Mishti :)

It's the day I was waiting for, our baby shower.. To be honest, my pregnancy phase till now was a roller coaster ride, but Abir and the whole family were by my side.. So I was relieved.. Dadi wanted me to wear a saree today , but I refused to wear it.. The baby shower will happen in the traditional way, so I said I would wear an anaarkali, but not a saree!

She agreed with me.. Abir was like if you are uncomfortable then wear just a frock.. I wish I could, but I wanted a photo shoot as well.. That's why I wanted to look good.. Abir keeps capturing my picture all day, but those looked beautiful only to him.. I look ugly, but he finds those pictures extremely cute.. Huh! So today I will do a photo shoot..

Saanvi di and Naina were helping me in getting ready.. Abir, being the typical father, stayed in the kitchen for the whole day . Like I have seen him for once only.. He has been cooking and baking. I wonder what he will do when the baby arrives.. I got ready, Saanvi di took my balaye.. She was really emotional and happy.. All the time she was just saying touchwood and touchwood ..

"We should click her picture before all the rituals start, after that she will look tired! " Naina suggested, I agreed with her.. We trio went down stairs, the preparation was going on.. The photographer was already there.. Everyone was busy except the three of us.. So I did my solo photo shoot first then captured some pictures with Saanvi di and Naina..

"Can you give me your camera for a minute? " I asked the photographer and he happily handed me the camera.. I made my way to the kitchen holding the camera, I wanted to capture some pictures of Abir while cooking. My baby should know how much effort he is putting in to make my baby shower special..

"Hey Mr Papa! " I called him and entered the kitchen, he was doing something.. "Noooo! You can't come here! " he screamed, making me flinch, I jumped at my place in fear and the camera fell down from my hand.. "Mummy! " I whispered, holding my belly..

"Oh My God, I am so sorry, I scared you !" he apologized quickly, "Abir have you lost your mind, who the hell shout like this? She's pregnant! " dadi scolded him, Saanvi di made me sit on a chair.. My heart was beating at 2x speed.. Everyone was scolding Abir while I was feeling the happiest because I felt baby's movement.

"Baby, our baby just kicked! " I whispered, for the first time I felt our baby's movement.. I placed my palm and it kicked again, "baby kicked again! " I whispered, but everyone was busy scolding Abir.. "Guys relax , can you all listen to me! " I voiced and everyone became silent.. "Baby just kicked! " I said looking at Abir, his eyes widened..

He sat in front of me and placed his palm on my belly.. He waited for a few seconds , but he couldn't feel the movement.. "It's okay, " I mumbled, he pouted.. "What are you making? You really scared me! " I chuckled, he caressed my cheeks and apologized again..

"Nothing, it is just a cake.. " he pouted, I shook my head in disbelief and laughed.. "Now come with me, " dadi held my hand, "And you mr cake baker, get ready and come to the hall! " she taunted him, Abir rolled his eyes at her.. We all went to the hall except Abir, he hasn't finished his work yet..

"Abir, come soon! " my dadi shouted, he hummed in response.. First everyone applied tilak on my forehead and did arti.. Dadi applied a little oil on my hair as per the rituals.. "I am here, hello! " Abir put his attendance and came to me.. "Go and get ready, quickly! " dadi scolded him again.. I felt bad for him, because he was getting a lot of tantrums today..

"I will come back in a few minutes, bye bye! " he said to our baby and placed a kiss on my baby bump.. I smiled at him , he left.. I felt the baby's movement again.. "I think baby kicked again! " I mumbled, everyone gathered around me and put their palm on my belly except Aadarsh bhai..

"Can I? " he asked me hesitantly, "Yeah sure! " I chuckled, he is such a gentleman.. I was wearing an anaarkali, so there's nothing wrong if he put his hand on my belly.. But I liked the way he asked for my permission.. "Hey hey baby kicked, " Naina screamed in happiness, even though I could feel it... "What's happening? " and it's my husband who came late..

