Mishti :)

I never thought making dadi understand would be this much difficult.. Dadi was never like this. She used to listen to everything I said and used to fulfill all my demands . The present scenario was nothing different. But when it comes to Rajvansh then you can't just expect a YES from her.

Abir's dadi was angry at me for leaving the house without even telling her . She's not angry but furious. And then she wanted Abir to take me to Rajvansh house on my birthday but I denied because my dadi had made dinner for me and if I would have not taken my dinner with her then she would have been upset. So I refused to go with Abir.

And today, I had to convince dadi for staying one night in Rajvansh house. After one hour of lecture finally she agreed. And now it's around 6:30 PM, I was heading to Rajvansh house with Abir . He parked the car in the garage, I went inside. Meera aanty hugged me. Dadi was sitting on a couch, she ignored my presence.

"Hello dadi! " I said with a tight lipped smile while squeezing her in my arms completely, she didn't say anything.

"Oh ho dadi, I came here na. Why are you still angry ? " I pouted.. She looked at the other side.

"Your birthday was yesterday but you are coming today! " she huffed, I cleared my throat while thinking something better to say.

"I thought you are not an angry woman like my dadi but it seems like my both dadi are angry birds. I have to find a new dadi for myself, " I said dramatically, she gave me a side eye look, I showed her my puppy eyes. It worked on her. She hit my shoulder playfully and hugged me.

"Happy belated birthday beta! " she gave me a tight hug, I kissed her cheek.

"Bhai and di? " I asked about them as my eyes didn't find them around. "Aadarsh took Saanvi somewhere, they will come back after doing their dinner outside! " she informed, I nodded.

"Okay go and change your clothes, "

I stood up and went upstairs to our room. Abir was working on his laptop, he took a glance of me then smiled then again went back to his work. I gazed at the room, this room is my comfort. I smiled sadly . While I was finding a suitable dress for me , my eyes fell on his white shirt, the same white shirt.

I didn't wear it as it's not appropriate cloth to wear and roam around in the house in front of everyone. I took out a floral frock, it's a light weighted frock, conformable to wear. After changing my clothes , I went to Abir. I will not get more chance to be with him in this room, so I didn't feel like to go outside. Rather I thought to help him in his work.

Am I finding excuses to stay with him?

Keeping my thoughts aside I sat beside him, he was going through some files in the laptop. "What are you doing? " I asked , he replied a hmm in response. "I am trying to find copies of some old files, but I guess I lost it! " he muttered.

"Don't you have the original files? "

"Yah, but I have kept them above the rack in a box, " he said pointing at the rack then again got involved in finding the copies. I pulled out a small table, kept it below the rack and stood above it. "Which box? " I asked, he looked up and then glared at me.

"Who told you to do this? Get off that table. This room will be messy if I will start finding those files from those boxes, " he scolded, I furrowed my eyebrows in annoyance.

"Atleast you will find them. There are only four boxes, but in your laptop there are more than four thousands of files, you won't be able to find it! " I said, he didn't pay any attention to my words, I rolled my eyes and started dragging the box towards me. It would have been easier for him because of his height. Here I was struggling to drag it for one inch even.

Somehow I pulled it out but it's very heavy.

"Help me help me, it's too heavy! " I shouted, but before he reach me I dropped the box, all things fell on the floor as it's not closed properly.

"Thank you! You did an amazing job, " he mocked me , keeping his both hands on his waist he stared at the mess I just created.

"I was trying to help you out! " I mumbled making a pout, "That's why I am grateful, thank you ! "

I shrugged off at his comments and got off the table. He bent down and started searching his files . My eyes landed on an album in between those scattered files. I quickly picked it up and cleaned the dust. He was busy so he didn't notice me.

Something was written above it.

"Yubir.. "

As soon as that word escaped from my lips, he looked up. His eyes landed on the album I was holding, after cleaning the dust from his hand he got up and took the album from me. His eyes got fixed on the name while he started walking towards the sofa . He dropped himself on the sofa, I sat beside him.

