Mishti >>

It's around 2:00 am, I was on my way to the hospital. Everyone in the family was sleeping or just pretending to sleep. The least we could do is pray for him and his speedy recovery. Everything is upon God and doctor. After requesting bhai thousands of times he finally allowed me to go to the hospital.

I could have not slept in my room, it was suffocating to stay in his room without him. The driver parked the car , I went inside . There was high security, it's Rajvansh's private hospital.

"How is he? " I asked Aadarsh bhai while trying to peep into the cabin through the glass door, he was lying on the hospital bed. Some wire pipes were connected to his veins, a white bandage was wrapped around his upper abdomen. I kept my palm on the door, my heart was bleeding to see him like this.

And I was the reason for his condition. I could have handled it properly. Every word that I said to him made me hate myself. The doctor came out of the room. "He is out of danger but please make sure he doesn't take stress and avoid working. He really needs complete bed rest, the bullet has infected his ribcage, he might face difficulties in breathing till he recovers completely! " the doctor explained, we both nodded in response.

"Doctor! he has a football match after seven days. Will he-"

"See Mr Rajvansh! I told you he will face difficulties in breathing. Avoid everything which will stress him. He should avoid playing any type of sports for at least two months! " the doctor warned in a strict tone and left.

"Can I please go to him? " I asked in a little hope, but bhai denied. I sat down and waited for the doctor to come and let me go inside. I won't able to sleep if I will not apologize him. I just need a few minutes to talk. Bhai requested me to go back but I was stubborn. After an hour doctor came to check him.

"Doctor, can I meet him? Please just for some minutes , I promise I won't disturb him and I won't take much time, please! " I said in one go, he let out a deep breath and then nodded. I thanked him, the doctor sanitized me and I entered inside the chamber.

Every step towards him felt heavy, my heartbeat was faster than anything. I dragged the stool and sat next to his bed. His eyes were closed, his breath was steady. I placed my palm near the bandage and my eyes fell on his cheek. I could not control my tears. I let it go, my chest was getting heavier.

I moved forward and pressed my lips on his cheek while tears made its way from my eyes to his cheek. "I am sorry, Abir. I promise I will never ever hurt you physically or morally, but it's not me who's at fault . It's you! From when my words have started hurting you? You toh never cared right. What does it matter if I say you devil or angel you know what you are. When I slapped you why didn't you just slap me back,because I deserve it for saying so many things without any proper knowledge, " I whispered against his skin and brushed my nose on his cheek. There was no response from his side, his state of condition was drowning me in guilt.

I brushed my fingers on his cheek trying to erase my lip balm colour, I didn't realize the fact that I kissed him while expressing my apology. I wiped my tears and came out of the chamber.

"All good? " bhai asked me and I nodded.

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It's early morning, I hadn't slept the whole night. I thought after I will see Abir once, I would sleep but it did not happen. I was casually roaming in the hall , I saw Meera aanty sitting on a staircase facing the garden.

I sat next to her on the stairs, she was fast enough to wipe out her tears but I held her hand. She gave me a faint smile, her eyes were red. "I am sorry for yesterday, I thought he would be happy, " I apologized, she smiled pressing her lips. I really felt bad.

In this love and hate relationship between Abir and his father, it's Meera aanty and Riddhi who are suffering. I don't know what was the past but what mistake she did to deserve all this pain!

"Attention attention! " I looked back, Saanvi di came to us holding a cake in her hand. "See what I made, " she showed us the chocolate cake, she's just trying to lift her mood. "Actually I have some work, excuse me, " Meera aanty got up and went inside. We both sighed. Di pulled out a chair and sat carefully holding her baby bump. She cut the cake and forwarded a piece to me but I denied. I don't like to eat sweet early in morning.

"I was never fond of sweets but thanks my lil baby, now I crave for sweets at 2:00 am too and torture Aadarsh! " "she giggled and continued to eat the piece. " Umm don't this family celebrate anything together? I mean I have never seen them actually enjoying together! " I asked, her face dropped instantly.

"These people are bound by four wall not by bond. Nobody actually knows what's going on other's life! It's called as a family for just name sake but it's completely empty inside, you can see and feel! " sadness gripping into her every words. I pursed my lips.