"Baby kicked again! " bhai expressed in happiness, "What, omg! " he came to me and placed his hand on my belly, but again he was disappointed.. Everyone made a pout, "Is it only me who could not feel it? " he pouted, I pulled his nose and gestured for him to sit beside me..

He was sad because every time he was placing his hand, our baby wasn't moving nor kicking.. The baby is definitely testing his patience.. The rituals started, guest started coming.. I was showered with gifts and blessings, plus everyone were feeding me different types of sweets which my family had made.. Just because of the rituals, I had to eat.. They had made 100 types of dishes for me and I was literally feeling like a mother of ten baby..

"Why are you not kicking? " Abir said, digging his index finger on my belly which made me laugh.. I was done with the camera now, final the guest stopped coming to me and I felt relaxed.. "It's cake cutting time now! " Abir said and went to the kitchen. I became excited , of course because he had made it..

"This is so cuttteee! " I mumbled and stood up, he scratched his neck and furrowed his brows.. "I wanted to make something more beautiful, but it's what I could make! " he explained, I hugged him and placed a kiss on his shoulder.. "It's more than beautiful, thank you! " I said and cut the cake.. I fed him the first bite, then cut it into small pieces..

Though I had eaten all the sweet dishes which made my mouth really sweetish, still I took a big piece of cake, because he has made it with so much love.. After the rituals ended, I went to my room and changed into something comfortable.. I layed on the bed , I was feeling really tired.. Abir came to me and placed a kiss on my belly..

"Hey baby , how are you doing? " he asked, I chuckled because he wanted to feel the baby's movement.. He waited for a few minutes , but there's no movement of baby.. My eyes gave up, I laid down comfortably and slept..

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I woke up early today .. To my surprise Abir was sleeping just near my belly, keeping his palm above my belly.. So he was patiently waiting to feel the baby's movement all night? .. I shook my head in disbelief and freshened up.. He was working the whole day yesterday , so I let him sleep.. I went down stairs.. Everyone was busy in their own work.. So I didn't bother anyone and went to the garden..

Papa and bhai were discussing some stuffs related to business.. "Hey mishti, come here, we will show you something! " bhai called me , I reached him and sat beside him.. Papa shifted to my sofa, I was sitting between them.. He opened the laptop and showed a video where Abir was baking the cake..

"Oh My God! " I burst out laughing because he had burnt the first cake , the cake we ate yesterday was the second cake.. His face was worth watching.. It made me laugh, but my facial expression quickly changed when baby kicked me.. "Hey hey baby is kicking again! " I whispered and both of them kept their palms above my belly.. The baby kicked again, bhai giggled in happiness.. The feeling was so surreal..

We trio made a straight face seeing Abir coming towards us.. I didn't want him to feel bad.. He gazed at three of us, we were acting like nothing happened.. "Why are you all staring at me like this? " he questioned, papa took the newspaper, bhai took the laptop and I started looking at my nails, we were trying to act fool.. "Don't tell me our baby kicked again? " he muttered, I pouted.. He sighed, a big disappointed sigh..

"Actually, I came here to inform you that I am going to America for five days.. I wanted to drop the plan, but anyway! " he said and left.. I shook my head in disbelief and excused myself from there and went behind him.. "Hello mr! " I called him as he was about to climb the stairs.. He waited for me, then carried me in his arms and took me to our bedroom.. "Stop making these grumpy faces, just because you couldn't feel our baby's movement.. She is just testing your patience! " I chuckled, he rolled his eyes and placed me on the bed..

"Actually I wanted to tell you that I am going to stay at my dadi's house.. She wanted me to stay there.. So umm will you drop me there ? " I asked him, "Naina had packed my luggage also, and she would be there to take care of me .. So umm ! " I explained, he looked at the luggage and gave a nod.. "Are you angry? " I asked him, he shook his head in a no.. He was just upset. Such a dramebaaz!!