Yuvani plus Abir? Yubir? He was still staring at the name, his eyes turned dark and his grip around the album got tightened. I mentally slap myself for bringing it in front of him. It made him remember about her and the pain he went through. There was a complete silence between us. I didn't utter a single word.

After a couple of seconds he turned the page, we both gazed at the picture . He was on his knees holding a rose and she's just standing there all shocked. It was his university campus. I felt something inside me, he went to next page. It's a simple couple picture. The next photo was something I didn't like, they both were hugging each other and were looking at camera. He kept flipping the pictures until a photo came.

A simple lipkiss picture of them . I bit my inner cheek and let out a deep breath. I didn't understand why I was feeling bad, like I was feeling something inside me which was eating me alive. A drop of water fell on the picture, I looked up at Abir. It's not water but his tear. He was shedding tears .

His face was swell, his eyes were red. Suddenly he closed the album and threw it away. That album hit a vase and the vase broke into pieces after falling on the hard ground. "This is how she had broken me! " he muttered, I gulped sensing the harshness of his voice. His quivering lips and those red eyes gave me chills down my spine.

"Whatever happened, it's your past. Let it go! " I whispered, he kept his both palm on his forehead and looked down towards the carpet. I went near him and wrapped my both arms around him. I don't know how it feels when someone betrayes you but he must have gone through a very rough phase because two most important peoples of his life betrayed him. I can't even imagine the pain.

I heard him sobbing, for the first time I saw him crying so devastatingly. I brushed his back , he leaned back and looked upward while rubbing his chest. "The pain is still here and it hurts every day! " he whispered, I stared at him with my teary eyes, I was helpless. I didn't understand how to console him.

"Please don't cry for someone who don't deserve your tears! " I said rubbing his shoulder, he closed his eyes letting the tears fall down. I moved on top of him and sat on his lap, wrapping my one hand around his neck I hugged him, he didn't take a second to pull me into his embrace. I ran my fingers through his hair, he wiped his tears and again leaned back on the sofa .

I kept my head on his shoulder , he held me securely in his arm. His hand was wrapped around my waist. "Aren't you over her? " I finally asked him, my heartbeat was faster than ever. I felt like my life depends on his answer. That strange feeling was giving me anxiety.

"I am over her but I am not over the feelings, " he whispered, "I don't think I will ever be, " he added, my fingers curled around the thin fabric of his shirt. "It's not like I love her now, no! But I don't know how to erase the memories, those moments, our late night dates, movie days, trips to various places, small small make out sessions while arguing with each other, her laugh, and there are so many things which still hurt me , " he exclaimed, my eyes filled with tears.

He doesn't have any idea how much it's hurting me to hear something about an other girl from his mouth . It's not his fault, I don't know whose fault it's. I want him to say it all, I want him to express his grieve even if it includes him talking about her. I don't care if I feel the pain, I just want him to forget the pain or share the pain with me. A tear rolled down from my eyes, his voice was a proof that how much he loved her once.

I wrapped my both arms around his neck and pressed my face in the crook of his neck. I didn't understand whether I was trying to comfort him or I was finding comfort in his embrace .

"I just feel like I wasted my love for someone who's not worth it. I understand that he was there for her at her weakest days, he handled her very well.. She's very sensitive, she gets panic attacks some times and that time was critical as her father had passed away. But was it all a valid reason? My love was that much weak? Did she ever remember me? Did she ever love me? Or it's just me who was insanely in love with her that I ignored all her red flags, "

Anger, frustation, guilt were gripping through his every words.. I used to have a neutral feelings for Yuvani but now I hate her. How dare she did so wrong with him? But somewhere, somewhere in my heart I was happy that she's not in his life anymore.

I moved back and kept my palm on his jawline . His cheeks have turned red while his lips were dried. He held my hand and intertwined our fingers. He was in pain and he's doing it in flow but my heart was too weak to take it all. Even his simple hand hold made my heart beat faster.

"You know why I am playing football match against my best friend? Because I feel insecure about myself. Every time I see him or think about him I feel insecure. She fell in love with him in just one month while it took her a whole year for me. I am not comparing but I don't know I just feel insecure. So I always wanted to prove myself better than him but sometimes I loss and sometimes he! " he expressed, it's something new to me.

