Mishti >>

I came from the office early , because I was exhausted.. I didn't even inform him, I just left the office.. How in just one night he changed his mind! Maybe I jumped into this pregnancy thing earlier, we should give each other a little more time..

But he could have told me about this before planning a baby. It was him who insisted, who made me see the dream of being a parent and now he took a step back.. It broke my heart..

"Ummm... It smells so good! " I looked back and saw Abir coming towards me, holding a plate.. I stopped the swing by putting my feet on the ground, he sat beside me and forwarded the plate towards me.. It's chhole bhature, I don't know if it's the smell or the sight, I felt like vomiting.. Maybe because I was crying before some time..

"Your favorite! " he blinked his eyes, I shook my head and pushed it lightly, his smile dropped.. "I am not in a mood to take any food! " I murmured , "But you like chhole bhature, " he insisted, I stood up.. "Don't force me, I really don't want to eat anything! " I didn't want to fight with him so I left quietly. If I would have been stayed there I would have said something which would have hurt him.. So it's better to not talk with him till I became normal..

Surprisingly he didn't stop me either.. I went to rooftop, played music and sat down silently.. I don't know why suddenly I have become this emotional, I just wanted to cry, I feel restless, I feel anxious, I feel irritated no matter whatever I do.. It's so fucking disturbing for me..

I sat there for three hours, nobody came to disturb me not even Abir.. It's dinner time , I was not hungry yet.. I heard a footsteps , so I looked back only to find Abir.. There's no smile on his face which made me more sad. How things have become so complicated!

"Dinner is ready! Let's go! " he called me, "I am not hungry! " I said, I was not lying, I was actually feeling full... He stared at me for the next two minutes, "We haven't talked for two days, just because we didn't agree on a topic. I can't believe our bond has become so weak, " his tone was low. It actually hit me. He left.

I stared at the door for next five minutes.. Due to my mood swings I just can't ruin his mental peace.. I turned off the music and went down stairs.. As I was expecting Abir was doing his work in our bedroom.. He was sitting on a sofa, keeping his legs on the table and putting the laptop on his lap.. I stood there, he didn't look at me..

I sat on his lap, putting my both legs at both sides.. He tilted his head and started doing his work.. I wrapped my arms around his neck and buried my face in the crook of his neck, "I love you! " I whispered, my lips slightly brushed against his skin.. He kept the laptop on the sofa and pulled me closer, I started shedding tears. I hugged him tightly..

"Sometimes things don't go as per our plan, but have faith on me.. Give me sometime, please! " he said, his voice was low and depressing .. I brushed his back as the feeling of guilt hit me right there.. He didn't want to have a baby and me being all self centered didn't even try to understand his emotions or reasons..

"Why are you crying? Stop crying please, " he caressed my hair, I pressed my face on his shoulder and closed my eyes.. "It's okay, if you don't want a baby now.. We will wait! " I said, he didn't respond anything .. I looked at him and he just looked back. Those brown intense eyes were looking tired and hiding a lot of emotions..

"Let's go and take our dinner! " I insisted , he nodded his head and shut down the laptop. I was having a war inside, I just wanted to scream, cry and beat the hell out of someone.. I was feeling really frustrated and I don't know the fucking reason.. Everyone had already taken there dinner, we both took our dinner..

"Let's go on a ice cream date! " I decided, he agreed with me.. There's an ice cream parlor near us, we both chose to go by walk.. I felt relaxed due to the cold breeze, but I was still anxious.. He didn't buy any ice cream for him, just bought one for me.. As soon the ice cream started melting in my mouth and went down to my stomach, I felt so so relaxed..

Maybe I was craving for something cold and sweet, so it's affecting my mental peace, huh! I bought another cup for me, so that I can enjoy that tonight.. "My legs are hurting, I can't walk! " I said.. He shook his head in disbelief at my childishness and carried me on his back..

