Huh?

Leo blinked twice at Hakyeon’s sudden declaration of not being able to see his hand.

“I can't see your right palm… I can't see anything starting from your wrist..your fingers, palm nothing...” Hakyeon sounded apprehensive.

“What are you saying?” His husky voice held confusion in it.

“I’m saying the truth!!” he was slightly panicked.

“What do you mean? Its right here,”Leo was appalled.

“It’s right here so ho….”he paused.

How Hakyeon hold the smoothie glass so easily while he felt his hand was almost broken, how he danced yesterday so easily while he yelped in pain, it all hit him.

He’s lying… Right?

Hakyeon stared right into the trembling eyes of the latter. The latter was suddenly scared. Hakyeon himself was npt less confused, but seeing the fear in those eyes, he shut himself up. He did not know how to reply him anymore.

Leo looked at his right knee. He asked Hakyeon in a trembling voice, “can you see my foot?”

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Hakyeon’s silence gave the answer away. What could he do now. Leo did not look at Hakyeon. He shut his eyes to understand the reason. Nothing came to his mind, except the words from Hakyeon and Ken,

You are here for revenge….

Unfulfilled wish….

And the sight of the ticket falling from Hongbin’s wallet flashed before him.

Am I really here to get revenge? Did I ever wish to see my killer?  Have I found him… Is that why I’m disappearing??

One question produced another one, soon resultin in a web of questions inside his head, but the questions had no answer. He didn't know what was going on, so how could he find answer. Again he was at a loss.

“Okay, Leo, listen, I know you are shocked. But lets discuss what’s going on with you, together… Okay?”

“I think Hongbin is my killer…, “ Leo whispered those words so easily, making Hakyeon all confused again.

Hakyeon nervously cackled a bit while he clasped his hands together, “It's not a time to joke,Leo… I know you are confused but sa….”

“I’m not joking.”

Hakyeon hands formed a grip.

“Explain.. “ Hakyeon said dryly.

“Yesterday at cafe, while he handed you Sanghyuk’s card, a piece of paper fell.. “ his voice sounded serious.

“Yes, and I picked it up…” he hardly noticed how his voice became strained.

“That was my concert ticket…”

“That proves nothing..” Hakyeon gave him a cautious look.

“That proves EVERYTHING Hakyeon!” Leo growled.

Hakyeon’s grip got stronger.

“It all happened after I noticed that. Ken said I’m stuck here to get revenge, or because of my unfulfilled wish. And after I saw that, after I saw my killer I started to feel pain, and now you are saying you can't see me. It only.. “

“But you said you don't want revenge.” Hakyeon cut him off.

“I.. “ he winced, “I dunno… “ his eyes softened as he hid them in his palms.

Hakyeon released his grip, and in the meantime they heard a knock on the front door.

Hakyeon got up on his feet to check who it was, he stopped before his room’s door.

“Fix your theory before you force them on my donseangs Leo. I’ve known them for a long time, and you…” And he left the room, with Leo alone sitting on the bed.

Hakyeon’s voice held fury, and Leo very much understood what a grave mistake he made then. Hakyeon was right, he knew them very well, so even if Hong bin was the murderer, he did not hold the right to accuse him without enough evidence. Of course Hakyeon will take Hongbin’s side, he was his dongsen, his so called son.

Great! Now he hates me totally….

Hakyeon stood in the hallway, looking at Ken having a conversation with Eunji, who was still in he Pajamas…

“AH!! N!!!” Eunji past by Ken and stood before Hakyeon.

“Why are you here ,so early?” Hakyeon’s voice still sounded stern.

“I got a good news!”

Eunji said putting her hands on her waist with a gleeful look on her face.

“Hn.. “ and thst was all he could muttered.

“Won't you ask what it is?” Eunji said, raising her eyebrows.

“What?”he sluggishly replied.

“Are you sick?” Eunji said as she rose her hand to touch Hakyeon’s forehead. But Hakyeon shoved it away. Even Eunji’s affection seemed annoying to him.

