Mishti :)

"I have decided to call off the football match! " Abir said out of the blue, I was in full focus mode on my work but his words pulled me out to the present situation.. I looked up, he was in deep thoughts..

"I was trying to proove myself all these years. But enough. I won't play against Nihal anymore. I am done with this challenge and done with my past! " he expressed, it made me happy for some reasons. He went to terrace and dialled a number. They have booked the stadium so now they have to cancel the agreement. And for this Abir have to pay..

"I will join you! " I said as he took the car key, "Why? I will just go and fill the formalities. You stay here! " he replied, it's more like an order.. I very well knew that Nihal would be present there and they will have a heated argument for sure.. And in anger my husband loses his mind, so I didn't want to let him go alone..

"I didn't ask for your permission. I am going with you and that's final! "

"Who's the boss here? "

"Who's the wife here? " I said with the same attitude, he rolled his eyes and sighed in distress. "Let's go wifey! " he muttered in defeat, I grinned happily and walked out of the cabin.. He silently followed me.. It took us half an hour to reach the office stadium.. We directly went to the office, Nihal was not there.. Abir signed on the agreement papers and gave them the cheque.

"You stay here! " he said me and left the chamber.. I wonder why Nihal didn't come here yet.. Their assistant gave me a cup of coffee, I was enjoying it while watching the fishes enjoying in the aquarium until I heard some noises.. Putting the cup on the table I rushed to outside and as I was expecting both the boys were fighting again. I knew it. He must have said something to him which would have triggered Abir .

"Abir stop! " I ran towards them and tried to stop him but he didn't even listen to me.. Both were beating the hell out of each other. "Abir please stop! " I was losing my calm, he was looking hell angry. I held both of his arms and in between their fights Nihal pushed me away , I fell on the ground , straight on my back.. "Ouch! " I crawled on the floor feeling the sharp pain on my lower waist..

"Butterfly are you okay? " Abir made me sit, I rubbed my back and looked at Nihal, he was bleeding. "How dare you? " Abir shouted and punched him hard on his stomach. My eyes went wide, I stood up hurriedly.. Nihal was crawling on the ground, before Abir could hit him more I hugged him from the front.. "Abir please stop.. Please! " I almost cried, he was literally shaking in anger..

He clenched his jaw , his palm turned into a tight fist.. I placed my palm on his cheek and brushed my thumb on his skin.. "For me.. Stop please! " He let out a deep breath and before leaving threw an angry glare at Nihal.. I let out a deep breath and followed him.. "What's wrong with that Nihal. What did he say this time that made you so angry? " I asked him in anger, Nihal always blabbers shit but atleast Abir should have kept calm.. I didn't get any response from him..

"Hello! I am asking youuu.. What happened? What did he say? " I repeated, he shrugged off casually..

"It's not him, it's me who started the argument. I was just umm pissed off. I couldn't let this thing close so peacefully. I would have beaten the hell out of him but you being you! Huh.. "

I stared at him in shock, he was still not in his sense. "Have you lost your mind? Is this how you deal a situation? I mean are you even serious! " I was dumbstruck, that's why he said me to sit there. So clever of him..

"Yeah hundred percent serious.. " he replied cockily.. "Listen don't talk to me like that.. It's not a joke. He could have injured you! " I shouted at him, his behavior was getting on my nerves.. "Why are you freaking out? Nothing happened to me. I know how to deal with it. It's not for the first time we were fighting over anything! " he replied casually, I stared at him in hopelessness..

"By the way, is it hurting there? " finally he remembered about me, he was going to place his palm on my back when I went a little aside. "What? Listen don't make a issue out of it! " he mumbled, "Oh ho? I am making a issue out of it.. Fine.. Thank you.. " saying I opened my phone and booked a cab for myself.. He snatched my phone away. "I can drop you at your place, stop doing drama! "

"No thanks. I know how to deal with it, " saying I took the phone from him, he clenched his jaw in anger. "Even you should be happy. After I leave the place feel free to fight with him. After reaching the hospital feel free to call me even.. " I mocked him , he rolled his eyes. My cab arrived as it was near my location.