"I will book my flight ticket to America for tomorrow then! " he asked me and I nodded.. I pulled him and kissed his cheek, "why are you upset? " I muttered, he shook his head negatively and went to pack his clothes.. I just stared at him and the way he was making faces..

"Baby! Don't you think you are teasing your papa a lot? Huh! " I scolded her, but I was feeling extremely emotional. I mean being a mother is such a beautiful thing. I am going to be a mother! I couldn't get my mom's love because she left me too early. I hope my child will get the best life. Everyday I am praying for our baby's wellbeing..

"Abir, have you thought any name for her? " I tried to divert his attention, but he didn't respond.. "Should we join our name and make a name for him or her ? " I asked, he was still unbothered, or maybe acting like that.. "Abir Mishti.. Umm.. bi from Abir and shi from my name.. Bi-shi ! " I said excitedly, Abir stopped packing and gave me a look..

He tried to supress his laugh which made me confused. "What? " I muttered, "It sounds like behn- umm it sounds like BC ! " he burst out laughing, I threw a pillow at him.. "Abir! " I scolded him, I made a cute name and he made fun of it.. But atleast he laughed.. He fell on a couch while laughing and it made me smile..

"One thing -laugh- is clear that -laugh- I won't let you- laugh- decide our baby's -laugh - name! " he said in between his laughs, it made my heart so happy.. Suddenly our baby kicked, "baby kicked! " I muttered, he came running to me and placed his palm. And finally baby kicked.. His eyes widened, and his smile brightened. "Hey bi-shi! " he whispered and kissed on my belly.. And baby kicked again..

"So our baby is liking the weird name given by mumma! " he said looking at my baby bump, "Nope! Bi-shi is happy seeing her dad laughing! " I said cupping his cheek, he smiled and kissed my forehead.. "So the America plan is cancelled, I am not going anywhere! Yeah yeah.." he said, I glared at him and pushed him.. "Go and complete your packaging . You have become really lazy. You are going to America and that's final! " I scolded him, he gave me a look from head to toe..

"Huh! Let our baby arrive, then we will make a team against you! " he proceeded to pack his bags, it made me smile for some reason. We are actually going to have our own baby.. Motherhood is such a blessing. I meant parenthood is such a blessing. The most beautiful thing!!

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Abir dropped me at my dadi's house and came back. Before leaving for America he came to see me again. He was loaded with heavy work, so he was hardly making any calls.. I didn't bother him as well..

I stayed at dadi for the next two months, Abir stayed with me most of the time..

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After having our lunch, Saanvi di and I were watching tv.. Nobody was at home.. The men went to their respective work and dadi along with maa went to a satsang.. Riddhi went to shopping with Naina.. So we are here, just two of us..

"Bring some popcorn, it's boring! " I muttered , "we just had our lunch, " she stared at me in disbelief, I gave her a tight lipped evil smile .. She chuckled and went to kitchen.. I was feeling extremely bored even though I was watching tv..

"Aahh! " all of a sudden I felt cramp in my lower side, I let out a deep breath thinking it's just normal. But it didn't stop.. "Diiii! " I shouted, holding my lower baby, it kept increasing with every passing second.. She came running to me, "What happened? " she freaked out , "Ahh, mummaaaaa! I don't know, " I felt difficulties in breathing due to the pain, I was sweating completely ..

"Wait! Hold on, I will make a call! " I let go of her hand and laid down on the sofa.. My eyes filled with tears , it panicked me.. "Baby , please stay.. stay... safe! " I cried, "Mishti, are you okay!? Has your doctor given you any type of medicine to relief your pain? " she asked me, I was not even in a condition to answer..

"This ain't feeling normal.. Call Abir! " I mumbled , but she called the doctor and told her to send an ambulance.. "Di, I can't! This is so unbearable! " I cried and dug my nails on the sofa.. I felt like my inner walls were breaking, "damn it! Neither Abir nor Adarsh is receiving my call! " she was panicking, I felt like I would faint out .. Damn!

