Once again you were in a middle of a room staring at the man who was standing in the balcony with his back turned to you. His light blue shirt and his silk looking hair was softly blowing with the wind. Your heart ached seeing him. Feelings of longing crept over you and you wanted to go wrap yourself around him. You slowly walked towards him and hearing your footsteps he slowly turns but the setting sun outshined his face and you couldn't see him. He opens his arms for you causing you to smile brightly. Even though you couldn't see his face, your soul recognizes him. Your heart urged you to jump into his waiting arms. But something was not right, You felt some kind of force trying to stop you from going any further. And before you could go to his arms, you were being pulled away from him. 

"No.. Please don't. Let me go." You say in a panicked voice but it was no use. He was slowly disappearing. Then you hear your own voice whispering ' I love you!' to him before coming back to reality with a loud gasp.

A tear rolled down your cheek as you clutched your chest breathing heavily. You felt like someone is trying to rip out your heart. You had another dream after a long time and those weird feelings wrapped you up making it hard for you to breathe. 

Who are you? Why do I keep seeing you? Why do I always cry missing you? 

"Y/n? Are you ok?" Jungkook walked in to your room as he saw you lost deep in thoughts. When you look up at him he quickly came over to you with a worried face exactly knowing what was going on with you. 

"Hey.. it's ok. I'm here. It's just another bad dream." He sat on the bed next to you and pulled you into his embrace. Bad dream? Was it really a bad dream? Being pulled away from him did feel like a nightmare. So I guess this might be just a bad dream. You thought as you cocooned yourself into Jungkook's arms.

He kissed the top of your head instantly making you feel protected and warm. The only thing that made sense to you right now was Jungkook. You still do have mix feelings towards him but you are slowly working on it. 

Past few months with him was comfortable and you never dreamed that your best friend would love you so much. Still it feels unreal but this man right here never fails to make you smile. Maybe that's why you fell for him the first place even though you couldn't remember it well. And also he is the perfect boyfriend that anyone could ask for. Once in a while he would always surprise you with little things to make your day special and tell you that everything is alright and you are doing good. It always gives you so much strength when he does that.

Even though you feel like something big is missing in your heart, there was never a dull moment with Jungkook. Nothing really change between you and him from the way you remember except for the fact that you cuddle a lot and kiss here and there. But that's it since you are taking it slow with him because of the confused feelings. 

"Do you want to skip work today?" He asks breaking the silence. His big warm hand still rubbing your back gently with his chin resting on your head. 

"No. I have to go. Working in the café is so relaxing and I promised to help June with her flower shop during the break. She said she have some orders and Alex is not feeling well these days so he is resting." You say mostly to assure him that you are good to go. 

"Ok then I'll drop you off on my way."

"Jungkook really I'm fine. I can take the bus and walk a bit. Besides your office is in the opposite way." You tell him and he pulls back to look at you.

"I know. But I want to drop my Precious angel to work so I get to go on a drive with you." He says making a cute face. You chuckled and squeezed his cheek causing him to flash his bunny teeth which melted your heart.

"Fine.. You muscle bunny. Lets get ready and leave soon so that you will have enough time to go back to yours." 

"Yes ma'am." He pecks your lips making you blush and leaves your room for you to get ready. What you really like about him is that, he gives you your own privacy and he doesn't take advantage of you just because you are his girlfriend who is living in the same house as him.

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"Good morning Y/n. You are pretty early today." Mr. Bo who is the café manager greeted you with a big friendly smile as always.

"Good morning Mr. Bo, Yes I came a bit early today. Have Jay and Hana come yet?" You ask smiling at the chubby old man.

" Hana is yet to come and Jay is at the back washing the cups." He replies pointing towards the Kitchen with his thumb.

"Ok then, I'll go grab the coffees to set up the machines." You say and head towards the store room to get the coffee bags. It's only been five months since you started working and you really like it here.

You found this place while you were visiting the doctors and going for therapy. Jungkook would always take you to this beautiful calming café in the area after each session. So you grew fond of this place and with the friendly staff. It's a big reputed Café with an amazing service. When you saw that they were hiring you wanted to work here as well. At first Jungkook didn't like the idea but after insisting he agreed. 

