Abir :)

Coming into a relationship was never in my plan but she came out of the syllabus..She just entered into my life and nothing happened according to me. She just ruled everything even though when I was thinking things were under my control, it was never. From the very beginning things started occurring according to her and I never realized it..

The day she told me that she wanted to continue this relationship, I got shocked. This thing never crossed my mind, I could not believe she's saying this. I could not trust myself for her that's why I said a No. But then Yash happened, every second of that time was heartwrenching for me. I was relieved after seeing her completely fine.

The whole night I could not sleep. I wanted her to get a better partner, a better life, a better family. But honestly after letting her go from my life, I would have never lived in peace. The single thought of her would have killed me. There would have a constant fear in me.  I was literally freaking out the whole night.

Then in the battle of heart & mind, I listened to heart. It's not only about her but about me too. Giving myself a second chance was harder. But then I can't even run away from my life just because of some undeserving people who were once a part of my life.

She deserves the best and I wanted to be the best version of myself. If changing myself for better would keep her happy, I would happily change myself. Everyday I am struggling with my own fears, own insecurities, what if something will happen between us, what if we wouldn't make it up, what if I would break her and there's so on.

But then I just think about her. I stare at her face. She's a ball of sunshine and the amount of positivity she had in herself can change anything otherwise it would have never easier for her to break the wall around me. She melted my heart, like my heart was only waiting for her. Nothing ever felt forceful around her and I am realizing it now..

I have no control over the future but I want to spend my present with her and I will do the best use of it. I will never let her feel that she made the wrong decision in her life..

As Mishti snuggled into my chest, I shifted my attention to her. "Good morning butterfly! " I placed my lips on her cheek, she grinned shyly but slept again. I shook my head in disbelief and got up to make coffee for us.

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I was preparing coffee, she's probably taking a shower. Taking two cup of coffee I placed it on the dining table, when I turned back I saw her coming towards me. My heart skipped a beat, she had not taken a bath yet , I got to know as she's wearing the same white shirt, my shirt. Scratching her hair she walked towards me, her shirt was not properly settled around her, the way she's putting her leg from one tile to other, I was finding it cute and hot at the same time..

I let out a deep breath, "Good morning! " she smiled at me and lazily streched her body throwing her hands above. I gulped and detached my fingers from the cup. "I am not feeling like to take a bath. The water was cold, " she uttered making a grumpy face. I decreased the distance between us, all the way my eyes were on her which made her conscious.. She took her upper lip into her mouth and lifted her eyebrows ..

"Let's make the water hot for you! "

I said and before she could respond I lifted up her in my arms wrapping her leg around my waist. "Where are we going? " she shuttered through her words, "You very well know, butterfly! " I whispered and pushed the bathroom door..

She stared at me with those beautiful innocent eyes, I could not understand she's scared of the water or the moment we were going to have. I pushed her upper body next to the wall, her hands which were resting on my chest before some times started moving up and she clutched my collar in a tight fist. I slowly placed my lips on her quivering lips and turned on the shower. The water droplets started falling on us.

I sucked her lower lip, nibbling her lip between my teeth I started unbuttoning her shirt, she didn't stop me.. We parted away, I held the edge part of her shirt and moved down, my knuckles were brushing against her skin. As I tried to remove her shirt , she closed her eyes , she leaned forward she pressed her face in the crook of my neck..

Everything was happening in a slow pace, I was giving her enough time to be comfortable around me. I took off her shirt and threw it into the plastic bucket, her breath quickened as my fingers brushed against her bare back, her grip around my shirt tightened when my fingers hit her bra strap.. I understood her discomfort..

I pushed her a little, detaching her body from mine I brushed my beard against her cheek then again joined our lips for a kiss.. She's trying to push my shirt, I smiled internally and started opening my shirt button in one hand. I threw the shirt away , pushing her to the next wall I started kissing her aggressively , she roamed her hands on my back..

Breaking the kiss I pressed my lips on her jawline then moved down to her neck.. "Abir.. " her nails digged on my shoulder as I started sucking her neck, I pushed her hair to one side.. My hand wrapped around her waist , she shivered as I pulled her close to me, her upper body bumped against my chest..

I took her earlobe in between my lips and sucked her hard, she's struggling to breathe due to the pace of water, I slowed down the shower..

I buried my face in the crook of her neck, she tilted her head giving me more access to explore.. I sucked the water through her skin, her heavy breathing was making me crazy and today I was in no mood to stop myself until she say.. I trailed my lips from her neck to her jawline, I sucked her chin and the next moment I pushed her against the wall and slammed my lips on her, not before turning off the shower as I didn't want to break our kiss in need of air..