"Listen if you won't cancel the cab then I will not talk to you! "

"Who's dying to talk to you? What's the point of talking with me even? When you don't listen to me? " I replied.

"Yarr literally? Fine go! "

I got inside the car, he stood there watching me, his eyes were devoid of any emotions.. This is how we ruined another day .. As the car started he turned his gaze away, I too looked at other side.. Sometimes I wonder how we fight over little things.. I safely reached at my place.. I checked my phone but there was not a single call or message from his side, huh!

The security guard opened the gate for me, the way he was ogling at me made me scared. I had never noticed him staring at me but today I found it little creepy.. Though I didn't show my fear, but it made me hell scared due to my past experience and moreover dadi and Naina hadn't returned yet. But as I stay in apartment so there's not much problem.. There's so many people around me..

Oh my overthinking level!

I locked my door from inside and got freshened up.. I didn't even feel like to eat anything due to the little argument. It's literally baseless, but it's his fault. I won't talk to him till he says a sorry. I was worried for him only.. I made a maggie for myself, the easy recipe.. I thought atleast Abir would come at night to accompany me but he didn't.. It made me more disappointed. I waited for his call till late at night but ugh, it's a bad day.. Nothing happened according to my expectations..

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I was sweating very badly, trying to wake up, my hands were tightly clutching the bed sheet and I was throwing my head.. It's a nightmare. Finally after a few minutes of terrific sight I jerked off my sleep.. My eyes were filled with tears, I took a glance of my surrounding and realized I was safe and fine.. I gulped down a glass of water, my whole body was shaking in fear.. Letting out a deep breath I fell back on the bed.

It's a nightmare. Someone was trying to molest me. It's literally the worst dream I had ever seen.. I could feel temperature rising in my body, I started crying because I needed some comfort but there's no one.. Someone knocked on the main door, after wiping off my tears I went to open the door. I looked outside through the peephole, soon disappointment crept over my face as I spot the milkman.

I opened the door and took the milk from him.. After he left I dropped myself in the couch and started crying.. It's my pre-menstrual days, which was making me feel worse then before.. I tried to calm myself but nothing was helping me at that moment. No matter how much I try to compose myself , it won't help until I talk to him or better after complaining about him in front of him..

I took a warm shower, I was feeling hungry so I made sandwiches for myself.. He didn't even call me to ask whether I was going to the office or not.. It's making me more angry and now he will see the consequences.. I quickly booked a cab, it took me fifteen minutes to reach his office.. As usual I got some unwanted attention, so I made my way to Abir's cabin..

I didn't ask for his permission, I directly entered inside and sat on the chair opposite to his.. He was casually doing his work.. "You are late Mrs Rajvansh! " he muttered, how casually he was behaving like nothing had happened yesterday.. And after all this he has the audacity to taunt me..

I clenched my jaw and glared at him in anger, maybe he sensed something wrong so he looked up and raised his brows.. I hate the way anger started leaving my body as soon as his warm brown eyes met with mine, he very well knew how to melt me.. I looked down as tears started gathering in my eyes..

I wish I could shout at anyone without crying. I really don't have any control over these tears..

"Heyyyy what happened! Why are you crying? " he came to me, pushing my chair towards back he knelt down in front of me in a blink of an eye.

What happened? Seriously..

"I am so sorry for yesterday.. Please don't cry.. Talk to me.. What happened.. " he held my hand , but I jerked his hand away.. He tried to cup my face but I pushed him away. "Don't you ever dare to talk to me like that. I hate it! " I shouted at him, he stayed silent for a few seconds and just stared at me.. "I am sorry.. I was really in a bad mood yesterday.. Umm okay I won't repeat this again! " he apologized again..

I looked at the other side, "Now butterfly won't even look at me? " he whispered in the softest tone, I closed my eyes, it's making me weaker.. He leaned close to me and brushed his lips on my cheek , "I am sorry, punish me but don't ignore me! " he said in my ears.

"Oh I am ignoring you? You did not even call me, you didn't even go to me last night.. What's my fault? I just wanted your safety , will you be happy if you see me fighting with someone? Then how can you expect it from me! " I expressed, he rubbed my upper chest as I was breathing heavily..

