Okay please don't try making me feel better on this one. I'm tired of people saying stuff to me trying to make me feel better..
This is what  I wish I could say to my mom
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I know mom, stop pretending that I was a 'surprise'
I know what you mean
I'm not dumb.
I know that I was a screw up.
I know you didn't want me you already had to take care of five other kids
I know you love me
I know that the love you give me, isn't real
I know I'm a screw up so stop lying to me
I know that you were fine with just my siblings
I know you don't need me
I know you don't care what happens
I know the real reason you keep me
I know everything
I know so stop pretending