She trailed her tiny hand all over my back yet holding me in a tight grip... I didn't kiss her but devour her, like she's my favourite sweet, indeed her lips are my favorite sweet .. I bit her bottom lip, she pulled my hair in a tight fist. She's gasping in between, it's rising my wild desires more.. I broke our kiss and pressed my lips on her cheek, my lips travelled from her jawline to her neck.. She moaned my name when I kissed her sensitive spot in the neck.. My hand travelled to the tap and I turned it on again ..

Pressing her both shoulders against the wall, I explored her neck, leaving sweet kisses and some love bites.. I lowered down a little and kissed her cleavage, the way water droplets were traveling through her skin, it made me insane.. I held her nipple in between my lips through the piece of cloth, I sucked it hard making her arch her back.. I left her shoulder and held her from her waist , shifting her position a little bit up I started exploring her skin by my lips .

She hugged me tightly pressing her face in my neck, I sucked her shoulder blade, she held my biceps .. "Abir, please let's just stop! " she whispered in my ear, it pulled me back to reality. I shut my eyes and cursed myself under my breath thinking I made her feel uncomfortable.. I made her look at myself.. She's a little nervous, I kissed her cheek , I pulled out a towel and covered her upper body..

"Are you okay? " I asked in a low whisper, she nodded positively. I adjusted her hair and pressed her cheek in my both hands. Making her stand on her feet, I left the bathroom..

I just hope I didn't make her feel uncomfortable.. Otherwise it would make the situation awkward between us..I changed my clothes and wore my formals.. I checked my phone, my secretary had called me several times. I was getting late for the meeting too. I called him back..

Sir! The clients are waiting. We have postponed the meeting for three times before, If I will do it now then they won't sign any further deal with us.

Yeah I understand. I was just umm stuck somewhere. Keep them for five minutes, I will reach soon.

Okay sir!

I cut the call, I didn't have time to wait for Mishti. I rushed to her room, that's when she came out of washroom wearing a white towel. I could not understand what to do. I guess I made the situation awkward..

"Umm I have a meeting actually. So I have to go now. Is it okay with you or you want me to wait for you? " I asked, she looked at the clock , " You can go, I will join you later ! " she said, nodding my head I grabbed my car keys and went outside.. Throughout the journey and the meeting my mind was roaming around her.

Around 12:00 I went to my cabin, she was just near my desk holding some files, seeing me she kept them on the desk. I walked to her but then my phone started buzzing in my pocket. It's from bhai.

Hey Abir, Are you busy?

No! I am free now. Why? You need any help?

Yes please come over to my company.

Umm Okay.

I hung up the call and inserted it in my pockets.. "I have to go again! " saying I turned my heel to go back. She didn't stop me either. Now I was in serious dilemma. Did I actually make her uncomfortable? Just when I was about to open the car door , Mishti called me from behind. She stood between the car door and me. I sighed in relief, atleast she was trying to start the conversation.

"Umm actually I want to say you something! " she muttered, I noticed her fingers which were tangled around each other. "Feel free to say! " I replied, she started biting her cheek, my eyes were fixed on her.

"Look there! " she said me pointing towards the grass, I frowned. "Why? "

"If you look at me like this, then I can't say anything, " she replied, I started laughing throwing my head back. "Okay I won't look at you , tell me! " I chuckled and leaned against the car.

"It's not like I am uncomfortable or I feel uneasy when you come close but like I need little time, I mean I love it when you kiss me or when you touch me, I love everything you do but still I get nervous and shy at some point.. " she explained, though she had told me to look towards other side but I didn't want to miss her cute expression while saying it. The way she's explaining, my heart melted. I was staring at her with an amusing smile.

She gazed back at me, "What? " she mumbled, I chuckled, bending down a little I placed a soft kiss on her cheek. "I might get late, take care! " I said and opened the car door, she held my hand.

"You didn't say anything! Did you feel bad when I told you to stop. See it is not like -"

I put my index finger on her lip. "I respect your comfort, I will never feel bad about this. And I am sorry, like I just umm lose control over myself, it's okay. We will handle each other, " I chuckled saying the last line, she smiled at me.

"Okay Bye! You should go now, bhai must be waiting for you.. " she said, "Such a dry goodbye! " I complained, she shook her head at my antics. Standing over her toes she placed her lips on mine, I was not expecting her to kiss me on my lips. The next moment she hugged me, I pulled her close to my embrace..