Working at the café healed you a lot. Mr. Bo, Hana and Jay are very nice and you also met your new friend June who runs a flower shop next to the café. Seeing you blending in and moving on Jungkook finally relaxed and let you continue what you were doing. 

As you got busy with setting up the café, on the other hand Jungkook was frustrated. Ever since Jimin showed up he couldn't relax as he worried if Jimin would show up again or not. As soon as he got to the office he called some of his friends who knows Jimin and asked them to check on if Jimin returned to Busan or not. He didn't know how Jimin found out about you being here but that was not important as long as he doesn't come back.

Today after a while you had one of those dreams and Jungkook doubted if it got triggered because of Jimin's sudden visit. He was glad that you didn't question and didn't think about the incident too much. 

Beeping of his phone distracted him from his thoughts. When he unlocked his phone, it was a message from you.

My Precious - Better not skip your breakfast like the dinner last night  🤨

Jungkook couldn't help but smile picturing you with a frown. He quickly responded to your message without keeping you waiting.

JK  - Ok Precious. I will. You too eat and don't forget your meds.

My Precious - I will.. don't worry.

JK - Take care babe. Love U 😘

My Precious - U too 😘

Jungkook knew that you said it back out of the habit you both had has friends. He knew that you didn't mean it romantically like he did. You were still not ready for it and Jungkook understands and he was totally fine with it.

The day went in a flash and when he was about to get off work, he received a call from his friend. Jungkook let out a big relieved sigh and smiled thanking his friend for giving him the information that he needed. Jungkook finally felt at ease knowing that Jimin is back in Busan. Which means he left you alone and went back without causing any scenes. 

Since he was feeling happy. On his way he stopped by a flower shop to get your favorite flowers and dinner from your favorite restaurant. You did say that you want to eat from this place soon so he picked out all the things you like from there.

Jungkook parked the car in front of their house and got down surprised to see the lights on. Normally you would always come home around 7pm because your shift finishes at 5pm. Taking the flowers and the dinner Jungkook entered the house. His lips widens seeing you stacking up the fridge while swaying your hips to the music that's playing.

Slowly placing the things on the counter, Jungkook carefully snuck up behind you. When he was about to jump on you and give a small scare, You spoke already knowing he was there.

"Try harder babe. I know you are standing behind me."

"Ugh! How do you always know? It's so unfair." He whines a little, circling your waist into his arms from behind as he rest his chin on your shoulder. 

"Hmm... maybe because of your not so light steps and also your fruity.. flowery perfume gives you away easily." You say closing the fridge door and tilting your head to the side to look at him with a teasing smirk. 

"I see. I'll keep that in mind."

"Just give up already. You can never get to me."

"We'll see about that. And I can still do this." He gives you an evil smirk and start tickling your sides causing you to throw into fits of laughter. 

"Oh my god... Stop!" You yell in a high pitched voice through your giggles as you press your back against his hard chest trying to break free. Suddenly a memory of you being tickled on a bed flashes. You were screaming and laughing looking so happy in that moment as well. The memory made your heart flutter and thankfully Jungkook stopped attacking you noticing your ragged breathing. He tilts his head to look at you and you blushed thinking that it was Jungkook who was with you in that memory as well.

"Idiot!" you say resting the back of your head on his shoulder. 

"I'm your idiot." Jungkook chuckles and press a long kiss to your cheek making you smile. Were we always like this? You thought getting weird feelings in your heart. You slowly lean forward reaching for his lips as his eyes falls onto yours.

Jungkook dips his head down softly brushing his lips against yours. His hand comes up to cup your cheek and you slowly turn towards him. Eager to taste him, you press your lips against his, wrapping your hands around his waist. Smiling against your lips, he kiss you back moving his lips gently caressing yours. Your heart jumps when his hands glides down your back, pulling you closer to him.

It was not hard to get lost in his lips because he is a great kisser. He knows how to make you feel good and just as your insides were about to flame up, he pulls away allowing both of you to take a breather. You didn't even realize that he was making you breathless till now. You were a bit disappointed that he cut the kiss short, but it went away when he pressed his nose against yours and nuzzled with it making you giggle softly.