In every two seconds I was giving a kiss on his cheek, he was just smiling.. "Why are you behaving so glumy today? I said sorry na! " I whispered, he shook his head and smiled at me.. Something was bothering him and I had no clue about it.. We reached home and settled ourselves on the bed..

I moved near him and started brushing his hair, "What happened? You are looking sad nowadays! " I asked him, he stared at me but didn't reply anything.. I knew something was bothering him, his eyes can't lie.. "Some work related stuff! " he made an excuse, I furrowed my eyebrows.. "It's okay if you don't want to share now, at least don't make these stupid lies! " I chuckled, he gave a half smile and kissed my forehead..

"Good night, we have to go to office early, tomorrow! " I nodded and slept..

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During midnight I felt something weird, I felt like my throat was burning, I sat down and looked at Abir.. He was sleeping peacefully, so I didn't disturb him.. I thought to roam around a little, because I was feeling extremely restless.. Just when I got off from the bed, I felt the urge to puke.. I ran to washroom and vomited in the toilet.. I vomited everything.. After cleaning up I came out..

I think there was something wrong with ice cream, because from last two days I haven't eaten any outside food.. Abir was still sleeping, he would have freaked out unnecessarily so I didn't told him anything and slept..

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A week later :)

We both were doing our work in our bedroom, I was sitting on the bed, while he was sitting on the sofa.. It had never happened, like he always sit beside me every time we do work at home.. In fact he was doing his work sitting on the bed, but when I came he took a walk around the room and settled down on the sofa..

He was staring at his phone with an serious expression, I have been noticing him from last one hour and it didn't feel like he was working.. He was just continuously typing, to whom he's sending messages.. I put my files and laptop aside and walked to him, he was so involved that he didn't even notice..

I sat beside him and he quickly turned off his phone screen, he's definitely chatting with someone, I could only see the name.. It's Ishita or something.. He kept the phone aside.. "What are you doing? " I asked him, "umm just checking mails! " he lied again.. I didn't say anything.. "Let's go for dinner? " I asked him, "You go, I will join you! " he replied..

I didn't ask him much and left.. Everyone was there, I greeted them.. Due to heavy workload I was not able to catch up with them.. "See, I have made your favorite gajar ka halwa! " Maa said, I became excited and sat between her and papa.. I always sit between maa and papa during dinner, Abir never complained about it..

"You are taking a lot of stress nowadays, don't be like my son.. Stop stressing over work! " papa said, I giggled.. "He have put responsibility on me, I have to do it in right way na! " I replied, "Yes, but take care of yourself as well.. " I nodded..

"Abir didn't come? " bhai asked me, I looked at upstairs.. "No, actually he is doing something important, he will join us after some time! " I replied, he furrowed his eyebrows.. "From last few days I have been noticing him, he's staying zoned out all the time! " he mumbled, Saanvi di patted his shoulder.. "Like you don't stay zoned out.. Maybe due to work pressure he's tensed. Even the market is down now, so maybe he's tensed! " she was right too..

I let it go and did my dinner.. Everyone finished their dinner, but Abir didn't come.. I took his dinner upstairs, he's not in the room.. I went to the terrace and called him, he was on a phone call, seeing me he hung up the call.. "You didn't come for dinner, " I asked him, he put the phone on the table and took the plate from my hand..

"It's a client on the call , I am sorry! " he lied to me again, I preferred to stay silent.. I changed my clothes and layed on the bed. After half an hour he layed beside me, his one arm wrapped around my belly and he pulled me towards him.. He placed a kiss on my hair and then a kiss on my cheek, I closed my eyes.. His simple gesture still gives me goosebumps and butterflies..

"I love you! " he whispered, I hummed in response.. I was angry at him.. To my surprise he didn't say anything and slept.. I was feeling extremely frustrated with his new changed behavior.. He's acting so strange..