“Just say what you came to say… “

The gleeful look on Eunji’s face had dropped, and was now replaced with hurt and disbelief. She slowly pulled out an envelope from the pocket of her pajama and handed it to Hakyeon. Hakyeon took it, and without even looking inside of it he said,

“Thanks.” But the sincerity was, missing.

“Will you not open it?”

“You can go now,”and, Hakyeon turned around to go back to his room again.

Eunji grabbed him by his arm.

“Wait… Its a wild card challenge. KBD has, sent letters to 5 contestants who dropped out but had potential..”

“Five?”

Hakyeon started to turn around.

Eunji nodded.

“Yes, so work hard and make sure to get chosen.”

Nothing is easy in this world I guess…

“I’ll try…” and Hakyeon pulled his hand away from her grab.

Eunji was really hurt. And Ken understood the tension in the air, so he stepped in to fix the mood.

“Ahh.. Eunji-sshi…. I’ve made pancakes for breakfast. Wanna try?”

Ken said while pulling Eunji by her hand. After taking two steps Eunji stopped,

“Hakyeon, come and eat with me.”

“I’m full..” He started to walk towards his room.

“Then again..” He stopped on his track, “There's no harm in watching you eating.” Hakyeon said while turning around again sending Eunji a fake smile.

And he started to walk off to the kitchen.

Leo looked at Hakyeon, taking large steps towards the other room after seeing him standing at the door. And, Leo could feel that small pinch of pain on the chest area, where his heart was supposed to be.

Eunji and Hakyeon both sat on the edge of that small bed, while Ken put two less burnt pancakes on a plate for Eunji. Ken handed the plate to Eunji and Hakyeon only sat still, looking at the ceiling. Eunji bowed her head a little and Ken left to fetch her a glass of water.

*phone ring*

Hakyeon turned to his left to see Ken’s phone ringing by the pillow. A piece of white paper was placed under it.

“Ken your phone…”Hakyeon said as he took the phone in his hand. Ken ran to Hakyeon and went out of the room. Hakyeon took the paper in his hand. Something was written on it.

Seeing Hakyeon focusing on something, Eunji could not stol herself from seeing what he was looking at. So she moved closer to Hakyeon and fixed her eyes on the paper as well. It was a poem. Eunji read it out loud.

I thought it was love that had bloomed

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With every single attention from you that I Gained… (the whole poem would be here)
…

“Ooooo...a love poem….that's not your handwriting… Did that Ken guy write it?” Eunji said as she took a bite from her pancakes.

Hakyeon did not reply. He just stared at that poem. Dots started to form in his head, but refused to connect.

“Didn't you like it Hakyeon?” Eunji said, chewing her food, and dangling her legs.

Still no answer.

One dot formed but another one disappeared.

Leo stopped at the door, looking at Hakyeon. It was the second time today when he could not recognize Hakyeon, he looked mysterious, dark and…… Perhaps murderous? He couldn't tell since Hakyeon’s eyes were hidden under his fringe.

“Tch… Look at you.. So mysterious, because your hair is hiding your eyes. You look so creepy.”

She took The first bite from her second pancake.

“This one tastes a bit bitter though.. “

“Can you please keep quiet?”

Hakyeon finally shouted out without changing his focus. Leo was a bit startled, but Eunji did not seem like she cared.

“Tch.. Okay.. I’ll keep it down…” She snorted.

Ken returned to the room with a bright smile across his face.

“Ken!” Eunji called out.

“Yes,” he offered her another one of his bright smile.

“That poem, you wrote it?”

“Ahh… Yes..” Ken looked a bit shy.

“Why?” Hakyeon sounded exasperated.

“Well… Hyung I was just..”

“Ehh.. What do you mean by why? Can't he write a poem if he wants?” Eunji turned to face Ken.

“By the way, nice bracelets… it looks good on both of your hands.”

The dots finally connected, wiring to the mental bulb that flashed above his head. And Hakyeon lowered his head even more as the paper wrinkled in his hand.

“Eunji, can you please leave?”

