Mishti >>

Today I woke up with a horrible dream, guess who was in my dream?

Yes. Absolutely .

None other than the Great Abir Rajvansh.

That's not the point. But the point was we both were behaving like a luvey duvy couple in my dream, he was so kind to me that I understood it's a dream. Lol. He and kindness never goes hand in hand.

Of course from the past few days I had seen a different side of him, but still seeing him so so good to me in my dream made me traumatized. I looked up and found Abir typing something on his phone. Whom do he message all the time or he works on the phone.

"Who got you smile like that? " he asked, I frowned on not understanding the reason behind his question.

"Sorry? "

"You were smiling while sleeping. Saw your dream man in your dream? " he said, his eyebrows lifted up in curiosity.

"I was a fool that's why I was smiling ! " I said, he can be anything but not my perfect dream man just because I saw him in my dream huh!

"Finally you realized that you are a fool! " he chuckled, I rolled my eyes. Keeping the phone on the bed he left the van camper. I rolled on the bed for nth times then finally got some energy to wake up and brush my teeth. The outside weather was so cool , I didn't feel like taking a bath. Yesterday was hectic, we both didn't catch a cold otherwise he would have buried me here .

Abir's phone started ringing, I picked it up as it's from dadi.

Hello dadi, good morning..

Good morning bachha. How are you?

I am good. Goa's weather is so good. It's so relaxing here.

Enjoy enjoy.

What's Naina doing? She's not troubling you all na?

No no! Actually her online class has started, so she's busy in her studies. She's asking when you both will come back.

Yah! We will go back today only.

Achha. Where is Abir?

Wait a second.

I got out of the van, Abir was not there. Calling his guard I asked about Abir and he informed me that he went to the beach. I walked towards the beach , it's a perfect day to roam around. The weather was actually comforting. Dadi was on call so we talked on a random topic till I reached Abir.

When I stepped on the sand and my eyes landed on Abir, my skin warmed up. I let out a deep breath. I felt hot in a cool environment? Nothing just Abir Rajvansh's effect on me, he makes me drool over him effortlessly .

Wearing a blue knee length short pant he was walking on the sand, the waves of the ocean was washing off his feet. His well toned abs were shining in sunlight.  And damn those sexy leg,  God really took some extra time to build him.

He is definitely a crush material.

Are you there?

Yeah yeah. Wait a second.

Dadi's voice pulled me out of my lala land. I walked above the sand on my bare foot and reached him. "Dadi wants to talk with you! " I forwarded the phone, he took it and went a little away.

I stared at the water for some times , I wanted to jump into it and play with the wild waves. I looked down at my clothes, I was wearing a white top and a short pant. It's my favorite top and I didn't want to ruin it. I was shy to take it off in front of Abir as well.

But why boys will have fun all the time?

I took a deep breath trying to gather my courage and pulled out my shirt. I was wearing a full coverage bra but my cleavage was exposed but who cares . I looked at my side and bit my inner cheeks, his intense eyes were on me, burning my skin into ashes.

His eyes were enough to set my skin on fire, what will happen if he touch me once sensually? Will I vanish away? I doubt.

It's him who was staring the half naked me, but I was the one who's losing sense.

He detached the phone from his ear a little as his eyes checked me out from top to toe, I was feeling proud because I made Abir Rajvansh drool over me. Deliberately I freed my hair, making it fall freely on my back, his mouth fell agap. Our eyes were still fixed on each other.

Maybe dadi said something, he realized he was ogling at me shamelessly, he quickly turned around and got busy in his talks. I chuckled and went near the water. The waves crashed against my body making me fall on the ground, I giggled whole heartily. 

It's a little hard for me to swim as the waves were big and the flow was fast. So I was simply playing with water. Abir too jumped into water, now my focus went to the main thing, him and the way he was swimming. A heavy wave hit me hard and I fell on the wet sand on my back.

A shadow fell on me, I looked up to find Abir looking at me, he forwarded his hand. Before I could place my hand, another wave pushed him and he lost his balance. I closed my eyes and stopped my breath as the water came over me. Abir stopped himself from falling upon me by placing his both hands on my two sides.