That football match was still pending. I smiled weakly and hugged him again. I wrapped my arms around his shoulder, keeping my mouth near his ear I whispered, "Never ever feel insecure about yourself just because someone made you feel worse. It's her who was at fault, stop comparing yourself with others. Nobody is perfect and you don't have to prove yourself again and again just to fit in someone's life. It's okay if she's not in your life, maybe you deserve better. It's okay if your heart is broken, sometimes we get lessons in our life through the pain. She and you, it's not meant for you. You should be glad that you are away from the bunch of toxic people who always chose themselves before you. You deserve the whole freaking world and you're just perfect the way you are! "

He pulled me close to him, I was stunned due to his sudden move but his overwhelming emotions were making him do all this. My grip around him loosened a little bit. "I will always be grateful that someone like you came in my life! " he said, my eyes snapped open as I heard him saying those words. He just openly appreciated me , people have appreciated me before but I felt different when he said it. I just hugged him again. He appreciates me once in a blue moon..

After a few seconds he loosened his grip around me, I didn't want to move out of his embrace. The warmth his embrace was unmatched, you will feel heaven. But I can't just stay pressed onto his body like that forever? I moved back but then we found my mangalsutra got stuck in his shirt button.

"How in this earth your things got stuck in my shirt button! " he chuckled looking at it, I stared at his face , our face were close to each other . He gazed at me, I was already staring at him. His eyes softened, he moved his eyes on my face. I felt a strong emotions building in my chest.

Don't look at me with those eyes. Just don't.

His eyes were insanely attractive and I find myself drowning in it. How can someone look so attractive even in their breakdown phase, I would never. I squeezed my shoulder when he brushed my cheek and removed the hair strands from my face. He adjusted my hair and tucked a few hair strands behind my ear.

I clutched his shirt tightly, maybe he noticed my hand movements so he looked down at my hands. I released his shirt and kept it straight on his chest. Our eyes met again, I felt myself losing in his eyes again. My heart started beating fast. He traced his palm on my jawline and trailed it towards my ear. Now his three fingers were behind my ear and two were above it. His another hand was wrapped around my waist.

He started rubbing my skin under my ear, I felt goosebumps erecting on my bodies. He was brushing his thumb on my cheek  . I shifted close to him, he moved up his other hand from my waist to my neck. Holding the bunch of hair he took it to my right side. I was just losing myself with each passing seconds. His hot breath was fanning on my lips. I felt a sensation all over my body.

He brought his face close to me, I closed my eyes the moment I felt his lips brushing on my left cheek. He brushed his lips gently giving me soft peck on my cheek, I clutched his shirt tightly. The way he was leaving butterfly kisses on my cheek, I was feeling drained out. My mind stopped working for those few seconds. I wrapped my one hand around his neck and dug my fingers on the back of his neck.

Slowly he brought his lips towards my left ear, I felt his lips on my earlobe. "Can I kiss you, butterfly ? " I heard him saying, blood rushed through my veins into my cheeks giving my cheek a crimson red colour appearance. He asked for the consent. I felt so special about it and the way he said my name I felt butterflies in my tummy.

"Yes.. " I whispered, a huge lump formed in my heart . He moved his head back and stared at me. His shiny eyes were doing magic and it's making my heart weak. He just stared at me after asking for a kiss, how on this earth I was supposed to stay calm. It's really very tough for me to keep an eye contact for longer but I didn't break our eye lock.. He moved close, my toes curled down and my fingers were trembling. I too started decreasing the gap between us.

There was just a centimeter distance between us , his hot breath was falling on my shivering lips . I closed my eyes and parted my lips , but suddenly someone pushed the door making a noise. I quickly pulled myself back and got up from his lap.

"I am sorry! " It's Riddhi, I bit my lip in embarrassment. Couple kissing each other is normal but I was fucking sitting on his lap, our position was too intimate. "You guys better lock the door from next time! " she said and left.