The day was hectic, so we both fell asleep quickly.. My sleep got disturbed due to his phone call .. I groaned in my sleep and looked at his phone... And my sleep vanished seeing the name Ishita. Who the hell is this girl? As Abir woke up, I pretended to sleep.. He answered the call..

Yarr, just because it's day in USA, doesn't mean in India it's the same..

He said in a sarcastic tone and went to the terrace.. Did he just mentioned her saying yarr? I looked at the time, it's 2:00 am.. From when he started answering calls during midnight.. I felt so frustrated, but again avoided it because I trust him more than I trust myself and I know how much he loves me.. There must be something important, that's why he's stressed and I was just assuming things..

He came back after a few minutes and layed down.. His finger brushed my cheek, removing the hair strands from my face.. He placed a soft kiss on my cheek, and slept hugging me.. My heart melted in a second and I forgot everything which was frustrating me..

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I was in the cabin, he was attending a meeting in the conference hall.. His phone was there, I knew his password so I opened it and went to whatsapp. There's a message from Ishita, I will call you once I reach there.. I read it from the notification bar and kept it on the table.. He came from the meeting and that's when his phone started ringing flashing Ishita's name.. My blood was boiling in anger, but I kept a natural face..

I had plugged the earphones, so maybe he thought I couldn't hear anything..

Hey you reached?

I will pick you from airport or we will direct meet in the cafe?

Okay Okay!

He cut the call and wore his jacket.. "Mishti, I have a work, I will come at night! " saying he left with the keys.. It's more annoying that he called me Mishti instead of butterfly.. After he left I went downstairs and took Kunal's car..

Being a fast driver, it didn't take me much time to catch his car.. I should have never followed him, if he would have been honest with me.. I felt so guilty for following him.. Still I did.. He parked the car outside an open cafe, I parked my car at a distance.. I followed him, making sure he won't see me..

A girl was already there, waiting for him.. They fucking hugged each other, tf? They both sat on the chair, facing each other.. Which type of work is it? I couldn't see anything from the distance, let alone hearing anything, huh! There's no point of standing there and seeing them.. I felt so hurt, not because I was thinking that he's cheating on me or something.. But he's definitely hiding something from me..

And of course, being his wife it will be hurtful for me to see him meeting another lady without informing me.. And no way it's looking like a professional meeting.. I travelled back to the office, after handing the keys to Kunal, I booked a cab for myself.. I bought one cup of ice cream from the same store and went to home.. I finished the ice cream, I was sitting in the lawn..

I felt nauseated again and went inside.. I ran to the washroom and vomited everything I had eaten.. It's the common washroom which was on the ground floor , so everybody came running to me.. Saanvi di brushed my back, I cleaned it and drank a glass of water.. "What did you eat? " Maa asked me, "I had an ice cream .. Even last time when I took this ice cream I vomited, " there's definitely something wrong with this ice cream..

"Did you buy it from the nearest ice cream parlor? " di asked me and I nodded in agreement.. "Oh shit! An exact thing happened to me yesterday, Aadarsh had filed a case against them.. They haven't taken any action till now, they are definitely mixing something in the ice cream or sailing expired ice cream! " she explained, now I understood why I vomited after eating an ice cream..

"Don't worry about it, take rest! "  dadi patted my shoulder, I went to my room and freshened up.. It's 6:00 in the evening.. I roamed around the terrace and fell back on the bed..

"Hey butterfly! " Abir came back from the office, I looked at the time, it was 7:30 PM.. I just smiled at him and focused on the television.. I was not feeling good, so I didn't do any work today.. "Are you okay? " he asked me in concern, "Yeah, I'm just a little tired! " I replied, not paying enough attention to him..

"Take a rest then, I am going down stairs.. I need to check dadi's medicines! " he left, not before kissing my forehead.. I was boiling in anger.. He came back just after a minute, "You didn't tell me that you vomited, how are you feeling now? " he sat beside me and placed a palm on my belly.. "It's nothing important, so I didn't tell you! "I replied, he sat in front of me, blocking the television screen from my eyes..