I opened my eyelids, he was above me horizontally, our body was not touching each other. My eyes met with his brown orbs and I felt butterfly in my tummy. His one hand slid around my bare waist , my breath hitched. He bent his leg and placed his knees at my both sides. He pulled me, I drew out my legs and kneeled down in front of him.

Again a wave hit him and he leaned over me, I held his shoulder to stop him falling on me. Our eyes were connected all the time. His wet locks were falling on his forehead, even though he was looking extra charming, those hairs were blocking my way to see his brown orbs.

I trailed up my hands from his shoulder to his jawline to his forehead and pushed the wet locks to a side. He ran his fingers through his hair and settled it. I was just drowning in the depth of his eyes while trying to read his soul and listen to his heart beat. Running my fingers down from his face I kept it on his heart, that's when our eye contact got broken, he stared at my hand then at me.

"You are not that tough! "

"You have a beautiful heart! "

My words brought some impact on him, he again moved his gaze to my hand and held it. His thumb started brushing the back of my palm .

"Then you haven't seen me, butterfly! " he smirked , leaving my hand he pulled me by holding my waist. His touch on my bare skin set my body on fire , I was again lost in his eyes. He came closer and closer and closer.

Until I could feel his hot breath on my lips.

"I am a devil in human form, I don't have a heart! " his eyes turned darker and his hold around me got stronger.

"Everyone has a devil and an angel inside them, you are not an exception! " I whispered, he smirked again.

"The Angel inside me was dead for so long! "

"No! It's still alive. You are just not letting it come out, " listening to me he just stared at me for sometimes then moved his eyes back towards the sea.

"I am just like this ocean, it only looks beautiful but it's scary. If you embrace it, then you will definitely die! "

His words sent chills into my every bone, I knew I was talking with the devil in him. The name angel from my mouth woke up the devil in him. But I knew he just didn't want to break the wall around him. He again moved his gaze to me.

No matter what he says, eyes always speak the truth. And my heart can read his eyes. I knew there was something behind his brown orbs, which expresses another tale .

"You are an angel in disguise! " I whispered, "Because devil doesn't save anyone's life! " I added.

"You talk more than I can listen, butterfly! "

He just changed the topic, I shrugged off. I didn't want to drag it anymore, so I got up and look here and there but didn't find my shirt.

"Where did my shirt go? " I asked in shock, he stood up and let out a dry laugh.

"You found the sea beautiful and it took away your favorite shirt! " he said it but I understood the intension of him behind saying it.

"Being kind costs you nothing! " he leaned down and added. That's true!

"Enough of this philosophy! Give me your shirt, I can't go there like this, all guards are present there so, " I said as he picked up his shirt from the sand. My white shirt was my favorite, I didn't want to ruin it but lol I lost it.

"Why? "

"What do you mean by why? I am drenched and I can't go in front of them by wearing this bare minimum cloth, " I replied, it made me conscious.

"You are standing in front of me! "

You and they are not the same for me, I wish I could tell you.

I pulled out his shirt from his hold and wore it. He let out a deep breath, shaking his head he turned his feet to back. I was just going when I felt something on my feet, I looked down only to find my shirt back.

My eyes widened in happiness, before the wave could take it back I picked it up. I looked towards the see.

Thank you for not breaking my trust.

He will not too.

I know him more than he himself.

It feels like I have known him forever.

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We got back to Mumbai, the end of the Goa trip was definitely not something sweet. He is the first person who doesn't want to listen something good about him. He wants to create a bad image of himself, which is not what he is!

When I entered office, I was welcomed by different types of stares from people. I was clueless until I read the newspapers. Someone from the media has leaked our pictures from the beach, it's dark and blurred. But anyone could recognize us!

I didn't talk with Abir related to this, because no matter how much it would have made him angry seeing both of us on magazine when we were actually talking something personal, he will react nothing just to show me that he doesn't care if someone leaked our private pictures.

Otherwise he will come up with his famous old trick - dadi and property. Dadi would be happy seeing us actually spending time with each other and blah blue. I didn't want to break my heart by hearing all this so I just didn't ask anything.