"Bye! " I muttered and we parted away. I got inside the car and started the engine. I did not feel like to leave her but here she's some important work and I won't be able to be with her there. I stared at her through the mirror , she stood there till my car left the place..

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Mishti :)

At 5:00 PM I came back to my apartment. After Abir went to bhai's office, I went to finance department. It felt so good to talk with Gauri & Kunal after a long time, as Abir was not their I took them to a restaurant. We didn't realize when the clock hit 5:00 . They both went to their respective home.

After changing my clothes I dropped myself on the bed.. From last one hour my phone was constantly buzzing, I could not get the time to check so I opened it now. My eyes popped out of the socket seeing an article.

Abir Rajvansh spotted kissing his wife before leaving. .

There was that picture too, where he was kissing me on my cheek..

Benstoke!
Is it even something to post?? I kept my palm on my forehead. These media are literally everywhere.. I clicked the picture, a red hue appeared on my cheeks because it's really good. We both were looking good as a couple.. I pressed my face on the pillow and started throwing my leg in air. I stared at the picture for few more times, my stomach crawled as I felt butterflies..

I rolled on the bed from one end to other and ended up falling back on the marvel. "Ouch... Ayioo.. Mummy... Abir...! " I muttered rubbing my waist, how? Like how I always end up doing this to me. My lower waist was paining a little, in frustation I threw my leg and I felt a sharp pain as my fit hit the edge of the drawer..

"Ayyiiooo ayyio..! " I yelped holding my feet, sitting down comfortably I started rubbing my feet making a pout.. I didn't feel the pain after a few minutes. I was about to get up when my eyes fell on the DVD, which I had brought from Abir's house..

I settled myself on the bed , put the dvd inside my laptop and started the video.. The video started with Abir doing finger cross and praying something to God, he was looking nervous. It's his college campus I guessed. The next moment I saw a rose flower in his hand and I already understood what I would see in this video. It's the garden, after some minutes Yuvani came along with her friends.

The way his friends were teasing him, the way he was blushing, I honestly felt jealous. It's so chaotic that I could not hear anything.. Abir knelt down in front of her, her face went pale. Maybe she's not expecting him to propose her, that too in front of his friends. Few people were present there..

He said something to her, but I could not able to hear anything, those friends were too loud. And at last everyone stopped , I love you from the bottom of my heart.. I love you Yuvani Choudhary.. The way his eyes sparkled in happiness, the way he was admiring her, his cheeks were red, he was glowing in happiness. I had never seen him this much happy with me. I did not realize that I was crying  , I wiped my tears.

"Say Yes Yuvani.. He has already planned everything.. A white wedding in Switzerland, honeymoon in Paris -"  One of his friends was saying but another friend cut him off in the middle by hitting his stomach.. Yuvani took a step back but Abir held her hand.. "See, there is no pressure from my side. I said what I feel about you.. You take your time but please don't walk out like this! " he said, damn his voice was so soft.. She took the rose with him and he smiled like he won the world.

"I took the rose doesn't means it's a yes! " saying she left.. The video ended right there, I layed back and watched his face. I replayed the part where he was proposing her. He was looking so happy, excited. The way his eyes were dancing in happiness, it's clearly visible in his eyes that how much he loved her.. It's not like us. Or I was just over reacting. I should not have watched this..

In her case, it's love at first sight but in my case he always gets annoyed with me. He never liked me ! I closed the laptop and pulled out the dvd. I was disappointed at myself for crying over something which holds zero value in his life right now. Still my heart was aching. I went to drink some water, my throat became dry. One moment I was crawling like a dog in happiness  , the next moment I was crying for no fucking reasons.

While I was filling my glass, I heard the door opening sound, it's Abir. I quickly pulled out my rubber band to cover my face. I seriously didn't want him to know about this.

"How careless of you to keep the door open while staying alone? I mean when will you be a little careful about your safety huh? " he taunted, now I felt worse. He hasn't even entered inside the house and already started taunting me.. I didn't react but was sipping my water. After keeping his shoes he went inside, I took a breath of relief.

When he came to kitchen I started avoiding him, he didn't even give me a little time to wash my face, I would have looked better.. The way my nose and cheeks has become red, he would guess it.. "What? What? " he complained, I started cleaning the kitchen slab which was already cleaned..

Two arms slipped around me, he back hugged me and I realized he was shirtless.. I was trying to hold my tears but it became difficult when he took me into his embrace.. "I am sorry, I just freaked out when I saw the door opened , sorry if it hurt you! " he said and placed a soft kiss on my nape.. I looked down and let the tears flow down my cheeks.