"Even sometimes I feel bad for myself, why I got married! " she chuckled dryly, I looked at her in little shock.

"Everything is good between you and bhai? "

"No it's not about him. He really love me the way I do. But I always wanted a family, I wanted to be loved cared appreciated, which I never got. I am just Aadarsh's wife not Rajvansh daughter in law. Even sometimes I feel like he doesn't include me in his family, sometimes he is just too secretive about everything. He chooses to avoid a topic rather than discussing with me. I don't know but I am just not happy and I am tired. Nobody cares about anything here. Everything is about money, profession even they give more priorities to enemies rather than their own people who actually cares for them! "

I was numb with her sudden outburst. She was not wrong either. Everything was so messed up that everyone just trying to run away from it rather than solving the issue. Abir was focused on his own issue, dadi wanted Abir to get settled, bhai wanted to fix the bond and so on. Their goals were different, there was no unity. It's nothing but a namesake family.

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Finally after three freaking days, Abir was coming home. I could ask for nothing but just see him in my own eyes. I did not visit to hospital in past three days because bhai had clearly denied to me. The reason being Abir might react furious and second was Yash.

And this three days felt so heavy like I was lifting a burden on my heart. I was sitting on the terrace when a car sound pulled me out of the chain of thoughts. I became excited but it's Richa.

Why the fuck she came here? Ugh!

I pouted just by imagining Abir giving all attention to her and I will be like a third wheel when she's the one who's a third wheel huh. You are just a PA, stay in your profession. But I had no rights to say anything or feel anything. After all she's his friend unlike me. There's nothing between us.

Another car proceeded to come and it stopped just right in front of our house door. Aadarsh bhai came out of the car, I didn't wait for Abir to come outside. I can't just jump from the terrace right? I ran to the hall, I was about to slip but held myself back. Everyone was present there. My heart beat was faster than before, I felt like I will die anytime.

My breath stopped when he stepped inside, he was taking slow steps. I gulped, the smile vanished from my lips the moment I saw him. He was all fine but I don't know why I felt so sad. Dadi went forward and did his arti. I digged my nails on the soft sofa. My vision was getting blurred but I drank back the tears. I didn't let it flow.

His eyes travelled in the hall and it stopped just on me, our eyes met. I can't put my feelings into words, what I felt was unreal. So many emotions started exploding in my heart, he didn't move his eyeballs further. I rolled my tongue in my mouth and took one step forward.

Richa ran to him and took him in a hug while I was just staring at him and standing like a statue. It's supposed to me, who gave her the authority to hug him in front of his wife? What broke my heart that he wrapped his hands around him and patted her back. But his eyes were still on me.

Richa started scolding him about being careless. I sighed. "I think he needs rest, " dadi said, "Yeah! Let's go to your room, " bhai said and they both moved towards upstairs. Dadi took me to kitchen. "Feed Abir this soup! " she handed me a bowl, I first stared at the bowl then at her. Nodding my head I took the soup cup and went to our room.

Abir was lying on the bed while Richa was sitting on a chair near to him. I put the bowl on the teapoy and looked at him. His eyes were already on me. His eyes were so warm and intense, I knew he could read all my thoughts by just seeing my face.

"Dadi told you to take it, " I uttered, he slightly nodded his head and got up. Richa pushed her chair to back giving him some space to walk. He stopped in the middle and was about to fall. I didn't even move from my place because Richa was fast enough to hold him. Her arms were again around him, holding him protectively.

I know I have no rights to crave for him, crave to touch him, crave to hold him and crave to hug him. I have no fucking rights then why it's hurting so much. I hate it. I am just a stupid.

"It's just the effect of medicine, I am fine now, " he said and detached himself from her. I released a breath which I was holding from so long. He sat on a couch and took the bowl in his hand. "Richa, you should go now! It's already late and umm it's getting dark too, " I said to her, she first stared at Abir then at me. Nodding her head she took her purse and left.

Such a relief!

Abir was calmly taking his soup, minding his own business . I was dying to start a conversation but fuck. I had nothing to say. I just wanted to say sorry for being rude that day but it seems impossible now. He was back to his cold behavior. And I can't just expect him to talk nicely with me after that fucking slap.