It's another hectic day. I was waiting for Abir in the lawn, as he came down we both moved towards his car. After yesterday's conversation we hadn't talk, it became awkward.

"So how was your honeymoon trip? "

We both stopped, I snapped back. Leaning against the car Rihan was standing. I was actually shocked to see him behaving so carefree with him. There was no fear, nothing at all.

I palmed my mouth when Abir pushed him to the car, he was holding his cheek between his thumb and index finger, I ran towards them and tried to stop Abir, but his eyes turned darker.

"Who are you to question me? You are in no position to ask Abir Rajvansh about his life! Don't forget that I can fire you any time I want! " he whisper-yelled at him , his jaw tightened. I gulped. Rihan gave a cocky smile. I stared at him blankly.

"But you can't Mr Rajvansh! You can't fire new comers like this before six months and I hope you are well aware of it- "

"No Paper, No Statement, No orders can stop me from firing you Mr Rihan Oberoi! Don't forget that you are talking with Abir Rajvansh! " he was so aggressive, I really hadn't seen him like this before. But why was he angry ? Of course if an employee will question him, it will hurt his ego. But this much anger?

"But your property can stop you, isn't it! " Rihan smirked, I snapped at him. Abir took a step forward pressing Rihan's body more into the car.

"Just a warning! Or a deadly warning! The day I will get back my property, it will be the end of every single person who blackmailed me, " he huffed, his eyes spitting venom.

"That is why you are not getting it! "

"The fear of Abir Rajvansh! " he stated and moved back. I was staring at him like I saw a ghost. He is actually horrific. I licked my lips. Giving me a last deadly stare Abir left. I looked at Rihan who was just smirking.

Asshole.

"What is your link with the property? " I came to the point straight. I thought he will make jalebi out of my words like Abir but he didn't.

"My sister is a lawyer! She is the one who made your divorce papers. It won't take me a second to spill this in front of your dadi-in law, candy! " he explained, my lips parted in shock.

Fuck these people. I ran towards Abir's car as he started the engine, I got inside and he started driving. The way he was driving the car, I doubt if we will be able to reach home safely or directly go to hospital.

Thankfully, I reached home in one piece, he got out of the car and moved his eyeballs in the lawn. "Aren't you going inside? " I asked him, as he didn't move his leg forward. His rage filled eyes met mine. "Fine! Who gave me the authority to ask you a question?! I understood, good night! " I uttered from my side before he could give me lecture I stepped towards the door.

When I stepped on the house I looked back and Abir was nowhere. Of course my curiosity mind didn't let me go inside, tiptoeing I headed towards the back of house and hid behind a pillar. Six guards were standing there , a man was standing in the middle, his hands were tied  in a rope. Abir marched towards him and punched on his stomach, making him crawl on the ground.

Holding his collar he grabbed him and again made him stand on his feet , the guards were just staring at the scenario. My eyes widened when Abir curled his palm around the man's neck, he was struggling to breathe.

"Next time think twice before invading someone's privacy and pressed it on newspaper! " he yelled at him, I thought he will let this thing go. He started beating him again, I ran towards him and come in the middle. My eyes were shut tightly as he was about to punch him but I came in middle. When I opened my eyes, I saw his hand in air, I took a breath of relief.

His eyes were shooting daggers at me, which scared me to the core, but I didn't move.

"Relax! " I pushed him a little, my hands wrapped around him as he was taking deep breaths in anger. "Let him go! " I said to the guards, that man was bleeding miserably. Abir huffed in anger, "You already bit the hell out of him, he will die, let him go! " he glared at me angrily, I looked at the guard, he came forward and dragged the man towards the gate after opening the rope from his hands.

Abir jerked me back and left. I sighed in disbelief and went behind him.

"Why are you so mad? I know he should not have done this but you should complain the chief officer for allowing them to post such things, they are getting paid for this so it's obvious they will do it! "

He didn't say anything and laid down on the bed. I sighed and went to Naina's room. She was keeping her laptop in the bag and then folded her notebooks. "I thought you must be sleeping while online lectures , but you are actually studying! " I said and sat next to her.