"First of all, I broke my phone during the fights and I don't remember your number as you have changed it recently.. And then I wanted to visit you but I had to go home.. Yesterday dadi fell down the stairs , Aadarsh bhai is out of station so I had to handle everything.. "

My eyes went wide.. "You are telling me now? I mean seriously? You are so calm now.. How? She fell from the stairs? You know I will kill you.. " I was literally shocked, how could he be so normal..

"Yeah because dadi is completely fine now. Nothing has happened to her.. Just a small cut and she personally told me to not tell you because you would have been worried. I was so busy then I became free this morning. I directly came here because I know you would come here and I prefer to talk face to face rather than on the phone.. And don't worry about dadi, bhai has returned home.. She's fine.. "

"Now I am more angry.. I seriously don't want to talk to you. Just...just leave me alone! " I whispered in a low tone and got up.. I was about to open the door but he pushed it and pinned me against the door.. I tried to escape from his hold, but it was impossible..

"Please ! Don't go like that.. I swear the situation was something like that.. "

"I don't think you even consider me as a part of your family, otherwise you would have informed me! " I showed my disappointment..

"Mishti, seriously.. If I have a family na then it's you.. It starts with you.. I know whatever happened was my fault, but don't get me wrong.. " he was sounding helpless.. But it didn't make me less angry either.. I stayed silent for the next few minutes and he just kept staring at me.. He held my palm, I didn't push him away this time, I was feeling drained out..

"Wait! What's wrong? Are you okay? " he asked in concern, I didn't understand anything at first. "Why are your hands shaking? " he added , I wonder how he noticed every little details about me.. My hands were still shaking because of that nightmare.. "I want to visit dadi! " I stated and proceeded to move further but he didn't let me go..

"Butterfly! Atleast tell me what happened? Did you face any problem while coming here? Or wait you saw any horrible dream like last time? " he asked me again, I let out a deep breath and nodded.. The next moment he pulled me into his embrace, I let him hug me because it's all I needed, his warmth, his comfort.. I closed my eyes and inhaled his perfume.. It's so addicting..

"I am sorry, I was not there with you when you needed! " he kept apologizing, "Can we both visit dadi? I don't want to talk about anything now.. " I was having a bad mood , so I could not utter anything good either.. He nodded and grabbed his car key.. We both moved out of the office, holding each other hands..

Throughout the drive he was staring at me and complaining why was I not smiling.. Now it's more irritating because I was behaving so odd.. My mood swings become worse sometimes.. I entered dadi's room, her smile widened as soon as she saw me.. "Dadi.... " I screamed loudly and hugged her, she's watching television, her dailyshops..

"How's your feet? "

"Now as I saw my daughter, everything will be fine! " I chuckled at her response.. "I miss you so much, come soon na. When are you planing to shift here? " she asked, sadness was gripping through her every words.

"We are getting married soon, so of course in between just one or half months! " Abir said, we both snapped towards him, he was really confident about the statement. "Let her decide too! " dadi interpreted, "Of course! But I guess she wants this too.. " he added, I rolled my eyes.. Just the thoughts of getting married to him gave me a bunch of butterflies. But I was angry on him, so I just gave an eye roll.

"Okay we will see that.. But can I take a little bit rest? These medicines won't let me see my serials too.. " she said with a frown, we both chuckled. Abir turned off the television, I helped her to get up and made her lay on the bed properly. After making sure she's slept we both left the room.. I met other family members, it's been so long I haven't seen anyone of them. Maybe one week..

"Let's go back to the office? " I said in a cold tone  , he pressed his lips tighter and expressed an obedient smile.. We got inside the car, I wanted to drive but he didn't let me, huh! He didn't take the usual route today, I didn't ask because I thought he will take any other route..

"Where are we heading to? "

"Vasai beach! "

My eyes went wide, "Are you mad? We will go in such outfits? And why the sudden plan? "

"Because I want to spend some quality time with my wife. Don't say a no please.. I have already cancelled today's schedule! " he showed his puppy eyes. We both would be alone there.. We had visited London and Goa before also that too alone, but our bond was not same.. Now it's changed in a better way, I felt a whole zoo in my tummy again..