He went straight to his bed .

Bye Good night sweet dream.

"Mishti! Where is my phone? " I snapped at him, he was looking at the lamp table and drawer.

"What did you just say? " I asked in annoyance, he raised his brows. Did someone hit his head or he lost his memories somehow.

"You can't call me Mishti, I am your butterfly! " I stated angrily, he raised his one eyebrow again.

"I mean you can call me butterfly only! " I mumbled, Mishti this name sounded so emotionless from his mouth, I didn't like it. He nodded his head and I gave him his phone. I didn't talk anything after that, he too slept early unlike other days .

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Morning :)

His hair was still messy, in the reflection of sunlight his eyes were looking gorgeous that I wanted to drown in it. I had already done my morning chores , as per the doctor's prescribed nutrition I had made breakfast for him as well. He was staring at the ceiling while my eyes were fixed on him.

"You should take a bath, then you have to take your breakfast and medicine as well! " I said to him breaking the silence. His eye balls moved to me then he yawned lazily. It's so cute, I felt giggling in my stomach. He got up and went to bathroom. His walk was enough to say that he was not feeling well. He was looking so weak.

I changed the bedsheet and arranged everything. Abir walked towards the bed taking the support of the wall. He was wearing a black track pant only. His left arm was placed above his wound while his eyes were tightly shut.

"Hey are you okay? What happened? " I asked him and held his shoulder. He pulled out his hand from the wall and kept it above my shoulder. I could feel his uneasiness seeing the way he was breathing. He again lost his balance and fell upon me. I could not kept a balance and fell back on the bed.

He groaned in pain while lying above me. "Hey! I am sorry, is it hurting? " I mumbled, but he didn't say anything but just hissed in pain, his forehead pressing against my chin. My chest felt heavy and guilty , unknowingly tears started dropping from my eyes . Last time when he was stabbed he was not in this pain or maybe he was good at hiding.

Now he's showing the pain , I couldn't imagine how painful it's for him. He was going through the physical pain but I felt like something sharp cut into my heart, it's bleeding. As I started sobbing he looked up and stared at me. "I am sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you, " I muttered in between my hiccups.

He tightly shut his eyes, creating a crease on his forehead and put his head in my neck , his cheek was brushing against my cheek. He rolled back and laid on the bed. I sat straight and my eyes widened seeing the blood coming out of his bandage. "Oh My God, we need to treat it, " I started panicking.

"The nurse is coming, stop panicking! " he uttered that's the moment when someone knocked on the door. I quickly went to open the door, it's the nurse only. Abir sat on the bed, I was standing near the edge of the bed while nurse was doing her work.

I can't be just jealous of a nurse right? She's just doing her work, but he's shirtless and the way she's wrapping her hand around him, fixing the bandage, applying the ointment, it irked me. She was so close to him.

I should have been a nurse!

Mishti Rajvansh had lost her mind, why do you care so much? I constantly patted my cheek trying to put some sense in me. He took his breakfast and medicines after the nurse left. He was eating heavy medicine so he slept. I did not want to go to office today but it's important. Abir was not there as well, so I had to go. But I came back early.

I directly went to went to our room but it's empty. There was no sign of Abir. I went to downstairs and bumped with meera aanty. "Hey thank God you came, I was just going to call you , " she said in between her heavy breathes. "What happened? Where is Abir? "

"He is playing football in the garden, please stop him, it's not good -"

I didn't wait for her to complete but went outside. He was playing football alone. "What's wrong with you? You should not be playing football now, " I said trying to stop him, but he was way too involved and didn't let me hold the fucking ball.

"Why did you cancel the football match? " his question made me stop at my place. I sighed in distress. "Because the doctor told me that you should avoid playing games and working out , do you know even how serious your condition is? " I almost shouted at him but it didn't affect him. He was still playing with the ball.

I stood in front of him like a wall, he glared at me angrily then pushed me to side and again started playing. Now he was testing my patience. Before he could kick the ball, I picked it up and threw it away.

"What's wrong with you? " he screamed, his chest was falling up and down in anger. Why was he angry? All I was doing was good for him.