"Yeah! I used to do it, but not anymore. I wanted to be independent so need to improve my skills! " she muttered, that's great.

"By the way are you free? We can watch movie together if your husband has no problem with it! " she asked, I agreed happily. My husband doesn't care where I go, so it's not a problem. We skipped the dinner and brought some chips and snacks for us. She wanted to watch thriller movie, so I suggested her to watch Yosada, it's Samantha's movie. I had not watched it but heard some good reviews about it.

We had a great time watching the movie , it's good and kept us hooked till the end.

"It's been so long I hadn't watched movie with anyone, it felt so good, thank you ! " she said showing her genuine happiness. "Don't you watch any movie or go to theatre with your parents? "

"Oh I wish I could! They are just my guardians, parents? Huh no way. First thing is they wanted a boy not a girl and second now they want me to join their business when all I want is to become an architect, build my own company but don't want to be a business woman. Even dad has no idea that I am studying architecture, " she explained, I stared at her in disbelief.

"Yes they think I am studying business, once they will know that I am studying architecture that would be the last day of me in their life and in that house. And I don't care, they never loved me unconditionally, they never gave me any freedom, I just don't know what to do! " she was frustrated, I rubbed her back.

"Don't worry I will be there for you, I might not help you financially but you will get moral support from me, I will be your cheerleader, you go girl! " I said trying to lift her mood, I don't know but my words made her cry. "What happened? I am sorry-"

"No no, it's just I had no one to support me, to cheer me till now, nobody cared about me, for the first time you said something which just triggered my unhealed heart! "  she explained, I felt the pain.

Being an older sister I failed at some point. I always wanted to run away from that jail but I never thought of her. I failed miserably. I could have supported her, but I thought she was just like her parents. Some misunderstandings really break the family. She's such a sweet girl, I wish I could ever understand her.

I hugged her and brushed her arms. "We will build your dream, I will give my everything to support you! " I said assuring her, she chuckled.

"Hmm then your husband will complain about you not giving him enough attention! "

My face dropped, we would be divorced so it's not a problem. I was on the verge of breaking the secret, I really wanted to tell her that Abir and I don't share a relationship like a normal couple, but I held myself back. Abir had denied me to tell her anything. At least till things fall into place, I need to shut my lips.

"No! Even if he complains we both will sue him, " I said and we both burst out laughing.

"Okay, you should sleep now, it's too late! " I said and got up from the bed. She kept all the stuff in the cupboard and slept.. I went back to my room , Abir was sleeping. I too slept not before setting the alarm. Before it's Abir who used to taunt me for being late now it's Rihan too. I don't get late okay? If they will count one minute too, then it's not my problem. They can bark in the corner.

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Today I woke up at 5:30 , I woke up really early. After brushing my teeth I went downstairs. I hardly spend time with this family. When I moved to kitchen I saw Meera aanty cooking. "Is something special about today? You are cooking at this hour! " I asked and stood beside her. She's making a cake.

"Yeah! It's my son Abir's birthday, " she replied, her eyes sparkled with happiness. Oh! It's his birthday today. I had no idea about it. "Umm so you are baking a cake for him? " she nodded.

"Your dadi does it every year as Abir doesn't like outside creamy cake. But this year she told me to bake, I don't know if he will like it or not, " she sounded little tense, this mother-son duo don't share a normal relationship, I wanted to ask about it but it's not a perfect time.

I watched her making the cake, I knew it would taste amazing. I could feel a lump forming in my chest, because it reminded me of my mom. She too bakes cake for me. Meera aanty was putting so much efforts, she's conscious about the taste at the same time.

"Ouch! " she hissed in pain, I went to her, holding her hand I put it under water. She held the hot pot in excitement. "You should be careful na! " I scolded her. "Hm hmm I was just so happy that I forgot it's hot, " she bit her lips, I smiled at her. Her fingers were looking red, I applied an ointment.

"You sit here, I will do the rest, " I made her sit, there was not much work left. I just had to design the outer part of the cake and wrote his name over it. "Now go and get ready, you will be late for office, " she said, nodding my head I went to upstairs . Abir was awake, I wanted to wish him but he was in a call so without disturbing him I went to take a birth.