"What happened? Why are you crying? " he turned me towards him, I shook my head and wiped my tears. "I am.. Umm I.. Are you crying for what I just said? " he asked in little shock, I licked my lips and shook my head again. He lifted me in his arms and took me to bedroom. I was trying to find a good reason to say him but my mind was completely blank.. He sat down on the bed along with me, I closed my eyes in regret when my eyes fell on the dvd.

"Hey! Look at me.. Why are you crying? What happened? I did something wrong? What's bothering you? I didn't say - "

He stopped in the middle when his gaze fell on the dvd, I shut my eyes and kept my head on his chest. He became silent for a few second then held the dvd. "Oh! Did you just watch this? " he asked in a casual tone, I nodded. My eyes widened when he broke the dvd into two pieces, then four pieces, it looked like pizza. I circled my arms around his neck and kissed his cheek..

"I am sorry, I should have asked you before bringing it! " I apologized, he let out a deep breath and kept his head on the headboard of the bed. "You don't need my permission for anything! " he replied, "But you don't like anyone invading your privacy or touching your things! " I added. Dadi was saying he's very strict and possessive when it comes to his things..

"Yup! But you are definitely an exception, " he whispered, a broad smile appeared on my lips, he stared at me with an unbelievable look.. "Don't tell me you were crying because you saw me proposing her! " he questioned, I shrugged off..

"Yah! You looked happy, joyous, excited, chirpy.. But you're always annoyed with me. You were looking extra happy there, " I muttered, I didn't want to bring her topic again but anyway.. It's better to talk, I didn't want to create a communication gap between us.. He stared at me, I could not hold the eye contact for more than five seconds, I looked down. He lifted up my chin and again made me look at him, I closed my eyes.

"Don't look at me like this! " I said, he wrapped his hand around my waist and pulled me in a jerk, I bumped on his chest. "Say again! " he demanded, I gulped down. "First look at me! " now his tone was serious, I licked my lips and opened my eyes. Those intense eyes were burning my skin, I lifted up my face and kissed his lips..

"Seriously? " he said and chuckled, I laughed with him.. "You can't be serious for a second even! " he mocked, I blinked my eyes like I do, it melts him in a second.

"You know Yuvani was a girl, I mean the type of girl I wanted, so I easily fell in love with her. But look at you! You were a complete different girl but see where are we now.. There's a difference that I can't explain. Maybe I was smiling more with her, but the way you make my heart smile, it's incomparable.. Don't even say like that again! "

I wrapped my hand around his shoulder and burried my face in the crook of his neck.. I loved how he chose his words wisely. He mentioned that he fell in love with her but for me he didn't say anything like that. It hurts but it's too early even. Atleast we both are trying for us and that's enough for now.

Even I haven't fallen in love with him, I just like him..

I think..

"By the way are you... umm.. I mean.. Are you virgin? " I asked hesitantly , he cleared his throat. The next moment he made me lay on the bed and came over me..

"Why? Do you want me to lose my virginity? "

I placed my palm over my face, I asked the right question to a wrong person..

"I can help you with that! " he added, now I palmed his lips and tried to push him..

"I asked you a simple question.. Why are you making a jalebi out of it? "

"No I just want about your needs and requirements, that's why I asked! " he teased me, I flipped my body and pressed my face on the pillow.. He laughed at my actions.. He pushed my hair to a side and brushed his nose on the back of my neck, wrapping his one hand around my waist he pulled me close to him..

"We are going to a party now, get ready! " he informed, I streched my body lazily.

"Is it important? Go alone. I am not in a mood to attend any party! " I said clearly.

"Even I am not . But it is important, he is one of my client and I can't miss it. I will get bored there so taking you along with me.. "

"I am not your personal entertainer! " I muttered..

"You are but you don't know! " he replied and laughed again.. I rolled my eyes..

"Get ready quickly! " saying he got up, he had brought a party to wear clothes for him, I started finding a suitable cloth for the party..

"What should I wear? Modern or saree? "

"Whatever you like? "

"I like everything.. I asked you for suggestion, first toh you are taking me along with you forcefully huh  , so better suggest me! " after a minute of silence he said me to wear a saree.. I pulled out a white saree for myself..

Without saying anything to him I went to Naina's room and locked the door from inside.. First I took a warm shower then dried myself. After applying a little make up, I wore the saree.. I just hope it's according to theme.

It's a kind of business party, so it's appropriate for it.. I pulled down my saree pallu exposing my cleavage to tease Abir. Taking a last glance of myself in the mirror, I opened the door.. He was standing there, leaning against the sofa, his eyes were fixed on the phone. The moment my eyes laid on him, my heart skipped a beat. He was looking insanely hot , he was wearing a black formal.. The upper two buttons were opened revealing his toned chest, I was awestruck..

