diya, maa se unki choti si duniya, mujhse mera bachpan.. sab khatam ho gaya......" 

"Maa se shaadi ke baad, baba ek releif camp mein serve kar rahe the.. jaha mile the wo uss aurat se... Apne jazbato par kabu nahi rakh paye wo...  baba ki..." he shook his head, keeping his face straight "Raja Sahab ki ek bhool ne apni patni ke vishwas ka khoon kar diya." fire was ranging in his eyes.

"Maa ko apni galati batane ki himmat nahi thi unme, isiliye saat saalo tak ye raaz unhone kisi ko nahi bataya... Aur jab saat saalo bad achanack unki wahi bhool unke samne uss galati ke nateeje ke saath aakar khadi hui to achanak unke andar ka ek zimmedar insaan jaag utha...fir le aye uss aurat aur apni najayaz aulaad ko apne sath ... " he was clenching and unclenching his fist.

"Kya zarurat thi unhe wo sab karne ki...  Sab kuch acha chal raha tha, hum khush the.. fir yun achanak kyu wo apne kaale ateet ko hamare samne le aye, kyu unhone hamare hisse ka sukh aur khushiya unhe de di..itna sab ho jane ke bawajood bhi wo insaan meri maa se pyaar krne ka dawa karta hai...aur dusri taraf uss aurat aur uske bete ko hamare ghar me rehne ki jagah di.. hamari hi akhon ke samne.. kyunki unhe apni zimmedari ka ehsas hua ". He was seething in anger.

"Itna sab ho jane par bhi, meri maa ke andar ki achayi nahi mari, unhone mujhse kaha ki jo hua bado ke beech hua, uska asar mere aur Abhimanyu par nahi hona chahiye... Wo mera chota bhai hai aur mujhe uske sath ache se behave karna hoga...." Rajveer looks at Naveen frantically "aisa nahi ki meine koshish nahi ki... Meine Abhimanyu ki taraf hath badhya tha sir.. beleive me, magar... Usne wi hath khud jhatka tha, kyunki uske khoon mein hi gandagi thi" he clenched his jaw.

"Dono maa bete mill kar mujhe aur meri maa ko neecha dikhane ki tarkeebe sochte rehte the... Baba ke samne mujhe bura banana aur apne bete ko sidha saccha dikhana. Unhone mujhe ek drug addict, ek alcoholic bana diya" Rajveer looks at Naveen in horror as if a child is complaining to his teacher, of every wrong his classmate had done to him "baba ka na vishwas karna, unki ignorance... Mujhe ziddi banati gayi... Mein wahi ban ne laga jo wo log mujhe baba ke agey dikha rahe the"

Naveen was feeling pity on him but remained silent. Wanting him to vent out his pain and frustation which was buried in him from years "apni zid aur Awarapan mein itna kho gaya ki mujhe apne aas pass ka hosh hi nahi rehta. fir ek din.. mujhe pata chala,.. pata chala.. ki " his voice choked "Maa ko ...cancer hai, wo apni last stage mein thi" his eyes misted. "I was guilty.. apni takleef mein me maa ko bhool gaya, pati to pehle hi dhoka de chuka tha.. aur fir bete ne bhi....." he lowers his eyes trying to hide his unshed tears "Maa ne mujhse waada liya ki mein apne sare aib chhod du.. aur army join kar lu, dikha du sabko ki.. mein kis layak hu".

"Aur tumne ek ache bete ki tarah wahi kiya jo tumhari maa ne tumhe karne ko kaha..." Rajveer shook his head "she must be proud of you..." Rajveer saw him in gratitude.

Rajveer spoke after a while "maa ke guzar jane ke kuch mahino baad hi... Wo aurat baba ko shadi ke liye force karne lagi.. kyunki ab maa nahi thi, usey apna hak chahiye tha... Or baba ne uski baat kafi resist karne ke bad manli. Meri maa ko guzre kuch mahine hi beete the aur wo..." He felt disgusted.

"Meine socha tha ki yaha ane ke baad, shayad mujhe thoda sukoon milega.. magar un logo ko ab bhi tassali nahi mili... Abhimanyu yaha bhi pahonch gaya.. mujhe neecha dikhane, apne apko mujhse better proof karne. Magar ye barmer nahi, jaha uske baap ka raaj ho..." He gritted "yaha sabko kuch pane ke liye mehnat karni padti hai, apni kabiliyat sabit karni padti hai... Kisi ki bhi NAJAYAZ zarurate yuhi puri nahi hoti" there was again a fire blazing in his eyes, Naveen sighed inwardly seeing his anger in the form of passion... There is a long long long way to go.

Step one : Talking your heart out.
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Vidyut corners her in corridor, and leans against her, looking at her like love sick puppy "How much Do you love me?" He asks out of blue.

"Ummm...72%" she said after thinking.

He frowns "why not 100%".

"Because..." She puts her arms around his neck "28% GST on pure and true items".