I didn't wear a formal today but wore a blue saree.

After getting ready I went downstairs, Abir took a seat at the dining table. For the first time everyone was present there except Aadarsh bhai . I went to the kitchen to wash my hands.

"Take this cake to him, " Meera aanty instructed, I burrowed my brows. "But you made it-"

"My fingers are burnt, I can't hold it na , " she reminded , I gave a slight node and took the cake to dining and placed it in front of him. Dadi was sitting next to him.

"Happy birthday Abir! " I wished him, as dadi was there he just gave me a faint smile. He was about to cut the cake but I stopped him.

"Wait! Let meera aanty come here. She's the one who made it, " I mumbled and looked around to find her but everyone was staring at me like I said something wrong.

Was I supposed to not say it?

I saw Abir's grip around the knife getting tightened, I blinked my eyes.

I took a step back when Abir pushed the cake in such a force that it fell on the floor. My mouth fell agap, what the hell? She made it with so much effort and I thought Abir would appreciate it at least but he threw it. There was a horrible silence in the hall. Abir grabbed his coat and left.

I followed him to the car but he had already left. No matter what happened in the past, she is his mother and he can't just disrespect her like this. I curled my fingers in a fist, taking the key from the driver I took the car.

Abir parked the car in the parking lot and proceeded to go inside the company.

"Abir listen to me! " I shouted from his back but he didn't. Taking the elevator I went to his chamber. He was looking outside through the glass.

"What's wrong with you? "

He turned back and glared at me.

"Don't interfere in my personal space! ".

" I am not even dying to invade your personal space but at least watch what you are doing. You know she woke up so early to bake a cake for you, she put so much effort into it-"

"Did I tell her to put effort into it? " he yelled back taking a step forward. I was beyond shocked.

"What do you mean by saying it? Does a mother need to ask her son before trying to do something to make him feel good? " I whispered in a low tone. He shrugged off making me more annoyed.

"Atleast appreciate what you have. Not everyone gets this type of treatment. She could have ordered the cake from outside but she made it in her own hand, just because why? You don't like outside cake. The least you could have done is cut the cake and feed yourself that's it! " I expressed, I don't know but when I see anyone disrespecting their parents it makes me sad.

Because I lost my parents, I know how it feels to live a life without them .

"No I don't appreciate things I have, I don't want to, what will you do? " he inserted his hands in his pant pocket. Arrogance behavior at its peak.

"Do you know how it feels to live without parents? " I whispered as a tear fell down my cheek.

"No I don't. I don't even care if my so called parents will die, I don't care if they take the last breath-"

My palm landed straight on his cheek making him stop uttering shit. I slapped him hard on his cheek. He was taken a step back, his head tilted to side. The bitter words he just said triggered me to the core. He was shocked for getting a slap from me. His jawline clenched and his hands curled into a fist. His eyes turned dark.

"You know what? You are a Devil. Thank you for proving me wrong. You are the most self centered guy I have ever come across in my life time. Keep this attitude, the reason why everyone leaves you. You don't deserve to be loved. It's always about you, yourself and your fucking life -"

He pushed me to the wall, his nails digging my shoulder skin, it's hurting. "Yes Yes Yes! I am a devil, self centered guy. I care about no one, my life is all about me, I am arrogant, self obsessed, I am a demon! Didn't I tell you before? Now congratulations you got a reality check , " he vented out, his chest falling up and down in anger, his eyes turned into a darker shade of red, spitting venom through it. He pushed me to the side and turned back.

I stared at him till my eyes filled with unshed tears, he completely changed the perspective in just some seconds. I dashed out of his chamber, I was not in a condition to go back to work. I threw my sling bag on the stairs and dropped myself on the middle stair.

I don't get angry easily but when I do I actually lose my patience . His words really offended me. After losing mom dad, I had seen people celebrating every occasion with their parents, he doesn't know what he is missing.

How could he just say something like this for his parents? I pressed my forehead while tears fell down my cheeks. I don't know for which accurate reason I was feeling bad. I was feeling worse. Maybe I saw the worst version of him which my heart was not ready to witness or things I said to him which he didn't deserve to hear or I hurt him physically when I didn't have any rights.

