Aura POV

Six months passed as he left me alone with those  emotions which feels like shit. Dad is fine now and he got discharged a few days after that unforgettable incidence . I'm very grateful to God that the bullet lodged a few inches far from his heart.  When Alvin left me on that day on the road, at that moment I saw everything that happened around me with my eyes wide open but,
I couldn't move !
I couldn't speak !
I couldn't think!
I could hear and I could see what his expressions were !They were neutral like nothing happened at that moment he left me as if I was a dead weight on his shoulders and he was happy to get rid of that weight as he walked away from me without even looking at me .

He never came back , not even his shadow showed up within these six months .
Did he never cared for me ?
Did he ever loved me?
I was crazy to consider his trick as love and care !

These days I don't go out more often . I don't hang out with friends like I used to do back . I just go to my college when I need and the remaining days I'll just stay in my room looking at the plaine wall. I don't even visit Eric .  It's her who visits me every other day as she thinks that I am drowning myself into depression .But I think I have made myself strong these days .During the first few months he left me I have hurt myself in the room not allowing anyone to enter into it.

There are night I cried so hard that my heart aches , my body shivers so hard that I shoove my head into my pillow and screams so loud that nobody  hears me . I used to curled up in my bed with my heart pounding as fast as a bee's sting in my stomach and with my trembling hands I used to tuck the blanket under my head into darkness covering every inch of my body to calm down.

Isn't it surreal how do you find yourself in this very moment , this very night after all the days you had to cry into darkness. The muffled screams so no one would have to hear that my heart was breaking and that stinging pain in my stomach was the only thought in my mind .

I want him to come back!
But he never did !
He never returned no matter how much the darkness swallowed my cries. Do anyone realise how much courage it takes to move on in your life when the person you loved to death and beyond that leaves you to die in his love .

The only person who had been with me in my Darkness is Eric. Even my inner soul left me to find her peace with him .The peace of her which he took away with him .

Even for so many days I distanced myself from Eric but not from dad! But one night Eric came to me banging on my closed door and half of the night she stood banging on it until I opened the door for her . She came and hugged me tight without saying any word and I cried in her arms all night and she said,
" Cry !
It's OK to cry!
No one else can say you in your room tonight so just let it out .
You don't have to be strong for anyone.
Cry for everything you once were and for everything you are now ! Aura it's OK to cry as the love is real!
The feelings or real so the tears streaming from your eyes are real .
Let those tears fall for someone you thought you once knew more than anyone, but someone who's gone now!

In the college everyday I pretended to be Ok and everything is perfectly fine but at night when I enter into my room the room which feels no more mine with an empty bed and the blanket lying leisurely with wet soaked with my tears from last night .

I know this will get better someday.
The tears will stop one day.
The memories will become distant and the pain will subside but the scar of his fake love which he has given me on my heart only exist with my life for ever.

Even though I can forgive him for what he did to me , I can never forgive him for what he did to my dad. I was numb and rooted to the ground until Eric came with an ambulance and shook me from my trans . I don't know how she knew where I am but I'm very grateful to her that she came! He was on a death bed and fought with his life because of him. The moment I saw my Dad in the ICU with the tubes attached to his body supporting his life I started hating myself.

Though he is my step father he loved me more than his own daughter. He is strict when he should be and cool, caring , funny, loving and protective at the other times . I just couldn't see him fighting for his life at that moment because of me he took the bullet on his chest in order to save his step daughter whom he loved and he didn't cared to sacrifice his own life. I went to college like every other day and took the last bench so that no one could notice me and I could get lost in my haunting thoughts.

" You all should go to different countries to complete your final year project! As you had already been to many places in this country to know about people's psychology , now it is time to explore the psychology of the other countries .
Come on students, it's your last project and your last chance to explore the things.
So don't waste it and make a good use of it !" My professor said and the whole class is happy with the new exciting project except me.

I  got to my home with Eric on the whole way she kept rambling about some random things to which I just nodded or hammed in response.  We sat on the couch and my mum came with two mugs of coffee. I thanked you her in silence and I started sipping my coffee .

"Where do you think we should go ? " Eric asked excitedly sipping her coffee.

" I don't want to go anywhere." I said bluntly

"What ?" She almost choked her coffee.

" Eric I don't think I can leave my house ." I said trying to push away the painful memories of the places I visited with him and I had no strength to go out of my house mainly my room.