After two hours of driving we finally reached at Vasai.. He parked his car, we both went towards the shore where there's no people.. I prefer solitude.. It's around 2:30 PM, to our good luck the weather was cool today  .. I took a deep breath  , the environment had such a healing vibes.. I felt so relaxed as we both walked on the sands, holding each other's hand..

"Let's sit here! " I said to Abir, we both sat on the sand, I regretted for wearing formals today.. I adjusted myself in front of him, he was facing me while I was facing the deep blue ocean.. The view in front of me was wholesome. I wish I could make a cottage and stay there forever..

I was staring the waves while my husband was staring at me. Both the views were beautiful, umm! I looked down as I couldn't keep my shyness away anymore.. His eyes always does magic on me, no wonder why I fell for his eyes. He chuckled at my reaction and turned his body towards the sea. We just sat there for next fifteen minutes without uttering anything.. It felt so heavenly good.. It's peaceful..

"Will we able to make it up? " I asked breaking the silence .. He looked back at me then turned towards me completely. "If we're meant to be then we will be! " he replied, then again there was a complete silence. "And what if we're not meant to be.. " I did not understand why I asked him something like that, I was just scared about us.. He didn't answer me but told me to remove my black coat, even I was feeling hot so I did..

"If we are not meant to be then we will pretend like destiny and all doesn't exist. We will make our own world! " he expressed, I rolled my eyes..

"We can do everything but can't fight against destiny! "

He gave me a look of agreement.. The next moment he forwarded his hand & released my hair which I had tied in a bun..

"You know sometimes I get scared.. What if anything will happen -"

I was in the middle of conversation when he loosened my tie and took it off..

"Han so what I was saying ki see it's not like I don't trust you or me. But there is a fear inside me which don't let me sleep at nights -"

Again I stopped in the middle as he started adjusting my hair, opened first two buttons of my shirt and just stared at me like there's nothing more beautiful thing in this world..

"What made you think that I will give up on you or I will let you give up on US?  I don't know but it just feels like a forever thing and about your fear, all I can say is a relationship will never be healthy or smooth. We have to face a lot of ups and downs but at the end we have to stay calm when it comes to us. And I have to work on myself, on my anger! " he explained ..

I loved the way his tone softens every time he tries to explain me something.. He raised his eyebrows at my confusing state, I shook my head and jumped on him making him roll on the ground with me..

"Thank you for taking me here.. " I said, he quickly got up and picked me in his arms.. He walked towards the water, "Let's play WWE! " before I could process his words he threw me inside the water.. "What the -" the sudden push of waves didn't let me utter anything and I got pushed towards the shore..

He started laughing, I was completely drenched.. "Don't think I can't fight with you.. " I shouted at him and started pushing him backward but he switched our position , holding me from my waist he again threw me into the water.. "Abir.. " I yelped making a pout..

"Already tired? Where is your strength butterfly? Common get up, quick quick! " he was trying to intimidate me, I flared my nose in annoyance and got up , but fell down again due to the waves.. "Tch tch tch! " he mimicked, I glared at him..

"This is not done! I am out of this game.. " I stated and started walking towards the sand .. He kept calling me but I didn't stop, "Sorry sorry! " wrapping his hands around my waist he started walking backwards and once we reached into the depth of water he twirled me around him..

I stood on my feet and turned towards him, I gazed deep into his hazel eyes.. My hands slowly reached his chest, I smiled gently, before he could hold me I pushed him hard and he fell flat on his back making me jump in happiness.. "Seriously! This is cheating.. " he groaned in annoyance, the salty water went to his mouth, I pressed my lips tightly to hold my laugh..

Holding my hand he jerked me into his chest, his eyes as scary as the ocean.. The way his eyes fills with desires every time he keep me close, it makes me nervous sometimes.. He glided his hand from my jawline to the back of the neck making my stomach crawl.. Pulling my face closed to his, he connected our lips, I felt weak on my knees..

His warm lips against mine felt like forever..

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This is all I could write in four days.. I had time but I have lost myself..  I am not able to feel anything anymore.. I am not able to imagine anything.. Things are getting really difficult for me.. I hope I will just survive at least..

Please don't be disappointed. Your girl will come with amazing updates. Give me a short break, I badly need it.. I hope I will come back alive lol🙂..