He shook his head chuckling "tum aur tumhara sarcasm.. am just in love with it". He gazes her.

"why are you looking at me... Like that..?" She questions.

"Wondering if you are a camera, because everytime I look at you, I smile" He said smiling.

She felt overwhelmed and her gaze falls on his juicy lips "your lips look lonely, would they like to meet mine".

His smiles widely and placed his lips.on hers kissing eachother madly.. after couple of minutes they breaks apart "you turn my software into hardware".

She smiled replies him in the same sassy manner "If you were an enzyme, I'd be a DNA synthase so I could unzip you genes".

He chuckled at her witty response and thought to reply her in same manner "there are 20 alphabets right?".

"No silly, it's 26" she corrects him.

"Ohh yeah I forgot including, U R A Q T (you are a cutie)" he winks at her.

"You still missed one letter" she asks.

"I'll give you 'D' later tonight" he kissed her cheek and left winking at her naughtily while she blushed like a teenager, she twirled around happily but halted when saw a familiar figure which made her throat go dry.

A girl standing in front of her seething, giving her murderous glare, Mona gulped hard but tries to smile nervously "h.hii...Ashi".

"Couples ko Babu shona karte dekhti hu to ulti ati hai, PDA show karte hai to mann karta hai salo ko dhakka maar du..  or koi cheesy line chepta hai to mera mann karta hai ki mukka mar ke muh tod du" she reminds her of her own words.

"Look... I can explain" she tries to cal her down.

"Hatt gaddar, dagabaz, dogli... Mere sath ghanto baithke ladko ki buraiya karti thi... Ye tharki hote hai, matlabi hote hai, unki baton me nahi ana..behla fusla lete hai, bade hi atyachari hote hai... Ab kya hua kaha gaya sara gyan? Tilandi mein?". She asks getting.

"Dekh, tune hi ratt laga rakhi thi, mausi ban na hai mausi ban na hai... Ab bana rahi hu to bhav mat kha samjhi... Ek to tere liye meine itna bada balidaan dia uspar mujhi ko suna rahi hai... Huh! Sahi kaha kisi ne neki kar aur dariya me dal" she reverts the blame.

"Bahot bada ehsan kia hai, mausi banana tha to adopt kar leti, zaruri thodi na ki paida hi karna hai.. ye bol teri niyat fisal gayi, tera imaan dag maga gaya usko dekh ke... waisa banda hai hi aisa ki koi fisal hi jaye" she said last line to herself going all dreamy thinking about Vidyut.

"Oye...uske bare me mat soch, mere hone wale bacche ka baap hai.. sharam kar apne liye koi aur dhund" she said getting offended.

She sighs "khair jo hua usey badal nahi sakte...." She smirks evilly "magar......badla to le sakti hu na".

"Kaisa badla?" she was a little scared.

"Tera.." she takes one step closer "role" she goes and stand behind her "cut!" She laughed devilishly.

"You can't do thiss..abhi to meri prem ki naiyya chalni shuru hi hui thi tu beech me engine jam kaise kar sakti hai" she cribbed

"Oh I can do anything..cuz m the writer".

"Bhaad me ja writer, mera ghar baste nahi dekh sakti, jallu kahinki...ghanghoor single rahegi tu" she cursed her while writer laughs her heart out (😈)

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"Are you sure.. you wanna try it?" Rajveer asked with uncertainty.

"Yes am 100% sure.. apse pehle bhi kehna chahti thi magar.. mauka hi nahi mila" she said in slow whisper.

"Sochlo agar kisi ko pata chal gaya toh.." he warns her.

"Na aap bataoge na mein to kisi aur ko pata kaise chalega... It will remain
behind the closed door" she convince him.

He sighed. "Okay.." he took out a packet from the side drawer of his bed and takes out the contents of packet. Her eyes glittered looking at it.

"Am so excited..." she said gleefully.

"Shh... Kisi ne sun li na tumhari awaz to problem ho jayegi..." He said in whisper "ya ye kahu.. ki iske bhai ko pata chal gaya to bawal ajayega ye jaan kar ki me uski behen ke sath band kamre me akela hu... Kal tak kisi se nahi darta tha.. aaj pyaar ne mujhe kya se kya bana diya" he thought in mind.

"Okay okay" she nodded obediently as he puts it around her lips and lights up the cigarette.

"Pata nahi.. kaha se tumhe cigarette pine ka bukhar Chaddha hai..now take a small drag... Josh josh me inhale mat kar jana.." he guides her.

She takes a drag but ended up coughing, he puts the cigarette away and pats her back "bola tha na..jald bazi mat karo.. dekha agayi na khasi.."

"I'll try again..." She snatched it back.

"Are.. careful, aram se drag lena, jald bazi nahi karna" he warns her.

She takes a small drag and puffed it out, she giggled like a child seeng smoke coming out of her mouth "cool".

Rajveer shook his head "pagal.." he smiled watching her enjoy like child, she is his stress buster.