We came back to our place with no words exchange to one another. I was too angry with his parents to discuss anything. I don't know what's in Kookie's head. I am curious but since he is giving me time to cool off, I should do the same.

When we got into our home, the rain was still pouring. I was so lost into my own thoughts of the dinner, I didn't realize it was still raining till I went towards my bedrooms, but Kookie stopped me.

I turn to him with a confuse face.

"You said you would sleep with me tonight, because of the rain."

I look up towards the rain , then back to Kookie. I nod my head. Honestly, for the first time I wasn't afraid of the storm. I wanted to be with Kookie because... well just because.

"I need to change first." I tell him.

"Borrow one of my shirts. I don't want to go separate ways." He confess.

I was startled by his confession but I understood. I didn't want to either.

We walked into his room in silence. I went to his bed while he went to his closet. I waited for a moment, till he was in-front of me.

He had two shirts and a pair of sweats. He hands one shirt, while keeping the other two clothing.

"Thank you." He nod his head. I stood up looking around to where I could change.

Kookie must have understood because he turned around. And let me change.

After a few minutes, I told him I was done.

When he turned around he gave me a weird look.

"What?"

"If I don't get to see you change, you don't get to see me change." He said.

I roll my eyes and turn around to let him change. I waited for him to be done. As I waited, I heard the silent buttons being undone, him unbuckling his belt, the zipper of his pants. All the noises I heard of him undressing made all the hair on my skin stood up.

After a few moments, I didn't hear anything. I waited for him to tell me he was done but no words came.

I did feel a presence on my back.

"Are you still angry?" He whispers in my ear.

I was afraid to talk because Im breathing very heavy. So I shook my head.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He ask.

I turn my whole body around to face. How can he ask me if I want to talk about it. He is the one that force to be marry.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I shoot the question back to him.

He was looking into my eyes and I couldn't read him. "Why did it bother you so much?" He ask.

I look down at his question. I didn't know at the moment why it bothered me so much. But on the car ride back home, i thought about it.

These last few weeks, I saw Kookie in a different light. He wasn't his cocky asshole self when I first met him. He was a gentleman, sweet and thoughtful. Yes he still flirted but it was more teasing than anything.

I like the way we are.

"I don't know."

"Lili..." he calls my name. I look up and I could see he was not buying my lie. "Tell me why it bothered you so much." He demands in a soft tone.

"I...I..." I stuttered out first, but I knew the words were never going to come out. "I'm tire. Can we sleep?"

He look disappointed in me and I absolutely hate the feeling.

"Sure." He finally said.

We both got into his bed and laid down. He pulls me into his chest and I let myself enjoy his comfort.

I didn't close my eyes immediately. I was looking at the walls listening and feeling Kookie's breathing. I was calm but I wasn't satisfied.

I turn my whole body and face Kookie.

He didn't expect me to turn around. He was trying to read my emotions.

"Do you want to get marry?" I ask.

He was trying to answer my question. "Yes but with the right person."

"Then why did you agree?"

He sign out in defeat and broke eye contact. I know I was asking a lot but I really am curious.

"The clubs are the one thing in this world I took pride in. The club was the one move I made in life that made me into a man. I didn't want to give up on it. I couldn't let it slip out of my hand." He explains. So he look at me again with soft eyes. "So I took a deal that I didn't know I was going to regret."

My eyes start to sting. I don't get why I'm so emotional about this.

"I wish I could help." I tell him.

"Lili?"

"Yeah?"

"I'm sorry.. for disappointing you." He tells me.

My breath hitch at his words. "Kook... you didn't disappoint me. How could you say that?"

"This is the first time I don't see fire in your eyes. From the first moment I met you, You always have a fierce attitude. This is the first time I seen it blown out."

The tears in my eyes fell down. He is worry about me when I should be worry about him. I never had someone shown this much compassion to me.

"Kookie, I'm not disappointed in you. I'm disappointed in myself." I tell him.

"Why would you say that?" He ask.

I took a deep breath before telling him the absolute truth.

"Because I didn't let myself listen to my emotion. I want you Kookie. But I'm afraid it's too late." I confess.

I saw his eye reading me again. I know he was trying to figure out if I meant it. I did something for him to know I wasn't kidding.

I lift my head and brought our lips together. I kiss him.

I waited till he kiss me back, it took a second but he did.

He kiss me back and I felt fire everywhere on my body.

I don't know if I made the right move since he is engaged but tonight shown me, I don't want to go on life without telling him how I felt.

When I pull back from the kiss. He caress my cheeks with so much tender, I felt weak.

"Lili, will you be here till the end for me?" He ask. I furrow my eye brow. "I don't want to get marry. I want to be with you. I'll fight to be with you."

I was speechless at what he was telling me. Will he really go against his parent to be with me? I want him. And he wants me.

"Yes."

Happy New Years everyone! I hope everyone had a safe new year. Unfortunately for me I got into an accident yesterday but I'm okay.

So first off, this story has been in the top 20 of Liskook recently. Three of my four books are in the top 30 of Liskook. I'm trying to get Paradox in the top but I'm still very grateful. Thank you for al the love and support.

Thirdly.. who else waited for Dispatch to reveal the couple? I will raise my hand with shame. I did.

So here is my theory. I know for a fact it's not going to happen but here is my theory.

Both Jungkook and Lisa are not in South Korea. Lisa is in Thailand and Jungkook is in New York. What if Dispatch is waiting till they come back to reveal them.

I know far off. For so many reason...

One, I think Lisa will go to straight to Japan for their concert after Thailand. So they won't be able to get proof. Secondly dispatch isn't allow to post anything of Big Hit without their permission.

People are wondering why Jungkook picture is their profile picture on Instagram, well I think it's because he is #1 for the TC Candler.

So I know it's far fetch but that's my theory. Who knows..

Another note I want to tell people is these boys. Oh sorry scratch that. These MEN are in their twenties, they have dedicated their whole adulthood to please us. So please if V wants to vape, let him make his choice, if Jungkook wants to get more tattoos, then let him. If Jimin wants to get wild let them. If either of these guys want to act their age.. let them.

They deserve to be young , to live, and make mistakes like all of us. They don't owe us anything, but I believe we owe them to let them live their life with no judgement. As they accept us, we should accept them.

Okay that's my rant. May this new decade bring you joy, good health and wonderful memories.