I sighed and stared up at the ceiling.

This is literally the most boring thing I could probably be doing right now.

But you know what?

I'm gonna enjoy it. Who knows when the next time I can lay down and relax is gonna be?

This place has those barriers. And I'm guessing there are some around the house...

Since they haven't been killed and eaten in their sleep that's probably a good guess.

But I'm probably pretty safe here. Probably safer than Camp.

Why would it be safer than Camp you may be wondering.

Two words.

No Stolls.

Or would I have to count that as a word and a name?

No idea.

But hey, I'm staring at a ceiling without fear of getting pranked.

There was a knock on the door. Which for the record, I was too lazy to answer.

"Percy?" Bracken walked in. "Oh good, you're awake. Kendra and Seth wished to see if you'd accompany us to the pond."

"No thanks. I was just about to fall asleep."

He nodded and left the room.

I kinda want to go...but keeping my identity a secret...while in an area probably filled with naiads...

You see how that could end badly don't you?

My whole life is just made of keeping secrets.

Except I for some reason told Dad how I really was...I don't understand that.

But keeping Mom and Paul from knowing how I am...well I kinda ruined it with Paul...but you know. He might just think that I was being dramatic or something.

It does run in the family.

Anyway...

Keeping everyone from knowing I'm a demigod.

Keeping everyone from knowing exactly what happened in the Pit.

And it's not likely that I'll catch any breaks soon.

I turned over and closed my eyes.

Maybe I can get a good night's sleep for once.

"Come on Seaweed Brain." Annie grabbed my hand and pulled me along after her.

"I'm coming, I'm coming Wise Girl. No need to be so pully."

She turned around and stared at me before shaking her head and bending to press a quick kiss to my lips.

"Do you have to rub it in that you're taller than me?"

"You're just mad because your short."

"I'm average height for a girl of my age. You're just absurdly tall."

She clicked her tongue. "So you do know big words."

"You sound like your mom."

She smiled and went to say something, then...

Things went to Hades.

I felt a sharp pain in my gut. I looked down.

An imperial gold cavalry sword...

"Why didn't you protect us?" Annabeth hissed. "Our lives meant that little to you?"

She drew her own sword and plunged it through my stomach, a few inches away from Hazel's.

I only whimpered as my body sagged against the blades.

I deserve this. I deserve the pain.

A trickle of blood ran down my chin...

It'll all be over soon.

I screamed as Annabeth twisted the blade.

It was at that moment something hit me right between the shoulder blades.

Arrows.

Frank...

I woke up with a jolt, quickly wiping away the blood coming from my mouth.

I hate that.

I mean I'm grateful that not every injury remains but...

Sometimes I wish they did.

Cause I deserve it.

I deserve the pain.

I deserve to die.

"Percy!?" Mom stood in the doorway, staring at me in relief.

And worry.

Wait. It's possible to stare at someone with those two emotions at once?

Wow. Mind blown.

"Are you okay my dear? You were screaming." My grandma questioned.

"I'm fine. Just a nightmare." Although I'm not sure just a nightmare is the way to describe it.

Mom narrowed her eyes, but said nothing.

Paul on the other hand pushed passed them and handed me another bag of cookies.

And then Mom glared at him.

"What? I thought she might need them."

Welp. So much for him thinking I was being dramatic.

I felt the air mattress dip behind me, and invisible arms wrapped around my body.

And there's Dad.

"I'm fine. It was literally just a nightmare. But thanks for the cookies."

"Nightmares are rarely-"

"Dad, you won't get anything out of her. She doesn't say a word about the nightmares aside from she has them. The police have came by twice because our neighbors thought we were killing someone. And all we can say is that she has a nightmare."

"They've questioned me. Thinking that they must have abused me or something. Basically I just say it's because of when I was kidnapped."

"You were kidnapped?"

"It was on the news. Now that you've gotten that out of me can I please try to go back to sleep?"

Mom sighed and nodded walking out.

As Paul left he shut the door behind him, nodding at me.

"You should tell her." Dad pulled me closer to him.

"She deserves to be happy."

He sighed and turned me to look at him.

"And so do you." He placed a hand on the side of my face. "So do you my child."

No I don't.

He seemed to know what I was thinking though cause he tucked my head under his chin and hummed slightly.

I saw a few flashes of memories...of me.

I was young...and happy running around the beach like nothing mattered.

"I miss seeing you like that. I miss seeing my happy little girl." He mumbled.

"You know why I'm like this."

He sighed. "Percy, you live for others, not yourself. And there's so few people you feel are left to live for... you don't know how to live for yourself.

He paused for a moment before continuing. "You need to remember...even if you think there is no one left for you...I love you. So please, if you can't live for yourself...live for your mother...for everyone who cares about you...for me."

A wild chapter appeared!

*Shiny noise and animation*

I'm not dead!

Incredibly lazy yes.

But dead?

Nope.

And before my mom drags me to clean the basement...(come on woman I'll probably get sick)

I'm gonna go type some more!!!

Cause I still have two fanfics I haven't updated in a while and my one story too

See yah