" Step aside! " I mumbled, without looking at him..

"When your husband is talking to you, look at him.. " he said in a demanding tone , I glared at him.. "Okay okay, relax! Tell me what did you eat? " he asked me, "An ice cream, " I replied, he joined his eyebrows.. "An ice cream? It caused nausea? Don't lie okay! " he looked at me with curiosity filled eyes..

"There's something wrong with that ice cream.. Even last time when you bought it for me, I vomited, " I clarified, "You didn't tell me that? " he was surprised, I turned off the television and went to terrace.. "What's wrong with you? Did I do something wrong? "

"No, of course not! Abir Rajvansh can never do anything wrong! " I taunted, "Then what happened? Why are you talking with me like this? Tell me if I hurt you by anyway! " his voice softened.. There's a war going inside me, I was feeling like I will cry.. I was at the verge of crying because he's been lying to me from last week..

"Don't disturb me right now, I don't want to talk to you! " I said in frustation, he hugged me from my back and kept his chin on my shoulder.. I was still trying to hold my tears, it felt impossible after he hugged me.. "I know I have been staying busy and that's why I am not able to spend time with you.. And if you are angry for this reason, then I am sorry,I am really sorry about it.. " he apologized sweetly, I looked down and let the tears fall..

He freaked out and made me look at him.. He held me from my waist and made me sit on the parapet, I wiped my tears and looked at the other side.. "Now if you don't tell me, how would I know? " he brushed my cheek with his thumb, I jerked his hand away.. "Okay, how can I calm you down? "

Now I will say this too?

"Heyyyy! " he held my cheek between his thumb and index finger and made me look at him.. "I don't really like when you cry, but you look so cute when your nose and cheeks become red! " he continued, "And in this serious situation, I have to control the urge of kissing you, " he admitted.. Again I started shedding tears, he pulled me close and pressed my face on his chest..

"Will you please stop crying and explain me? " he made me look at him again, I was still silent.. "Okay, you can beat me, but don't cry! " he held my hands and started hitting his cheeks lightly.. I held his hand and bit his wrist until he hissed in pain.. I left my teeth mark on his skin, "Wohho! You seem so angry, I definitely did something wrong! " he voiced.. I took his hand and brushed my fingers where I left my teeth marks..

He chuckled at my action and I glared at him.. His phone started ringing, "Wait a minute! " he took out his phone, it's again from Ishita.. I held his hand, "Who is she? " I questioned, he raised his eyebrows.. "She called you at midnight as well.. You have been talking to her from yesterday as much as I know.. Who is she? " I asked him angrily..

"Umm.. So here is the problem? " he asked me , I didn't say anything and looked at the other side.. "Wait a minute! " he answered the call and kept the phone on speaker..

Hey, Abir..

Hmm hii! Actually I just reached home and now I am busy with my dear wife.. So can we talk later if there's no emergency?

Oh sure sure

She cut the call from her side, I took his phone and threw it against the wall.. It broke down into pieces, he stared at me in shock.. He twisted my hand a little and pressed it against my back, pulling me close to him.. Our lips were inches apart, I gulped down..

He placed his lips on mine, pulling my quivering lips between his warm lips, his other hand grabbed the back of my neck.. He left my hand and held my jawline, I placed my palm on his chest.. The way he was kissing me, I knew he's a little angry, his heartbeat was rapid.. We parted away, I pulled him close and hugged him.. He buried his face in the crook of my neck, the way he's breathing I knew he got angry on me for doubting on him..

He broke the hug and stared at me.. "He would be definitely a stupid who will cheat on you, a girl like you! " he voiced, "I didn't say that you were cheating on me! " I mentioned, he kept his hands on his waist and stared at me.. "I was angry because you were talking with her a lot and even you went to met her! " I shouted, he raised his eyebrows in disbelief..

"How did you know that I went to meet her? You followed me? " he was stunned..