"I should ask you the same . What's wrong with you? Why are you taking your health grantedly? " I huffed back, he pinned me to the wall. I was worried about the way he was breathing, I felt like he will faint on the floor. He was trying to breath normally.

"Do you care? " he muttered, his eyes fixed on me. Now this question made me stunned.

"Of course I do, this thing happened to you for me and I am sorry for it, I am not able to sleep at night, it's still hurting me and I can't explain you, " I mumbled, he chuckled in ignorance.

"If you really care about me then why didn't I found you around me in the hospital? From the time I opened my eyes to till yesterday, I had not seen a glimpse of you , even today the whole day you were not around! " he complained, my jaw hanged down. I was shocked. It would be an understatement actually. I stared at him in disbelief.

"Did - did you miss me? " I whispered, he pressed me more into the wall and came closer.

"I seriously didn't want to but I did. I MISSED YOU SO FUCKING MUCH BUT YOU WERE NOT THERE, " he uttered pressing his teeth, my lips parted, the medicines had screwed up his mind honestly.

"I guess you need some rest! "

"No I don't! I need an answer, tell me why weren't you there? " his eyes were constantly getting closed and opened, he was losing his sense .

"Bhai told me-"

"From when did you start listening to other? You toh never listened to me-" he could not say more but fell upon me.. "Abir? Abir? " I patted his back but there was no response.

"Bhai! Riddhi! " I called out loudly, Riddhi came running to me, we both held his hand and made him sit on a chair. Meera aanty called the doctor. I told him to not take stress or play anything now the doctor will take my classes.

After a few minutes doctor arrived, I told him everything and in return he gave me deadly glare. Hello? What's my fault? Tell your patient not me huh? He doesn't listen to me and now behaving like a pregnant lady.

The doctor gave an injection and changed his dressings. Abir gained his sense back and the first person he saw was me.

Yes I am present here . By your side. I care for you. Idiot.

I so wanted to shout at him but I stayed quiet. Both Riddhi and aanty went inside the house and bhai came to us. "I am sorry, I was stuck in traffic, today was Saanvi's check up day. Are you okay? " he asked in concern and Abir nodded in response.

"Bhai can you please tell him why I was not there in hospital? He thinks-" He cut me off in the middle, " Bhai did good, I can't stand you, my situation would have worsened , it's better you were not there! " Abir stated, I stared at him in shock.

Was he the same person even?

He was seriously going through some serious mood swings. Leaving the two brothers there I went to Naina's room. She's playing video games in her laptop, later I joined her . I seriously need to refresh my mind. Abir did his dinner in the room.

After dinner I helped Riddhi with her study, but my mind was with Abir because Richa again came here to visit him. Is there any magnet on him or what? And the thing was they both were alone in the room and he must be shirtless due to his wound . I pouted internally.

"I guess you should sleep now! I will teach the other half tomorrow? " I said to Riddhi, "Yes yes! You should go and sleep, you haven't even changed your saree after coming from office too. I am so sorry I kept you engaged here! " she apologized, "No no it's okay. Good night! " I came our from her room.

I stormed inside the room, Richa was sitting next to Abir on a chair. They both were staring at her laptop, their heads were so close that I wanted to hit her. "Richa, it's too late, he needs some rest, can you please keep this official work away till he become fine? " I said in a mocking tone, this girl has no basic sense at all .

"I called her! " I snapped my head to Abir and disappointed crept on my face. "I am sorry to bother you, actually Sir and I have to visit Australia for the project he had signed. So I had to come here! " Richa explained, now I was shocked.

"You are going to Australia in this condition? " I mumbled, he nodded his head.

"Richa, we will talk tomorrow, " he said to her and she left with her stuffs. I slammed the door and went to bathroom. After taking a bath I wrapped a white towel around me and went to closet to wear something suitable. He never ever listened to me. Atleast he should have thought about himself, if I will tell the doctor that he wanted to go to Australia for some fucking projects the doctor will first kill me then him. I had heard enough, but won't anymore.

I don't care if he go anywhere or not . He can go wherever he wants with whomever he wants. Who cares? I pulled out my night dress but due to my sudden force other clothes too fell on the floor, I threw the hanger in annoyance. Opening his wardrobe I pulled out his white shirt and wore it. I wore a black short loose pant beneath it.

