I was curled up on my bed, staring at the wall while hugging the pillow. I was lost in a chain of thoughts and feelings. I looked up as I heard a knock on the door. Optimus walked in a few seconds later. "I already thought I could find you here," he said, closing the door and sitting down on the edge. "Are you okay?" he asked. "Yeah, I am fine, Prime," I muttered. "You don't look fine," he said. "Just tired, Dreadraid requires a lot of energy," I muttered. "I am sorry for what Ratchet said to you," he replied. "He's right... Sunny is dead," I mumbled. Optimus pulled me in a hug as tears started to run down my face again. "He would be proud of you," Optimus said. "Why? What have I accomplished? Nothing, absolutely nothing. I just want the pain to go away," I sighed and brushed some tears off my face. "Dreadraid told me about the deal you made... that shard?" he asked. "I failed to Sideswipe too... I am going to lose both of them," I looked down at my lap for a moment. "I want to show you something." I got up and grabbed Sunstreaker's sketchbook. "Dated to 2006, I was four years old at the time. He made this drawing of me in 2006..." I showed him Sunstreaker's last drawing. "He had visions about me..."

Optimus took the book from me and looked through it, reading the letter he wrote to Sideswipe that I read as well. "Soulmate... you're his soulmate," he muttered and looked at me again.I gave a small nod. "We didn't need the bond we had... we were already bonded. Our connection went deeper than I thought it would. Maybe that's the reason why I can't get over him... I dreamed about him a few weeks back and he told me to remember the place where we were. Back in Phoenix, I saw him and followed him to the place where I was in my dream. I found this book in the basement of a log. Sunstreaker lived there for a couple of years," I said, looking at him. "I will help you with this, but in the end... I am going to kill myself. I can't live without Sunstreaker. Don't try to talk me out of it because I will do it, no matter what."

Optimus looked down at the sketchbook again. "I don't think that's what Sunstreaker wants you to do and as much as I want to talk you out of it, I know you will do it no matter what," he said. "I just miss him too much. I want to be with him. I promised him to always be by his side and if he can't be with me, then I will come to him," I said. Optimus sighed softly, "I am sorry for giving you this pain and taking your sparkmate," he said. "I only needed more time to get to his core. I was so close, he opened up for me. All I needed was time," I mumbled. "I am sorry." I gave a small nod. "I forgive you. I tried to hate you for your decision but I couldn't. I don't want to leave you behind and not let you know I forgave you," I said. "If you kill yourself, it's my fault," Optimus mumbled. "Don't say it like that. I can't wait to be with him again." Optimus looked at me. "Don't forget about Sideswipe. He was broken when he heard you were gone," he said. "I will talk to him," I mumbled. Optimus gave a small nod. "Do you promise to let me go as soon as this is over?" I asked as he got up. Optimus gave a small nod.

As Optimus had left, I pulled on my shoes and took Sunstreaker's sketchbook with me. I found Sideswipe in the medbay. He activated his holoform and hugged me. "Skylar, I am so sorry," he whispered. "It's okay," I stepped back. "What happened?" he asked. "We need to talk." Sideswipe and I sat down. "I found this... it belongs to Sunstreaker but he wrote you letters. You might want to read them," I said. Sideswipe took the sketchbook and flipped through the pages. "Where did you get this?" he asked. "In a log... Sunstreaker arrived on earth around 2005 and started this book in 2006. He wrote a lot of stuff in it. I took Sideswipe's hand and made him look at me. "There's something else you should know before you start reading this." He frowned and looked at me. "You have heard about Dreadraid, haven't you?" I asked."We traveled together... and we made a deal. I won't fail you like I failed your twin brother. Megatron has a shard and it will give you a few more months, maybe longer. I can save you with it," I said.

"Skylar, you didn't fail me," he said and took my hand in his, squeezing softly. "You didn't fail me,' he said.''He's right... you didn't fail him." We both looked up as Dreadraid walked in. "Dreadraid!" Sideswipe jumped back on his feet. "Easy, I am only here to see you... nothing else. You are dying anyway," Dreadraid said as he halted. "You have hurt my brother," Sideswipe snapped. "He's my rival, of course I hurt him but that was the other way around too," he snapped. "Dreadraid, please... tell him the truth," I said. Dreadraid rolled his pitch black eyes. "I am your older brother." Sideswipe's jaw nearly dropped. "Half brother actually," dreadraid said, crossing his arms. "It honestly surprised me that Sunstreaker hadn't told you sooner."

"My half brother... h-how?"

"Do I need to explain how to interface?" Dreadraid mocked. "Whiplash got me... your father. He's on earth and made a deal with Megatron. They want to use nano-bots to kill you all," I said. Sideswipe looked at me again. "We made a deal, I will help her get the shard and she will marry me and give birth to my childs," Dreadraid stated. Sideswipe looked at me again. "Are you kidding me? Skylar, it's just a stupid shard. Forget about it! he said and grabbed my hands. "It's not just a stupid shard, it can give you life," I said. Sideswipe shook his head. His eyes pleaded with me to change my mind but I am not planning to change plans. "Sucks for you, bro. The femme is mine now. Sunstreaker is dead," he stated. "You can't take his girl! She doesn't belong to you! Skylar belongs to my brother. Even though he's dead, she still belongs to him! They are bonded!" he shouted. "Enough, Sideswipe." I sat the mech back down. "The decision is made. We made a deal and I am not going to change plans."

"This is not what Sunstreaker would have wanted, Skylar," Sideswipe whispered. "Sunny isn't here anymore, Sideswipe." The mech sucked in a breath. "I will leave you two together. Nice to see you... brother," Dreadraid mocked before his holoform disappeared. "Really, Skylar?" he whispered in disbelief. "I am not going to marry him. I am going to reunite with Sunstreaker after this. As soon as this is over, I am going to take my own life,"' I stated. "Your ideas really suck!" he snapped. "Don't waste your energy on trying to talk me out of it, Sideswipe. This is how it's going to be, I need your brother. Look at the last page of his sketchbook." Sideswipe flipped through the pages. "Made in 2006 when I was four years old. He dreamed about me."
Sideswipe sucked in a breath and looked at me again. "I can't believe you are really making this decision. You have all the reason to be mad at me, but this? Really?" he asked. I gave a small nod. "I am sorry, but I can't live with this, Skylar. I can't let you kill yourself," he stated and tilted his head arrogantly.

"Isn't it my life?" I asked. "I don't have to agree with you," he replied. "I miss Sunstreaker. Don't you understand?" I asked. "I love my brother too! I miss him too!" he exclaimed. "I am sorry." Sideswipe sucked in a breath and shook his head again. "You will do it anyway, no matter what, isn't it?" he asked. I gave a small nod and flashed him a weak smile. "It's okay. Look, I am going to help Optimus with this and then, I am going to reunite with Sunstreaker. I promised him to be forever at his side and I am even willing to take my own life," I stated. The mech sighed and gave a small nod. "So what's the plan?"