"I got us dinner from your favorite place." He says tucking the loose strands of hair behind your ear. Your eyes lit up at the mention of the food and that made Jungkook chuckle.

"Really? Did you get that cheesy bread as well?" You ask your mouth already watering.

"Yes I did. I got everything you like and these are for you too." He steps away from you to get you the flowers.

"Awe... you got me my favorite flowers too." You made a cute face feeling touched and pecked his cheek.

"You spoil me too much sometimes." You say grabbing a vase to put in the flowers.

"Who else can I spoil other than my own girl." He says making you blush again. Jungkook is the romantic hero kind of a lover. So passionate, gentle and who has the ability to sway you with his words. Even though he looks like a bad boy with tattoos and long dark hair, he is a total sweetheart. 

"Kook pass me that scissor please." You say to him as he was just watching you leaning against the counter. He quickly reach for the scissor and hand it over to you. 

"Thanks.. and here I got you some fresh doughnuts." You pass him the doughnut box since he loves them. 

"How come you are home early today?" he asks happily opening the box and trying to pick a doughnut out since you got them in three different flavors.

"Since I went early today I helped a lot around the café and Mr. Bo felt bad and insisted that I go home early and rest." You explain as you finished up arranging the flowers, you look up at Jungkook resting your elbows on the counter. He gives a nod and take a bite from the lemon flavored doughnut. 

"UGH!" Jungkook immediately made a disgusted face with his mouth hanging open and dropped the doughnut.

"What?" You asked cracking up to the face he was making.

"Eh! It's lemon." He complained grabbing a tissue to spit out the rest. 

"You like lemon doughnuts. You like everything that's sour." You say.

"No I don't. I hate sour food." He grabs the chocolate one and take quick bites from it.

"But I clearly remember you enjoying them and you saying you like sour things." You mumble as you clearly remember the memory you had few days ago. In the memory he liked these a lot. Was it just a dream and not a memory? You wondered a bit disappointed.

"I did? When?" Jungkook questions with furrowed brows and a pout thinking to himself.

"Never mind. Must be just a dream that I had. I saw myself buying these for someone and that person liked it a lot, So I thought it was you."

Jungkook gulped down the piece of doughnut which was inside his mouth as he realized who you were talking about. Every time you have a memory flash Jungkook always gets nervous. Because most of the time when you ask something about your past he didn't know how to answer it. It was not easy having to deal with this. Jungkook was never comfortable. He always feels like he was walking on eggshells. Lying to you and hiding things had its own consequences which Jungkook was ready to face anytime even though deep down he didn't know how well he could handle it. Not letting you think deep into it, he cleared his throat and raised the chocolate covered treat to your lips.

"I think chocolate just stole my heart." he jokes trying to light up the situation while offering you a bite which you gladly took.

"I thought your heart is with me." You joke back with a wide smile and he let out soft giggles.

"Of course it is. Come let's go eat and watch the new drama that you love so much." Jungkook says as he sets the desserts aside to go grab some plates while you took out the food. The delicious smell made you forgot about almost everything and all you cared about was gobbling them down.

"Gosh look at you. Did I starve you or something." he teases.

"Shut up and give me my food." You say as you impatiently waited till he sets the food on the plates. Jungkook shakes his head looking at you feeling light tingling feelings in his heart. Seeing you this cute and carefree about the rest makes him really happy. 

When he finally give you the plate, you look up and smiled so beautifully at him. Jungkook felt his heart skip a beat. He was suddenly overwhelmed by you, so he took your hand and tugged on it making you crash into his chest. Without saying anything he kissed your temple and hugged you tightly with his thoughts running wild with unspoken words.

The more I see you smile, the more I fall for you. I have no other greed than you. Just want to hold you, kiss you and love you day and night!  I just want you to be mine.

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It's been three days since Jimin returned and day by day things just keeps getting worse. Hoseok sighed looking down at his wasted friend who was on the bedroom floor hugging a photo of you. It's the same photo Jimin made Hoseok wrap and deliver to you on your birthday. 

"Jimina get up. Enough is enough. Stop being so pathetic and throw away your life for some girl. You are not a fucking teenage boy so get over it." 