I pulled my hair in frustration , he was right. I should have kept myself away from this situation. I sat there for some moment till someone patted my shoulder, I looked up and found bhai. I quickly got up and wiped my tears.

"What happened? Why are you sitting here? " he asked in concern, he was not in the house today.

"Um -mm"

"Where is Abir? What's wrong tell me? "

"What do you mean by where is Abir? He must be in his chamber! " I stated.

"No, he was not there, did he go for any meeting? " he asked, I shook my head in a no.

"Mishti, please tell me what happened? You are crying here  , he didn't pick my calls, " he was worried, I shut my eyes.

I overreacted.

"Mishti please! "

I started explaining everything from the start. He was shocked to hear me. "Why did-you.. say some.. thing like this.. to him? " he shuttered, I felt bad for being so rude to him. He didn't say much and went to the elevator. I went to Abir's chamber, everything was shattered on the floor. Shit.

I took the car key and went downstairs. I caught bhai's car and followed it. Some security cars were following me. People should learn how to mess up a situation more from me. That's why I always try to calm myself rather than expressing me. I hit my hand on the steering. Bhai must have tracked him.

My only fear was Yash. I increased the car's pace, bhai stopped his car. I came out of my car, it's an isolated place. Three roads were started from one road, "his last location was here! Now it's not showing anything, " bhai muttered while checking his phone. If anything will happen to him I won't be able to forgive myself.

"I will check this way! " bhai said and got inside his car and proceeded to go to the left way. Some security car followed his. I turned my heel to go back to my car until I heard a car crashing sound. It's coming from right. I ran towards that way, my heartbeat stopped in a thud when I saw Abir's car. It was fine but crashed with another car.

He came out of the car, I took a step ahead to call him. A gun shot sound made me stop on my way. I froze at my place. I could not proceed further but stared at Abir who fell flat on his back. It started raining all of a sudden. I saw Yash . He was holding the gun, I gulped.

In a jerk I was pulled back and pressed against the tree, someone shut my mouth by pressing his hand. I looked up and found Aadarsh bhai. I tried to say something but he shook his head in a no.

"Don't take a step further. We have to save you as well!" he mumbled while his eyes were on Abir and a tear dropped from his eyes. His hand loosened around me, I looked back, he was bleeding. My heart was breaking into pieces, fuck it's his birthday.

"Bhai let me go! " I cried, "I don't care if Yash will take me, I can't see him like this, " I almost pleaded to bhai but he shook his head. "Calm down! " How? How to calm myself after knowing that he injured himself for the second time due to me? I was feeling disgusting.

His blood was flowing with rain water, he was coughing and struggling to breathe. I tried to push bhai. Three bike flew in air and came between Yash and Abir. "They are not my people! " bhai whispered.

"You need to go from here, I have to save my brother, " he pulled me towards the car and made me sit inside, bhai stopped the security car. "He can kill Abir! We need to work with patience. Driver, take her to our hospital, I will take Abir with me, " saying he locked the door, I held his hand. He stared at me and blinked his eyes. The driver started the car and again three security car followed us.

I kept my palm on my forehead, that scenario was not going from my mind. The way he was shot, the blood, the way he was struggling to breathe, his pain everything was triggering me to core. There was not even a second when I didn't curse myself for saying so much to him..

What was the need to say all that things to him?

The car stopped at the hospital, I went to receptionist and booked a bed for Abir. They first denied but when I showed my id proof and informed them about Abir they immediately arranged everything. Two three patients were taken to emergency ward and I was waiting for him. I could not even call bhai. I was getting all the wrong thoughts.

I was sitting on a chair until I heard bhai's voice.  With a hope filled eyes I looked up, they took Abir inside. I could not see him properly, bhai talked with the doctor then came to me. "I am sorry! " I cried holding his hand, he took me in a hug. "Let it go! " he brushed my hair, I can't let it go like this.

"How did you save him? "

"I really have no idea what the fuck is actually happening. Yash was trying to kill him where there was another bunch of goons who wanted to save him, they both started fighting with each other , I grabbed the opportunity and took Abir with me. We have to stay alert! " he explained briefly.

