I always held on to my past and what happened in my past, that I couldn't focus on my life now, I planted a fake smile on my face, pretended to be happy and like I had the perfect life, but I don't! Everytime I'm alone the smile drops and the tears roll in! I'm trying to be strong and let go of what happened but sometimes it just gets to hard! Depression is such a strong force but, hope is stronger, and it's trying its hardest to fight and win! I try to focus on the good in life and push away the bad but theres just so much that its hard to push away.
But today is realized, we have to let go to continue to the future. And it's good to open up to someone, and tell them how your feeling, don't keep it bottled up!  Depression is like a cell, you have a very long time to leave before it gets worse, and if you decide not to take that Opportunity then the cell door slams shut! And you have to fight like hell to get out! It's easier to just take the opportunity to talk to someone while you still have the chance, open up take whatever's weighing you down and push it off with all your strength! Your strong, and your stronger than you know!  God wouldn't give you anything he knew you couldn't handle!  So talk to someone you can trust, tell them how you feel, it's okay to cry and open up,I promise it's okay no matter who you are! Just talk to someone, because in the end that small talk you had makes the biggest of differences!