" I think you should go and socialize more with people !
I know Princess it's difficult to stitch your broken heart again to normal and it hurts to restitch it again but you should learn to handle your pain by yourself !No one else will bear it for you .
What happened to you princess?
I never raised you like a coward !You are my little tigress and always will be ! " My dad said sitting beside me  and I snuggled into his chest like a little girl which I always do whenever I was sad and he kept his hand around me protectively like Alvin used to do.

From the past 20 years whenever my dad calls me Princess it makes me happy but these days whenever he calls you princess the word reminds me of the man whom I am trying to forget every second of my life but unable to.

"But dad...!" I started but got off when my dad got off from the couch and said,
No more discussions Aura!
If I said you should go then you should !
My decision is final!"
This is the second time hearing my name from his mouth . The first time was when I was a kid and got expelled from the school because of fighting with the boys who bullied Eric. If he calls me by my name that means he is very angry with me and I should obey him. I had no strength to anger him so I just nodded in defeat. Eric was more than happy that I agreed to go with her.

" So where shall we go to complete our final project? " She asked in showing her sparkling  white teeth .

"Anywhere Eric!
It doesn't matter to me anymore." I said sipping the last sip  of my coffee

" OK, then I will decide!" she said and I just nodded it she started searching for more places and suddenly she screamed .

"What happened now ? I asked with least interest.

" I have decided!" she said happily.

"Hmm! " Was that all I managed to say.

" Don't you want to know where we are going?" She asked sitting beside me and facing me .

"You are anyway going to tell me if even I didn't ask to you .
Am I wrong ? " I said trying to smile.

" You are not Aura!
My best friend knows me too well to go wrong ." She said kissing my cheek. I chuckled a little at her and asked
"So where have you decided ?"

"Italy!" she screamed making my mum and dad come out of the room .

"That is a very good place to explore and study Erica.
I also have a friend there so there is nothing to worry about your stay . " my dad said sitting on the coach behind me .

"Who is that?
Do I know him ? " My mum asked my dad and he nodded .

Do you remember Martin from our college days? My dad asked  my mum to which she gave him a confusion look for a moment and at last said ,
Is he that lean, tall guy who came in the middle of the year? she asked that and he said,
" Yes, you are right. I am in contact with him from the past years he is very rich now and lives with his daughter in Italy . "

"That's great ! "
my mum said and my dad and Eric nodded in response as I just watched them in silence.

" So when are you going to leave?" my dad asked looking at his phone to book tickets .

" May be tomorrow morning ." Eric said and I didn't say anything because they will not listen to me anyways and if I'm going to leave this place then why not now. I thought to myself and my dad booked our plane tickets immediately .

My mum and little sister helped me in packing my things and I was all set to go. This is my last night in my room and I don't know when I will come back so I curled up in my bed and started watching the walls which is my routine at nights from the past few months. It is four in the morning and I got up from the bed headed towards my bathroom and took a hot shower  and wore my white floral knee length dress with my matching flats . I didn't mind to put makeup and walked downstairs with my packed bags only to see my whole family waiting for me .I am more shocked to see my little brother and little sister rubbing their sleepy eyes but as soon as saw me they stopped rubbing their eyes and smiled  which obviously I returned back . I mean who can say no to such cutiepies. I hugged get them both and  my little brother give me his candies along with a kiss on my cheek . Actually he never shares his candies with me and we also fight for those candies but now he is willfully giving his candies to me . My little sister handed me a card return , miss you and come back soon. I smiled and cried at the same time. I give a kiss on her cheek and hugged get them both again saying I miss you too so much . I hugged my mum and cried with her . I pulled back from my mum and stood in front of my dad with my eyes facing the ground .

''Princess leave all your sadness here and give your life a chance which is waiting to embrace you from the past few months .
Don't carry the broken things with you as they will really hurt you . " He said and pulled me into a hug .I cried into his chest soaking his shirt completely. I told everything to dad when he came into conscious as I know I can't keep it from my support system , my dad!

" Promise me princess, you will learn to live again ? " He asked pulling away and wiping my tears.

" I promise."  I said and I turned as the sound of eric's car horn making me dead.

"I will go now!" I said and my dad helped with me with my luggage . He kissed my forehead before I got into the car . I said bye to them and we headed it to the airport we got in the plane after an hour and I relaxed in myself at the business class comfortable seats .I promised my dad that I will try to forget him and try to live my life

But I know It's not possible to do
that!

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