Eunji turned to Hakyeon, quite shocked by his sudden request.

“Just leave… “

Eunji could tell something was wrong, so she didn't protest anymore. And just like an obedient girl, she got up on her feet and walked towards the door, leaving the three behind her.

“Hyung, what's wrong?”

Hakyeon looked up, standing from his position he stood forward. And just by looking at him, Ken could say that Hakyeon was not the same bubbly hyung that he knew. He didn't know when he took a step back.

“But my existence was mere a game

And the realization hit me of late…

And How with every word you ignore

made me feel like disappearing even more… -what do these line mean?”

“It's just a simple love song....." Ken muttered.

“Then where did you buy this bracelet from?”

Hakyeon took another step ahead, a grimace slowly forming on his face.

“From the st-street… It was cheap” Ken gulped.

“Why are you stuttering?” Hakyeon stated taking another step closer.

Ken and Leo was both shocked at Hakyeon’s sudden behavior. This Hakyeon was, different than the mysterious Hakyeon at tge studio, this Hakyeon was different than the crying Hakyeon in the morning, this Hakyeon was different thsn the affectionate caring motherly Hakyeon,this Hakyeon was different than tge man that always makes Leo blush.… This Hakyeon was… Perhaps calling him the Devil himself would not be wrong. Yes, Hakyeon seemed evil, murderous, scary enough to think that in only one moment he’d pull out a knife and shove it in Ken. His eyes held that desire, while his smile gave away the emotion.

“Hyung,what's wrong?” Taking another step back ,he could not manage to keep his balance and resulted on the floor, sitting. Hakyeon looked more scary from there.

As baffled as Leo was, he realized how scared Ken was as well. And not to say, even if Hakyeon did not kill Ken with a knife now, judging Ken’s face it was quite clear that the kid will still die of heart attack. And for some reason he could not let that happen. More like he did not want to.

“The kid is scared, Hakyeon.”

Leo said in that week husky voice of his as he stood before the sitting Ken, an attempt to calm the latter. Well it didn't work, as he himself just received a death glare from Hakyeon. And being a ghost did not help him to be brave enough to think that he did not look frightening.

But Hakyeon did stop taking steps.

That grimace disappeared while suspicion appeared.

“You said you are Leo’s fan. Name his best song..”

Ken and Leo, both of their eyes widened at this question. Finally the reason for Hakyeon’s weird behavior hit them. Ken lowered his face and Leo just looked over his shoulder to look at that guilty figure, who didn't need to reply anymore. His posture was saying everything.

And How with every word you ignore

made me feel like disappearing even more…

Leo now understood the meaning of the poem. The pain started when Hakyeon ignored him at the cafe asking for that “cafe au lait”. And how his hand and foot vanished from Hakyeon’s sight.

When I regained myself a bit

With every single attention from you that I gained…

It also cleared the reason why his voice was back last night. It was because Hakyeon wanted it. Hakyeon gave him the attention that he needed. The husky voice did not mean that it was coming back. It meant it came back as much as Hakyeon needed it.

But my existence was mere a game

my existence really did become a game, didn't it?

He shifted his gaze back to his feet, not brave enough to look at Hakyeon in the eyes after what he had said.

It was crystal clear to him, but still there was a question left, why did the pain disappear in the morning then. And how Ken knew about his name.

“So..?” After waiting for a minute, Hakyeon finally uttered,looking at the two lowered face people.

“I did it for you hyung…”,came the whispers.

Hakyeon rose his eyebrow,

“Can you see him?”

“No… “

“Then?”

“I can feel him, and listen to him. But you were always listening to him,” Ken paused. Taking in an uneasy breath he continued,

“He was controlling you, ordering you and you,being scared, was listening to him!” Finally he looked up, his eyes held the universe in it, but it only showed his weakness.

“You even needed his permission to take my bracelet…” Ken whimpered.

Leo felt as if a gust of wind just hit him right on his face, and washed away all the complain he had against him,  putting the flame of his anger, off.

