6. Faithless

HEADLINES

Dispatch: BTS's Namjoon seen on a date with his new girlfriend in Jeju
The couple was seen on a trip to Jeju-do.
Picture of them hugging in the flower park down below.
Army's all over the world are tweeting the #RMdatingscandal

Alone in my hotel, I am browsing through twitter on the laptop Namjoon bought me. It is 23:35 and I just came home from the date with Joon. We went to a coffee shop and afterwards to his studio where he produced the new album that will come out this month. It's so bomb, I can't wait for Army to hear it. I come across the #RMdatingscandal that is trending. When I click on it, all the Army's have tweeted hate comments, saying I need to leave him and am ruining his career. As I continue reading the hate tweets, I come across a video of us hugging in Jeju. OMG, what should I do now? Has Namjoon seen the tweets already? I begin crying and my face gets wet. I need to call him right now. I can't believe they have found out about us, although I need to admit, we didn't hide our relationship either. My heart is beating faster. Ema, concentrate, calm down. Everything will be fine, we will figure it out. Breathe in, breathe out. Not all comments are bad, some are congratulating us and are happy for us.

My phone starts ringing. It's Namjoon oppa. "Ema, I am in front of your hotel. I will come to you. Stay there", he says and hangs up. The doorbell rings and I open the door. Immediately, Joon hugs me and closes the door behind us. "I am so sorry, Ema. I shouldn't have made you worried", he says, going over to the bed for us to sit down. I ask him worried:"What is going on?" Even though, I know exactly what the matter is. He holds my hands:"Ema, the hate comments. Don't take them personally. Army doesn't know you are the best woman in this world yet. They are just worried about my wellbeing. I will show them how happy I am when I am with you." Joon hugs me more tightly. I look into his brown eyes and say:"I believe in us. We are strong." My puffy eyes say otherwise and he notices it right away. Joon speaks:"Tonight, I will stay with you until you fall asleep. I can't leave you." I smile knowing he watches over me.

We are laying on the bed and he is caressing my hair, making me feel better. "Babe, I will be by your side forever. Never forget that. You are my soulmate." I begin blushing again. Joon asks me attentively:"Have you taken your meds yet?" I shake my head, I have totally forgotten about them because I was baffled from the tweets. What would I have done without him? Joon walks over to the kitchen and brings me my medication and a glass of water. He helps me sit up and I swallow the meds down. The drugs make me doze-off and I fall asleep in Joon's arm.

In nightmares, you are trapped and experience horror. I am surrounded by millions of sasaeng fans. They slur at me, beat me up and I can't escape. My body hurts but my mind hurts deeper. Helpless, I lie on the floor, my body covered in blood. From the light I see Namjoon. He ignores my cries of help and leaves me, saying he can't ever live with a sick person. In the end, I am truly a worthless wreck. My sister was right, my existence is only a burden to others. I would be of better help dead. Florence touches my face and comes near:"Stay on your side of the world. Don't follow me to hell."

My vision starts to get blurry and I see Namjoon. He is shaking me and shouting:"Wake up, Ema. I am here. It is just a nightmare." I open my eyes and see Namjoon's worried face looking at me. Joon hugs me tightly:"Everything will be fine." "What happened, Joon?" "You were trembling all over and crying and calling for me. I promise you, I would never do anything that would hurt you. I love you", and he kisses me on my lips. I have the best boyfriend in the world. I hold his neck and kiss him more passionately. Nothing will break us apart.

In the morning, I wake up to the smell of coffee and baked bread. "You are awake. Good morning, my princess. I cooked bread for us", Joon speaks from the kitchen. I yawn loudly and try to walk to him but I am sore from last night. He didn't go easy on me. Joon smirks and helps me to my seat. "Yummy, I am so hungry", I touch my stomach. While eating Joon tells me about his plans for today. He is quite busy with promotions, so he needs to leave quite early. "I am sorry, Ema. I need to go. Enjoy your breakfast", and he leaves the suite.

In the evening

Sitting in my room bored, I click on an ad that says Jay Park will be in XXX nightclub tonight. I have never been to a nightclub in my life but I know that they are always lit in Korea. Should I call Namjoon and ask him if he wants to come along? Ahh, I can't, he is probably still busy with work. I don't think he would mind it if I went to a club once, right? I will be taking care of myself. What should I wear, mmmhhh? I decide to wear a red skin tight dress with black heels and I have done my make-up in a sexy look. Don't get me wrong, I am not trying to seduce any man. I just want to have fun tonight and feel free.

The people in the club are all dressed super sexy, my outfit doesn't even stand out. The club is in Gangnam so there are many rich people here. I sit alone in the bar and drink a martini, looking around. It feels so awkward to be here but the alcohol helps me relax. Some guys stare at me or at my body to be more precise but I pretend to be busy on my phone. One comes and sits next to me, all the girls are staring at him as well. He holds his hand up and introduces himself:"Hey, Ema. I am Jungkook." I turn around and look at him. OMG it is Jungkook and he knows my name. I shake his hand. "How do you know me?", I ask him shyly, looking away from his eyes. He smiles, saying:"I have seen you in Namjoon's studio yesterday. You look quite stunning." I blush. "Do you want to come to my table?" I nod and we leave to the VIP section.

Taehyung is there as well, drinking. Jungkook and I sit down and it is so awkward. He notices, so he gives me a drink. "Thanks", I smile and slowly drink it. "Aren't you Namjoon's girlfriend?", Taehyung asks me curiously. "Yeah, I am Ema. Nice to meet you. Our hundred days will be next week", I answer him and hold up my hand. "Congratulations", he says but still with a grumpy face, his arms crossed. Guess I didn't pass his vibe check yet, I put down my hand. We three are sitting at our table drinking, Jungkook is in the middle of us.

Then Jay Park comes to the stage and all the people are standing up, screaming and dancing. Toilet paper is thrown from everywhere. This club is hyped up. "Ema, will you dance with me?" Jungkook holds his hand out. I grab it and we dance with each other. I am quite drunk and just let him lead me. He holds my back almost grabbing my ass and I am holding the back of his neck. Our bodies are touching and my lips are almost touching his throat. The flashlight goes on. Taehyung is taking pictures of us dancing.
Jungkook and I are dancing more passionately and we are making out now. His hands grab my ass tighter and we kiss each other. His lips taste so juicy. I want more, I want his body. I have already lost my mind and am just following my lust.

We go into the bathroom and are making out but it doesn't end there. Lustfull, he lifts up my dress and pulls my panties down. Jungkook puts his D inside me. "Aaahhh, you feel so good", he moans into my ear. It sounds like music to me.
From that moment on, I have lost Namjoon. I am a cheater and he doesn't deserve that. Army's were right. I am trash and will only hurt him. I hate myself for it. This day should have never happened. What went wrong? This morning, Namjoon was making me breakfast and now I am doing it with his friend. All the regretful thoughts are passing my mind until we both finish.