He was doing his work on the laptop, I went to the terrace and sat over the parapet . The cold wind was blowing, I thought it will cool down me but I guess it's not happening. I need to pour out my frustration but at the same time I need to keep quiet otherwise like last time I will utter shit and will eventually hurt him. The explosion of emotions in me was making me cry. I wanted to scream.

Why he have to always listen to her but doesn't give a fuck to me when all I say is good for him. I looked up hearing his footsteps, it's Abir. A tear dropped down from my eyes but I wiped it harshly and looked at the other side. My heart was pounding against my chest so hard that I could hear my own heartbeat.

His every steps towards me giving me hard times. He stopped just in front of me and placed his both hands at my two sides , I tilted my head to him and gulped as his face was just an inch away from mine.

"What's wrong? " he whispered, maybe he noticed my tears.

"Everything is alright. You can go and sleep, " I mumbled, he narrowed his eyes. He traced his thumb on my cheek, that damn touch melted me like a fire melts ice. He trailed his hand down and grabbed my throat, my breath hitched. It's an intimidated position. I could hardly breathe. I never understood the desire until I felt him so close, until I felt his hand around my throat, until his burning intense eyes met mine.

He pulled my face closer.

"You have problem with me going to Australia or the problem is I am going with Richa? " he spoke, I gulped, he must have felt it. His palm was still around my throat.

"Nothing.. like.. that.. " I shuttered.

"Then why can I feel it? " he whispered, damn he came closer to me , now our face was just some centimeter away. I will die I swear.

"What.. what do you mean.? "

"Stop looking at me like that! " I added, I was scared because I knew I was falling for him. Every breath of mine was making me realize that my heart was beating  for him. It's wrong.

"Like what? " he whispered, his eyes travelled from my eyes to my lips, now it's the worst move he did. Then he again stared into my eyes. I shifted close to him and wrapped my one hand around his waist and then the other hand moved into the thickness of his hair. It kept getting worse.

He moved his palm from my throat to the back of my neck and his other hand travelled to my waist. His single touch was enough to set my body on fire. His brown orbs were looking captivating in the moonlight. I was lost, completely lost.

Then the magical moment happened.

He brushed his lips against mine.

He pulled my face close by grabbing my neck, I held a fistful of his hair in my hand. His warm lips against my cold lips were electrifying. The world around me had stopped, fuck we haven't even kissed. I hadn't even tasted him but it felt like heaven. He again brushed his lips, he was seriously teasing me.

I pulled his head and pressed his lips with mine. I sucked his upper lip while he sucked my lower lip. The warmth of his lips melted my heart. My eyes were shut but I could still see thousands of colours appearing in front of my sight. There was complete silence but it's so chaotic in my mind. He pressed our upper body together and deepened the kiss.

It's wrong, it's wrong to so many levels but it felt so right. It felt heaven to kiss the hell. We had no rights on each other but I just know we belong to each other. He wrapped his arm around my waist possessively while kissing me .

For the world he was dangerous but for me he was my safe. He nibbled my lip and I moaned in ecstatic pleasure. I had never felt so divine. The kiss was nothing but pure bliss. We moved our lips in sync, we both were running out of breath but we didn't want to parted away as well. Every second of the kiss felt like magic.

I never knew I needed him so much until he kissed me, he pulled me close to him. He stole my first kiss and I am not complaining at all. We parted away and pressed our forehead together. We were panting heavily. I rested my hand on his chest..

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Abir >>

I was trying to keep my breath normal, it's been more than five minutes to our kiss. It's not my first kiss but it's the kiss that mattered. It's not just a desire of my body but the desire of my heart to express, express the emotions which I was not aware of or I just didn't want to accept.

The moment when I opened my eyes in hospital, my eyes were desperately searching for her. The moment I realized I was fucked up. Even after getting a damn slap all I wanted was to see her, to hear her and to be around her .

People say shitty things to me which never affected me but when she said I wanted to burn the whole world . I myself wanted to create a bad image in front of her but it hurt a lot . Words can't depict how much her words hurt me, it hurt me more than that slap.