Who could understand Ken better than Leo at that moment? After all they were both playing their own game, trying to get Hakyeon on their side to get rid of the other one.Thinking Hakyeon preferred the opposite party more than him. So complaining about how Hakyeon gave the other one his bed, or hoping that Hakyeon will once kick Ken out; was it any different from thinking that Hakyeon only listened to Leo and taking a childish revenge like getting rid of the other one because he did not even accept his bracelet without that latter’s consent?

No, it was not.

They both were same. And if… IF Leo was in Ken’s position he’d do the same. Leo understood that he was selfish enough to do so. No, scratch that, he knew he was selfish enough to do more than that. Ken only wished for Leo to vanish from Hakyeon’s eyes, but Leo would have destroyed him. He learned that very well this morning.

“Why did Leo stfart to vanish today?”

Leo’s trail of thoughts got disrupted as Hakyeon started his queer again. He was a bit back to his normal self again… A bit…

“Because my bracelet touched yours.”

“Is that why you put your hand on mine?”Hakyeon was totally back to his normal self now.

Seeing Hakyeon’s voice calming down, Ken couldn't stop himself either, and he ended up with a remorseful look plastered on his face.

Hakyeon did not do anymore query. He heaved out a heavy sigh, before looking at Ken with sad eyes.

“Ken-ah~,” a motherly tone called for Ken. Kken and Leo both looked up.

“I really enjoyed gossiping with you… Even though today's breakfast… “

“What are you saying hyung” Ken shouted at Hakyeon.

“Was not something that I liked, but I’m glad that you made it. But,Please find a new place.. “ with that Hakyeon took off the bracelet and Just dropped it on the ground. For a brief moment Leo felt unbearable pain, but the pain left before he could even utter a single word.

“Hyung,” Ken opened his mouth for explanation but, Hakyeon left fo his room, slamming the door behind.

“Don't worry… I’ll talk to him.." Finally Leo said something.

Ken stared at the blank space, trying to locate where the source of that voice was.

“Why’d, you do that? I am the one who wanted to make you disappear. I tried to apart you from hyung, I did evil things then, why would you do that? To make me feel more miserable? I don't need it. I’m already gui…”

“Because if you leave, then I don't belong here either..”

Ken stopped. Lowering his face he just nodded slightly. And at that moment he understood one thing, he was not even the second lead in the picture here… he was the evil guy.

I wanted to be the main lead, but just turned myself into a villain. He hates me....

How with every word that you ignore,

Made me feel like disappearing even more….

Yes… Disappear perhaps is the most suitable action now….

“Hakyeon, I understand his reason, no need to kick him out.”

“But I don't Leo, so my decision won't differ.”

“He didn't do anything bad.”

“HE TRIED TO MAKE YOU DISAPPEAR!!! He frigging tried to separate you from me, caused you pain!”

“But I’m still here. You need him.”

“NO LEO.. Right now, all I need ..is you…..”

And the second gust of wind hit him. This time a bit hard that he could not even keep on looking at him anymore. Yet he replied meekly,

“But, he has nowhere to go.”

“This world is a large place,Leo. Everyone has somewhere to go. That's why I’m here after my parents died when I was eleven. And that's why you were there, singing, even after your father died when you wrre eleven. The world has place for all. It doesn't matter, if you lose one place. You will definitely find another. And Ken is already20 so...”

“Wait,” Leo opened his eyes, and confusion was evident in those.

“How do you know that my father died at eleven?”

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“Internet? But that's not relevant here. What's important is KEN CAN'T LIVE HERE AND THAT'S FINAL!”

“HAKYEON..”

“Leo… please….”

Hakyeon heaved out a sigh of relieve when Leo turned his eyes away from him

He bought it…. Phew…

Looking at that stubborn chocolate orbs, Leo realized how he could never win against those. Therefore he shifted his gaze to the door, thinking how he will reply the sad figure behind it.

I’m sorry Ken…. This time, I really did try to help but….

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BTW, is my story that boring :/ why don't you comment... I feel like nobody cares abt my story :(