Night Time Woes

Days are often filled with smiles and most of the time
those smiles are genuine,
but it's at night
that just feels heavy and that's when the negative thoughts
start swarming like bees
within my mind
until I can't concentrate on anything else.
They consume me and that's when the self loathing starts.
Sometimes it's so strong
that it's hard to breathe,
consuming me whole.
Then it's daytime again and I tuck those thoughts in the
crevices in my mind and save them until the moon rises.

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