"Nicole you can't hide away here sweetie"

I heard my mom as she entered the kitchen.

I had , had to wait for The Authority to finish up on the show hence me staying in the hotel while waiting but as soon as they were done they picked me up and we headed to the airport.

Me flying on a different private jet due to them flying to the next city.

Hunter had been extremely understanding with me taking off for a couple of weeks, I had told him I was simply exhausted from working every day which was true as well but the major reason was that I didn't want to deal with Brock or Brie or my best friends as there was nothing any of them could do to fix my stupid mistake so why punish them by letting them deal with a sad Bella...

"Did I wake you?" I whispered as I had just gotten in and she laughed.

"Its 10am Nicole you know I can't sleep past 8 . I've just been stuck on this new book.. Anyway are you going to tell me the reason you spent the last couple weeks here after you were clearly upset when you left here due to our meddling with the John issue"

I knocked on his door and he raised his eyebrow.

"I know I'm like the most annoying champion but please can I have a couple weeks off.."

I smiled even though all I wanted to do was breakdown again I wouldn't.

"Why?"

"I just can't right now Hunter"

He sighed , "where are you heading?"

"Uhm I guess to Phoenix to my mom.." Its not like I had anywhere else to go..

"Okay let's go then,Steph's already at the limo"

I frowned in confusion, "we have a meeting there with John Laurinitis later this week so we're flying there. You might as well tag along, come on"

I smiled as he took one of my suitcases and we walked out.

"Thanks so much guys" I smiled as I got out of the limo.

"No problem as long as the champ is well rested. "

He winked and I nodded as I took my bags and walked up the steps.

I knocked on my mom's door and as she opened I saw the surprise in her eyes.

"Honey what are you doing here ?"

"I'm not okay mom" I mumbled as the tears fell and she immediately pulled me inside.

I had been strong the entire flight as Hunter and Stephanie ran different ideas by me for my storyline.

I guess I should have been grateful for the private jet and them driving me over but hearing about him the entire time just made it worse.

J walked out from the hallway and frowned, "I'll go get your favourite wine then" he smiled a bit and left leaving me sobbing in my mom's arms.

"I just needed a break and I am currently homeless so.."

"And you could have used this time to look at places ?"

"I know"

I wasn't ready to have my own place, there was no point as I didn't want to live alone..

"Is it John.... has he contacted you?"

"He has contacted me but its not about him. I don't have a future with John okay mom?"

She nodded, "I just need some sleep I'm flying out tomorrow afternoon and I just need some sleep"

I couldn't tell her about Brock not when there wasn't a future for him and I

"Okay Nicole.."

I walked out of the guest room and into the kitchen and found J pouring himself some coffee.

"Hey, I figured you'd be sleeping all day"

I shook my head and I didn't see my mom which meant she most likely took a drive down to my Nana while leaving her dear boyfriend to babysit poor Nikki.

"So what's up?"

"What do you mean?" He narrowed his eyes at me as he set a cup of coffee down in front of me.

"Come on you can't camp here for weeks and not tell me what's going on "

I sighed.

"Its complicated , so complicated.."

"You are here which means you are not with your friends which means you are holding everything in. It's not good. So spill"

"I like Brock Lesnar but I messed up and we're better off alone" I blurted out as I needed to get it out.

"What makes you think that?" Was all he said.

Not ,what are you thinking Nicole?

Have you lost it?

What will your family think?

Which was the reason I hadn't told my mom about my feelings as they loved John and The Beast definitely wasn't him...

"He let me in and I messed up and I hurt him. I was wrong and .." He cut me off before I could continue rambling.

"Nicole, people make mistakes and people forgive. Its a part of life. You can't decide you're going to take off from work to avoid this cause you are going to have to confront it and considering its Brock Lesnar? That's a determined S.O.B and.."

I waited but he stopped.

"So Brock feels the same?"

"Well I guess... "

He had sort of implied it I think .. Everything was such a blur..

"Okay I would never have guessed but listen if you want him don't shut him out..."

"Its better this way. Shouldn't you be convincing me that Brock is a bad idea and I should run back to John?"

"You and I both know that's not what you want.. You know , over these years that I've been with your mom I have come to know you girls and even before then when you started out in the business... You introduced me to your mother and I will forever be indebt for you because of that. I love her so much" he smiled and my heart melted.

He had the same look on his face that Dean held whenever he spoke of Renee and I wanted it...

"And as long as I have known you I have known Brock since he began as well. His the type of guy that just gets the job done. His in and out of the building but if he has spent time with you, it must have taken a lot on his part and just by him spending even five minutes on you, you should know he wants you and Brock always gets what he wants.."

I sighed as I held onto the cup filled with coffee.

"And I want him to want me but like I said I messed up and I can't change it and he expects the worse of me"

I rested my chin in my free hand as I stared at him.

"Nicole , listen you need to stop with this idea that you think its right pushing everyone away so that you spare them? You're not sparing them you are hurting them as well. In the time we have sat here I saw your phone light up thrice and I bet that's concerned friends and you have them worried sick. You are a grown woman, at this stage of your life you should realize how many people care about you and you shouldn't push them away you should cherish those people..."

"I don't deserve them caring though?"
I felt my voice break.

I loved speaking to him as it always helped me clear my head. John Cena wasn't the stable male figure in my life, J was as he reminded me so much of my grandpa the way everything he said made sense and he never judged my decisions..

"You do Nicole.. You need to get that into your head, you forget that I always tell you like it is and you need to realize you don't have to be alone.You hate being alone it destroys you so don't destroy yourself please..."

"I..."

"I know your sister as well as your brother were wrong and they have realized that so speak to Brie, the sooner you sort out things with them the sooner you will be able to get the courage to deal with Brock because you are afraid"

I looked away as he was right and of course he knew it.

"Afraid that even though he is running after you, you are afraid that he is simply going to go off on you or continue whatever rants . John has made you this insecure thinking that you are not worthy without him but you are Nicole ..and Brock ? If you want to be with him, be with him, ignore everyone and follow your heart"

I smiled, " How do you always know what to say?"

He laughed, "comes with being a father..and well I have never had a daughter and I have taken you guys as my own and I want to see you happy" he shrugged and I stood up and walked over to him and pulled him into a hug.

"You're the best I hope you know that"

I felt him laugh and then heard the front door open.

"What did I miss?" I heard my mom.

"J's the best" I laughed as he let me go.

I wasn't ready to tell my mom anything and I knew he wouldn't tell her either and I was glad.

"Okay well come on, I rented us a movie and ordered some pizza. Its cheat day " she winked and we followed.

A/N:

So this is a bit of a random chapter as its simply her and John Laurinitis lol

but hope you liked it even though there were no besties , no Brie and no Beast...

What did you think of the advice he gave her?

I don't know,even though it was random... I feel like it was cute but that's just me lol:)

So will Nicole take heed of #peoplepower's wise words??? ;)

AAAAAH I JUST UPDATED ALL MY FOUR WWE FANFICS TONIGHT AND FEELS GOOD LOL :)

I WONDER WHEN BROCK IS RETURNING ITS ONLY BEEN A COUPLE WEEKS SINCE WRESTLEMANIA AND I AM NOT SURVIVING :(

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