I parted away and stared at her eyes, she was already staring at me. Her eyes were shining. I moved my eyes to her lips, it's little swollen . I pulled out my hand from her neck and wrapped it around her waist.

Without asking her, without her permission I again pressed my lips against her. She was too stunned to react, I got my own time to taste every bit of her lips. She's driving me insane. I slowly sucked her lower lip then bit her making her groaned in pleasure.

I needed her more than the medicine or more than the air to breathe. She ran her fingers through my hair and pulled a fistful of hair which drove me insane.

She kissed me back, I had never gotten lost in a kiss before. My heart kept missing beats. I tasted her and I realized I was starving since so long, since forever. The distance between us was annoying me, I held her both leg and pulled her into a jerk. She wrapped her legs around my waist and her arms around my neck.

I lifted her up and took her to our bedroom without breaking the kiss. In no second we were on the bed . She blew into my life like a storm but now in this raging storm she's my tranquility. I just knew if I will detach myself away from her, I would go mad.

The way she was driving me crazy, the way she's controlling me, the way her soft lips were making me grind against her, the way I need her it honestly terrified me. I never knew a kiss can burn me alive until I kissed her.

I left her lips, she was breathing as violently as I was. I rolled my tongue on her jawline and my lips landed on the soft spot between her jaw and neck. I sucked her skin. "Abir.. " she moaned my name, her voice woke the devil inside me. I wanted to discover every inch of her body, I wanted her to want me the way I do.

Desperately.

"Take my name again! " I whispered against her skin, but she didn't which brought a evil smirk on my lips. I took her earlobe in my mouth making her grab the bedsheet. My hand started moving up from her belly to her chest, she arched her back due to the burning desire.

I pinched her nipple and cupped her breast in my hand. "Abir.. " she moaned my name crazily. I bit her earlobe, her nails digged on my shoulder blade. I moved my hand up and intertwined our hand. I moved my lips on her jawline to her cheek and pressed my lips on her cheek.

She left my hand and cupped my cheek, we both were staring at each other . She pulled my face and connected our lips again. It's fucking third time we kissed still I was not satisfied nor her. I wanted more of her but it was not right , it's wrong. Even what we both were doing was wrong too but none of us were worried about it.

This time the kiss was not wild like before, she kissed me slowly, affectionately like worshiping my lips. I felt every muscle of my body getting relaxed. She roamed her fingers on my back, it's so satisfying. We broke the kiss and she pulled me into a hug. I switched our position and now she's above me.

I could hear her heartbeat. She brushed her cheek against mine and kissed my earlobe. I held her securely in my arm, I needed nothing but her.

"Please don't go to Australia! " she whispered in my ears, her words pulled me back to reality. I realized how we messed up things into worse. I tried to push her but she pushed my shoulder onto the bed. My nails digged into her waist muscle when she kissed my cheek . It's insane.

I took a deep breath and pushed her to the other side. If she would ask me again to not go to Australia I would not be able to refuse her.. I was screwed. I didn't want to cancel this plan. I shifted to my place and pulled out the blanket till my neck. After coming to this point only I knew how hard it's for me to stop otherwise we both would have regretted.

I can send anyone to Australia in my place but I wanted to stay away from her. I have found an unhealthy emotional attachment with her. It terrified me the way I need her. I was never connected with someone so emotionally before not with Yuvani too. But Mishti Rajvansh had the ability to drive me insane.

I just want to stay away from her for her own good. I don't want her to fall for me! Not in this life span atleast.

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"How did your bandage get messed up? " the nurse scolded me.

Because I had a little make out session with my wife yesterday.

I looked at Mishti, she was biting her lips, red hue has appeared on her cheek. I chuckled internally. The nurse wrapped the bandage around me and left. I did my breakfast and took the medicine. Tomorrow I will leave for Australia, Richa had already booked the ticket.

"I am going to office today! " I informed her, I thought she will again start scolding but she just showed her thumb and went to change her attire. She was clearly not happy with the decision. I wore my formals and got ready quickly. She was waiting for me outside.

"I will drive! " I said forwarding my hand , she didn't protest and handed me the key. Now it's something new. She's avoiding me. But noway I will change my decision.

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