"Of course I did! How dare you hug her? " I shouted again, "You lied to me, went to meet her, hugged her even addressed her saying yarr.. How can you expecting me to stay calm? " I voiced, he laughed throwing his head back.. I glared at him and he stopped laughing..

I punched on his stomach, he cried fakely..

"Now stop acting and tell me who's she? And why the hell did she call you at midnight? " I interrogated... "Aahh.. Actually you are right.. It's been two years to our marriage.. Don't you think I should date a new girl? " he asked me dramatically, "Do you want me to hit you again? " I glared at him..

"See! Domestic violence, that's why I need another girlfriend! " he joked again, making me more angry.. I stood up and went to the bedroom again.. "Sorry baba! " he followed me, I sat in front of the television and he sat in front of me, blocking my view.. "I can't tell about her, because it's her personal problem and she had taken a promise from me to not share anything with anyone.. But I swear, once her problem will be solved, I will share it with you! " he explained..

It made me more furious.. "Why the hell she told you her secret? " I asked him, he rolled his eyes.. "See, don't you trust me? " he asked me, "No, I won't! " I said keeping a straight face, "okay, fine! " he left the room.. Huh! I turned on the television and focused on the movie.. These fights are normal between us, without fighting with each other our food don't get digested..

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We both didn't talk after that fight, of course he being dramebaaz acted like he's angry.. I didn't pay any attention to him which made him more angry.. We decided to not go to office today.. Because dadi had told us, one of our relative were supposed to come during lunch.. I was in the kitchen from the morning, helping Saanvi di..

A couple had come to our house and they had a cute little daughter.. She has just started walking, it made me sad for some reason because Abir don't want a baby now.. All the family were talking with each other, while I was just looking at the cute toddler, she's trying to walk.. It felt so cute to stare at her, the way she was taking baby steps ..

I moved my gaze only to find Abir staring at her with pure admiration .. His face was glumy again.. Her father came and picked her in his arms, he threw her up a little in air and caught her again and she started giggling, it's so cute.. The father daughter duo started playing with each other, I looked at Abir..

He turned back, but I felt like he wiped his tears.. Was he crying? I couldn't notice because he left.. I went behind him, he was sitting on the swing in the terrace.. I observed him from a distance, his eyes were filled with tears.. I could not understand about his sudden sad ness.. He was alright before lunch, what happened now? He became sad after seeing the baby?

I got a call from our secretary, he was outside of our house.. I called him because I wanted to give him a pendrive, it's related to work.. We both didn't go today, so could not give it to him.. I could have send it by other way, but it's important so I didn't take any risk and called him here.. I opened Abir's bookshelf..

I took the pendrive and also pulled two files from the shelf which made other files fall on the floor.. I first went down stairs and handed him the files and pendrive.. I went back to my room and collected all the papers and put the files back on the shelf.. My eyes fell on the envelope, my test reports..

And then suddenly it hit me, he has been acting weird since he got these reports.. I was stunned, my heart started beating fast.. Did he go to the doctor?

I closed the door of the shelf and went to the terrace.. Seeing me Abir quickly changed his facial expressions and gave me a half smile.. Now I was sure that there's something wrong.. "You forgot that you were acting angry! " I reminded, he hit his forehead and shook his head in disbelief..

I settled myself in his lap and hugged him, my fingers started brushing his hair.. He wrapped his both hands around me tightly, pressing his face on my shoulder.. I comforted him as much as I could..

"There's some pregnancy complications in me, that's why you changed your mindset na? " I asked him in a slow and sweet tone, "hmmm! " he whispered.. My heart dropped, his grip around me loosened as realization hit me.. I moved back and stared at him.. He let out a deep breath and closed his eyes..

"Why did you do this? " he whispered , his voice was trembling.. "What type of complications? " I asked in fear, tears gathered in my eyes..

"You can't carry the baby during the third trimester because there's some internal injuries! "

I stared at him without blinking my eyes..

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