"Why nobody is picking my calls! " she was almost crying, I held her hands and she started crying.. Maybe it triggered her old wound, "Don't freak out, everything will be fine! " I whispered.. The ambulance arrived, they carefully carried me..

"Hold on, these idiots are not picking my call, I will kill them! " she shouted, "Mam, please stay quiet! " the nurse scolded her, I assured her and gestured for her to stay silent..

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Abir :)

I immediately rushed to the hospital after getting Saanvi's call.. Mishti is going through the labour pain. It's unexpected. The doctor had given the delivery date before the usual time , but there's still time.. One and half months were there for her delivery date. It freaked me out, I was driving the car without even looking at anything.

I was at the office when I got the call.. I parked the car in the parking lot and went inside.. She was already taken inside.. "How is she? " I asked Saanvi, she was numb.. Nobody was at home at that time, I don't know how she managed to take her here..  Aadarsh bhai reached after me.. "What happened? " he was breathless..

"You guys do even care? I have called you for thousands times.. Nobody literally picked my call.. I was so so so scared, what if something would happened to her! " she was crying, she was scared because of her past and it's obvious.. The nurse called me, I changed my clothes and went inside.. All I could here was her loud screams..

"Hey hey calm down! " I whispered, holding her palm and she gave me a deadly glare, it dried my throat.. I shifted my gaze towards doctor, "everything will be okay right? I mean it's so early! " I asked her, she didn't say anything , so I kept quiet.. "Ms Agarwal, push, try to push! " the doctor told her..

"Yeah push push, you can do it! " I tried to boost her energy, but again I received a deadly glare.. "Shut up, do you think it's easy.. Come to my place and just do push push! " she shouted at me, I cleared my throat and stared at the nurse.. "Is there any way to reduce her pain? " I asked her, "Mr Rajvansh, it would be better if you stay silent and let us do our work! "  she scolded..

They got no chill, but why all of them were shouting at me.. I stood there like an obedient child, my heart was paining see her in pain.. "Abir... " she cried holding my palm, "Everything will be fine, ssshhh! " I caressed her hair, her nails were digging my skin making it bleed, but I cared less.. She was constantly throwing her head back, I felt like I will faint out.. I felt exhausted just by watching her.. This was horrible experience for me..

The doctor were instructing her, I closed my eyes and could not even see the sight in front of me.. That was something nerve wrenching for me.. I needed oxygen.. I shut my eyes tightly when I heard our baby's cry, mishti had stopped screaming.. The room filled with our bi-shi's crying , I couldn't even open my eyes..

"It's a Girl, congratulations Mr and Mrs Rajvansh! " the doctor said, I opened my eyes.. Mishti was staring at our baby, I kissed her forehead and hugged her.. I started crying, "our baby girl! " I whispered, I was literally crying like a toddler.. The overwhelming emotions were making me really weak.. "It's a girl, butterfly! " I whispered, she cried with me as well..

I stood up and moved towards the doctor.. Our little angle was crying, she was really really small.. They placed a towel on my hands and placed her on my hands.. I looked at mishti, she was exhausted, she was tired, still the smile was heart warming.. My hands started shaking.. "Our baby! " I whispered, she got my eyes.. "It's a pre-mature baby! We have to do her check up! "

"Wait a minute, " I took her towards Mishti and made her look at our baby.. And instantly she started shedding tears.. She was extremely tired , so doctor took our baby.. "I can't believe! How are you feeling? " I asked her, she nodded her head before closing her eyes.. It took away my breath, but the nurse told me that she's alright and just need rest.. I changed my clothes and went outside..

"Bhai! " I hugged him, "It's a baby girl, our baby girl! " I hugged him, I was crying again.. It's just happy tears, but I was extremely emotional.. "Congratulations, my son ! " papa said, I hugged him as well.. After a decade I hugged him, but it's the fatherly love that I was feeling at that moment which made me extremely emotional and weak.. For my daughter, just for my daughter I didn't want to hold any grudges anymore .. And when I hugged papa, I realized how much pain he would have gone through when I stopped talking with him..