Hoseok scolded but Jimin remained the same without moving. His eyes were swollen red and his insides were burning dry because of all the alcohol he had been consuming, yet nothing can lessen the pain in his chest. He wondered how can something so empty and hollow hurt so much. 

"She wasn't just some girl." Jimin mumbles weakly.

His friend really didn't know what to do because he had never seen Jimin like this. He looks more broken than before. Hoseok just kept praying that it will go away after sometime but this is not something that could be fixed my prayers. He was beyond worried about Jimin and he didn't understand why Jimin is being like this. Maybe scolding is not the best solution right now. Hoseok realized that he needs to talk to Jimin man to man as a best friend. He went out to the bar and grabbed a water bottle and some beer cans before going back to Jimin's room.

Sitting down on the floor next to Jimin he placed everything in front of them. He handed some water to Jimin and to his relief Jimin took it. "Look man, I'm sorry about everything that's happening. I wish I could do something for you to lessen your pain... but right now all I can do is listen to you and have a drink with you." Hoseok says grabbing a can of beer and pop it open. "I just want you to know that I'm here for you. I don't know what's so special about Y/n and I can't understand the things you are feeling but you can always talk to me."

Jimin felt a little better when he drank some water. The dryness of his throat went away and he couldn't help but think why you are so special to him. He was glad that his friend was ready to listen to him instead of nagging. Jimin really needed someone to tell his pain. Both of them remained silent for a while. Hoseok waited for Jimin to gather himself up to speak as he kept sipping the beer. 

"She was my everything Hobi.. she was my light and my warmth. I found my true self with her. In this life, that kind of happiness and love comes only once. With her I had it all, But now all I have and all I feel is loneliness, coldness and pain." Jimin's voice breaks and when he thought there are no more tears left in him, they started gathering in his eyes ready to fall down. He closed his eyes tightly but it was no use. Tears already escaped and he was unable to stop it now as he continued to tell his friend how much he is hurting.

"This loneliness is a vice on my heart, squeezing with just enough pressure to be a constant pain. It kills me every day just a little bit more, taking what was once my inner light and replacing it with a darkness that overshadows each moment I had with her. Its like fuel of my nightmares Hobi. Every time I realizes that she is no longer mine, I struggle to breathe." Jimin just continued pouring his heart to his friend even though he couldn't stop choking on his tears.

 "I miss her Hobi.. I miss her so fucking much. I miss her caresses. I miss her voice.. I miss the strength of her embrace and those sweet whispers in my ear. I just can't... I can't go on like this." Jimin broke down crying vigorously. Hoseok's heart ached for his friend as he patted his back to comfort him.

"I know it's hard right now. At least you know that she is fine and happy right.  I know for a fact that she loved you a lot. I saw it in her and I bet she still does and cares for you even though she moved on. So I bet she would want you to move on as well." Hoseok says.

"That's the thing Hobi.. I-I can't understand how she moved on. I know what we had. It wasn't something so simple. We bonded beyond words. And yeah I know how much she loves me but the thing is it was all gone just like that... She looked at me as if I'm a stranger.. as if she couldn't recognize me." Jimin looked up at Hobi remembering the last time he saw you. It literally broke him so much.

"What do you mean?" Hoseok asks furrowing his brows.

"I didn't see anything in her eyes Hobi... It was all gone. All that love and the feeling of home..all gone. It was her but she looked and felt so different. How did she erase me completely from her life just like that? Is this my punishment for all the bad I did in the past? Can't god just show me mercy... All I need is her. I fucking love her so much and I can't stop."

Jimin went on shouting his pain for hours and then finally fell asleep. Hoseok helped Jimin on to his bed and covered him up. He took your photo from Jimin's hands and placed it next to his bed side table. Hoseok sighed rubbing his face with his hands. He was feeling stressed after listening to Jimin. He had to save his friend, he couldn't loose him and the answer to his misery was you. Hoseok didn't know what to do exactly but he knew that he had to do something about this. Determined to help Jimin get through this Hoseok left letting his friend sleep, hoping he is in a dreamland where he would feel less pain.

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