Wtf we both were doing? He closed his eyes and ran his fingers through his hair. There was an awkward silence between us. "I am sorry! " he muttered and left the room. We had promised each other to not cross our boundaries but damn we were going to break it. It's not good. It should not happen. We both are not meant to be, I should stay away from him.

But the moment I started crying because he was talking about Yuvani, I realized I was falling for me. Otherwise it would have never hurt me the way it did . Those pictures would have never hurt me the way it did. Nothing should have hurt me the way it's hurting me. The heck I am doing in my life. I gathered myself and patted my cheeks. After keeping the files inside the box I closed it and pushed it into the next wall.

I cleaned the broken pieces , I didn't understand what to do with the album so I kept it back. But a dvd slipped out of it, my curious mind could not help me at all. I kept the dvd in my purse, cleaning my hands and after splashing water on my face I went outside. I was still feeling those butterflies, my heartbeat was still rapid, I was still clueless about my damn emotions.

I was descending the stairs when my eyes fell on Abir, he diverted his gaze after a second of eye contact. We both were hell awkward around each other. "I was just going to call you for dinner, actually I sent Riddhi, God knows where this girl went! " Dadi said, I licked my lower lip. "Yeah let's go! " I muttered and followed her. Meera aanty was serving the food, Abir sat next to me.

Riddhi too came to the dining, she was giving teasing smiles to both of us. "Aadarsh bhai didn't come? " I asked trying to divert the attention I was getting, "They must be enjoying unlike you both, unromantic peoples! " dadi taunted, I choked on my food, Abir pushed the glass towards me, I took one sip of water.

"Dadi, it's not your old generation era. Nowadays place doesn't matter to be romantic around each other! " Riddhi chuckled, Meera aanty understood her words , she was smiling while eating her food. I had turned red, Abir was just hitting his spoon on the plate.

I am not coming to this house, bye!

We finished our dinner and I went to the bedroom before Abir. Adjusting the bed I fell flat on my side and covered myself completely. I heard his footsteps but ignored it and slept.

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Abir :)

Last night event didn't let me sleep. The way I broke down and the way she consoled me, everything was going on right way until we both became weak for some time. We would have probably kissed each other, I seriously didn't want anything to happen between us for which we both will regret later. Atleast I don't want her to say we did a mistake again.

Whatever happens between us can be anything but not a mistake. I didn't like the way she mentioned our kiss a mistake . It can be anything but not a fucking mistake. At least not for me. I don't care.

"Ladki dekhi nhi ki tadne chale aye! Kabhi sundar ladki nhi dekha kya? " I heard her saying, my eyes came out of sockets. To whom she's speaking in the bathroom, was there anyone inside? Hein no way?

"Butterfly are you okay? " I asked going near the bathroom.

"A shameless lizard is starting into my soul while I am changing, he doesn't have any manners or what huh! "

My eyes went small, I stood there with an blank expression. How was I expecting her to be normal? She's insane, seriously lizard? Before I would lose my brain cells I went outside. No one was their in the hall. I went to garden, bhai was sipping his coffee while working on his laptop.

"Good morning Abir! " After some fifteen days I saw a warm smile on his face, I was happy that things were changing between both of them. Saanvi was trying too. I greeted him and taking the newspaper I sat beside him.

"You sent me something on mail? I forgot to check it! " he asked me, "Yeah actually I had made a video of Mishti on her birthday, so just sent you. You can't believe she's looking so adorable, she's literally giving a fairy vibes! " I said, my eyes shined as I remembered her look. Honestly it was Naina who informed me about her birthday and how she likes she to celebrate it. Otherwise I had no idea..

Bhai played the video, I had done a little editing. "Yah she's looking so beautiful! " he added, I nodded my head as a smile lingered on my lips. "Wait! You did all this? Abir Rajvansh did all this? " he asked in shock.

"Why are you shocked? Can't I arrange all this? "

"Okay wait did you just take her to mom's place? " I thought he will just see the video but he just started his interview session.

"Yah because that place is something close to my heart and it's very peaceful, " I said, he closed the laptop and stared at me from top to toe with the look of judging.