I broke our hug and just sat down on a chair.. My whole body was shaking.. "Mr Rajvansh, come to my cabin! " The doctor called me, I wiped my tears and went to her cabin.. She was looking stressed.. "See, Mr Rajvansh as you know it's a pre-mature baby , so there's some problem.. Like she is under weight, it's concerning.. She's facing difficulties in breathing as well.. We have to keep her in icu and she will stay here till she become fine. I hope you understand what I said, " she informed me..

I kept staring at the desk, I gave a nod. "But please, " I gulped, "Do everything, take as much money as required, but please make sure she will be fine! " I whispered, "Sir, we will give our best but rest is upon God, leave it on Him! " she said and left.. I let out a deep breath, the happiness was very short term.. I went to the icu, they didn't let me go inside.. So I peeped inside through the small glass..

It brought tears in my eyes, she's so small. They have kept her in icu, my baby! She was  wearing an oxygen mask.. It felt like someone is stabbing my heart.. It broke me completely.. Mishti was unconscious.. She will freak out hearing this, but I have no other option left but tell her the truth...

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(The next morning)

"How are you feeling? " I asked her, she just woke up.. "Where is our baby? Nobody tried to wake me.. " she already started freaking out.. I took her palm and caressed her forehead.. "Baby is shifted to icu due to her health conditions.. But she will be fine ! " I informed her and her expression changed into disbelief and she reacted the same way I reacted..

"But, she is, i mean .. I want to see her! " she demanded, "Doctor told you to take rest-"

"I want to see her, right now.. I haven't even hold our baby, Abir. You can't imagine what I am going through! " she became angry, there's no benefits of saying her anything. Because her anger is valid.. I took her in my arms and made her stand in front of the icu chamber.. Her eyes filled with tears..

"Please, don't let it affect you. Your health is not well as well, she will be fine! " I said, placing my hand on her back, she started crying.. "Butterfly, please! " even I was not in a proper condition to console her.. I was going through the same pain.. The doctor came and induced an injection into her vein and believe me it felt like death to me.. She started crying..

"Abir what are they doing? She is just a baby! " Mishti shouted, "Mishti calm down, they know what they are doing.. Come with me! " I forcefully took her from there, it will trigger her more.. "She's in so much pain, I am already feeling like a bad parent! " she cried hugging me, I wiped her tears.. "She's a fighter, she will be fine. Why are you saying all this? " I tried to calm her.. She laid down on the bed..

I told dadi to send food for her.. Dadi had arranged a puja for our baby's wellbeing.. "You know, the labour pain seriously terrified me.. I knew it would be painful, but this much? But you know what, when I heard her crying, it took all my pain away, it just felt like yeah it's worth of everything and now, why God is doing all this to us ! " she whispered, I just listened to her patiently but didn't say anything..

"And I am sorry for this, " she said pointing at the mark she left on my hand by her nails and kissed it.. I chuckled, "It's nothing in front of what you went through.. I mean seriously, who says that men are more strong physically , like how.. It exhausted me just by watching you. I know God have made every woman like this, so that they can bear this pain, but still like - Oh God, it was really painful to watch you like that! " I expressed, she gave a soft smile..

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As they say pain doesn't last long. By God's grace our baby's health became normal after a whole week.. This one week was nothing but a nightmare for the whole family.. Nobody could sleep at peace. And now the doctor told us to take our baby home. We have arranged a grihpravesh for them.. Mishti was holding our baby, from the time the doctor had given her baby, she hasn't looked at anyone nor did she gave our baby to even me..

She's just staring at her, like her world lies in her. I feel jealous, lol!! We arrived at home, "Finally! " she breathed in joy, I helped her and she got out of the car.. Bhai wanted to play all musical instruments, but I said no because she's just come from the hospital and I was still scared about her health.. And the baby is completely new to all these sounds.. So I did not want to freak her out.. Me being over protective of course!