I took a step forward, he looked up and I smiled.. His phone slipped from his hand and his mouth formed an O shape.. I grinned in happiness, he picked up his phone from the ground and inserted it inside his pocket. He cleared his throat , I decreased the distance between us. He was leaning against the headrest of sofa..

His eyes were stuck on me, it's hard to keep an eye contact with him but I could not detach my eyes from his, it felt like he has captured my soul.. He trailed down his knuckles below the edge of my pallu, I felt a strong sensation when he brushed his knuckles on my cleavage then went down and pulled me holding my lower waist.. My breath hitched..

"You were right! We should stay here rather than going to the party! " his eyes took a clear view of me while I ignored his words and took a step back but then he again pulled me and this time I landed up on his chest.. "Don't you think you will take all the limelights there? " I rolled my eyes at his comment, but it's hard to hide the blush from my face.. "Everyone don't stare at me in your eyes, stop making excuses , let's go! " I said and freed myself from his grip.

I pulled out a pair of heel and wore it. Just when I was about to open the door, he pinned me against the door wall, I gulped hard when I felt his intense eyes on me.. Those hazel brown eyes were too intimidating to even look at.. "I really don't feel like to going! " he whispered, I kept my both arm around his neck. "Then what do you want to do right now? "

"I want to rip your clothes off, pull your hair, grab you by your throat and kiss you madly.. I want you to know how much I want you, it's really dangerous! "

I literally felt goosebumps, shiver ran down my spine.. I pushed myself back but a human just can't get inside a fucking wood door. He came close, I became breathless.. He stopped just inches away from my lips..

"I want to be rough with you in so many sweet ways! " he added, the boldness in me had long gone.. My brain cells stopped working.. He was not taking his eyes off me, I could not look away because it felt impossible.. It felt like dare to look away and you will see the next consequences.. I was holding my saree in a tight grip, my heartbeat was faster than ever..

"It's better if we attend the party! " saying he moved back, I took a breath of relief.. He opened the door for me, I went outside. We both headed towards the parking..

He was on his call while driving. My mind was completely blank after whatever he said.. I was still feeling butterflies, my heartbeat was rapid. Everything was just exploding inside me.. He went to park the car, I was waiting for him. I saw a familiar figure coming towards me, when I looked up I saw Yuvani, shit moment for me.. She was coming with a guy, who looked like her brother.. Her eyes met mine, we both had blank expression..

"Let's go! " Abir wrapped his one arm around my waist and guided me to inside. She saw both of us, I had no idea if Abir had seen her not.. It's way too much crowded but the place was big too.. Abir introduced me to his business clients, I did a formal handshake with everyone. My eyes were roaming in the crowd in search of Yuvani.. Abir was holding my hand throughout the party and all I wanted to show her this.. I don't know why!

Some couples were dancing as the song was playing in the background.. Some were dancing in a decent way and some had forgotten about their surrounding. "Let's dance na! " I said to Abir , he frowned at me.. "You know I am not fond of dancing and all! " he stated.

"For me! " I pleaded through my eyes, he let out a deep breath and finally nodded his head in agreement. I didn't have to make much efforts..  "Thank you! " I jumped in happiness and hugged him.. And in the crowd my eyes met with her, she's already looking towards us.. I detached myself from Abir, wrapping his one hand around my waist he intertwined our hands together.. I kept my palm above his heart..

We were moving in a sync, I was grinning internally because Yuvani was looking towards us only..

Am I behaving like an evil girl?

Anyway who cares..

We both went to a corner, I wrapped my hands around his neck , the surrounding was quite dark.. I brushed my lips on his cheek, holding his hair in a tight fist I pulled his face close to me.. "You are turning me on while trying to make her jealous! " Abir whispered, my eyes widened.. I quickly pulled back myself and stood there like an obedient girl.. So he had full knowledge of my silliness..

"Let's eat something, my stomach is empty! " I said, he chuckled and took me to the food counter.. I was so happy because he was not affected by her presence.. It did not affect him like before, I hope he's not pretending.. After doing our dinner we left the party..

"Are you okay? " I asked him out of concern, he parked the car in front of an ice-cream parlor.. "Why? "

"Yuvani was there, umm so! "

"It's quite suffocating but now I am okay.. Let's end this beautiful night with ice cream! " he said in a chirpy tone, I agreed.

Never say no to an ice cream.. It's type of crime..

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