"Do you know that you never took Yuvani to that house? But you took Mishti and why? To celebrate her birthday when you don't like to celebrate your own birthday! "

"Bhai you toh started making an issue out of it. I didn't take Mishti to the house even , we were just in the garden. And I don't like parties and yeah I just wanted her to feel happy. The past days were so difficult for her. I had seen her struggling to sleep, getting anxiety attacks, who can understand it more than me? "

"Of course I understand it. But I have noticed your change of behavior towards her. You are talking to her with so much care and affection, please don't lie. Things are actually changing between you two , isn't it? " his eyes held a ray of hope as he asked the question but I shook my head in a No.

"Isn't it you the first person who told me to talk with her with respect? Now when I have started doing it, you are having a problem with it too! " I said, he glared at me.

"I am not a owl okay. Stop lying . Just admit that you have started liking her and you both are giving a chance to each other! "

I shook my head in disbelief and took a glance of his cup to check ; whether he's taking wine or coffee. Because he's high.

"First thing I am not lying. Second I like her but not romantically. During our initial days I used to dislike her because of the marriage, she just came from nowhere and changed all my plans. She used to annoy me a lot and vice versa. But lately I understand that blaming her for everything would change nothing.

Yah you can say that I have developed a soft corner for her in my heart but it's definitely not the way you are thinking. I don't know how to convince you. And moreover she doesn't like me, she has high standards when it comes to her life partner and I stand nowhere close to her imagination! " I explained, bhai was staring at me with a blank expression.

"Are you done speaking rubbish or want to add more? " he said, I rolled my eyes..

"I really want her to stay happy in her life. She's a ray of sunshine while I am just a thunderstorm. She will lose herself around me and I will never let it happen. She deserves someone who will give her princess treatment the way she deserves.

And you know nowadays when I talk to her, I keep my tone as low as possible because sometimes I think even if my tone will go beyond whispers it will hurt her. It's not like I think her as a fragile delicate girl, no she's a strong girl for me but I just think this is how she deserves to be treated.

Sometimes I just want to wrap her in a bubble and keep her away from all the negativity and toxicity . I just feel like if she will be hurt then my world will go upside down. Have you ever looked at her? The innocence she carries around herself, it's something that pushes away the demon in me. She's kind but she inspires me to be kind. It feels different.

I am totally opposite to her, I will never be able to give her the love she deserves. I can't trust myself when it comes to her. I will just let her go and watch her living her fairytale! And one more thing I am not ready for anything.. " I concluded.

Bhai chuckled dryly and leaned back. "You know two days back I was thinking to take Saanvi to a therapist because she's not sharing anything to me but thank God she's trying now. But today, now, at this moment I seriously need to call the therapist. Either I am sending you or I am going to him. What the fuck you are speaking Abir! "

The way he started the conversation I became serious but the ending was not something I was expecting.

"You know whatever you just said? It comes in the category of selfless love, why can't you accept it! I guess you are in love with her.."

"It's not. I only care for her. Bhai please don't make the situation more complicated by adding all this! "

"I am making it complicated? That's great. " he uttered, I chuckled..

"Wait, I need to say you something! " he added, "Hm sure! "

"Yash was admitted in hospital, he has some internal injuries. They have kept his name hidden.. I will send you all the details , " he informed me, that name made my blood boil in anger.

"Let him come out of the hospital, I will show him what the real treatment feel like. Every screams of that day still echo in my ear and he have to pay for it! " I said, but till then I should stay alert. He had dug his own grave.

I took a glance of time, it's 8:30 . I was running late for my meeting. I was just about to go inside, I bumped with Mishti. She was all ready to go to the office. "I will drive today! " saying she went towards the car, I nodded like an obedient student. Taking my shoes I got inside the car. While she was driving I was wearing my shoe. Till I was done , we had already reached in our office. I stared at her in disbelief.

"You should ride in a moderate pace. How the hell we reached here in a blink of an eyes? I just tied my shoe laces.. And when I looked up we were already here! " I said showing my disbelief, she smirked at my statement..

"You should learn how to tie shoe laces in less time, you took more than enough time.. "

She is insane.....

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