They did our arti and the joy was wholesome .. Everyone were shouting and dancing in happiness.. Our baby was happy.. It felt like home. Our baby brought charm to our house.. One by one everyone held the baby, mishti and I were just adoring it.. Saanvi came and hugged her.. "Congratulations! " she wished both of us..

Saanvi is like an angel in our family, she had done a lot, but in return she got some trauma which nobody can heal. I hope God gives her the best life..

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Mishti :)

We took baby to our room.. Abir had decorated everything and cleaned the whole room.. I was expecting our room to be messy, but here it was completely different.. Everything was sanitized.. I kept our baby on the bed, we both changed our clothes and jumped on the bed..

We did nothing but just stared at her the whole day.. It was so wholesome. And the way her face was glowing, it's worth the pain.. "She only got my eyes, but she looks more like you! " Abir commented, "umm mumma's girl! " I said in proud and he smiled.. "I love you! " he confessed all of a sudden, I looked at him and smiled.. "We love you too.. You are the best husband and the best papa! " I said..

These past eight months were difficult for me, but there's not a single day when he had taunted me.. He just hears everything without any complaints, without lashing out.. I am grateful for having such a human as my husband in my life..

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It's her naamkaran today.. The priest was doing the puja.. Maa and papa were sitting on the puja holding our baby, I came to the kitchen room to make the prasad.. I felt like someone was watching me and of course he was none other than my husband.. "If you are done staring at me, help me! " I said without even looking at him..

He wrapped his arms around me and placed a soft kiss on my nape.. "How are you looking so beautiful today? It's difficult for me to look away, " he whispered and bit my neck, I gulped.. I was wearing nothing fancy today, but just a cotton saree. Still he found me beautiful, lol.

"Abir, I am making prasad, leave me! " I hit his stomach by my elbow, he groaned in pain and then helped me.. We both took the prasad, after keeping it at the place ,then we sat down.. Abir held the baby, the Priest was chanting mantra while Abir was just gossiping with our baby.. She was staring at him with her big eyes.. She was so adorable, I wanted to pull her cheeks..

It's the time for a name and everybody came with some suggestions.. "You guys take a chill.. I think it should be Mishti and Abir who should give her a name. Let them think! " Saanvi di interpreted, but the fact is we couldn't come to any conclusion yesterday but ended up fighting.. He was seriously giving her the name of the super man or bat man.. I mean  common she is a girl! Huh

"I want Saanvi di to decide a name for her. Because like, she's the one who has played a big role in my pregnancy. She was with me throughout .. I am really grateful for that, so I really want her to suggest a name! " I said, "No no, it's-" she refused, but I cut her off..

"Please, for us! " I said, even Abir agreed with me.. I handed her the baby, Aadarsh bhai smiled with happy tears in his eyes.. Abir pulled me towards him, "Don't you think I am the one who played a big role here? Like I made you pregnant-" before he could say more I hit him.. Aadarsh bhai chuckled, because he heard it.. I felt so embarrassed..

"Will you behave like a dad? " I scolded him..

"Only if you let me! Huh. You are still scolding me! " he made a face, I shook my head in disbelief. I can't believe that I have to pamper two babies, seriously..

"Okay I have thought of a name! But you are free to decide whether to keep that name or not! " she said hesitantly.. "Just give a name, we will be happy with whatever you will call her! " I said, she smiled at me..

"Ritshi! " she whispered, my smiled widened..

"Ritshi Rajvansh, right! It's such a beautiful name Saanvi! Oh my God, you have combined our name here.. " Abir said in excitement, we both were trying to combine our name yesterday but could not get this name.. Now I was proud of my decision  , she really gave her a beautiful name..

(Abir - Ri
Mishti - tshi
Ritshi)

Abir took Ritshi in his embrace and whispered "Ritshi Rajvansh" in her ears, it's so beautiful to hear even.. Ritshi..

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It took me a whole day to think a name for her, I hope I did justice ... I hope you will like the name..

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