I moved back and sat above the chair, he sat beside me. "Yash's target was to shoot the bullet into his heart but he could not, the bullet was shot into his upper abdomen,I just hope it hadn't effected his ribcage ! "

I pushed my head to the back and stared at the ceiling hopelessly. "I want to know the truth! " I mumbled, bhai's gaze shifted to me. Then I looked at him, a faint smile formed on his lips.

"Have you ever seen him using the phone very often or typing something on it? " he asked, I nodded my head .

"You know to whom he sends messages all the time? " I was clueless.

"To Maa! "

I was confused.

"Meera Rajvansh is not our real mother, " he whispered in a low tone, I was beyond shocked. So if he messaged his maa then their parents are divorced? But I had never seen him meeting her.

"Ava Rajvansh. She was murdered, " as soon as the words left his mouth the earth beneath me vanished. "Dad always prioritizes his politics, he had numerous enemies. We always told him to stay away from it but he never listened to us. Abir was ten years old , he had seen maa dying in front of him, in his own eyes . And believe me it's the worst feeling to see your Mom taking her last breath in front of you and you are unable to do anything! "

My stomach crumbled in pain, I felt the trauma. I was out of words, I didn't expect something like that. "I can't say more, you will know eventually. Now please go home, it's not safe to stay here! " he said, I didn't say anything and got up. My vision got blurred but I managed to reach the car. The driver opened the door for me.

Before the car could go a person came and handed me Abir's phone, purse and watch. It took us a few minutes to reach home. Everyone was well aware of the accident, nobody asked me anything. I went to the bathroom and sat under the shower.

Whatever bhai just said just disturbed me completely. I could not digest the truth. The shower water washed away the mess from my skin but it could not erase the mess from my heart. I wore a frock and dropped myself on the bed. My hand came in contact with his phone and I stared at it for some time.

He messages his maa everyday.

I know it's wrong to read someone's personal message but I wanted to know what he feels. I didn't know his password. When we were in Goa he told me his password because he was eating and he needed to send some files. I doubt if he had changed it or not. I still had the password in my mind.

I typed it and it was opened to my surprise. I went directly to whatsapp..

Maa❤

It's the first name which popped up. I felt a sharp pain in my chest, I opened the chat, he had sent numerous messages but it was showing a single tick only. It's not delivered.

It's the worst kind of pain. My eyes filled with tears. I normally scrolled up and stopped when my eyes fell on a message.

I got married today, Maa.

It's heartbreaking. I read further.

I really didn't want to get married but due to some circumstances I had to.

It's an arranged marriage and you know what Maa, Mishti resembles you. She is exactly the way you were. She scolds me the way you used to, her personality is like you. She reminds me of you.
You know what? Her life is at risk but she's flying like a free butterfly. Maa she's just too careless about herself. She had no idea how cruel these people are. I feel bad.
I call her a butterfly and it irked her lol. ;)

He had mentioned everything but the fact that he didn't say anything bad about me or his dad. He didn't even say that it's forced marriage but he mentioned it as an arranged marriage. He didn't mention the incident when he got stabbed. He had skipped most of the things which will hurt his maa and it's so heartbreaking for me to read.

The way he had sent messages to him, it felt like he was actually having a conversation with her but from the other side there was no message. How did he feel every time he messages her????

One thing was clear that he doesn't want to hurt his mom, so he skipped every part where he was hurt. I felt pain. Unbearable pain.

Maaaaa. Your daughter in law calls me an angel today. After you she is the one to call me an angel but not a devil.
People always judge me and never try to understand me but she? Even after getting hurt she still thinks positive about me.
But you know what I really don't want her in my life. It's better for her to stay away from me.
You know na how the situation  in my family is.
She won't be happy here.

I pressed the lock key and kept the phone at my side. Tears started flowing down my eyes. The inner child in him was happy when I told him angel, what he must have gone through when I called him devil.

The guilt was eating me up, the guilt was killing me from inside. Without knowing anything I judged him and said something which I shouldn't.

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